7:6:19

Gu Sizhi went out in a hurry, and Ye Shun followed behind worryingly.

No matter how much Ye Shun said and did in the past few days, Gu Sizhi turned a deaf ear and turned a blind eye, doing his own thing and immersing himself in his own world.Ye Shun gradually became angry from being worried at the beginning, and finally felt aggrieved and sad.He had never been treated like this by Gu Sizhi, even if he had quarreled and fought coldly because of the different choices of ways out, Gu Sizhi had never treated him like this.

Gu Sizhi...does he not want him anymore?

There was infinite panic in my heart.

Is Gu Sizhi going to give up?Haven't they already passed the most difficult hurdle and become better and better?why?Is he doing something wrong?Gu Sizhi... Are you tired?

Rationally told myself to believe in Gu Sizhi and not to think wildly, but emotionally, being treated like this by Gu Sizhi, Ye Shun didn't have much confidence and couldn't stop himself from imagining in a worse and worse direction.

There was a continuous drizzle, and the rain was not obvious when it fell on the body, but it didn't take long to feel the bone-piercing chill.Ye Shun wiped the rain from his head, stopped a taxi and followed Gu Sizhi's car.

The car drove to the suburbs, the number of cars and people on the street became less and less, and there were more and more trees on both sides, Ye Shun couldn't help frowning.Ye Shun is very familiar with this road, he has been here countless times with Gu Sizhi.The further he drove, the more Ye Shun was sure of where Gu Sizhi was going.But why now?Ye Shun carefully recalled the time, it is not any festival or special day, what is Gu Sizhi doing here?

After the car in front stopped, Ye Shun paid the money and followed Gu Sizhi into the cemetery.Ye Shun and Gu Sizhi used to come here every year to worship Gu Sizhi's father.Gu Sizhi's father died in an accident at a construction site when he was young, and his mother has always been raising him.One day after Ye Shun and Gu Sizhi's relationship stabilized, Gu Sizhi took him to the cemetery, saying that he was formally introduced to his family.Seeing Gu Sizhi's earnest conversation with his father, Ye Shun felt warmly moved in his heart, and made up his mind to make his family accept him.

Gu Sizhi talked for a while in front of his father's tombstone, then got up and walked forward.The rain soaked his hair and clothes, and Ye Shun really wanted to go out to help him out.But thinking of Gu Sizhi's recent attitude, Ye Shun stopped his steps.

Perhaps, Gu Sizhi wanted to be alone.

Following Gu Sizhi inside, Ye Shun felt very strange.He never went in, and every time he and Gu Sizhi left after seeing his father, he himself had no relatives sleeping in this cemetery.

After walking for four to five minutes, Gu Sizhi stopped in front of a tombstone, then squatted down slowly, and gently stroked the tombstone.Ye Shun didn't know who the person under the tombstone was, but for some reason, looking at Gu Sizhi, even if he was far away, Ye Shun could feel that Gu Sizhi's whole body was enveloped in sadness, as if the pain was unbearable .He wanted to go over and hug him, but there was a voice in his heart telling himself not to go there, never to go there, as if there was a scourge there, and it would be swallowed up once it got close.

Ye Shun finally walked over. He couldn't see Gu Sizhi in such pain and ignore it. As for what Gu Sizhi would think and what was in front of him, let it go to hell.

Ye Shun squatted down beside Gu Sizhi, and gently held the hand on his side.Gu Sizhi's hands were very cold, and Ye Shun's hands were not much better, but with two hands holding each other and two bodies leaning against each other, the coldness no longer existed.

"Small instant..."

When Ye Shun heard Gu Sizhi calling him, his heart was agitated. Gu Sizhi finally spoke to him, and he quickly responded: "En."

"Small instant..."

Gu Sizhi called out again.

Ye Shun responded again.

Gu Sizhi kept calling Ye Shun's name, the corners of his eyes gradually turned red, and his voice became hoarse.Ye Shun squatted beside him, saw the dark circles under his eyes, the deep sadness in his eyes, the corners of his lips were tightly pressed, and he held his hand tightly, hoping to give him some strength.

Wondering who made Gu Sizhi so sad, Ye Shun turned his head back to look at the name on the tombstone.After seeing the photo and name on it clearly, Ye Shun seemed to be struck by a thunderbolt, and instantly froze in place.

Isn't the young boy on the tombstone smiling brightly, Ye Shun himself?There are also engraved names and birthdays, which prove that Ye Shun was right.

What exactly is going on? !

Ye Shun felt that he had fallen into a huge vortex, which was bottomless and surrounded by chaos, which made him tremble uncontrollably.

He is clearly alive, clearly here, by Gu Sizhi's side, but why is there his tombstone in front of him?But Gu Sizhi kept calling his name, stroked the tombstone, but didn't look at him.

Is it a prank?

Gu Sizhi, this isn't funny at all.

Ye Shun called Gu Sizhi in panic, telling him not to play, but Gu Sizhi still didn't seem to want to end, even though Ye Shun cried in fright, he didn't move.

"Gu Sizhi..."

Ye Shun felt that he was about to despair, how could Gu Sizhi treat him like this?

I don't know how long I stayed in the cemetery, and when Ye Shun, who was overly frightened, came back to his senses, he found that he had returned home, and Gu Sizhi was sitting in front of the dining table, staring at the two dishes and one soup on the table in a daze, without moving a chopstick .

Having no time to think about the meals that Gu Sizhi has been cooking for a long time, Ye Shun urgently wants to know what kind of tricks Gu Sizhi is playing.If it was to scare him, then he wanted to say that he was indeed scared, Gu Sizhi, you won, and we can end this stupid game.

Gu Sizhi didn't respond.

Gu Sizhi's attitude gave Ye Shun some kind of cognition and awareness. Even though he didn't believe it, he knew that Gu Sizhi was not such a boring person and would not do such boring pranks. .To refute it vigorously is only because of inner cowardice and unbelievability.

Ye Shun didn't know why this happened, he had no real feeling at all.In the past few days, he obviously did a lot of things and went to many places. It is impossible for the people around him not to notice it, and he himself didn't feel a little disobedience.If all of this was a dream, then now, is he waking up from a dream?Or, still in a dream.

After a long time, Gu Sizhi finally moved.Not to eat, but to stand up and go to the bedroom.

He didn't notice it before, but after following Gu Sizhi into the bedroom, Ye Shun felt something different.Looking around, he thought for a while, then looked at other places, and finally found something wrong.

He obviously did a big cleaning before, and he sorted out everything!But now, there is a layer of dust in the room, the clothes are thrown on the chairs in a mess, the books on the bookshelves are still arranged in a mess, and the broken small items are still left in the corner... These days, Gu Sizhi His activity area is not that big at all, except for the bedroom and the sofa in the living room where he stayed the longest, he has basically never set foot in other places, not to mention he hasn't done much.

Everything seemed to be back to the way Gu Sizhi had just gone on a business trip for two or three days.

What exactly is going on?

Gu Sizhi opened the drawer and pulled out a lot of things, and finally pulled out a lighter.Ye Shun was very familiar with that lighter, he accidentally found it out of the drawer a few days ago, held it to miss Gu Sizhi, and put it in an obvious place in the drawer.And now, it's back where it used to be, weighed down by a mass of odds and ends.

So these days...really... just a dream?

Gu Sizhi slid against the edge of the bed with the lighter and sat on the floor. He opened the lid and fiddled a few times, and a cluster of faintly blue flames appeared in front of his eyes.

"So... it still works..." Ye Shun heard Gu Sizhi say in a low voice.

Same thing he said when he found out the lighter worked.

Gu Sizhi put out the fire, and rubbed the pattern on the fuselage with his thumb.After being touched by Gu Sizhi, the vine-like pattern was removed and the dust on it was removed, and it became bright and clear.

"Xiao Shuan..." Ye Shun heard Gu Sizhi say: "You must not know when I fell in love with you, you are so stupid, you must not even know the secret on this lighter."

What secret?

Although he didn't agree with Gu Sizhi's saying that he was stupid, Ye Shun really didn't know what secrets there were in this lighter, and he looked over and over before and couldn't find anything.

"You... I've never seen someone who smoked and choked himself to death. Why are you so stupid? When you opened the box, I was worried that you might see it, but when I saw you smoking I don’t think it’s possible.” Gu Sizhi chuckled, “You’re so stupid, even if you’ve played with the lighter several times, you still don’t understand what I said to you.” Gu Sizhi paused for a while After a while, he continued: "I like you, Ye Shun. You would have known it if you had looked at the pattern carefully. But...you don't know. Maybe..." Gu Sizhi's voice gradually lowered, "You have always... I don't know..."

Yes, he knows, Ye Shun knows that Gu Sizhi likes him, after all they have been together for so many years, after all, he also likes Gu Sizhi.However, he really didn't know what Gu Sizhi in the pattern said to him, and he didn't know when Gu Sizhi liked him.He asked before, but Gu Sizhi always smiled and changed the subject, so he never knew when Gu Sizhi had that kind of thought for him.

Ye Shun approached and sat down beside Gu Sizhi, and looked closely at the lighter in his hand.Look east and west, look up and down.Looking left and right, he finally found it when he changed his angle and tilted his head.Those complicated and winding patterns, when viewed backwards, are the English continuous strokes of "ILoveyou".

Ye Shun stretched out his hand to cover his face, this kind of confession that tested people's IQ may only be thought of by a top student like Gu Sizhi.

Ye Shun smiled helplessly, smiled, but cried.Tears flowed from the fingers, along the arms, and disappeared into the sleeves.Ye Shun whimpered softly, tears kept flowing as if he didn't want money.

I heard from someone before that the raw material of tears is blood, and crying is actually bleeding. Ye Shun thought, he might lose too much blood and die.

Oh, I... seem to be... already dead...

Thinking of this, Ye Shun smiled self-deprecatingly, but the tears flowed even more fiercely, uncontrollable.

He's... already... dead...

He could no longer hug Gu Sizhi, could no longer see him smiling at him, that kind of smile as if he was a unique existence in the eyes of the other party, and he could no longer meet his mother and his own family with him. In the bright future, he will no longer be able to participate.

Gu Sizhi, you have been in so much pain these past few days, is it all because of me?

I'm sorry to make you sad, I'm really... sorry...

I clearly promised to give you happiness...

He finally remembered.

That day, because he saw the windbreaker that was very suitable for Gu Sizhi, he didn't notice that there was a staircase for customers to go up and down not far in front of him. When he got there, he stepped on the left foot and fell down the stairs.In the chaos, he saw the panicked crowd, and also saw Gu Sizhi in high school, so young and beautiful.

I probably died because of this.

Gu Sizhi was right, he was really stupid, just like that... he lost his life...

"I think this is the stupidest thing I've ever done, and also, the one I regret the most."

Ye Shun thought, he had ruined his and Gu Sizhi's happiness.

"Gu Sizhi...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...Gu Sizhi..."

He didn't want to die, he didn't want to just disappear in Gu Sizhi's life.Obviously...they still have so many things to do, he hasn't let his family accept Gu Sizhi, hasn't waited for Gu Sizhi to come back and go on a trip together, hasn't gone jumping together, hasn't adopted a child to form a family A family of three, didn’t redecorate the house, didn’t eat the snacks with the best ratings on the reviews, didn’t read the books each other had read, didn’t live the succulent meat that lived on their hearts, didn’t take the bus to travel around the whole city together, didn’t ...There are so many things waiting for them to do, but he left halfway.

"Gu Sizhi... Gu Sizhi... Gu Sizhi..." Ye Shun repeated his name repeatedly, thinking that he could understand why Gu Sizhi kept calling him before.

Such longing, such reluctance, and so unreachable, the thought of the other party would break my heart, so I could only keep calling and thinking about the other party, as if I could get closer in this way.

"Xiao... Shun?"

Gu Sizhi suddenly heard a voice beside him, and turned his head to see that the voice was actually coming from someone he thought he would never see again.Ye Shun cried so miserably and helplessly that Gu Siyi hugged him.Even if it's a hallucination, at least I can still see him, the person I haven't had time to see.

Why is he crying so sadly?

When he heard him cry, Gu Sizhi felt his heart was broken.

Don't cry, don't cry, Xiao Shun.

The moment he was hugged into his arms, Ye Shun was stunned.The warm, hot, rapid heartbeat, Gu Sizhi's comforting words and bursts of heat coming from beside his ears, and the tightly hugging arms, all these made Ye Shun unable to react.

Tears flowed habitually, Ye Shun blinked, trying to stop crying, but he couldn't stop.He tentatively raised his hand and grabbed the opponent's arm, and the opponent seemed to hold him tighter because of his movements.

"Xiao Shun, don't cry, don't cry."

"Gu...Si...zhi?" Ye Shun sniffed his nose and called out Gu Sizhi's name with difficulty, his voice hoarse.

"I'm here, I'm here." Gu Sizhi patted him on the back.

After confirming that Gu Sizhi really saw him, Ye Shungang's tears that had just been suppressed by surprise poured out again, and all the grievances and insecurities came out.He hugged Gu Sizhi tightly, reluctant to let go.

Hearing Ye Shun call his name, feeling his temperature, the feeling of tears dripping down on the back of his hand was so real, Gu Sizhi realized belatedly that the person in his arms was not a hallucination.

"Xiao Shun?" The tone was cautious, as if the other party would disappear if he was not careful.

"Ah."

"Really...is it you?!" With incredible ecstasy, Gu Sizhi couldn't help but confirm it again.

"Well, it's me."

"Xiao Shun!" Gu Sizhi hugged Ye Shun fiercely, as if he wanted to embed him into his own flesh and blood. "You're back! I knew it, I knew it, you wouldn't die, how could you die? You're clearly alive and well! That's great, you're still alive!"

"Gu Sizhi..." Ye Shun's eyes darkened, and he spoke with difficulty: "I... am indeed dead..."

"Nonsense!" Gu Sizhi pulled him out of his arms, grabbed his arm and looked straight at him, "Aren't you here properly?! Don't talk nonsense!"

Ye Shun met his gaze, "You know."

Gu Sizhi just looked at him like this and didn't speak.

Ye Shun also thought he was talking nonsense, but when he realized it, he understood that all their futures were over.

Ye Shun and Gu Sizhi just looked at each other, silent.

After a long time, Gu Sizhi had to close his eyes as if resigned to his fate, raised his head, his Adam's apple moved, and his words turned into a heavy sigh: "Yes... I put your ashes in the cemetery myself... "Tears slipped from the corners of his eyes and disappeared into the temple hair beside his ears.

"Sorry……"

Gu Sizhi shook his head, "What is there to be sorry for? If being sorry can bring you back to life, then let me say it as many times as you want."

"Gu Sizhi..."

The room fell silent, only slight breathing could be heard.

After a long time, Gu Sizhi spoke.

"……is it okay?"

Ye Shun nodded.

"……Um."

Lingering to death, but unable to warm the passing temperature.

"Is there really... no way?"

Gu Sizhi hugged the person in his arms, and buried his face in the other person's hair.

"I'm afraid...it's impossible." Ye Shun replied helplessly.

None of them wanted to talk about that word, as if if they uttered it, everything would be turned into ashes.

"Actually, I'm very grateful for this opportunity, although I don't know why." Ye Shun said suddenly after the silence. "I was lying there, surrounded by many people, some were indifferent, some were frightened, and some helped me with first aid, but none of them seemed to have anything to do with me. I always wanted to see you again, and then, I I see you. I couldn’t fulfill my promise with you. I’m sorry. Thank you for your tolerance and care for me. Gu Sizhi, I’m really happy to fall in love with you. If possible, I hope next time , you can still make me like you."

"Fool." Gu Sizhi smiled, but his eyes were a little moist. "I am. Thank you, it's great that you let me like you. Next time, I will like you too."

"Really? Thank you." Ye Shun buried his face in Gu Sizhi's arms, tightly closed his eyes and dared not open them.He was afraid that when he opened it, tears would flow out.

The quiet room was as warm as usual, and the two people who loved each other lay on the same bed and embraced each other, as usual for thousands of days and nights in the past.They enjoy and cherish this hard-won gift and are reluctant to waste it.

When the clock finally stopped at 19:[-]:[-], Gu Sizhi's arms were empty.He slowly curled up together, clenching his teeth tightly, not letting himself make a sound.

Outside the window, the rain stopped and the sky cleared.

19:[-]:[-], if you are not careful, it becomes eternity.

But I stayed where I was, and if I was not careful, it became a memory.

But, Gu Sizhi, you are the most beautiful memory in my short life, and your only light in this eternal darkness.

Gu Sizhi, thank you.

I love you.

The author has something to say: Because of the busy work during the holidays, I didn't have time to finish it last month, so I had to stay up all night to finish coding it.Although April has passed, but May has just begun, so it shouldn't be too late...

Thank you all the little angels of Guanwen for a long time.