Bear Diary

Thursday, August 2010, 11

Xiaobai stayed in Beijing to continue working, and I slipped back to Chengdu on the 27th to celebrate my grandma's birthday.When I was in Beijing, I never thought about Serena. I thought I could let go of this matter, but when I got home, I was full of emotions.

Xiao Tao said: Brother Serena went to England on the 25th.I said: Well, I see.

On the 25th, I received a text message from Lina, saying that they were leaving, and that they regretted not being able to say goodbye to me in the end.I can no longer accurately use my poor language to describe my feelings at that time. The feeling was not shocking and sad, because I already knew that this moment would happen, and the heartache that was deeply reflected in the body was truly reflected in the body. It's also getting numb recently.If I really want to say it, it is more of a kind of helplessness.Another reason why I came back early was also because I couldn't work well when I was immersed in this emotion.

On the 28th, I bought some things and went back to my mother. Grandma, wearing the newly bought festive clothes, greeted me happily and held my face for a long time.It’s like this every time I come back from a business trip, to see if I’ve lost weight or darkened.I took out the gift for my grandma. Although it was far less exquisite than last year, she was still as happy.There are a lot of relatives and friends at home, and it is very lively, but I was very surprised that Xiao Jiang also came, and my mother said that she invited her.

After seeing him for so long, his appearance hasn't changed much, but his whole person exudes a very different aura from before. I can't say exactly what it is.

Xiaoxiong also had surgery this afternoon. I called him and encouraged him for a long time. He is very strong. The only request is that I have time to see him.I told my grandma about him, and the old man also looked distressed and said that he would pray for him when he recited scriptures.

After eating, I felt a little noisy, so I said I wanted to go out for a walk.Before I finished going downstairs, Xiao Jiang followed and asked me if I would like to come together.I shrugged and said it didn't matter.

There were only the two of us left, and the atmosphere was a bit awkward. A group of children were chasing and playing in the yard downstairs. I picked a fairly clean stone pier and sat down, and Xiao Jiang sat next to me.I asked about his suspension and he said it's all right now, I said that's fine.There was another silence.Xiao Jiang tried several times to say something, but he hesitated to say anything.I guess he still wanted to apologize or something, but it didn't make much sense.

I said, "I don't need to mention the past, it's not all because of you."

"You and Serena...now..."

"He has gone to England a few days ago, it is impossible."

Hearing what I said, Xiao Jiang's expression became more apologetic and tangled.I just smiled and patted him on the shoulder, because I didn't know what to say.

"Brother Chen, there are some things I promised not to tell you, but... I feel very uncomfortable seeing you like this, and I don't know whether I should tell you or not."

"Scattering things? You can say what you want." Xiao Jiang said a little incoherently, which made me a little dizzy.

"Actually... I went to see Serena on the second day of that night." Xiao Jiang clasped her hands together, not knowing whether it was out of nervousness or restlessness, she kept rubbing. "I explained to him what happened that night, and he said that he had guessed that this was the case, and I thought you would reconcile..."

Yes, Serena also said that it was not because of this that she broke up with me, and what happened that night was just a fuse. "Maybe he wanted to leave a long time ago, but he just missed an excuse."

"Maybe he has other reasons..."

"Maybe, inherit the company, marry that woman, and live according to his mother's expectations."

"Do you think he is the one who pursued those? You should know this."

I was silent.

"When I went there that day, I met someone at Serena's house."

"Which one?"

"When Uncle Chen came to see me...and told me not to hang out with you often, that person came with Uncle Chen. His surname seems to be Bai."

noob?Dad and Serena's family... "Where is that person's claws?"

"I don't know. When I asked Serena to come out, he was just about to leave, but Serena didn't seem to like him. He greeted Serena, but Serena ignored him. But Serena's mother was very warm to him."

I'm so stupid!How could I not think of it? !How could Dad let me and Serena develop? !How could he not intervene? !

My mind was buzzing in a mess, and a long-suppressed emotion in my body was agitated, making me unable to wait any longer.I went upstairs to say goodbye to my grandma stiffly, saying that I just came back from Beijing and I still have some things to deal with at the company.