guilt

"You mean that I have no relationship with you from now on. You and I go on with our own lives. You don't want to have anything to do with my life anymore. But I can't think about it, and I can't love it. From then on, I I can only look at you from a distance, but I will never be able to participate in your life. I look at everything about you, and even when you start to forget me, another person appears. He is much better than me, and he In comparison, I'm really a jerk, you're with him soon, I watch you cry for him, laugh for him, do for him everything you used to do for me and more, and I'm the outsider, not even a hug You don't have the right to kiss you, is that what you said?"

Yeah?Is that what he said?Song Zixi thought.

He'd thought all his previous rejections had put an end to their relationship.He knows very well that if it is not for love, his so-called infatuation has become a burden for Mo Yuran, and what comes from begging for nothing is hurt.

In the past, Mo Yuran didn't hesitate to get it, but he didn't cherish it.

In love, there is nothing to pay, and there will be rewards.He is not as good as a woman, and he never wants to ask for something hypocritically.

Perhaps he had thought that when he saw them again, he would no longer complain, and the past love to the bone would also pass away with the wind, but he just treated them indifferently like old friends he hadn’t seen for a long time, and chatted a little bit about our impulsive, youthful feelings at that time. Bitterness and regret, throw all the bitterness into the trash can of time.

"I don't know what kind of 'good' is good for you. Maybe I did something wrong from the beginning. I thought I loved you deeply, but never asked you if you needed it; You have always been the one who is unfeeling, but I forgot that it was I who refused to let you go; I thought it was always me who was wronged, but I didn’t understand that there is never a right or wrong in a relationship. Speaking of which, you have not been wrong all these years , why do you say you are wrong." Song Zixi finally raised his head and looked at Mo Yuran, his tone was very flat, as if there were no waves, but it was always shocking.

"You've always been like this, always telling me it's okay, and now you've even rejected all my mistakes." Mo Yuran smiled ugly. "I made you retreat, but can you let me walk towards you this time? Life is too long, and I'm afraid I won't be able to hold on."

Do you know that feeling, that person is right in front of you, you can touch, you can hug, but he gave you the final death sentence again and again, in the future, you may no longer have the position to participate in his life, he will It sucks to feel like it's not yours anymore.

Song Zixi suddenly laughed.

"One day, you will forget me." Song Zixi raised his hand and stroked Mo Yuran's face meticulously, as if he wanted to carve them into his bones. "Maybe we meet unexpectedly, and we can greet each other with a smile. Hope to see you again."

After rejecting Mo Yuran to send him back, Song Zixi chose to take a taxi back by himself.

Mo Yuran just stared blankly at Song Zixi's leaving back, the boy who had loved him for ten years, and at this moment, he realized that Song Zixi was really going to abandon him.But he couldn't say anything to save him.

But just now, they had dinner together, they were talking and chatting as before, and there seemed to be the remaining warmth of that person in their arms, but he knew that Song Zixi really drove him away. His life is beyond.

He lost all qualifications after all.

But this time, he can no longer find a reason to bother him, but how can he give up the love in his heart?He could finally understand Song Zixi's pain.He is no longer young, if he can't love him, maybe he will only miss such a person with love for the rest of his life, and a person he cannot have lives in his dream.

The safflower is a little drunk, and the street is already on the street.It's a pity, but what to do?

Those who leave will not come back, those who come back are no longer perfect, no one is sorry for anyone, maybe only someone who is not cherished enough.Maybe some late night many years later, you will suddenly think of me, and then burst into tears, only to realize that we have missed so much.