Eighteen bronze figures in the entertainment industry

Li Yiran quietly pinched my flesh in the show.

"Summer, it's your turn soon, what are you doing with your empty eyes? Did you really check the draft yesterday????" While other guests were telling stories, Li Yiran leaned over and leaned against me. Ears remind me.

I came back to my senses, yes, we are on a variety talk show, why am I in a daze here!

I quickly recalled what kind of program this is. By the way, this is the first variety talk show. We are talking about our campus life with other stars.

"Hurry up and get ready, it's coming to you." Li Yiran said again.

I nodded.

And this was discovered by the host, she directly skipped over the two in the middle, and led the conversation to us: "Li Yiran, Mu Xia, the two of you don't seem to be very interested in this topic, they are chatting together Whisper."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, we are also listening very carefully. We are discussing the guest's speech just now. I think it is very interesting." Impressions of others speaking, although we are...

The host handed the microphone to Li Yiran facelessly: "Are you really discussing? I'm afraid Li Yiran doesn't have much experience with campus life, right? I remember you once said that you seem to have started acting in high school. It seems that the last time you were in A program said that most of the student days were spent on the set."

Li Yiran corrected, "You haven't watched that show, have you? As I said later, I'm actually a child actor, and I've been acting since I was very young. I don’t know. By the time everyone has an impression of me, it will probably be my college drama. And before I was said to be popular, I feel that I have finally become popular.”

"That's right." The host smiled awkwardly.

Li Yiran is very frank: "When it comes to campus life, I don't have much experience. It's boring to study all the time. I always think so. But some people find it very interesting. Maybe it's different from my school. Just now the guest said that the part of studying , The ancient texts in the textbook were adapted into a humorous version by the classmates, although I don’t like reading very much, but I also find it very interesting.”

The host said: "You feel that reading is boring all the time. Is it because you are enjoying the youthful love wholeheartedly? That is one of the main themes of adolescence."

Li Yiran shook her head: "No, I'm so busy making money that I don't have time to think about it."

The host turned petrified. I thought that if Li Yiran answered in an uninterested manner again, I was afraid that her image would be completely ruined. I remembered Secretary Meng's advice and quickly interjected:

"Li Yiran entered the entertainment industry too early. In fact, she may not have thought of socializing so early. I think most people in the entertainment industry find it difficult to enjoy ordinary life."

The host seized the opportunity to shift the topic to me: "What about Mucha, didn't you enjoy the campus life well?"

I nodded: "I like college life very much."

The guests next to him booed: "It must be because of a sweet relationship. University is used to fall in love."

I smiled: "There is no sweet love, just a secret love, just a plain secret love."

I don't know if my words touched the host's mind, but she actually stopped here: "Secret love is the same... Sometimes I will do stupid things that I can't even imagine. After struggling for a few days, I realized that I was being self-indulgent."

There seems to be a commonality between the crushes, and I couldn't help but say to myself: "I accidentally did such a childish thing as destroying plants."

"Destroying plants?" I underestimated my volume or someone else's hearing, and everyone turned this way.

"Nothing, nothing, you continue." I panicked. "I'm sorry for the director, please cut this paragraph, I'm sorry..."

"However, I'm quite curious. Can you tell me more about it? We still have a lot of time, and it's not too late to hear a story." The host said.

Strange, such a program shouldn't be curious about the stories of little coffee like us at all, shouldn't it be more topical?

The host noticed my hesitation: "It's okay, the director will cut it anyway, it's just out of my personal curiosity. In addition, it's good to have routine interviews every day, and occasionally chat about other things."

I nodded: "At that time, I was debating whether to confess my confession. I originally said to break a branch and pull out the leaves on it. It was the kind of game of odd and even numbers that told her and didn't tell her. In the end, I broke a lot of branches and pulled out the leaves. all afternoon, and was severely reprimanded by the aunt who cleaned the campus..."

"Yes, yes, I did this too, but I picked flower petals." Another guest said, "Another time, I secretly hid the opponent's unwashed team uniform and smelled it. Now that I think about it, it's really true." Not an ordinary pervert."

"What are you? I was too shy after confessing for the first time in my life. I wanted to hide after I finished speaking, but I rushed into the men's bathroom by mistake. There was a row of men who were hissing in front of me. It was nothing short of amazing." The originally lifeless scene seemed With vitality, everyone chattered about it.

Listening to other people talking about their embarrassing things, memories of the past flooded back.

Spring outings in spring, cave exploration in summer, fallen leaves in early autumn, and plush gloves in winter, we have played together, laughed, and walked through many seasons hand in hand, and we regard each other as the most important friends...

"Has the confession been accepted?" the host asked me.

I shook my head: "I didn't confess, the other party distanced itself from me, and fell in love with someone else later. I guess it was at that time that she discovered my liking for her."

I think of the original song by an unknown guitarist I heard at the passing university music festival, the hoarse singing voice that floated from afar: You said you just accidentally remembered, remembered those pasts, and said with a smile that the title is just too lonely, it’s just like a friend sad.

"Ah, it's a pity. In fact, it takes a lot of courage to choose to confess, and there may be nothing in the end."

I nodded: "But when you have nothing, you will have courage. Anyway, you are dead."

The host seems to have always been obsessed with my story: "Then is there still contact with the person who confessed now?"

I thought for a while and said, "Yes."

"what happened."

"After she broke up with someone else, she was in a difficult situation, and we were friends again. I told her that I had given up on that."

From then on, I didn't dare to guess her thoughts again, and I didn't dare to express my feelings, afraid of being discovered again, and afraid that the recovered friends would disappear again.

"Did you really give up?"

"...I don't want to lose her, I can't leave her alone," I said.

Hey, when I think about it, I really feel contradictory. On the one hand, the last thing I want is to break up with Jiang Yilan, but on the other hand, if it is for her happiness, I can bear my loneliness and stand in the place of my friend. , even strangers when necessary.

"It sounds like I still like it, but it turns out that I don't like it. Why are you so awkward?"

"She doesn't like my words, and she doesn't want the two of them to be embarrassed. Of course, at that time, she was also trying to give up that love, but it seemed that she could only hide it and force herself not to think about it. There was no way. completely eradicated."

"What's next, what's going on next?" The host seemed fascinated by it.

I sighed: "Then we just got along like this, and occasionally she would say something that is easy to make people think wrong, and I all thought it was because I was thinking too much again, and the relationship just kept going like this. Then something happened, I found out that she did something that I hated, but it was for my good, which was the most unacceptable thing, and then, she needed my help in the work she was doing , I will help her first, and I plan to put aside emotional matters first."

"Can you hold it?"

"I didn't let it go, because the love I still want to hear her heart, and because she never tells me, but this desire to know is even stronger." I said, "But she accused me That's right, I don't say it when it's critical, alas, how do I tell her what I have in my heart, do I dare to say this love..."

"It's so cruel, but why does she seem to be forcing you? Could it be that he found out again and wants to stay away from you?" The host's hurt expression...

"Well, not really, it feels like she is pushing me, aware of my feelings. But I think it's mainly because we hide something from each other, our relationship has become not so good, a lot of things and a lot of things are heard There will be bad feelings in my ears. There is already a gap between us, and we can’t go back to the past by force, it will only get worse. If you can’t face yourself honestly, you can’t speak honestly , to really express ourselves, then even if we pretend as if everything has passed, but that kind of peace will not last long, and we will feel that it is a false feeling when we talk, and our hearts will become far away, and they will definitely become farther and farther away Yes. So, if we let the situation continue, we will definitely separate again... And our relationship has always made me not optimistic. Although I say optimistic words on my lips, I know in my heart, in fact, deep down in my heart... …I don’t understand her less and less, and maybe one day I don’t understand her at all. But I don’t want that.”

"Well, even friends will share their troubles anyway, which sounds pretty bad." The host said.

What I was afraid from the beginning to the end was that we could not even maintain the relationship of friends, and we would become familiar strangers again.

I thought silently in my heart that I didn’t dare to confess because I was afraid that my friends would not be able to do it, but when the relationship gradually became distant and blurred, when I had a premonition that my friends would not be able to do it, I confessed for the same reason, hoping to hear what I could do. It's ironic to continue.But it's better than our unclear separation, and the current situation can't guarantee that we can go on and stay together forever.If I don't even have to be friends, then my entanglement doesn't make much sense.

I smiled wryly: "Okay, okay, stop poking my heart, let's talk about other things, otherwise the show is not long enough, and the time to edit it is too short."

However, this confession did not end anything. She made another incredible decision. She decided to continue to replace Jiang Qi, which made me feel like a useless bystander who was only informed after the decision.Now the only thing I can rely on is the sentence asking me to wait for her.Maybe this is the last hope in my heart, maybe I can say it then.

After the show, Li Yiran said to me backstage: "Your story sounds really soul-stirring."

I smiled wryly: "Don't be sarcastic about me, this is simply a feeling of being so petty and playing tricks to death, okay?"

"But you said just now that you liked to pick leaves when you confessed in college, right?"

"What's wrong."

"It's nothing, I just suspect that you are going to confess again today."

I paused while I was packing up: "Who said that? Why did you suddenly have this idea."

She pointed to my left cuff: "There."

I turned my cuff and saw that it was a very small leaf, I don't know when it fell into my cuff.

I stretched out my hand to pick it out, feeling a little unbelievable: "...the wind brought it."

"The wind in spring is really troublesome." Li Yiran closed her eyes and waited for the makeup artist to clean her eyelashes. "At three o'clock in the afternoon, there is another program. Don't be dazed during the program. Your worried face is too obvious. The camera You can't lie to me."

"En, I see." I gently twirled its leaf stalk, how could I not be annoyed when I saw Qin Yue's affairs, should I tell her.

Why is he in the elevator?It is impossible for the employees of the company. If he has been working in the company for a long time, he is so handsome, and many female subordinates will definitely talk about him, but they don't.Besides, didn't he go abroad? I thought about it. Secretary Meng said that the company has recently expanded and is getting better and better, so it is very likely that new artists will need to be added... Could it be that he was recruited by scouts from outside?

At this time, the phone rang.

I glanced at the name, stepped out of the backstage, and picked up the phone at the end of the cold aisle.

"Jiang Yilan?"