five years later

When Liu Youxia came over, An Yuan and Lu Siqi had almost finished eating, they were picking nonsense while picking the food on the plate.

"Are you full? I always feel like I'm not full." Lu Siqi picked up a piece of shrimp, forgetting his family's rule of not talking when eating or sleeping.

An Yuan knew that he was growing his body and had eaten a little more.

"Then why don't you order a few more dishes, otherwise it will be too unfair for Sister Liu to scold me for not giving you any food."

Lu Siqi curled his lips, slapped the table with his big hand, and said proudly: "I want to drink, go and order me a bottle of wine."

An Yuan didn't dare to decide this matter.Far away, Sister Liu knows if she will cut him, and closer, Lu Siqi is not yet eighteen, he can't do this kind of thing of instigating minors to drink.

"Just drink it. I'm afraid I'll have sex after drinking and do something bad for you."

Lu Siqi stared at him with a look of surprise: "I'm a man, how can you mess with me, besides, it's still a question whether you can beat me!"

"No," he seemed to remember something again. "Are you gay?"

An Yuan supported his head and laughed at him, "Why do you say that?"

"You're not gay, why are you afraid that you'll do something bad to me when you're drunk?" The more Lu Siqi thought about it, the more he felt this way, and he hesitated when he looked at An Yuan.

An Yuan saw that the child was a little funny, so he teased him, and deliberately leaned over and said in a low voice, "Then are you afraid?"

Lu Siqi swallowed nervously, and insisted: "Why are you so close, isn't it normal for such an excellent person like me to be liked by many people, there is nothing to be afraid of!"

An Yuan was defeated by his narcissism, and sat up straight with a smile.

"You are very confident in yourself. Don't you think such things are disgusting?"

"It's okay," Lu Siqi put down his chopsticks, and his expression became serious. "A boy confessed to me before, but I refused."

"You guys started dating at such a young age?!" An Yuan felt that he was really old.

Lu Siqi gave him a rather disgusted look, and said slowly: "If you like it, you like it. Don't you have to divide the time and place? I find that you adults are particularly annoying because you always feel that children's feelings are just playing tricks. Home, don’t think about it, have you never been young?”

An Yuan was a little embarrassed by what he said, so he explained. "Actually, that's not the case. I'm just surprised because at your age, I was only thinking about studying and taking the college entrance examination, not about dating. Maybe the times are getting better and better, and you are all much freer."

Listening to his words, Lu Siqi remained expressionless for a while, and finally sighed pretentiously, and said, "Do you think someone as good as me can develop morally, intellectually, physically, aesthetically and in an all-round way?"

"Also, maybe the times are getting better and better, but we are not free at all. Do you know how crazy parents are now in order not to let their children lose at the starting line?"

Of course An Yuan didn't know.It has been so long since he was a child, and without children, how would he know what his parents think now.

So he shook his head honestly.

"I--"

Lu Siqi's voice was interrupted by the sound of the door opening, both of them looked over tacitly, and it was Liu Youxia in suit and leather shoes who came in.

"Who are you?" Lu Siqi frowned, then glanced at An Yuan.

"I'm An Yuan's boyfriend," Liu Youxia also frowned at him, undressing as he walked, as if entering his own home. "and who are you?"

Lu Siqi gossiped "Oh", then looked at An Yuan winking and said: "You are really gay!"

An Yuan gouged out Liu Youxia's eyes, and when he was about to defend himself, Lu Siqi slapped him on the shoulder. The other party's expression of "I haven't seen you before, so don't lie" made An Yuan completely speechless.

"Little friend, how old are you this year?" Liu Youxia was fidgeting while talking, sat down next to An Yuan and didn't finish, and insisted on wrapping his arms around his waist before giving up.

"You are only a child, and your whole family are all children!" Lu Siqi looked at An Yuan with a look of indignation. "How did you find such a boyfriend? Did you not bring your eyes or brains when you went out? If you really lack love, tell the truth, I can reluctantly be your boyfriend."

An Yuan patted Liu Youxia's hand off his waist with one hand, turned around and put the chopsticks and dishes to Lu Siqi's mouth with a smile on his face. "Okay, come on, try the dishes I made for you."

Liu Youxia on this side turned pale, while Lu Siqi on the other side looked at the chopsticks of food in front of him in a dilemma, whether to eat or not, so he kept blinking in silence.

"Xiao Yuan," Liu Youxia held An Yuan's outstretched hand, turned around and brought it to her mouth. "Your boyfriend is here, why are you sending it to his mouth." After finishing speaking, he quickly ate the chicken breast without waiting for An Yuan's reaction.

An Yuan looked at him and didn't speak, but the expression on his face was not very good-looking.Immediately, he put the chopsticks on the table and asked Lu Siqi, "Where did you just talk? Keep talking."

Lu Siqi raised his chin at Liu Youxia, and replied with a proud face: "It's nothing, it's just that since I went to kindergarten when I was three years old, I haven't slept for more than eight hours."

The words were so lightly spoken, but the observers were taken aback.

"How come?! You are still so young, why don't you spend your time sleeping!"

Lu Siqi sneered, "Why? That's a good question. I don't know what to do with my time. Besides classes, I also want to learn various musical instruments, languages, and customs from all over the world. Exams, even winter and summer vacations, I have to eat enough to go out and travel.”

"Then do you like it?"

Lu Siqi glanced at him, also pretending to be arrogant, but different from before. "What do you think?" He replied, throwing the answer to An Yuan.

If you like it, how can you complain to a stranger.

An Yuan thought they were still different.When he was young, he would argue with his father because of the things he liked. Even now, he has never been afraid of those things that he is afraid of because of the unknown.

No, he suddenly thought in his heart, there was one thing that frightened him.

But An Yuan didn't know how to comfort the child, so he had to laugh a few times and said, "Then you are really an excellent person."

Lu Siqi hummed lightly, but did not respond.Instead, it was Liu Youxia who was sitting beside him who spoke.

"It's better to have than nothing. You are now at the top of the power of choice. As long as you want, these things that are imposed on you can be rejected. When you see the struggle of those who have never had it, You won’t be eating [-] per capita food here and posting your inappropriate complaints.”

What he said was actually quite inappropriate, Lu Siqi dropped his chopsticks after hearing it.

An Yuan thought he would be angry, but unexpectedly, the other party just picked up the napkin and wiped his mouth, then asked with a smile, "Zi Feiyu, how do you know the joy of fish?"

Liu Youxia froze for a moment, then smiled bitterly, as if acquiescing to his statement. "That's right, Zifeiyu doesn't know the joy of fish, I'm talking too much."

The atmosphere afterwards was a bit awkward, until Sister Liu came to pick him up, An Yuan finally looked at the person beside him who had been depressed since that sentence.

"Are you full? Go back when you're full. You have to go to work tomorrow."

An Yuan turned to look at him, but was hugged by the other party.

"Xiao Yuan, I found that I'm not as smart as that kid."

"Aren't you talking nonsense, people know many kinds of musical instruments and languages, what do you know? It's hard to communicate between Chinese and English. Hurry up, or I'm going to be angry."

Liu Youxia ignored his last words, but still hugged him tightly and did not let go.

"Not this. I know you don't want to hear my explanation, but I still want to say it. It was not intentional to leave without saying goodbye five years ago. On the one hand, I wanted more things. In fact, I can afford you now It doesn't matter if you can draw at home all day long. On the other hand," he suddenly buried his head in Anyuan's shoulder, and sprayed his warm breath on the other's skin, which made Anyuan itchy. But he didn't push him away.

"I want to be free." He said: "I'm tired of their hypocrisy, I want to leave this place. I didn't tell you because I didn't know where the boundary of freedom was at that time. This city is so big, I But it was difficult to even breathe. During that time, I was pestering you all day, but I couldn't sleep late at night."

"So you left because you realized that I couldn't help you." An Yuan said quietly.

"I found out that you couldn't help me, which made me even more painful. After going abroad, I gradually calmed down. No one I knew around me made me feel at ease.

Time passed very slowly without you, so I had to redouble my efforts to study, and it didn't take long to get a job in a company.I was very busy during that time, so busy that I didn't have time to think about you, and I didn't have time to think about the two of them.Three years later, I began to want to come back, but I don't know if you have fallen in love with someone else. "

"What if I fell in love with someone else?" As soon as the words finished, An Yuan felt that he had slipped his words, and Liu Youxia's light smile came to his ears, but it didn't break him.

"Even if you fall in love with someone else, I will chase you again. You can only belong to me. Xiaoyuan, love me well, okay?"

An Yuan didn't speak, maybe he had forgiven Liu Youxia the moment he came back.After a while, he put his hand on the other's shoulder and gently pushed him away.

Liu Youxia Hong's eyes were quite different from his suit and leather shoes, and he could barely be called cute and pitiful.

An Yuan cupped his face with both hands, and leaned over to rub his nose.

"There will be no next time, do you know?" His voice was very gentle, like ripples caused by water droplets falling into a lake.

Liu Youxia kissed the corner of An Yuan's mouth, and nodded like a puppy.

"We live our lives and don't think about anything else."