Boundless benevolence

When Li Yongzhe saw the intimacy between the two, Li Shixi, who was completely immersed in grief, didn't care about it at all, but Ding Zhuoxuan felt something was wrong, and quickly pulled Li Shixi away.

"Uncle, you are here." Ding Zhuoxuan smiled at Li Yongzhe.

"Hmm." The old man snorted in a low voice.Probably because he was concerned about the status of Ding Zhuoxuan's patient, he didn't say much, but after a few words of greeting, he was about to pull Li Shixi away.

"I'm not going back, I want to talk to Zhuo Xuan again."

"I have something important to tell you, you come home with me!" Li Yongzhe was slightly displeased.

"I know what you want to say! You just want to say that it is wrong for us to do this. Both of us are men! I tell you that I am not afraid! What's wrong with being men? I just like him! We just had too many worries before. Procrastinating and procrastinating until now! Otherwise, we would have enjoyed it for a few more years!" Li Shixi roared recklessly, but did not notice at all that Ding Zhuoxuan's parents had just walked in the door...

The matter of the two was exposed in front of the parents of both parties.Ding Zhuoxuan's mother was very dissatisfied with the matter between her son and Li Shixi, and immediately stopped allowing Li Shixi to appear in front of her son, no matter how much Ding Zhuoxuan tried to persuade him, it was useless.Li Shixi went to visit several times, but Ding Zhuoxuan's mother blocked her back.Li Shixi, tortured by grief and misunderstanding, vented all his anger on his father Li Yongzhe.If he hadn't forced me to go home that day, I wouldn't have said everything out of control, and I wouldn't have been heard by Ding Zhuoxuan's parents, and everything that followed...

Li Shixi had a big fight with his father, then packed his luggage and moved out of the house.

For the next half month, Li Shixi still couldn't see Ding Zhuoxuan - Ding Zhuoxuan's mother stayed in the hospital all day to accompany her, and she was determined not to let the two meet.Even so, Li Shixi still learned about Ding Zhuoxuan's situation from his colleagues and knew that he had set a date for the operation.

Two nights before the operation, Li Shixi suddenly received a call from Ding Zhuoxuan: "Shixi, I dismissed my mother, can you come to my ward?"

Li Shixi lived in the dormitory of the hospital, so it took him less than 10 minutes to get to Ding Zhuoxuan's ward.He rushed directly to the hospital bed, and immediately hugged Ding Zhuoxuan.

Ding Zhuoxuan chuckled and hugged Li Shixi back.

The two embraced like this for a long time, and finally let go of their arms slowly, looking at each other.Not seeing each other for half a month, Ding Zhuoxuan is much more haggard than before.Li Shixi heard from his colleagues that Ding Zhuoxuan would faint from time to time during this time - his illness has become more and more serious...

"Shixi, I'm sorry, my mother made you suffer a lot, right?"

Li Shixi shook his head lightly.

"Don't blame her, she is also in a bad mood, so she took it out on you." Ding Zhuoxuan said gently, and Li Shixi nodded quickly.

"How have you been these two days?" Li Shixi asked softly.

"Me? It's not bad. I eat and sleep every day, and the rest of the time is spent reminiscing about the past." Ding Zhuoxuan smiled easily, not like a critically ill patient at all.

Li Shixi noticed that Ding Zhuoxuan was holding a camera in his hand, which was Ding Zhuoxuan's favorite SLR camera.

"Looking at the photos?" Li Shixi asked.

"Well, I was looking at the things I took before. If I didn't look at the date, I wouldn't have realized that I haven't taken pictures on a trip for a long time..." Ding Zhuoxuan said with a smile.

That's right, since Ding Zhuoxuan took over the family business, he has been busy with work and has never traveled.Li Shixi knows that he is actually a person who loves freedom, and he likes the life of traveling around with a camera and a backpack.Ding Zhuoxuan gave up his ideal for the future of the two of them, but unexpectedly, God gave them such an ending...

"By the way, let me show you, this is the photo I took last time I went to Africa." Ding Zhuoxuan handed over the camera as he spoke.

Li Shixi leaned his head over, and what appeared on the camera screen were scenes of galloping animals. Li Shixi knew that this was the famous animal migration.

"Shixi, do you know? The most spectacular sight in Africa is the Great Migration of Animals in East Africa! Thousands of animals rush past in front of you, it is a particularly vibrant scene. What you see is horned Horses, when they go down the river, those old, weak, sick and disabled will be washed away by the water, but the strong wildebeest will stay, which is the survival of the fittest in nature. Amazing, isn’t it? The life of the ethnic group is continued in this way.”

Li Shixi listened and smiled bitterly.For some reason, the words "vitality" and "life" sounded so harsh to Li Shixi.

"Speaking of which, I promised you that I would go to East Africa with you. I'm sorry Shixi, but I may not have the chance to fulfill my vow."

"Zhuo Xuan, you will have a chance." Li Shixi looked into his lover's eyes affectionately and said seriously, "You will definitely."

Ding Zhuoxuan hugged Li Shixi.Li Shixi hugged Ding Zhuoxuan tightly, not wanting to let go.

"Shixi," Ding Zhuoxuan's voice came from behind Shixi, "promise me one thing."

Li Shixi wanted to raise his head, but Ding Zhuoxuan hugged him tightly and didn't let go, which gave Li Shixi a bad feeling in his heart.

Sure enough, Ding Zhuoxuan's next words were: "If my surgery fails and I'm really brain dead, promise me, turn off my ventilator, and I won't be a living dead."

Li Shixi's body trembled heavily.

"Zhuo Xuan! You..." Li Shixi wanted to get up.

"Shixi, promise me." Ding Zhuoxuan put his arms around Li Shixi, not letting Li Shixi look at his face, he said slowly, "You know, I like a free life, I like things with vitality, I don't want to lie lifeless Unconscious on the bed. I checked the information secretly, and the body functions of brain-dead patients will deteriorate after a long time, and they will die in the end. In this case, I would rather leave happily than endure such torture."

"Zhuoxuan..." Li Shixi wanted to interject, but was interrupted by Ding Zhuoxuan again.

"I heard that the hospital will advise the patient's family to keep the patient on the ventilator, which will give them the illusion that the patient will wake up. But you and I both know that is impossible. I don't want my parents to wait. After a long time, I have to face the reality of my death again, so if the operation fails, no matter what my parents say, you must help me turn off the ventilator! Shixi, I can only ask you for this matter, You have to promise me..."

After Ding Zhuoxuan finished speaking, he didn't speak again, just quietly waiting for Li Shixi's answer.

After a long time, he finally felt that Li Shixi nodded.

Ding Zhuoxuan could feel that a few drops of warm liquid fell on his back and melted into one piece.He knew that those were Li Shixi's tears.

"Thank you, Shixi..." Ding Zhuoxuan said with a smile, with tears in his eyes.

"...Later, the operation still failed—maybe Zhuo Xuan had already felt it, that's why he came to me and told me about those things." Li Shixi smiled, that smile was faint, without tears, but Han Yujun could see it. It hurts so much.

"His mother really asked Zhuo Xuan to use the ventilator all the time, so I followed Zhuo Xuan's wishes and turned it off. As a result, his mother got angry and took me to court. Fortunately, before Zhuo Xuan's operation A video tape was recorded, which proved that I did not kill people intentionally, and the lawsuit was settled."

"Do you blame his mother?" Han Yujun asked.

"No wonder, she just loves her son. After all, I turned off the ventilator with my own hands, and I killed his only son..."

"You didn't kill him," Han Yujun interrupted Li Shixi decisively, "A brain-dead patient is medically dead, you didn't kill him."

"I understand, so I have no regrets." Li Shixi said, his voice began to tremble, "After dealing with these things, I asked for leave and went to Kenya with Zhuoxuan's camera, which can be regarded as helping him realize his dream. desire……"

Han Yujun finally understood Li Shixi's various strange behaviors, why he appeared alone on the African grasslands, why he cherished that SLR camera so much, and why he showed fragility and sadness from time to time.That was a deep wound in Li Shixi's heart.

Han Yujun hugged Li Shixi distressedly, and pressed his head on his shoulder: "Just cry when you are sad, no one will see."

—Even I, won't see...

There is no look of disdain, no expression of disgust, the person in front of him has done the same thing as the person in his memory - the same hug, the same warmth... The strength that Li Shixi had pretended for so long finally collapsed at this moment .He hugged Han Yujun tightly, and the tears that were too late poured out...

The author has something to say: How did I write such a cruel story back then...

PS. I just read the news today and found out that Taiwan has passed the law of legalizing same-sex marriage in 2017. However, this article is an old article after all, and this small bug will not be changed. Stubborn people can also...