near and far

Kang Chen hid in the bathroom, closed the door, and sat on the toilet seat in a daze.He froze for a while, then stood up again, turned on the shower, and the sound of splashing water and white mist immediately filled the entire bathroom.He sat back again, letting the water flow "squeaky".

He didn't know what he wanted to do.

When he was in high school, he was joking about chasing the trend of puppy love. He knew that he was exposed to the teacher by Shao Zhihe, and then Shao Zhihe helped him go to the teacher's training without telling his parents.Every time he has something he wants to eat and play but can't reach, he writes it down in his diary, he knows that Shao Zhihe is peeking at his diary, he does it on purpose, Shao Zhihe just dotes on him, but he does his best to dote on him.

The only time she didn't spoil him was on the bed.

In fact, he was not so drunk, there was no one who would not wake up, he just pretended to be crazy with the help of alcohol, and when he got on the bed, he fell asleep again, yelling "no" vaguely, but Shao Zhihe didn't listen to him.

After that time, the relationship between the two was as usual, but there seemed to be something different.Shao Zhihe pampered and cared about him as usual, but he would blush and his heart would beat faster.There are all kinds of differences, just like the rising water behind the dam, which is about to rise to the critical point, and then rush down thousands of miles.

At that time, Kang Chen had just graduated from university and was looking for a job everywhere. His family was in the suburbs and it was inconvenient to travel, so he lived in Shao Zhihe's apartment in the city center.Shao Zhihe has just started his business for a few years, and he is extremely busy every day, and it is early in the morning when he returns home.When he returned home, Kang Chen was still editing his resume in front of the computer, Shao Zhihe insisted on squeezing into the space between his back and the back of the chair and sat down, holding him in his arms, burying his face in his neck, and screaming A sigh of exhaustion.

Kang Chen earned a few times but didn't get out, so he had to let him go. The pages on the computer were still scrolling, but he didn't actually read anything.

"Do you still live here after finding a job?" Shao Zhihe asked him.

Kang Chen made an awkward "hmm".

Shao Zhihe rubbed against the base of his neck like an entangled cat, and asked hesitantly, "Have you always lived here?"

Kang Chen's face was flushed, fingers unconsciously pressed the protruding keys on the computer keyboard, and whispered: "Shut up."

Shao Zhihe boiled the frog in warm water for so many years, and he finally cooked the frog Kang Chen.

But on the weekend of that week, Kang Chen was recalled by an anxious call from his mother. His father suffered a sudden attack and entered the intensive care unit. The doctor even issued a critical illness notice, and his mother had already collapsed on a chair. It was Kang Chen who signed with shaking hands.After the dangerous period passed, he realized that he hadn't received a phone message from Shao Zhihe for several days.

Kang's mother was peeling apples for her sleeping husband by the hospital bed, chatting with Kang Chen while peeling.

"Xiaohe called me last night crying," Mother Kang said with a sigh, "She said the house was in trouble, and their old Shao locked Zhihe at home, preventing him from going out or going to work."

"Xiaohe" is the name of Shao Zhihe's mother.

When Kang Chen heard this, his heart skipped a beat, and he hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?"

"Said Yeshe went home and told them that he was not married anymore, and he didn't talk about girlfriends, and that he liked men."

Kang Chen's hand trembled, and the apple he was holding nearly dropped.

Mother Kang carefully cut the apples into small pieces and put them in a glass bowl, and said worriedly: "If it weren't for your father's side that made me unable to get away, I would have gone to her place long ago. Why did it happen suddenly? Let's not talk about it." What's wrong with my girlfriend?"

Kang Chen panicked, and said "hmm" a few times in his mouth, listening to his mother continue talking.

"Oh, I won't talk about it. You, you have to hurry up. Your dad just told me two days ago that if you can't hold on at that moment and close your eyes, you won't see your son marrying a wife."

Kang Chen sat on the chair, watching his mother carefully put his father's hand which was outside the quilt back into the quilt, his father still had a tube inserted into his body, and the instrument was beeping.

He went to Shao Zhihe's house once, but he didn't dare to go up, he just looked up from downstairs.Shao Zhihe and his family live on the third floor, which is not high. The window facing the outside is Shao Zhihe's room. The curtains are drawn tightly, and nothing can be seen at all.He lingered there for a long time that day, and his heart was in a mess.Shao Zhihe said before that they are working on a very important project. If it is completed and the investment is in place, the company will be established, but now he can't even leave the door.

Life is like this, so that you unknowingly come to a fork in the road where you need to make a choice.

Kang Xiaoqin's mother found him at that time.Kang Chen and her are also childhood sweethearts, they also lived in the same building when they were young, they were in the same class in high school, and they also followed the trend and had a puppy love together, and they didn't have much contact after high school.She cried and said that she was pregnant and dared not tell her family. Her boyfriend had no news and owed her tens of thousands. She ran away and wanted Kang Chen to accompany her to get rid of it.

Who knew that both of them were terrified in the hospital, and no one could bear the guilt of killing a life.Kang Chen was advising her on the phone, but Kang Chen's mother overheard her, thinking that the child belonged to both of them, she immediately found the woman's parents, and both of them chatted with them, earnestly persuading them to get married.

Now the two of them suddenly fell into a difficult situation. The child was not theirs, so they couldn’t say it. She cried and begged Kang Chen not to say it. If she found out, she would have to kill the child. She said, give birth to the child. They can divorce.

How can it be so simple that it can be settled.

But Kang Chen still agreed by mistake, and sent the invitation for the engagement banquet to Shao Zhihe's family, thinking that Shao Zhihe would give in to his family, but who knew that Shao Zhihe didn't show up at the engagement banquet, and he still couldn't get out.In the end, it really became a mess. Kang Chen's mother went to Shao's house to persuade her many times, but it was the parents who finally compromised.

After Kang Chen's mother returned home, she sighed.

"The child has lost a lot of weight, but he still refuses to let go. He insists that he likes boys, and there is no way to change it."

Kang Chen clenched his fists, his nails sank into the flesh of his palm.Not surprisingly, Shao Zhihe's project failed and he had to start all over again.The two met again at Kang Chen's wedding banquet.

"—Now, Sina can kiss the bride."

Kang Chen tilted his head and touched the bride's cheek. From the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Shao Zhihe standing in the crowd.He really lost a lot of weight, his facial features became sharp, his hands were in his pockets, and there was no expression on his face.

Not long after Kang Xiaoqin was born, Kang Chen's new wife, who had just become a mother, died in a car accident. Her "ex-boyfriend" who had disappeared for a long time was in the driver's seat, drunk driving.

Later, Kang's father's illness was capricious. In order to treat and recuperate, the two elders of the Kang family went to Australia.

Kang Chen took care of his daughter by himself, and he had to take care of the job that had just started. He was very busy. At this time, Shao Zhihe came again, and went to his house as a matter of course, and helped him take care of his daughter silently. He even hired a reliable nanny for him. Chen wanted to tell the whole story several times, but what should he say, he was a betrayer, he first betrayed the unspoken relationship between the two of them.He wanted to push Shao Zhihe far away, but Shao Zhihe was like a person without emotion, forgiving him, staying close to him, day after day, year after year, vaguely by his side .

Kang Chen took a shower indiscriminately, the hot water burned his skin red, he put his hands on the sink, and looked at himself in the mirror.

He wants to be worthy of his parents and not let them worry about him. He wants to be worthy of Shao Zhihe and not drag him down. He wants to be worthy of his daughter and love him even if he is not his own.But in the end, his parents still worry about him, Shao Zhihe is still alone, his daughter has no mother, and he feels sorry for no one.