five years later

The meaning of life is sometimes hard to prove.At least for An Yuan, he thinks he is a pessimist.Even if Liu Youxia already exists in his life, he would occasionally have some untimely thoughts.

For example, now, he was struggling to wake up from the dream in panic.

Most of the dreams will disappear the moment An Yuan wakes up, or they will be very hazy.But this one didn't, he just looked at the person beside him with the light outside the window, and tears welled up from the end of his eyes.

Not for nothing, all emotions have traces to follow.

An Yuan in the dream was still a child, but he stood aside silently watching his growth with the eyes of an adult.

Perhaps because of his father's reticence, An Yuan has been a good boy since he was a child.They don't like to be noisy, and they don't like to live in groups.Of course, people like him will always be liked by the teachers, but behind the excitement will always be an unspeakable loneliness.

Don't be too greedy when blowing the balloon, otherwise it will explode if you exceed the limit.

An Yuan watched the child walk home from school with his schoolbag on his back, repeating this route every day for more than ten years.

I always feel that some things are forgotten by myself, but fortunately I can still dream.The dream told him that those forgotten things actually happened and have always been there.

His movement did not wake Liu Youxia up.The other party must be really tired, snoring slightly.He put his arms around him and buried his head on his shoulder.

An Yuan wiped away his tears and kept his eyes open until dawn.

The next day was 29. Thinking that the New Year was still to come, the two of them went out early in the morning to buy new year's goods.

An Yuan was pushing the shopping cart, feeling a little absent-minded.Last night's dream told him something that had been forgotten, but there was something missing in the process that he never remembered.

"Xiaoyuan, what do you want to eat?" Liu Youxia looked at the fish swimming in front of him, not knowing which one to catch, but the people beside him remained silent.

"Xiao Yuan?" He pulled An Yuan, and the other party withdrew from his own world, and followed his questioning eyes with a smile.

After a while, Liu Youxia looked at him and sighed.He held An Yuan's cheeks, and said softly, "Stop laughing like that. If you're not happy staying here, we'll just go back. Why do you treat yourself like this?"

"If it's because of me that I'm forcing myself, it's really unnecessary. I understand that some things can't be reconciled in a lifetime, and I won't stand on the moral high ground to accuse you because of this."

An Yuan nodded, hesitant to speak.But in the end he also sighed and turned to look at the fish.

"I see. But there are some things I haven't figured out yet, and I haven't reached the point where the sword is on the verge of breaking out. Let's wait."

Some fish didn't know what to think, but looked at them from the glass, with round eyes.An Yuan was amused, pointed at it and said, "Just this one, I can tell that I was fascinated by your beauty at first glance. It really is a peony flower that died, and being a ghost is also romantic."

Liu Youxia knocked on his head while lifting the net bag placed aside to fish.However, his technique was not very good, as soon as the net hit the water, the school of fish was alarmed, and the fish that was still attached to the glass to watch them disappeared all of a sudden.

An Yuan said "Hey" twice, directing Liu Youxia to walk around in the net bag.The problem is that his guidance is not very professional. After working for a long time, he caught a fish, but it is impossible to know whether it is the one just now.

The two took great pains to pack the fish, and smiled at each other, the exhausted atmosphere disappeared in an instant.

In addition to food, there are some other New Year's goods that need to be prepared.But two big men mixed in a bunch of aunts, sisters and sisters, it's really a beautiful scenery.

Liu Youxia had a sweet mouth, and because she had never bought these things before, she opened her mouth like honey and asked the aunts beside her for advice.

He was born so well that people were glad to see him.The aunts all love this model, and they don’t hide their secrets. Decades of life wisdom have been taught to him unreservedly.An Yuan, who was squeezed out of the crowd, spent more than ten seconds at a loss as he pushed the shopping cart, and smiled in a blink of an eye.

The cinnabar mole becomes mosquito blood when it is stained with smoke and fire. Although it is no longer immortal, it has roots since then, and it can make people hold it in their arms and feel distressed.

Two hours later, five bags full of New Year's goods were carried out of the supermarket.Even though the journey was not far, the two of them seemed to have lost their skin when they arrived home, and they couldn't even breathe smoothly.

Father An is still in the bedroom, but An Yuan doesn't want to go in anymore.If it wasn't for Liu Youxia and those things that he hasn't remembered yet, he would have left long ago.

It was never this house that suffocated Anyuan.

After resting for a while, Liu Youxia started to put the big and small bags in the refrigerator.It's not that he is not tired when doing these things, but when he thinks that An Yuan is staying here, his heart is already light.

After lunch, Liu Youxia cleaned up the kitchen and begged An Yuan to take him out to see the world.The other party felt helpless, and couldn't stand the man acting like a rascal.

"There's nothing to see, and it's so cold that your face will be blown apart." An Yuan was dragged back to the bedroom to change clothes, wrinkling his nose in reluctance.

After listening to his words, Liu Youxia thought about it for a while, then went to search for things in the suitcase.After a while, he took out a bottle of face cream and hand cream, and trotted towards An Yuan.

"Knowing that the north is dry, I prepared a copy. I didn't expect it to be useful." He unscrewed the lid, dug a lump in his hand, rubbed it open, and carefully wiped An Yuan's face.

"Don't tell me I haven't noticed yet. My lips are peeling. Don't tear them off. We'll go out and buy lip balm later."

Hearing this, An Yuan stretched out the tip of his tongue and licked his peeling lips.In fact, if the other party hadn't reminded him, he really wouldn't have noticed.It's just that I noticed it now, and my heart was a little ready to move.

Liu Youxia knew that he had this stinky habit, so he didn't speak, and wiped his hands after wiping his face.Just kissed it, and licked An Yuan's lips carefully.

The love and lust flowing between the two of them changed at some point.Liu Youxia hugged An Yuan's waist, breathing suddenly became heavier.

They backed away step by step until they caught on the edge of the bed and fell into the quilt.

An Yuan looked at Liu Youxia who was being suppressed by him, his eyes were full of nostalgia.He was also emotional, so he bit the other person from the forehead to the chin in this posture.

In the end, he pressed Liu Youxia's lips again, and the gentle kiss made the originally turbulent sex tinged with some rationality, without breaking through the embankment of self-control.

I don't know how long it took before the two of them recovered their breathing together.An Yuan lay on his side next to Liu Youxia, a little weak, with one hand on Liu Youxia's chest.

Liu Youxia is also very hypocritical, holding An Yuan's hand and touching his heart.

"Boom boom boom --" the heartbeat was so powerful, but it was obvious that it was beating a little fast.

"Xiao Yuan, thank you for still loving me." Liu Youxia tilted her head, and kissed the hands they held together under An Yuan's gaze.

An Yuan showed a warm smile, and there was a little light in his eyes.He buried that sentence in his heart and didn't respond, but his heart, which was beating as fast as the other person's, miraculously returned to normal at this time.

After changing their clothes, the two walked out the door hand in hand.

This is the city An Yuan grew up in, he didn't think it was anything special.But in Liu Youxia's eyes, everything was novel, especially when he went to the junior high school where Anyuan was studying.

"I went to junior high school here, and it's not too far from home." An Yuan looked at the locked school gate, and recalled his schooling experience to Liu Youxia.

"Actually, my elementary school, junior high school and high school are not far from home. Basically, my home is the center and radiates around, but the direction is a bit different."

Liu Youxia dragged people around the school, but did not find a damaged place that could be turned in.

"What are you doing? This place is very dirty." An Yuan was dragged into the mud not long ago, feeling a little depressed.

"I said, there is no place in your school that you can dig into?" Liu Youxia looked down and saw the mud on Anyuan's shoes, then stopped, took out a tissue from his pocket and squatted down to wipe it off.

An Yuan was a little panicked, his center of gravity was unstable while standing on one foot, and he also bent over and supported Liu Youxia's back with one hand.

"You want to go in?" He asked rather curiously.

Liu Youxia cleaned her shoes, got up and looked at the way she had come, then stood in front of An Yuan and bent her legs. "Come up, I'll carry you out."

An Yuan slapped him on the back, smiled and asked softly, "What are you doing?"

Liu Youxia turned around and blinked at him, "If I don't do anything, I want to memorize you. Mr. An, would you like to?"

An Yuan raised his eyebrows and rushed forward.

Liu Youxia was almost knocked down by his sudden pounce, walked a few unsteady steps, and finally stabilized.

"Are you moving me?" An Yuan grabbed Liu Youxia's hair, and took off a small hair sticking to it.

Liu Youxia patted his butt with one hand, and said with a smile, "What do you think?"

An Yuan put his arms around his neck and started laughing.

"Hey, which school of yours can climb over the wall." Liu Youxia asked after he finished laughing.

An Yuan frowned, only then did he realize Liu Youxia's original intention of bringing him here.

"What are you doing over the wall?"

"I just want to see where you lived." Liu Youxia paused, "Xiao Yuan, what did you look like in junior high school?"

His tone sounded very curious, and An Yuan, who was on his back, followed his meaning and recalled.

"What does it look like?" An Yuan's eyes were deep, and he pursed his lips and fell into a dream in the early morning.

"I don't talk much, and I don't cause trouble. My teachers and classmates like me very much."

Liu Youxia laughed, "I think so too. Mr. An, you are really likable."

An Yuan hugged his neck tightly and didn't speak, looking at the man sitting in front of him smoking in the waste collection station, his eyes suddenly turned red.