know the enemy

When I was 16 years old, my eyes were filled with endless blue.

Uncle has a job, and aunt can't bear to take care of her body in the hospital every day. After the holiday, Lu Jia and Bai Yi take turns to take care of grandpa.

Grandpa sleeps most of the time. At his age, it is convenient to use a urinal on the bed, but he insists on going to the toilet when the two grandchildren are around.After persisting for a week, she was finally persuaded by her aunt, and Lu Jia and Bai Yi also expressed that they would not dislike her.

Grandpa still resisted in his heart, but after all, he was getting older and got up and down five or six times a day. His body couldn't bear it and he compromised.

Lu Jia remembered that there were not many clouds in the sky that day, and the sun was not strong. When he looked out the window, all he could see was blue.

He looked out of the window for a long time, only to find that his grandfather had woken up and was looking at him when he turned his head.

"Luke." Grandpa moved his fingers, as if he wanted to touch his head, but he couldn't.

Lu Jia leaned his head towards him. Grandpa smiled and patted him on the head slightly: "It's a blink of an eye..."

"……Um."

"You and Bai Yi are still fighting?" Grandpa asked.

"Nothing."

"You two always fought when you were young." Grandpa smiled as if recalling something, "Bai Yi always recruited you, but he couldn't beat you. He just wanted to attract your attention. Do you remember when you were young? You didn't talk much, and you didn't talk to anyone." Smile, you just answer when someone asks a question, Bai Yi just wants to play with you." Grandpa said with a long sigh, "Your aunt is not easy...you have to know, she loves you." He half-closed his eyes and looked at Lu Jia, as if She will fall asleep in a second, "You and Bai Yi are the same in her eyes."

Lu Jia remembered fighting when he was a child, and his aunt didn't care about it, and only punished them after the fight was over.

There is only one year difference between him and Bai Yi, one is adopted and the other is biological.If my aunt stops them in the middle of their fight, outsiders will gossip again.My aunt has my aunt's difficulties. Lu Jia didn't understand it when he was a child, but now he understands it.

In fact, when he adopted him, his uncle's family was often gossiped about.

Luke knew it all.

It's because I know that I feel bad about myself.

Whether it's uncle, aunt or Bai Yi, they all sincerely regard him as family, so naturally he is the same.

But sometimes... Sometimes he still thinks unconsciously that he should listen to his aunt more and take good care of Bai Yi, just like Bai Yi sometimes pays special attention to his mood, and his aunt sometimes takes special care of him.

These are unavoidable.

They are all careful not to touch the string, but the more they do this, the louder the vibration will be, and the more estrangement will be created.

Grandpa can see all of these things clearly. Before, he could do it himself, but in the future... who can say for sure.

That barrier won't disappear just because of his one or two words, but there's only so much he can do now.

He watched Lu Jia grow up to be 16 years old, and he will continue to grow up in the future, maybe he will become mature and sophisticated, maybe his edges and corners and smiles will be smoothed by society, or maybe he will still be the same as now, a little sun who will use his own Devotion warms others.

When I think that I can't watch you go in the future, I feel extremely sad.

But I'm really happy to think that you'll go on to grow up and be a man and be a wonderful person.

Like every parent, he watched his children grow up little by little, and they would get farther and farther away from him.

Then he will usher in the end of his own life.

Grandpa died one night.

That was the first time Luke went out at four o'clock in the morning.It turns out that the city is so dark at night, the street lamps are like lonely ghosts, standing straight on both sides of the street, the road is silent, and the night is also silent, Lu Jia heard his own heartbeat, they beat so powerfully.

The road to the hospital was long and long, Lu Jia and Bai Yi were left in the car, Father Bai firmly refused to allow them to go, locked the car door, and it was already the limit for them to follow to the hospital entrance.

Bai Yi was so angry that he smashed the glass: "Damn it! Why!"

Lu Jia held Bai Yi down: "Uncle has his own considerations, we'll wait here, we can only..."

"Fuck you! Lu Jia, is there something wrong with you?! You called us in the middle of the night, what else can you do, what can you do?!" Bai Yi cried as he spoke.

Luke let go of his hand: "I know, I know..." But what's the use of knowing.Adults have adult considerations, and it is understandable not to want them to follow the past.After all, they are children and cannot control their emotions well.

No, no... Although he could calmly analyze the reason, Lu Jia was also thinking in his heart, why, why, just because of those messy reasons, couldn't they take a last look?

The carriage was filled with Bai Yi's suppressed cries.

The feeling of powerlessness permeated his whole body, Lu Jia covered his face, his eyes were red but did not shed tears.

They waited until dawn, and Bai Mu came out tiredly with red and swollen eyes, and opened the car door for them.

No one spoke, but everyone knew the result.

Luke got out of the car and finally breathed fresh air, but felt physically and mentally exhausted.

The parents of the Bai family were busy with funeral affairs and had no time to take care of the two children. They originally wanted to send them to Bai Yi's grandma's house to stay for a few days, but Lu Jia refused. It was rare for him to say that he wanted to find a friend to stay for a few days .

Bai Mu was worried, and she didn't let go until Lu Jia said that she was going to Mu Wenran's house.

Of course Luke didn't go, he just wanted to be alone, anywhere.

Mu Wenran called him at night: "Your aunt called and said you came to my house."

Luke: "..."

Mu Wenran: "Where are people?"

Luke: "Ah... I'm at home, I'm fine. Why did you tell my aunt?"

Mu Wenran: "Say you're at my house."

Luke: "Thank you."

"You are at home?"

"Well... I just want to be alone for a while, it's okay." The eyes were blurred, and Lu Jia himself was surprised, why he suddenly cried.

After two seconds, Mu Wenran asked, "Are you crying?"

Luke let out a sigh of relief: "No."

"Yeah." Mu Wenran's voice was not very gentle, but Lu Jia felt that the voice was the source of his tears, "That's good. I'm not around, I'm a little worried if you cry."

"Oh, that's fine." Lu Jia pursed his lips and smiled, and the tears rolled down from the corners of his eyes, connecting them into lines one by one, "For my brother's sake, I will try my best not to cry."

Ten minutes later, Mu Wenran appeared at the door of Bai's house.

After hanging up the phone, Lu Jia immediately went to wash his face, and now it is almost impossible to see that he has cried.But Mu Wenran just glanced at him, and stroked the corner of his eyes with his fingers: "I've told you I'll be worried."

Luke's tears gushed out instantly as if a valve had been opened, and he covered his face with his arms: "God, who are you?"

"Mu Wenran."

Lu Jia didn't want to ask this, "Why did you come here?"

"I don't worry about you."

"Then I'll be a puppy!"

Mu Wenran was stunned for a moment, thinking of what Lu Jia said before, and crying in front of him, he is a "dog".

"I don't mind if you call twice now."

"I don't!" Lu Jia wiped away tears, "Can we not talk at the door, it's so embarrassing."

The two sat on the sofa, Mu Wenran didn't ask anything, just watched Lu Jia cry quietly.

"Can you stop looking at me?" Lu Jia picked up the textbook on the coffee table to cover his face.

"Doing homework in the afternoon?"

"School is about to start, and I haven't written much homework."

"Very good." Mu Wenran raised his hand to touch Lu Jia's head, but Lu Jia hid him.

"Everyone said don't treat me like a child..." Lu Jia sighed again, "Forget it, you won't be able to change it."

Mu Wenran's eyes darkened, and this time he finally touched Lu Jia's hair: "I said I didn't treat you like a child." I just wanted to touch him, but Mu Wenran was a little upset when he was hidden away, so I touched him too much. few times.

After a while, Luke calmed down: "I've healed myself."

Mu Wenran praised without distraction: "Excellent."

Luke: "...you can go home."

"it's dark."

"Yeah, I know, so..." Luke was halfway through speaking, thinking of something, "Are you afraid of the dark? But when you came here just now..." It was already dark.

Mu Wenran didn't change his face: "It was okay just now, but now I'm scared."

"...Who are you lying to?"

Mu Wenran got up: "Let's go."

Lu Jia hesitated to speak: "But I don't want to go to your house..." The Mu family is too big, and the surroundings are horribly quiet after nightfall. In the past, he would choose to stay because he wanted to be with Mu Wenran, but now Lu Jia himself Overwhelmed.

"Well, then I won't go." Mu Wenran said, "Let's go."

"Where are you going?" Lu Jia got up and followed Mu Wenran to the door after asking.