light in the north

"Hey, come on!"

The police kept urging there, and it took too long. After all, Aaron hurt Harvey's eyes now, and his household registration is disabled after that. Now Harvey has been sent to the hospital for emergency treatment, but everyone knows that I couldn't keep my eyes.

Tan Yufan was silent there for a long time, so long that Aaron almost gave up.

"he......"

"He's dead long ago."

Aaron's breathing stopped at this moment, stuck in his throat as if blocked, unable to speak for a long time.

As if to comfort Aaron, Tan Yufan said the following words very euphemistically: "Although I didn't see him for the last time, nor did I see the action of Ying Er pulling out the instrument, but I attended his funeral."

Tan Yufan continued: "When you went there for almost a year, he was still in a vegetative state and showed no signs of waking up. Although there were rumors that his fingers and eyes moved, the doctor said it was just a conditioned reflex of the body itself. , He is still unconscious. And Ying Er took over Shen Bei's organization, at least, he said that he personally unplugged the instrument that supported him to live. Moreover, there are too few cases of vegetative people waking up, and there are not so many miracles in this world."

Pulled it out by hand... huh.

Why can he decide Shen Bei's life or death?

Lifting his pale, blood-stained fingers curled up on his mouth, Aaron unconsciously gnawed at his nails.

ya ya ya ya...

"During the funeral, we saw him scatter Shen Bei's ashes into the Yangtze River."

The Yangtze River is so turbid, why did he let him go like this.

Sprinkle it down, won't there be nothing?

why.

why?

why? !

If you sprinkle it, nothing will stay!

Countless questions attacked Aaron with anger, grief and despair. He couldn't even bite his nails with trembling hands. In the end, he could only cover his mouth and wanted to shout out, but there was only a silent gasp, castrated in his throat.

During Aaron's stay here for more than a year, every night when he was free alone, he would fantasize about Shen Bei's death over and over again in his mind, and then recall the time when he went crazy and grabbed his hair and beat him to death. When hitting the wall.Regret and pain kept his eyes open for countless nights until dawn.

And then bury it deep in his heart the next morning, just like he has done every day since he was eight years old, pretending to live a life of the walking dead.

He originally thought that he was mentally prepared to face the news of Shen Bei's death.

He had even regarded Shen Bei as a dead person in his heart before.

But when the real facts were presented to him, the man still couldn't hold on anymore.

If he hadn't confessed everything out of impulsiveness, if he had controlled himself not to kidnap him at the time, if he had let him go when he escaped in the end, Shen Bei could still be alive.

Even if they can't be together, Shen Bei is still alive.

Then he also smiled happily.

The policeman grabbed his phone and smashed it, twisted his ear and yelled beside him: "I told you to hear it soon!"

Because the police were too forceful, Aaron, who was lowering his head and biting his hands, raised his head. His eyes were tightly closed, tears flowed down his face, and his lips were slightly opened, as if shouting something. There was blood all over his hands.

Other people's blood, his blood.

Because it was too painful, I didn't even feel that my ears were knocked off.

He has lived for 20 years, and apart from death and parting, there is only endless loneliness left in his life. Why does Shangdi slap him hard every time he tries to live a good life, and then takes away everything from him? ,Everything.

He still remembers the first time he met Shen Bei, the sunlight jumping on his golden chest, the huge earrings piercing through his earrings, his rebellious expression and the viciousness of a bad boy.

He pressed his face and said, "Hand over the money."

Shen Bei never knew that his body was as irredeemably sexy as his personality.

He remembered very early on, when Shen Bei and he came back from get off work in Temptation one after the other, the first time he saw Shen Bei's tattoos, he was so hungry and thirsty that he almost rushed up to lick Shen Bei on the bus North of the skin.

He still remembered Shen Bei biting the tip of his pen irritably after he couldn't solve the math problem.

When she threw Shen Bei into the bathroom, Shen Bei rode on him jokingly, saying that he wanted to find a lady for him.

Throwing the cigarette butt away, the way someone else domineeringly pulls her tongue to kiss her.

She looked ambiguously at what he didn't say.

Also, the way she pushed him behind the school and kissed him.

The way he ran away.

The way he died in the end.

Aaron remembered every appearance in his heart. He thought he had forgotten it, but it was actually so deep in his bones.

For 20 years, he has loved three people deeply.

Mom, grandfather, Shen Bei.

Dead, all dead.He watched them gradually weaken, reach the end of their lives, and then leave without mercy.

It's all his fault.

Everything is his fault.

The matter was eventually resolved, and Aaron was put in jail, but has not yet been sentenced.The lawyer Tan Yufan hired is working hard to celebrate his sins. First, as an Asian homosexual, he suffered discrimination and oppression in school and society to arouse sympathy, so that everything can look justifiable.Moreover, Aaron was called as a witness to prove that he was attacked by the plaintiff for no reason at that time.

Then, it was proved by the testimony of his full scholarship and his professional teachers that Aaron is usually a boy with good character and academics.

In the end, the lawyer applied for a mental evaluation of him.

The results of the examination are not optimistic. The facts show that Aaron has a certain mental illness and suffers from depression, which caused him to be unconscious at all when he committed atrocities against the client.

Of course, whether this test result is true or not is unknown.

In short, the case was successfully resolved, and Aaron was released not long after. He thought he was expelled from the school, but he did not expect his case to be reported by the local newspapers. Many LGBT organizations and non-profit organizations in the Northland They all spontaneously started to support him, and hoped that the school could treat this special group more tolerantly and fairly, and also hoped that Aaron, a student with excellent grades, could be given another chance to study.

The reason given by the school is that because of Aaron's psychiatric evaluation results, if he re-enrolls, he will definitely threaten other schools. The school must ensure the safety of thousands of students in the school.

There is nothing wrong with this, so the two parties were at a stalemate for a while, and the trouble was very unpleasant.

Of course, Aaron didn't expect that his private affairs would cause trouble, and everyone knew about it.Homosexuality, sex in public, school violence, bullying, eye gouging, mental illness, handsome Asian guy with good grades.And so on. The news effect of throwing all these names on one person is very significant and worth reporting and super popular.

In the end, under pressure from the outside world, the school finally gave in and allowed Aaron and Francis to return to the school for a trial study for a month. If they failed, they had to drop out of school and never be hired.

Tan Yufan is a person who knows how to deal with affairs, and has a good relationship in the southern country, so Aaron can still predict the result of such a judgment.And the social environment, which is slightly more relaxed than that in the South, also made public opinion the driving force for him to go back to school.

These are things that Aaron can expect but is not quite able to accept.

When he knew the news of Shen Bei's death, he just wanted to stay in prison and come out after dying for decades, or never come out again.

He hasn't packed up his mood yet to face the world.

But reality always pushes him away, and reality always pushes people away.Some people were tortured to the point of madness, while others were obedient and peacefully accepted.

He's not someone, he's Aaron.

He told himself that without Shen Bei, he should still live a new life.

"Take it easy!"

In the spacious apartment, beer bottles and garbage were thrown everywhere, clothes were scattered everywhere, and the air was filled with an indescribable smell.

Francis screamed under him, but Aaron didn't listen, and Francis was so strong that he was about to cry.

His black hair was wet with sweat, and there were some tears flowing down from his forehead. He didn't know if it was tears. He closed his eyes and frowned tightly, as if he was being choked by a nightmare.

He hugged Francis tightly, feeling the warmth of his body.He wanted to heat up his body, hot enough to burn, hot enough to hurt.

He whispered someone's name in Francis' ear.

He said, "Shen Bei, I love you."

I love you.

Love you.

Francis gritted his teeth and endured the man's torture, both physically and mentally.His blue eyes sank slightly, feeling the pain without all of this.

But he knew Aaron hurt more.

He didn't understand the past of the man Aaron, and he had no reason to bear his past with Aaron.

But he has been hard to turn back.