Kudo

"You are like a stone, whether you see it or not, it makes no difference."

He grabbed the woman's hand, as if he was holding on to the last trace of connection with this world, but found that he couldn't feel any tenderness.

Suddenly the palm was empty.

Zhang Qiling moved slightly, and when he woke up, his eyes were blank for a moment, and then his pupils gradually focused, sober and indifferent.He looked at his hands.Of course, nothing.

The fracture at the wrist bone has recovered and does not affect normal activities. However, due to multiple injuries and lack of timely treatment, the flexibility of the subtle parts will be slightly worse than before, but Zhang Qiling doesn't care. After all, inside the bronze door, what? Such skills are useless.

The space he is in is similar to a cave, with water sources, live fish, and even edible fungi growing, and there is a glimmer of light from the ultimate. It can be said that it is very similar to any cave in the outside world.The only difference is that it is very quiet here, and there are always only two sources of sound: itself and the water.

Zhang Qiling is sleeping most of the time, there is no need to speak, and the sound of water has long been integrated with the surrounding environment - just this kind of extreme silence can easily drive people crazy, let alone the ten-year period, if you enter The person in question is not Zhang Qiling, maybe he is dead now.

Not because of disease, nor because of longevity, but because of loneliness.

Most of the pain in the world originates from loneliness.Loneliness can kill, but it cannot kill Zhang Qiling, just like a poisonous snake will never be harmed by its own venom, the name "Zhang Qiling" is loneliness itself.Probably because of this, in the long half of life, those pains that can cause other people to die countless times, to all "Zhang Qiling", they are just a breeze, coming head-on, passing through the body, leaving no trace .

So does he.

This was a very short moment of sobriety, Zhang Qiling sat on the ground peacefully, his eyes were peaceful, he didn't show any extra thoughts, just sat, as if he had maintained this posture for hundreds of years, without any emotion.

In Zhang Qiling's mind, he didn't have much concept of loneliness. At this moment, he only felt serene and serene. After all, in his whole life so far, it was very difficult for him to live such a long and stable life.

Zhang Qiling stood up quietly, and there were clear and powerful imprints under his feet. He remembered that the number had exceeded [-]——in this place, the time can only be judged by the sound of dripping water, and then recorded in this way.Although he was asleep most of the time, he would definitely remember to engrave the certificate of the day.

In this way, he can tell himself: You are still alive, not a phantom in a dream.

For more than 3000 nights, Zhang Qiling had countless dreams and woke up from countless dreams, and sometimes he couldn't even tell the difference between the dream and the dream.A dream is a dream, but it is also a reality. When he put together the broken memories of his past and stuffed them into the cerebral cortex, all kinds of weird and intermittent pictures will be produced, which are complicated, messy and out of order.Fortunately, dreams are not easy to remember. If you don't deliberately recall them, there will soon be only a few sporadic fragments left in your mind, and they will eventually disappear.

In fact, the gatekeeping period is far more than ten years. Ten years is just a reincarnation here. After the reincarnation, he may lose his memory or not, but no matter what, the gatekeeper is still him and only him.

He is the last Zhang Qiling, once he enters the door, he will never leave again.

Unless someone comes in.

Wu Xie is not a fool, ten years is enough for a person to understand what he should do.As an innocent person who has been involved in deceptions and mysteries halfway, instead of letting himself get deeper and deeper, it is better to take a step back, return to the original point, and be safe.What's more, the road leading to the Bronze Gate has been completely destroyed, and the magnificent Yunding Tiangong has become the biggest and insurmountable obstacle.

Zhang Qiling expected this, but he still left three clues for Fatty to guide Wu Xie who might take action.After all, after going through so many things, it is impossible for anyone to easily go back to the past with mysteries. Not being reconciled is inevitable. Wu Xie is very likely to take new actions. Sometimes, those clues may save lives.

Facts have proved that Zhang Qiling's approach is correct, "Ultimate" is still reacting, and everything is not over yet - someone has laid a spider web on the ground and in the outside world, so tight that even Ultimate begins to appear "tension".What kind of change is happening in the world?And who caused that change?

He thought about these two questions calmly, and a name came out of his mouth.

Wu Xie.

His voice was hoarse and hoarse because he hadn't spoken for a long time.He cleared his throat habitually and repeated.

Wu Xie.

This time it was much clearer, and the syllables of the two characters collided back and forth in the empty bronze wall, producing some dull echoes.

This is the person who carried him out of the Zhang family's ancient building and chased him up the mountain through the wind and snow.

Logically speaking, it is difficult for Zhang Qiling to connect this name with the mysterious plan on the ground.Wu Xie is a person who can see through at a glance, can't hide, doesn't know the world, is a bit meek, but has a drive and passion, in the final analysis, he is an ordinary person.No ordinary person can shake Ultimate, but there is a voice in the dark telling him that it is Wu Xie.

Everyone who lives in the world is bound by innumerable connections, and too much binding can easily lead to numbness.But Zhang Qiling is different, he has too little contact with this world, so once he is affected, it is very easy to find out.For example, now, the "connection" told him that the hunter on the ground and in the spider's web was Wu Xie.

"I thought about my relationship with this world, and it seems that the only thing I can find now is you." He remembered saying at that time.

In fact, Zhang Qiling didn't fully understand what he said.All his life, he has rarely dealt with the word "farewell" - because there is no need, he has no one to say goodbye to.Only that time, when he was about to enter the bronze door and disappear completely from the world, he suddenly found that he had a reason to "say goodbye".

He met the fat man first.When the fat man saw him, he wasn't very surprised, he just smiled and entertained him with good wine and meat.At the dinner table, when he explained his purpose of coming and left a message, the fat man's expression was obviously a little heavy, but he didn't say much after all.

"Brother, you have your own business. Fatty, I understand. I won't keep you, but if one day you are in trouble or need help, feel free to come to me as a friend. Don't be polite."

That's all.

Zhang Qiling nodded, turned and left.

friend.He has a vague concept of this word, but it's not that he doesn't understand it, it's just that it's unfamiliar.As "Zhang Qiling", it is enough for him to have someone who can be called a "friend" in his life.

However, Wu Xie was still there.

Wu Xie was much more difficult than Fatty, and chased after him closely, persuading and obstructing him, and even followed him all the way to Changbai Mountain.Many times, he wanted to ask: Wu Xie, why did you follow?But he didn't ask in the end, because the answer was obvious: Wu Xie was preventing him from entering the Bronze Gate.

That can't be successful, the Bronze Gate is the fate of "Zhang Qiling", no one can change it, he has to go - Wu Xie should understand all this, but he still came, why?

This is the "why" that Zhang Qiling wants to know.It's not "why you follow", but "why you follow since you know it's impossible".For a friend, there is actually no need to search for the root cause.he thinks.Like fat, that's a friend.

Zhang Qiling once dreamed that on Changbai Mountain three thousand nights ago, Wu Xie fell from a cliff more than 30 meters high and was submerged in the silent and cold white snow, while he moved forward indifferently, without even a second of pause.

This is a very rare dream without noisy memories, so he will remember it.He also remembered that at the end, he was standing in front of the bronze door, and heard a voice calmly saying in his ear: Wu Xie is dead.

The road of Zhang Qiling's life is full of twists and turns, thorny and thorny, full of unknowns and dangers, but there are still bold people trying to get involved, either because of bad intentions and being killed by him, or because of bad luck and death on the way.Therefore, for a long time, Zhang Qiling has almost become used to watching life flow away in front of his eyes alone, without showing a trace of emotion.

But when he woke up from that dream, he found that his forehead was cold, covered with fine cold sweat, and his bangs were already soaked. It was at that time that Zhang Qiling realized that his hair was too long. Simply and neatly cut off a large section.

The black hair fell to the ground, reminding him of the forbidden woman, and Wu Xie who was entangled by the forbidden woman but realized it later and didn't react for a long time.

Zhang Qiling kills and also saves people. He seldom stays behind when killing people, but he may not succeed in saving people.It is easy to break and difficult to heal, life is so fragile, so there are so many delusions of longevity involved.Zhang Qiling has an innate longevity, which also endows him with endless pain, but none of this means that he doesn't know how to cherish life.His indifference to the passing of life is just because there is no connection. Once that passing starts to involve his "connection", he is just an ordinary person who will suffer.

Just like in memory, during the three days of Medog's silence, no matter how tightly he held his hand, it couldn't prevent the precious thing in his palm from being cut off from life and death.At that time, he didn't know what sadness and pain were. When he understood, he was already curled up in the snow in pain, and warm liquid spontaneously gushed out of his eyes. At first he thought it was blood, but the lama said: "Blood has color, it's tears. You've learned to suffer."

God is strong because he has no worries.Zhang Qiling is not a god, he is just a person who lacks connection with the world and is too disabled.This kind of disabled wound is well hidden, but once touched, the pain will be no less than a broken bone all over the body.

To him, Wu Xie is the connection, the ultimate stab that triggers the wound.Many years ago, when his mother died, Zhang Qiling carved the sudden strange sadness into a black stone statue and left it in the snow in Medog—it is a pity that emotions cannot be completely transferred in this way after all, otherwise, he would not be here. At the moment of waking up, he gasped in embarrassment like a drowning person, in order to relieve the indescribable pain in his heart.

Entering the Bronze Gate, Zhang Qiling has completed his game and the final mission of the last "Zhang Qiling". From then on, the name is meaningless, but he still exists strangely. He is inside the gate and cannot understand the specifics of the outside world. Dynamics can only be determined by the feeling in the heart to determine the intermittent connection.But even if one day, that connection is really broken, there is nothing he can do except continue to fall asleep here, wake up, and record his life span day by day.

Zhang Qiling has only been doing two things in his life, one is to fulfill his mission as a member of the Zhang family, and the other is to find his connection with the world.He always thought that the former was a part of the latter, but now he suddenly realized that the two are actually a paradox: the road brought by fate forced him to go to the end, he was not allowed to reincarnate, and he was not qualified to act on his own, and if he couldn’t do it for "" Contact" desperately, he has no reason to live.

Infinite loop. The name "Zhang Qiling" means the cruelest endless loop in the world.

From the moment he entered the bronze gate, Zhang Qiling only existed as a gatekeeper.So, in the end, there is such a person who has been a competent doorman all his life, and he is just a doorman, not himself.

In the eyes of Taoists, dumb Zhang is full of mysteries, elusive, and unfathomable. In fact, he is just a thick fog that has already lost his shape. He can be everywhere, covering others, and he can never see himself clearly.

According to the so-called way of heaven, Zhang Qiling will die of old age in the ultimate, and the time before his death is still long enough for him to slowly think about the distant future of this world.But now, the cobwebs entwined on the ground and the tremors in the ground are all moving in a direction that even he can't predict.

Zhang Qiling's rare stability was interrupted halfway, but he didn't feel dissatisfied, on the contrary, he actually had a subtle expectation.His destiny was originally arranged thousands of years ago, and he was destined to go in that direction since he was born, but now the road is suddenly broken, and everything exceeds the established laws and rules.This changing, treacherous, and unreasonable situation should indeed produce something new.

For example, let "Zhang Qiling" become a real and pure name.

Abandoning the meaning behind those three words is a taboo of the Zhang family, and it is a betrayal of countless generations of ancestors.Now, in front of the crumbling rules, the old gate began to break, and the glimmer of light from another world was revealed in the gap. This glimmer reminded him that before the "spiritual awakener", he was first a person.

He stood for a long time.

These long, long nights, this is deep, deep underground.

The long day is coming to an end.Three thousand nights, wait for dawn.

====16.1.24-FreeTalk====

After a year (...) the e-book is finally finished, and the final proofreading version is not used (because the final proofreading is carried out on the already typeset pdf), so there may be some small mistakes, you can report to me oh.

By the way, I would like to make a complaint: I am really ashamed to read my first article now, and the embarrassment value is max... I was naive and naive back then...

Looking back, I will find that there are a lot of regrets in "The Suffering of the Past", and it can't be called a very good work. It surprises me that so many people like it, and it also touches me. Thank you for your support all the time. ,I will continue to do my best!Do not climb the wall!Produce well!