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"Teacher, let me do it." Yan Nan took Mo Pingfan's left hand, involuntarily untied his messy bandages to find clues, and peeled off layer by layer. Mo Fanfan put his left hand on his knee.

Mo Fanfan gradually felt that something was wrong with the atmosphere. Under the light yellow and warm light, the small apartment was so quiet that even the sound of a needle falling could be heard. Yan Nan picked up the cotton swab on the coffee table and dipped it in the medicine beside it. , carefully dabbing on the burnt part of Mo Pingfan's left hand, the burn blisters from last night had already shrunk, but the full skin collapsed and stuck to the skin, it looked soft and sticky, somewhat Make people uncomfortable.Yan Nan applied the wound carefully, trying to cover every part of the wound with the ointment. I don't know if the ointment contained anti-inflammatory ingredients. When the ointment touched the deepest part of the wound, Mo Pingfan "teared... " with a soft sound.

"Teacher, I'm sorry, my hands are heavy." Yan Nan raised his head and looked at him with guilt.

"It's okay, the medicine will always touch the wound." Mo Pingfan smiled, Yan Nan lowered his head and continued to apply the medicine for him, but Mo Pingfan's heart was like a well drawing water, fluttering.

If he was a straight man who liked women, he would never think too much about the students drugging him, but he is a pure gay who is not interested in women at all, a young, strong, handsome man in Medication to him in the small apartment at night, the image alone makes people think about it.What's more, just now Yan Nan raised his head to look at his eyes, Mo Pingfan couldn't be more familiar with them, the ambiguous, shy and ignorant hormones in his eyes, he had seen in Qi Yunze's eyes when he was young, when he was in Japan, and also in other places I have seen it with the eyes of a man, but at this moment, Mo Pingfan can't think about it at all. Yan Nan's eyes make him afraid. This child, could it be...?

"Buzz—buzz—" the screen of Yan Nan's phone in his right trouser pocket lit up, and the phone, which was set to vibrate, vibrated left and right in his pocket.Yan Nan took out the mobile phone with one hand, and continued to apply medicine to Mo Fanfan with a cotton swab in the other hand. After seeing the caller's name, he directly disconnected the phone and put it upside down on Mo Fanfan's small coffee table.

"Om———" Obviously, the other party was very dissatisfied with his behavior of hanging up the phone, and continued to call.

Yan Nan didn't look at the phone for a while, and directly pressed the power button on the side twice, and the phone hung up again.

As a result, within a minute, the phone continued to vibrate again.

"Yan Nan? Aren't you going to pick it up?" Seeing that Yan Nan was about to continue to press the phone again, Mo Fanfan hurriedly asked: "Maybe the other party is very anxious to find you?"

"No..." Saying that, Yan Nan hung up the phone again, this time simply shutting down the phone.

"What's the matter?" Seeing that Yan Nan's expression was not good, Mo Pingfan asked. Yan Nan lowered his head and did not speak, but silently wrapped up Mo Pingfan's hand with new gauze. Yes, it is even more tidy than the young nurse in the school hospital.

After a long time, Yan Nan said: "It's my mother..."

"Then why don't you accept it?"

"She divorced my father and is going to go abroad recently. She has always wanted to take me abroad, but I don't want to go out."

"...But if you don't answer the phone like this, she will worry about you, right?"

"Huh?" Yan Nan sneered: "She won't worry about me. Since I was a child, she has hardly cared about me. At that time, she only knew that the business field came and went. When I was young, I often I can’t see her, even if I do see her sometimes, it’s just like she’s drunk and going crazy at home.”

Yan Nan opened the can of Coke that Mo Fanfan handed him just now, took a sip, put the can on the coffee table, and remained silent for a long time.

"Yan Nan,... If you are unhappy, you can tell the teacher if you want."

Yan Nan turned her head, looked at Mo Pingfan, twitched the corners of her mouth, and a smile that was uglier than crying hung on his face. : "Teacher, look at me like this, do you think it's hypocritical for me to be a big man who is still entangled in the matter of my own mother?"

"No, everyone will experience a lot of ups and downs in the process of growing up. It's normal to have some knots that can't be solved when they grow up." Mo Fanfan said, he himself is different, the shadow of childhood haunts like a ghost Him, make him unable to extricate himself.

"Heart knot? Humph" Yan Nan snorted again, and then said: "Mr. Mo, other than you, I only said these words to a good friend I grew up with. My mother brought it to me. It's never been so simple. You know, we in Inner Mongolia like to drink. No matter men or women, we have to drink half a catty before talking about things. Although my mother is a native Mongolian, she can't drink. It doesn’t work, so I often go home drunk like mud. In fact, it would be better for me if she drank unconscious every time, but she often drinks until she has the strength to squirm, but she has no brains to remember things. When I was eight or nine years old, she hit me for the first time when she was drunk and hit me on the back with a clothes rack. Later, she became more and more serious. Once she threw me with a high chair and smashed my head. She doesn't know anything yet, and I still have a scar on the top of my head."

Yan Nan talked calmly without emotion, as if these things happened to others and had nothing to do with him, but Mo Pingfan couldn't sit still.

"Your mother was abusing children at that time, what about your father? Don't you care?"

"My dad?" Yan Nan sneered, his voice was as cold as snow, and he couldn't hear any emotion or temperature: "My dad is a small leader in our city, he doesn't earn much, and he doesn't have much power. Mom's business is booming. Some people have said that my dad is a little man and eats soft food. My dad can't stand it. He found a woman outside. When I was very young, he ignored me. If it wasn't for my dad, he would still be As a petty official, the negative impact of divorce is relatively large, he has already walked away, and he will not care about my life at all."

"...Then who has taken care of you all these years?"

"My mother earns a lot of money, and the family hired an aunt to cook. After so many years, I would not starve to death. At that time, I liked to go to my neighbor's house. There was a child in his family who was about my age. When I was young, After being beaten, I like to run to the corner of their house to meow like a cat, and he will bring me some snacks like marshmallows. Sometimes when I get seriously injured, no one takes me to the hospital, and he steals it. He took gauze and iodophor from home to disinfect and bandage me, but when I was 13 years old, they moved away with my family, and I never saw him again."

"Is he the only friend who knows about your past?"

"Yes, after he left, if I was injured again, I had to bandage myself. However, I grew to more than 14 meters when I was 1.7 years old. My mother couldn't beat me when she drank too much. At that time , as long as she drank too much, I would take money and keys to hang out, sometimes find an Internet cafe for the night, and sometimes go to a classmate to sleep for a night. Later, in my third year of high school, my dad quit the second line, since There is no hope for his official career, he simply filed for divorce with my mother, and went to live with that woman. I saw him and that woman once in a small park when I was sixteen, with a little girl, baby No, that woman probably gave birth to him. Hmph." Yan Nan smiled coldly, but in his knife-like eyes, Mo Pingfan could see some bitterness and tears.

He had never realized that this sturdy child had suffered so much before, even though his parents were by his side, just having such parents was a burden.Mo Fanfan looked at his neatly bandaged left hand. This was a technique he had practiced after bandaging himself many times, and how much he had suffered since he was a child.

"Since my father filed for divorce, my mother also agreed, but she seemed to suddenly realize that after my father left, she only had me as a relative, and then she began to treat me differently, but I know her What kind of idea is in her mind? She just wants me to support her in retirement. My mother has never loved anyone else. She is the only one in her life. Everything she does seems to be good for me. Things are almost all for her future plans. So I deliberately confronted her. I applied for Z University, which is far away from home, and I don’t want her money. Teacher Mo, in fact, my scores could be admitted to better ones at that time. From the school, I came to Z University only because Z University can give me a full scholarship." Yan Nan looked at Mo Pingfan and said, although those eyes were still tough, but Mo Pingfan could see that when he mentioned his mother, he was still The trembling hands may be the residual fear after years of abuse.

In fact, after several experiments with Yan Nan, Mo Pingfan could see that this child is very smart, has a strong ability to operate experiments, and has good memory and logical thinking skills. is not prominent.

"After I went to university, my mother still sent me a lot of money every month, but I never touched the card she gave me. Now she wants to move part of her business to Australia, and she plans to immigrate there, so Recently, he called me every day and asked me to study in Australia." Yan Nan smiled wryly: "Mr. Mo, do you know that my father didn't even ask about the whole thing, as if he didn't have my son." Yan Nan Staring at the coke can on the coffee table, he smiled wryly, picked up the coke in one hand, and took a few more sips. The can of coke was empty, and he squeezed the empty can with his hands as if venting his anger. Like a deflated balloon, he squeezed it into a piece of paper.

Mo Fanfan understands that the pain caused by his mother's abuse since he was a child is not as good as the pain caused by his father's indifference, just like when he was very young, his father dragged the suitcase and left the house in his memory. Like a curse, even now, it occasionally appears in his ghostly nightmares.If what Yan Nan's mother gave him was physical abuse, then what his father gave him was mental abuse.Mo Pingfan has a deep understanding of the feeling of being abandoned by his blood relatives, and he will never forget this feeling in his life.

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