silent you

On the second day of the theatrical performance, Gu Xia caught a cold without accident, and his nose was red all day long, which was wiped out by him with a tissue.

Teary-eyed and unlucky, like a kitten whose fur has been purring in a mess.

Jiang Pei even fell asleep when he routinely lectured on physics at noon every day.

After listening, he fell on Jiang Pei.

The eyelids are heavy and unconscious.

Jiang Pei stared at the man lying on his lap with a cold face.

Who is used to this problem of relying on others for sleeping.

It's a pity that no matter how cold his gaze was, Gu Xia was unmoved and slept soundly.

Jiang Pei took off his school uniform and covered him up.

He flipped through his physics homework blankly.

I was planning to start writing for him.

It was found that the handwriting of the two was not alike at all.

They went back together again.

Jiang Pei's lunch break is exclusive to Gu Xia.

Now that he has fallen asleep, Jiang Pei suddenly feels at ease.

He kept turning the pen in his hand, his eyes were cold and sharp, but he didn't think about anything.

Until Gu Xia, who was resting on his leg, suddenly moved, frowned slightly and changed his posture, curled up his slender body, and let out a very low, almost inaudible ☐□ sound.

Jiang Pei lowered his head and frowned slightly with his long eyebrows.

He reached out and probed his forehead and neck.

No fever.

There is hot sweat coming out.

The cold is getting better.

Jiang Pei withdrew his hand.

So Xia can talk, but the number of times is extremely rare.

Jiang Pei heard it twice.

Once Gu Xia took the initiative to speak, and once he forced it.

Others, including all the teachers, are completely unaware.

And it seems that at some point, he never spoke again.

Both times were when the two were still sophomores in high school.

The last class that day was physical education class. As the sun was setting, students in twos and threes gathered together, chatting, playing around and waiting for get out of class to end.

Jiang Pei has only Gu Xia by his side.

He was surrounded by gloomy and oppressive low pressure all day today, even a blind person could see it, and no one dared to provoke him.

Jiang Pei stood alone under a tree with a radius of five meters and no one was around, staring at the front without emotion, his dark eyes were deep and quiet, but the drink bottle in his hand was slightly deformed by him.

Destroy a person's psychological defenses that have been repeatedly forged and consolidated.

Just one simple word.

--want.

He closed his eyes gently, with a slight bitterness on his lips.

He opened his eyes again, but at some point in front of him stood a smiling young man, quietly appearing out of thin air.

Jiang Pei pulled the corner of his mouth coldly, turned around and was about to leave.

Gu Xia hastily walked around his body, blocked his footsteps, and made two pleading gestures with her eyes—can't you talk to me?

Jiang Pei expressionless: "I have nothing to tell you."

So Xia recommends himself - I can't speak, no matter what you tell me, no one else will know.

This is a purposeful spy on his mood and private affairs.

Jiang Pei stared at him condescendingly for two seconds, then suddenly raised his lips and smiled, the ice in his eyes hadn't dissipated, such a smile gave people a sense of trepidation and fear.

So Xia Ruo didn't notice anything, and looked at him very frankly.

The eyes were clear and clean, reflecting his shadow clearly.

Jiang Pei narrowed his eyes dangerously, and scrutinized him for a moment.

So Xia didn't avoid it, let him watch.

It seems that all the ice in the world will irresistibly turn into invisible and gentle water when it comes to him.

This is a kind of magical power, so summer life makes people soft.

Jiang Pei paused imperceptibly, with a trace of hidden deep disappointment in his tone, and slowly said: "I told my mother, I am gay, and I am only interested in men all my life."

His normally sober eyes suddenly became a little misty.

The breeze blew through the branches, bringing a "rustling", "rustling" sound of leaves rubbing.

"After listening to it, she felt unacceptable, wishful thinking that I was a monster, a different kind, and thought I was sick."

This is the first time he has opened up to anyone.

Gu Xia's eyes widened in surprise.

Jiang Pei looked at him, raised the corners of his mouth ironically, and said indifferently, "What? You don't think it's acceptable either?"

So Xia Li immediately shook his head, his delicate brows slightly frowned.

Jiang Pei didn't believe it, and said indifferently: "It's over, you can go."

Gu Xia shook his head again, not only did not leave, but took a step forward, standing on tiptoe anxiously, looking into his eyes with gentle water eyes, and pursing his lips tightly.

Jiang Pei turned his head expressionlessly, wondering what he was thinking.

Time seems to have passed for a long time, and it seems to be just a moment.

Jiang Pei thought casually, and if he said it, it would be no big deal.

"Jiang, Pei..."

There was a sound, it seemed that someone was calling him.

The voice was hoarse and broken, dry and astringent, sounding thin and tiny.

Jiang Pei didn't move, he didn't even lift his eyelashes.

Gu Xia was beside him, how could someone be calling him.

"Jiang...Pei..." The voice sounded again, this time more clearly and smoothly.

Jiang Pei turned his head suddenly, opened his eyes wide, and stared at Gu Xia in shock, his tone was a little unbelievable, and he blurted out: "You can talk?!"

Gu Xia didn't hear it, and ignored his words.

He just looked seriously into his eyes again.

He saw Jiang Pei's pupils were pitch black, only the faint light was focusing, flickering and struggling.

Jiang Pei's face was a little complicated.

It can be seen how uncomfortable and embarrassing it is for Gu Xia to open his mouth to speak, but he still tried his best to overcome it, and slowly said word by word: "I... am also... gay... you... you ..."

Such a young man with such a delicate and beautiful appearance, but the voice he makes reminds people of a dilapidated bellows, or an old man who is dying and dying.

It was dry and hoarse, extremely unpleasant to hear.

Jiang Pei's expression regained his composure, his expression was a little indifferent, and he responded to his clean and quiet eyes.

what are you?

can you stay with me

I am sorry.

I will not accept it.

At that time, Jiang Pei didn't know.

The frail young man in front of him.

Ask how much courage love borrowed.

to speak in front of him.

Gu Xia's throat is like swallowing charcoal, and the flames are burning inside.

His injured vocal cords did not allow him to speak at all. These short words were like a sharp dagger, which not only broke open his wound that could never heal, but also shattered his beloved. All dignity and pride reserved before man.

Gu Xia felt uncomfortable, awkward and ashamed, frowned unconsciously, panted lightly, paused for a long time, and then continued intermittently.

"You don't, you don't..."

"no……"

"...Heterogeneous..."

"I... I, I am..."

Jiang Pei's eyes sank, and a cold and sharp light flashed by.

The boy's smooth and clear pupils are focused and stubborn, his beautiful eyebrows are extremely clear, and his expression is serious and solemn.

Jiang Pei called him coldly.

"Old summer."

"……Um."

Jiang Pei said coldly: "Take back your words."

Gu Xia froze for a moment, and suddenly became a little uneasy and at a loss.

He bit his lower lip in embarrassment, his face was flushed red, and the tiny rays of light in his eyes were crumbling.

Regardless of his expression, Jiang Pei continued, "I'm not an outlier, and you're even less an outlier. I know this very well."

Gu Xia suddenly opened his eyes wide, a misty and moist mist filled his beautiful eyes, and looked at him in disbelief.

Jiang Pei raised his chin, proudly and firmly said: "You and I are just a little special, but I never feel that my sexual orientation is wrong, and I never feel wrong about your inability to speak."

His words were clear and decisive: "I will not belittle myself, even if I am my biological mother, I will not agree with her point of view."

Gu Xia blinked very slowly, very slowly, and looked at Jiang Pei in shock and speechless.

Just at this time, the melodious bell for the end of get out of class rang and spread throughout the playground.

The wind is still.

Jiang Pei's side face was cold and stiff, and his back was straight.

Invincible.

So Xia slowly curled the corners of her lips.

Smile slightly.

Jiang Pei looked at the sleeping Gu Xia.

I don't know what to think of.

"Jiang, Jiang Pei?" Someone lost his voice in surprise.

Jiang Pei raised his eyelids coldly, and asked back, "What's the matter?"

There is no doubt about this upright look.

The look in Jiang Pei's eyes just now was probably just his illusion.

The squad leader coughed twice, covering his words: "No, it's all right, the head teacher said that there is an exam after the New Year's holiday, and there is also a parent meeting, and asked me to inform everyone..."

Can't make a sentence.

Jiang Pei nodded indifferently: "Oh."

This kind of thing doesn't need to be said to Jiang Pei alone.

It was embarrassing.

The squad leader changed the subject again, and said with sharp eyes, "What happened to Gu Xia?"

Jiang Pei glanced at Gu Xia coldly, and said in a bad tone: "What else can I do, I have a cold and sleep, and I still have to drag my clothes."

If it weren't for the fact that he was a classmate for three years and was still at the same table, he would have been unable to bear it and wanted to beat someone up.

The squad leader silently lit a piece of wax for Gu Xia in his heart, took two steps back, smiled stiffly, and planned to withdraw from the battlefield: "Then I won't bother Gu Xia, I, I have something to do..."

Jiang Pei expressionless: "You go."

The squad leader left in a hurry.

Jiang Pei lowered his eyes and glanced at Gu Xia.

Can really sleep.

Gu Xia was lying on the table, waking up comfortably, just in time to hear the class monitor announcing that tomorrow would be a holiday, that there would be an exam after the holiday, and that there would be a parent-teacher meeting after the exam.

Sitting in his seat in a daze for a while, his expression changed subtly.

Jiang Pei had been staring at him, and now he asked, "What's wrong?"

Gu Xia shook his head, yawned softly, and asked him casually—is your mother coming?

So Xia has something to hide from him.

Jiang Pei narrowed his eyes, felt a little uncomfortable, rubbed his pants twice with his fingertips, and said coldly: "It should be."

Gu Xia seemed to have not heard, and nodded casually.

I didn't even notice that he was wearing his school uniform.

Jiang Pei said blankly: "Give it back to me."

Gu Xia stared at him blankly.

"School uniform," Jiang Pei frowned, and said coldly, "Give it back to me."

Only then did Gu Xia realize something was wrong, took it off embarrassedly, and handed it to him with crooked eyes.

When the fingertips of the two touched, Jiang Pei moved his finger.

After all, nothing was done.

What does it have to do with him.

Jiang Pei thought calmly.

That was the story of Guxia.

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