Bear Diary

Wednesday, August 2010, 8

I hadn’t turned on the phone, but yesterday I thought of turning it on, only to find that I had received a lot of text messages and missed calls, excluding those that I didn’t want to answer and meaningless ones, and there were a lot of blessings for Qixi Festival. Then I remembered that the day before yesterday was Qixi Festival.Alas... Doesn't this make me feel hurt?

I stayed at home alone for a few days and thought a lot, most of which were psychological constructions to make myself feel better, but I still felt like something was stuck in my heart, which was extremely uncomfortable.I don't write diaries anymore, it's too cruel for me to touch these things.I lay in a daze on the bed, fell on the sofa in a daze, looked at the clouds in the sky and the people downstairs in a daze... I found that time can slip away unconsciously, and when I feel hungry, it will almost be dark.I don't know how long this state will last, and I know very well in my heart that if this continues, I will be finished, but I just can't get the energy to do anything, and I feel that nothing is interesting.I wanted to be a psychiatrist for a while ago, and I bought some books on this subject. My current symptoms are typical depression symptoms.But what if you know?No wonder it is said that psychiatrists are not autonomous.

Maybe it's my natural tenacity, or some other supernatural force, that reminded me of my phone yesterday.At least call my mom and grandma so they don't worry, I just thought so.After being perfunctory, I started to flip through text messages and phone calls: Dad’s—don’t care; A text message from an old classmate.

It's really an old classmate. I haven't heard from him since junior high school.In fact, our relationship is not only bad, but friends who have seen it before may still remember the deputy squad leader whose nose was broken with a punch when my first love girlfriend died-yes, it was him!After that incident, he changed schools at the beginning of the second semester. It is estimated that he would not be able to stay if something like this happened.Hehe, to be a bit exaggerated, I still have some influence in our school, or our grade.

I don't know how he got my phone number, but after reading his text message, I decided to meet him.