five years later

This kind of past is not glorious, Liu Youxia kept silent because he didn't want to admit that he was a substitute for others.

"Actually, Liang Zi was not married here. Long before the two of them got married, this matter has been irreversible. My mother's family is still rich, but she just doesn't like the right family. A rich lady wants to marry a poor scholar. This is really a very vulgar script."

Liu Youxia turned sideways slightly, asked An Yuan to lie on the side of the sofa, and lay on the other's shoulder with his butt pouted.

"It's a pity that a poor scholar values ​​love and righteousness but not money. He didn't like my mother, but he had to kneel down under the money. After graduating from university, he married her and stayed in school to work as a postman under the mediation of my grandfather. Got a teacher."

An Yuan listened to him quietly.In fact, this story is not new, he can guess the follow-up development.It's just that there are bad people's hearts at any time.

"We are really a good match." Liu Youxia scratched Anyuan's nose, his expression was hidden in the shadows, and he couldn't see clearly. "Different from your father, he is really indifferent. We all look like enemies."

"When I was 12 years old, my grandfather took me to his house for the summer vacation and told me some things about the past."

"Liu Youxia." An Yuan said suddenly.His palm was wet, and there was a touch of moss when he held the other's hand.

"Why are you more nervous than me." Liu Youxia joked with a smile, and then said: "My mother has always wanted a child, and after five years of marriage, she finally conceived one. Grandpa didn't say how he conceived, but I think, always use With some means, otherwise it wouldn’t be what it is now.”

"The first child was born in Xia Tian, ​​but he died not long after. After that, it was all my nightmare." Speaking of this, Liu Youxia finally restrained his smile.He became highly nervous, like a balloon that was only stretched to its limit, and would explode at the slightest touch.

"She wasn't crazy at that time, but she couldn't accept the fact. It wasn't until my birth that she really went crazy." He paused at this point, and there seemed to be a long sigh in his voice. "Maybe it's because I don't trust that man anymore. She took care of my name and my life."

"It's okay to be ignorant when I was young, but when I have memories, everything she does will only make me hate him more. No, I can't say that," Liu Youxia sneered, "After all, both of them are disgusting."

"At that time, what I was most afraid of was that she would put me to sleep at night. He talked about fairy tales, and at the end he always said, 'If only your brother was still alive'. In fact, this is nothing, after all, it is a life. If If I'm still alive, maybe my life will be much easier."

After Liu Youxia finished speaking, she suddenly kissed An Yuan's cheek, which shocked people.

"Let me talk about the next thing quickly. Time has passed so fast that I can't remember many things."

An Yuan nodded, but hesitated to speak.

"After going to school, she started to get worse. I won't lie to you, from elementary school to junior high school, I don't have a single friend. Those two schools are close to home, and there is no boarding school, so she takes me to school every morning and returns with me at noon. home, and then sent me to school in the afternoon. My grandfather took me to him during the summer vacation after the high school entrance examination, and I lived in the school for three years in the end.

"It's really amazing that I survived." Liu Youxia said while hugging An Yuan, putting on a pitiful expression. "So you have to love me well."

An Yuan half propped himself up to look at him, those beautiful eyes were full of sadness at this moment.He kissed her lightly, all the way from nose to lips.

"They're too bad." After a while, An Yuan spit out such a childlike accusation.

"Yeah, they are all too bad, and I don't know how to cherish a good person like me." Liu Youxia tilted his head and twisted An Yuan's chin with his fingers.

"I always thought that his indifference was aimed at everyone, until I went home early for the sports meeting in the first year of high school, only to find that he just simply hated us.

"My mother was already in a bad mood at that time, and would do things that hurt herself and others. However, I never imagined that he would tie her up in the bedroom, while I was in the study with the students."

An Yuan's jaw hurt a little from being pinched, but he didn't say anything.He hugged Liu Youxia all the time, wishing he could embed himself into the other's flesh and blood.

"It's disgusting. I still remember how disgusting they were. The woman's voice was disgusting. You know what?" Liu Youxia let go of his fingers to straighten An Yuan, looked into his eyes and said, "He put that The woman was pressed on the desk, but she didn't take off a piece of clothes. I knew he saw me, and he was even smiling when he turned his eyes."

This is the most secret pain in Liu Youxia's heart.After speaking, he lay down on Anyuan's shoulder, his clothes were wet with tears, and the warm touch turned into a death-like silence.

An Yuan patted him on the back, sighed and asked, "Does your leaving have something to do with grandpa?"

Liu Youxia's trembling body suddenly stopped moving. He raised his head and stared straight at the ceiling. "He was the only normal person in our family. Before he left, he left a will and gave everything to me."

"He was afraid that I wouldn't be able to hold on, and in fact I didn't hold on. At that time, I fled abroad in embarrassment, but my heart was empty, like a hole was broken, and the wind blew through it every day."

An Yuan stopped talking and had nothing to say.It is not easy for everyone to live, but fortunately they can still meet each other.

"I have been thinking about you every day for five years abroad, but I dare not come back. This city feels depressing and suffocating. The two of them are my nightmare every night."

Liu Youxia feels inferior to her family.He hated that he grew up in such an environment, and if he could, he didn't want to tell anyone.I didn't have confidence in Anyuan before, but later I didn't have confidence in myself, I was afraid that I couldn't bear it and ran away.He has been deceiving himself for so long, and he can only be thankful that the other party is always there.

"I love you, An Yuan, I love you very much." He stroked the broken hair on An Yuan's forehead, looking a little lonely. "Sometimes it's tempting to lock you up at home and not go anywhere, but I know it's not normal. You have your friends, your job, your family, and you're never mine alone."

"It's because you hid it too deeply." An Yuan smiled, and suddenly turned over and sat on Liu Youxia's body.He said while unbuttoning: "I have always loved you, but I didn't know you loved me so much."

"I will change slowly and try not to pry into your privacy. However, you can try to tell me if there is anything in the future." An Yuan bent down and kissed him, "Mr. Liu, I love you too."

The two rolled from the living room to the bedroom, kissing closely all the time.Gentle and affectionate, like two children eating their beloved candy.

I only did it once at night, after washing it, I lay down in the quilt and got tangled up.

Liu Youxia lay on An Yuan's body, sniffed and kissed him, making him laugh non-stop.

"What are you doing, why are you acting like a puppy."

Liu Youxia's hair was wet in the shower, and An Yuan pushed it back, revealing a smooth and full forehead.He took An Yuan's words as a deaf ear, and continued his "salty and wet" career.

"Stop making trouble, you have to go to work tomorrow." An Yuan stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around him, and threw him down sideways. "Sleep well, or you'll sleep on the sofa."

Liu Youxia felt aggrieved, he looked over helplessly, and said, "I want to kiss you, but I can't sleep."

An Yuan's originally tense face also loosened, he bit Liu Youxia's Adam's apple, and said with a smile: "How can there be such a rascal like you in the world."

"Then do you like rascals?" Liu Youxia's voice gradually became hoarse, and her breathing was full of emotions.

An Yuan didn't say anything, stretched out his hand to cover his eyes, and said softly, "I'll tell you when you fall asleep."

Liu Youxia laughed, and gave a light "um" as a promise.So he closed his hands, stopped making noise, and obediently closed his eyes to sleep.

There is a voice that is far away, near and far away, it is the poem they have read together.

"Remember when I was a teenager

Sincerely everyone

say one sentence

Early morning train station

dark long street

The shop selling soy milk is steaming

The day before is getting slower

Cars, horses, and mail are slow

Only love one person in a lifetime

The locks used to be nice too

Beautiful key

You will understand when you lock it.”