middle aged

Compared with other people, the Chinese New Year to Mo Fanfan is actually not much different from other days, but in a year, and only on this day, he can have a New Year's Eve dinner with his biological father as he should .

When I first arrived in Japan a few years ago, I don’t know if it was because of my youthful vigor. Although my biological father tried to persuade me to stay, Mo Pingfan still went back to S City every Spring Festival to spend with his grandparents and aunts. Later, my grandfather went to Japan. , Grandma gradually became confused. After Bai Ning of his aunt's family got married, he only made a special trip to visit grandma after the second day of the Lunar New Year.And every New Year's Eve and the first day of the new year, I spent it with my father as it should.

Mo Pingfan didn't really know his father very well, other than his name being Mo Hua and the industry he was in, what color he liked, rice or noodles, salty or sweet, Mo Pingfan didn't know anything about it.As for his relatives on his father's side, Mo Fanfan was even more unwilling to find out.In his memory, since Mo Hua and Li Meiqi divorced, he had never seen his father's relatives again.

In fact, if you think about it with your toes, you can know the reason. At that time, there was a pervert who liked men in the family. Even the biological parents would avoid it, let alone the child born of this pervert?

Indeed, his father's departure was not for his career or any other woman, but for a Japanese man - Matsumoto.

However, the irony is that the pervert who abandoned his wife and son in favor of men back then gave birth to a son who was still a pervert who liked men.Mo Fanfan often thinks this way, genes are really a magical thing, can even sexual orientation be inherited?

On New Year's Eve, although the Lunar New Year in Japan is not as lively as in China, at least three of the four people in a room are outright Chinese.Mo Hua cooked six hot dishes, mixed four cold dishes, and asked Matsumoto to take out the Moutai that had been hidden for a long time. Mo Pingfan and Matsumoto Hui helped Mo Hua in the kitchen, after half an afternoon of tossing , This New Year's Eve dinner was finally made.

After Mo Fanfan poured wine for Mo Hua, Matsumoto Tian, ​​and Matsumoto Hui in turn, the four toasted together, and the annual reunion dinner officially began.

After three rounds of drinking, Mo Pingfan has already blushed a little. He doesn't drink well, but today, I don't know if it's Chinese New Year or something, but he drank a little freely. After toasting this and that, he drank a full glass every time .Even Mo Hua was a little surprised, could it be that his son has become better at drinking after staying in the country for half a year?

Matsumoto Hui who was on the side could see it clearly. This is not because he is good at drinking, but he is clearly using alcohol to relieve his sorrow.Seeing that Mo Fanfan was drinking another full glass, Matsumoto Hui felt that he had gone too far, and hurriedly stopped him: "Xiaofan, don't drink it, no matter how delicious this Moutai is, it's not what you drink it for."

Mo Pingfan ignored him, poured another cup on his own, looked at Matsumoto, he was a little bit up, and he saw a double image, it seemed that there were two Matsumotos overlapping in front of him, but the shadows could not coincide to go together.Mo Fanfan shook his head, as if the person in front of him became clearer, he raised the wine in the glass: "Mr. Matsumoto, this glass is toast to you." Before he finished speaking, he raised his head again, and the wine glass completely bottomed out.Seeing Mo Pingfan like this, Matsumoto had no reason not to drink. He raised his neck and downed a glass of white wine.

"Teacher Matsumoto, actually I have a question I've been wanting to ask you for a long time." With blurred eyes, Mo Fanfan tried to fix Matsumoto in a still place within his field of vision: "When you were with him back then," Mo Fanfan pointed to Mo Hua next to Matsumoto: "Do you feel sorry for my mother and me?"

As soon as the words were finished, Matsumoto Hui exclaimed in his heart that it was not good. Sure enough, Matsumoto and Mo Hua's faces were so ugly that they were dying. For a moment, there was no sound at the dinner table, and the air condensed to freezing point.

"Well, haha, Xiaofan drank too much, I'll help him to rest." Matsumoto Hui felt that the atmosphere was really weird, so he wanted to drag Mo Fanfan to leave first.

"Brother, I'm very sober." Freed from Matsumoto Teru's hand that wanted to lift his shoulders, he looked straight at Matsumotoda. I just wanted to ask Matsumoto, but he has been bored in his heart for so many years, and under the current situation, he really can't hold back.

Matsumoto looked directly into Mo Fanfan's eyes and sat up straight. He is not a cold and unsociable person, but this young man in his 30s is the biological son of his lifelong lover to him. Mo Fanfan, Matsumoto wants to love him, just like his adopted son Teru Matsumoto. In his eyes, no matter how old they are, they are like children.But ever since Mo Pingfan was taken back from China by Mo Hua, he has always had a veiled hostility towards Matsumoto.It was more obvious in the first few years. In these years, I don't know if the child has matured or what, the edge of this hostility has gradually been hidden.But hiding it doesn't mean that the hostility doesn't exist anymore. Today, the child finally asked the question he always wanted to ask.

"At that time, I really felt sorry for both of you, mother and son." Matsumoto's voice was deep and thick, perhaps because he had been working in China in his early years. His Mandarin sounded very standard, and there was hardly any strangeness. accent.

"Then why do we still have to break up our family?" A mist rose from Mo Fanfan's eyes, and Matsumoto in front of him seemed a little blurry, but he still tried his best to lock his figure in the blurred vision.

"..." Matsumoto didn't speak, and looked at Mo Pingfan quietly. After a long time, he finally opened his mouth: "Ping Ping, what I'm going to say next may hurt your feelings, are you sure you want to listen?" Hua winked at herself vigorously, but Matsumoto continued on.

"At that time, he was not happy, although at that time, from the perspective of others, your family was extremely harmonious. He taught at a university, your mother had a stable job, and you, who were born so lovingly at that time , but since we met, Mo Hua has only found his true self, beside me, he can show the happiest smile from the bottom of his heart, which your mother can't give him no matter what."

"What about me? Am I just your victim at that time?!"

"After your parents divorced, Mo Hua never let you go. Your mother wouldn't let him in, so he secretly watched you through the fence of your kindergarten. Later, when you went to elementary school, he didn't even know that your mother let him in. Which elementary school you went to, none of the relatives in the family were willing to talk to him anymore, so he looked for the elementary schools near your home one by one, and looked at them one by one through the railings. He ran to find your mother, I almost knelt down to her, but..." Matsumoto paused and sighed: "You know your mother's temperament best, she is too stubborn, how could you let your father get closer to you? Later, Your father suffered from severe depression. I really couldn’t see it. I almost forcibly brought him back to Japan from China. After that, you know, you have grown up, and I don’t want to say anything more, just a little , if you want to hate someone for what happened back then, don’t hate your father, just hate me, he only loves you, but when you were young, he didn’t have the chance to love you.”

After finishing speaking, Mo Pingfan on the opposite side had already burst into tears. After many years, the scar in his heart was once again uncovered by himself, and the surging pus and blood ruthlessly devoured his long-gone body.Hui Matsumoto dragged Mo Pingfan away from the table, and settled in the guest bedroom of Mo Hua's house. After wiping his hands and face with hot water, he fed him some water. Mo Pingfan who was lying on the bed seemed to have recovered. Some rationality: "Brother, is the path I choose now the same as Teacher Matsumoto back then?"

Teru Matsumoto was stunned for a moment: "Xiaofan, after all, you and Mr. Matsumoto are not the same, and the current era is different from 20 years ago, so why do you bother yourself?"

"You know, every time Qi Yunze is with me, I always feel like a thief in my heart. I know it's wrong for us to do this, but why can't I quit him?"

"If feelings are so easy to quit, then the world will be so inhuman. You drink too much, take a rest."

After turning off the light in the second bedroom, Mo Fanfan in the dark gradually fell asleep under the hypnosis of alcohol.

In the dining room, Matsumoto helped Mo Hua clean up the leftovers on the table, seeing Matsumoto Hui coming out of the second bedroom, Mo Hua called him over to the restaurant.

"Xiaofan, what happened when he came back this time? It seems something is wrong"

"Teacher, you know, there is always someone in Xiaofan's heart that he can't forget."

"I know, what is it called Yunze, I heard him mention it once, he was his classmate when he was studying in Z City."

"He went back to City Z this time to try his luck to see if he could be found."

"I know, but the probability is too low. Apart from the name, Xiao Fan hardly knows the background of this person. Besides, after so many years, is this person still in City Z..."

"It just happened to happen to him." With a wry smile, Matsumoto Hui interrupted Mo Hua's words a bit presumptuously.

"...It happened?" Mo Hua didn't believe what Matsumoto Hui said at all: "How is it possible, the population in the country is so large, even a small city has a population of one million..."

"Teacher, the most terrible thing is that Qi Yunze is already married and has a child, but Xiaofan can't see through it, and he is determined not to come back. He is still entangled with that person. I persuaded him, but you know his temperament, where is it? Such a good advice."

Mo Hua can't say that he has a good understanding of his son's temperament, but he can also get a glimpse of it from his own and his mother's temperament. He still remembers how stubborn he was when he was determined to be with Matsumoto. Chu, he can clearly see how Li Meiqi stubbornly raised Mo Fanfan after the divorce. He and his late woman who have been dead for many years are used to persistence and perseverance. They never give up easily. How can a child born by a person learn the principle of choosing between advances and retreats, and letting go at the right time?

But even if this stubbornness persists to the end, the result is that someone will still be injured. In the stories of their older generation, Mo Fanfan was the one who was injured. In the stories of this generation, the victim chose to start hurting others. that person.