middle aged

Qi Yunze remembered that he heard his father chanting the word "midlife crisis" when he was in high school, but he never expected that he would start this experience himself so soon. Looking at the fine lines slowly creeping up on the corners of his eyes in the mirror, and kneading his cervical spine, which was aching from time to time, Yunze gave a wry smile, the "midlife crisis" really came.

Born in 1984, he was actually only 35 or six years old, but Yunze felt that he was getting old.In the eyes of outsiders, although Qi Yunze's life may not be regarded as rich and powerful, it can be regarded as smooth sailing.From elementary school to high school, he was among the best in grades all the way, admitted to famous majors in key universities, and then continued to study for graduate students.After graduating successfully, the only entanglement is whether to stay in this golden treasure land crowded with everyone, or return to Z City, the hometown of that small third-tier city to live in peace.However, before he was struggling for a few days, news came from his family that his father had found a good relationship and arranged for him to go to the largest state-owned enterprise in his hometown to work in production management.The professional counterparts, the salary is good, the working hours are fixed, the nature of the work is also very decent, and the housing prices in my hometown are not high.Therefore, although he was a little bit reluctant to leave this tempting city, he still packed his luggage firmly and mailed it back to the small northern city where he had lived for 18 years.

Back home, everything is a step-by-step life, eating, sleeping, and working. Yunze still remembers that when he first started working, there was still a fire in his bones, and he still had the pride and unruly youth.I always feel that my academic qualifications and my school have a high starting point. As long as I work hard, it will only be a matter of time before I make it to the top.However, in just two or three years, the reality taught him that the job his father relied on for him was just an iron rice bowl, and it could only ensure that he was struggling a little bit on the line of food and clothing. The unspoken rules of state-owned enterprises are in everyone's mind There are a lot of them, but you don’t have strong relationships and contacts. If you want to be in the top position, unless your communication skills are among the best.However, with a background in engineering, he can only be silent and quiet when facing the comings and goings at the wine table, and just be that person who doesn't stand out and doesn't show his head.Watching those second generations with average skills and strong background slowly fill up the carrot hole in the leadership.The fire in his heart was extinguished, there might be a little spark here and there, but he knew in his heart that it couldn't burn anymore.

Two years after working, Yunze finally brought a girl home to meet her parents under her mother's intensive blind date arrangements. She was very quiet and not fussy. Like all girls of this age, she had passed the age of chasing idols. Follow the trend to buy some cosmetics, like to take pictures, like to travel, like to eat delicious snacks that are not expensive but can also be posted in the circle of friends.Yunze thinks that she is quite good and suitable for marriage. Although it can't be said that she loves her very much, whoever said that getting married requires a life-and-death love.

The girl's name is Xiaoman, just like her name, easy to coax, easy to satisfy, life after marriage is simple and ordinary, the husband and wife both work in the so-called "system", fixed salary, three points and one line life.In the second year after marriage, Xiaoman gave birth to their son—Qi Han, and in the fifth year after marriage, they had another daughter. Yun Ze doted on the little daughter very much and named her Qi Beibei.This family of four is not harmonious.Others often say that this is the way of life, his wife and children are hot on the bed, and Yunze always tells himself that, life is pretty good now, stable and peaceful.However, on many nights, he would toss and turn and couldn't fall asleep. Gradually, when he couldn't sleep, he would go out to light a cigarette.

It was another quiet autumn night. It was past two o'clock in the morning. Qi Yunze woke up in the middle of his sleep as usual. He walked out the door lightly, got on the elevator, and came to the rooftop where he would step on almost every night. He shook his head. In an attempt to block the cool autumn night wind, he took out a lighter from his pocket, blocked the wind with his hand, and lit a red Nanjing. After giving birth to his second child, Su Yan, who was used to smoking, let him If it is changed, it will save some for the sake of the children.Every night like this, when nicotine flows from his lungs to his blood along with the lingering smoke, he can see that person, with the same smile as ten years ago, standing there and watching meaningfully. He seemed to be asking him: "How are you doing lately?" After one cigarette was finished, the man disappeared like mist, Qi Yunze rubbed his hands, the wind in early autumn could chill his bones for a while , but it's better to be colder, at least let him recognize what reality looks like.

Until now, Qi Yunze still clearly remembers the first time he saw that person. It was an ordinary morning. At dawn, he came out of the tube building with his schoolbag on his back when he was a teenager. In the morning, the desolate fallen leaves in late autumn, the old man sweeping the street, and the hot white smoke coming out of the cage drawer of the bun shop on the street.And that blind guy, riding a bicycle at the intersection 2 minutes away from the school, knocked himself over all of a sudden.More than ten years later, Qi Yunze once thought that if he had gone out earlier or later that morning, perhaps his life would not have so many worries.

"Student, classmate, let me go, let me go, my car's brakes are not working." It was too late, and there was a bang, and a car and a person collided tragically.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, classmate, are you okay?" It was the first time Yunze heard his voice, he was flustered and his voice was a little hoarse due to nervousness, Yunze raised his head, and the late autumn sun came out later than before, but it was also It doesn't prevent Yunze from seeing an ordinary face. Boys of that era would have cut hair. Under the thick glasses, there are a pair of dull and lifeless eyes. The face is flushed due to hormone imbalance. Acne, the teeth are quite white, but there is even a trace of green vegetable leaves between the front teeth!He was a little flustered and wanted to reach out his hand to help Yunze up, but Yunze became a little annoyed at this moment. On such a good morning, he was bumped into by a stranger like this, and he was still bumped into such a mess. Standing up, he patted the hand that the man reached out to help him: "Next time you ride a bike, open your eyes wider! Are such thick glasses for nothing!" After finishing speaking, he turned around and entered the school gate, the man with glasses was biting Biting his lip, he picked up the bicycle that was lying on the side, "The brakes don't work, I should fix it earlier, I didn't do it on purpose, it's really fierce." He followed others silently as he muttered. Flow into the school gate.

"Qi Yunze, did you become a thief early in the morning? How did you become like this!" Li Wei asked meanly at the same table, one hand fiddled with the dusty patches on Qi Yunze's upper body school uniform, eyes full of disgust, " Or are you leading a new trend?" Li Wei teased with a hippie smile.

"Go away, you shit-minded guy, you were bumped into by a blind man when you were about to enter the school gate, the school uniform that was just washed yesterday, and you will probably have to be nagged by your mother when you go back, don't worry about it. mess with me!"

"Okay, okay, my young master, I can just shut up, and I will copy the math homework, and I promise not to say a word." Li Wei said, making a zipper movement on his mouth, Yun Ze He took out the math homework from his schoolbag and threw it to him, lying on the table, staring at the blackboard in a daze.

"Li Wei! Stop the homework for me!" The sharp voice immediately quieted the chaotic class. This perverted head teacher likes to sneak in through the back door, sitting at the back door Li Wei, who was working hard to copy, was caught by her!

Watching the class teacher snatch the homework from Li Wei's hand, "It's over, it's over," Yun Ze said in his heart, "I was bumped before I entered the school, and now I'm arrested. Why am I so unlucky today?"

"Qi Yunze, Li Wei, you two, come to my office after class, and I've told you several times that your left ear goes in and your right ear goes out, so ignore my words, right?" The young head teacher, Teacher Li, gave them both a blank look. , I walked up to the podium on my own.

"Some students like to copy their homework, and some students like to be copied by others. For the homework I assign, I either don't write it, or I write it myself! Starting today, whether it is copying homework or copying homework for others, All homework for the day must be rewritten ten times!" The classroom was quiet for a while, but Yunze still silently heard the voices of the students breaking down, she was obviously a fair-looking, beautiful teacher with good facial features, but this face matched her. An impatient temper, coupled with the fact that she has just joined the work and is eager to make achievements, this beautiful teacher is even more strict with her own students. The students in Class 3 ([-]) of Senior High all secretly call her Li Gengnian, this firecracker The normal temper is even worse than that of menopausal women.No, I don't know which muscle was wrong this morning, poor Qi Yunze and Li Wei became the first to ignite this firecracker.Yunze lay listlessly on the table, hey, could this morning be any more unlucky.