Yu Huan

Nie Mingjue gently placed Jin Guangyao on the outer couch, bowed his head in silence for a while, carefully pinched his wrist and slowly channeled his spiritual power.

The bad is not thorough, and the good is not pure.The heart is vicious but kindness remains, and the smile is kind but there is a needle hidden in the cotton.It is not enough to be hated, nor is it possible to love.

Why do people like this still like this?

Nie MingJue couldn't think of an answer, so he simply let go of his wrist and knelt down in front of the couch with one knee touching the ground, moved his hand to his waist and poured spiritual power directly from his dantian.The rich but elegant fragrance of orchid mixed with the fragrance of cypress slowly overflowed from Jin Guangyao's body, silently and gently responding to him through the distant time of love. [Note]

"It's been so long since I've smelled my own incense, I almost forgot it's such a smell." Jin Guangyao slowly opened his eyes and blinked a few times. After adapting to the light, he made sure that there was no one else in the room and heaved a sigh of relief. .He was in a panic today and forgot to take the suppressive medicine, coupled with the depletion of his spiritual power, he couldn't suppress it, so the smell leaked out, but fortunately he was not found.

Nie MingJue felt uncomfortable, stood up without saying a word and helped him up to watch him straighten his clothes, and couldn't help but blurted out, "Follow me."

Jin Guangyao suddenly raised his head to look at him in a daze. The surprise on his face was replaced by mockery for a brief moment. He smiled softly and said, "Come with you? Then what? Get kicked again in another place." ?”

"I was wrong last time, I was impulsive, but when you said that, I..."

"What should I say? Am I wrong? You only like that obedient and obedient Meng Yao. As for 'Jin Guangyao', he is just someone who looks exactly like him. You have never really understood me at all. What are you talking about?" I like it!" Jin Guangyao became emotional as he spoke, and was disturbed by the smell of himself and Nie Mingjue and lost his usual calmness.

"And what did you say? During those days in Hejian, I don't believe you were faking it." Nie Mingjue also became angry and asked sharply.

"So what if you don't? So what if you like it? Didn't you immediately draw your sword and turn on me after seeing me kill someone? What's your attitude towards me because of this mistake all these years? You know that I have been angry at both ends. How hard is it?"

"I just want you to admit your mistakes and get you back on track. Is it really that difficult for you to admit your mistakes? Everything you do, whether voluntary or forced, is wrong. Kill It’s wrong to be wrong, and you can change it only if you admit it, so you won’t continue to make mistakes. But you just make excuses for yourself to blame this blame, that’s why you don’t want to reflect on yourself, I just want you well!”

"For my own good? For my own good, you shouldn't embarrass me repeatedly! I don't know if it's wrong, I just know that I shouldn't be stepped on and insulted at will. I have my talents and ambitions, and I don't want to be trapped there. So no matter what you have to climb up, it doesn't matter how much you pay. Nie Mingjue, once this road starts, there is no turning back. You despise my means and my character, how do you know that I only want to make achievements? To impress you."

Hearing his words, Nie Mingjue turned red with anger, and put his hand on the saber subconsciously.

Seeing him sneer, Jin Guangyao said, "I've been entangled with you for so many years, and today I'll end it together."

Hen Sheng swung his sleeves and stabbed at Nie Mingjue but was dodged, Jin Guangyao quickly backed away a little distance, with the sword flower in his hand cooperating with his footwork to bully him.Compared with Nie Mingjue, he is smaller in stature, so he is suitable for such light and agile swordsmanship. Hensheng only made surprise attacks from tricky angles, which put Nie Mingjue at a disadvantage for a while.It's just that his physical and spiritual strength has not yet recovered, and he feels powerless after fighting for a while.

Ba Xia was engulfed in spiritual power and made a buzzing sound, he could have stopped Jin Guangyao with a single blow, but he only made defensive movements, as if he was trying to induce him to exhaust his spiritual power.Jin Guangyao gritted his teeth, and with his free hand, he tore open the clothes in his abdomen and used his spiritual power to break through the skin and pull out something from the flesh.Seeing his movement, Nie Mingjue couldn't help being stunned for a moment, and the moment he was stunned, the strings of the piano swung out and wrapped around his wrist, which made his movement of raising the knife slow down.Hensheng took the opportunity to leave some holes in his body.

Nie Mingjue became very angry, and under the influence of the sword spirit, he felt his blood surge up. He plucked hard on the strings, regardless of the pain of the thing cutting into the flesh, and regained the control in his hands.Ba Xia swung down but barely stopped in mid-air, and was suddenly thrown out the door by Nie MingJue.The hate that was stabbing at the heart turned abruptly, and only made a long cut on the arm, and the blood splashed on the faces of the two of them.

Jin GuangYao sat down on the ground and stared at him closely, gasping for breath, "Why?"

Nie MingJue didn't answer, but instead asked, "Why are you?"

"Why do you like me so much?"

"Do you want me to watch you make mistakes again and again? Then realize that I'm nothing to you and can't help you?"

One by one, he was no longer the pure and kind boy in his memory, and even that boy was just an illusion, the person in front of him was a complete stranger.But in the end, he still likes it, and even gets angrier because of this liking, but after all, he can't stop.

Obviously like each other, but no one is willing to quit.

Jin Guangyao suddenly laughed.The smiling mask, which had always been raised at the corners of the mouth, was cracked this time, and large cracks climbed up the corners of the mouth, making a series of heart-piercing laughter, which sounded more like a roar.He was out of breath laughing, tears rolled down his face, his shoulders were still trembling after the laughter stopped,

"Forget it, forget it, I'll tell you everything. It's not important." He sighed lightly, his voice soft and sad, "You probably don't know yet. I just arrived in Langya from Hejian and found that there is a sign of shooting the sun. pregnant."

He looked up at the shocked Nie MingJue, smiled slightly, and continued, "At that time, I was really happy, and I only wanted to make some achievements to impress you when you go, and then tell you, I have a child with you, and I am actually worthy of you. But, but...but then they thought I smelled bad, and after a few punches and kicks, the child was gone. It was more than a month old, just a blur Blood clots, even gender can not be seen."

"So why don't you say I can't kill them? Their life is life, but my child's life is not life? Nie Mingjue, you have never experienced the pain of being separated from flesh and blood while lying in icy water. You don't even know this child. I know it happened, and you didn't even give me a chance to explain it, so why should I tell you?"

He was supposed to have a child too, but he died, never even saw it, and probably never had another.

The person he loves regards him as evil and hates him to the bone, he can't even hold back any remaining warmth from the love he once had, the bone-chilling chill lurking in his body for many days and nights makes him restless and tormented.He can no longer start a family and have children with the person he likes, is that what he should do?

The faint scent of orchids lingered in the room, Jin Guangyao slowly stood up and looked up at him, with tears streaming down his face but still smiling.

"The next generation of the Jin family is the Ruzi generation. I have thought of a lot of names and I still think it is better to be called Rusong. If he is still alive, he might be like you."

But unfortunately, there is no possibility, and there is no possibility for him and Nie Mingjue either.

Jin Guangyao smiled and shook his head, trying to leave with his weak body, but when he walked past Nie Mingjue, his wrist was tightly held.He tilted his head to meet Nie Mingjue's complicated gaze, couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth, and said softly, "Actually, I lied to you at that time, I was really happy during those days in Hejian. Believe it or not." .”

He gently broke away from him, and walked out step by step, not letting himself look back.

The three people who had been listening outside didn't know what to say when they saw him coming out, they could only watch him walk away.

Jin Zixuan hurried over after hearing the notification from his attendants, and happened to bump into Lan Xichen and Nie Huaisang at the gate of the courtyard who had also heard the news.Unexpectedly, as soon as he entered the courtyard, he was almost smashed by Ba Xia who flew out, and then he was so frightened by what Jin Guangyao said that he forgot to move for a moment, and stood outside the door in a daze to listen to everything.

The scent of orchids in the air gradually faded, and the already marked Dikun's Xinxiang was not very attractive to other heavenly stems, but in Jin Zixuan's heart, another kind of fire suddenly ignited.He suddenly came back to his senses and ran into the house angrily.

Before Nie Mingjue could react, he was punched in the stomach, and grunted in pain.

"Please don't be impulsive." Lan Xichen hastily stepped forward to grab Jin Zixuan, dragged him by the arm and dragged him back a few steps.

"Let it go! Let it go, let it go! Let it go, let it go...why are you so strong???" Jin Zixuan couldn't help it, so he stood a few steps away and glared at Nie Mingjue. "What a Chi Feng-zun, he has the guts to call himself a big brother for doing such a thing to A Yao!"

"Tell me clearly, what did my elder brother do?" Nie HuaiSang stopped trembling in his arms and stood beside Nie MingJue and shouted back.

"Naturally, I took advantage of Ayao's fashion and young age to force him to form a contract, and then abandoned it. It made him swallow his anger and pretend to be the mean!"

"...Sect Master Jin, please don't make wild guesses." Nie Huaisang held his forehead speechlessly.Although he is mediocre, he can smell the smell, but he doesn't feel it.So he knew exactly where the orchid fragrance on Big Brother Shooting Sun Zhizheng came from, and he also knew his big brother's hidden thoughts these years, so he would never believe what Jin Zixuan said.

"Am I making wild guesses? Then let him explain himself!" Jin Zixuan said coldly, his anger undiminished.

Nie Mingjue seemed to finally break free from his own emotions, with rare sadness rolling in his eyes, he was silent for a moment and said in a low voice, "As early as in Hejian, he split up. The contract was concluded. It was only later that I found out that he used the Wen family's swordsmanship to kill a monk of the Jin family and wanted to take him back to confess his guilt. Who knew, who knew that it was like this... No wonder later..."

He raised his eyes and looked at Lan Xichen, afraid that he would be entangled, so he sighed, "Second brother, I want to thank you. If you hadn't proposed to marry him, I'm afraid it would be difficult for me to find a chance to talk to him at that time. Don't hide it." Sorry for taking so long."

Lan Xichen shook his head lightly, expressing that he was fine.Although it was a little hard to accept, but after thinking about it carefully, I understood that the two of them had their own difficulties, and they kept hiding it because they didn't know how to tell him.

Jin Zixuan sneered, with cold eyes, "Then? Then you kicked Xue Yang off the Jinlin Terrace because of Xue Yang. A few days ago, Ayao wanted to commit suicide, but you didn't stop him."

"I'm just, just, he did so many wrong things and he still doesn't know how to repent, I was angry for a while..."

"Why did you ever try to understand his difficulties." Jin Zixuan interrupted him impatiently, "How did you do it when you knew what he did? Do you really think that what you did was to treat him well? What do you like about him? You don't even know why he is like that!"

What he said left Nie Mingjue speechless.

Just when the atmosphere was tense, Jin Ling suddenly ran into the house from outside with a small wooden sword in his hand, ran towards Nie Mingjue without saying a word, and slashed several times in succession.

"Bad guy, bully Xiao Susu! Wash you!"

The dignified Chifeng Zun was beaten by a child who was still talking. This scene made people laugh, but no one wanted to laugh.

Jin Zixuan knelt down and waved to Jin Ling, and asked softly, "A Ling, where's little uncle?"

"I was in the Blossom Garden with my mother, and Xiao Susu was crying so badly. Susu Suo Xiao Susu was bullied." Jin Ling stomped his feet, his face swelled up in anger, and when he ran to Jin Zixuan, he didn't forget to rush at Nie. Ming Jue makes a face.

"Well done." Jin Zixuan rubbed Jin Ling's hair and picked him up, snorted coldly, turned around and left.

Jiang Yanli originally came to give Jin Guangyao some of Jin Ling's old clothes so that he could change the newborn baby's clothes, but when he first entered the Blossom Garden, he saw Jin Guangyao sitting alone on the stone bench with a desolate look on his face.She handed the things and Jin Ling to Mo Xuanyu, while she walked over lightly.

Jin Guangyao noticed that she came over and propped her hands on the edge of the table to barely stand upright. The weakness after the emotional outburst hit every place, and even the usual smile was a bit reluctant, but she still hung firmly on her face to say hello to her. , but he didn't know that his pale complexion and red eyes made this look uglier than crying.

Jiang Yanchen sighed in pain, pulled him to sit down, gently held his hand and patted it gently.

This action evokes his rare and warm memories. The gentle image of his mother and Jiang Yanli's eyes full of pity overlap for a short moment, but it makes his tears well up again.

Really tired.

He slid off the stone bench and fell on Jiang Yanli's lap, weeping bitterly.

He experienced such pain once.At that time, he called Nie Mingjue, but there was no one around him.

Later, he stopped crying, and he didn't expect someone to help him.

No matter how good things are given by others, they will disappear at any time. It is better to fight for what you want by yourself, even if the things you get in the end are beyond recognition, they are still yours, and no one can take them away.

Step by step, careful, this calculation, for many years, but gradually drifting away from the one I want most.

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[Note] The time of Yaoyao's alchemy has not been found out and I can't remember clearly, so it is set to be in Hejian to get Nie Mingjue's guidance, and the cultivation base is improved to form the golden elixir.The pheromone of Yaoyao is the aroma of Jinaosu.Jinaosu is a kind of orchid, and its strong fragrance gives people a sense of ice and jade. The poem "Lanhui Tongxinlu" says, "Xianjia Yaocao realizes her predecessor, but she washes away the long-standing cause of lead and flower. Is it because Yujing descended from the fragrant deer, but came out of the wind and dust from Jin'ao. The dream of the lotus pond wakes up the moon in the waves, and the core manages the poems. Leave the painting in the spring. Indifferent to see the truth, heavy makeup and shame on the vermilion lips.” Why choose this instead of Jin Xingxuelang, because this poem is super good, although I don’t understand it very well... (Relevant reference materials for orchids come from Degree_(:з」∠)_）