middle aged

Shen Xiangqian was startled suddenly, the seemingly polite and serious teacher Mo was arguing with a man at the north exit of this remote teaching building, arguing?He immediately stopped in his tracks, poked his head halfway between the stairs, and while listening to bits and pieces, he took out his mobile phone and called Yan Nan.

"Brother Nan, Brother Nan, there is big news"

"What's the big news? It's already a holiday, what else is going on in the school?" Yan Nan, who had just finished working, rode a bicycle into the gate of Z University

"Our teacher, Mo, got pulled over by someone at the north exit of the teaching building next to the college. I don't know what's going on. Hey, hey, it seems that a fight is about to start. Brother Nan, do you think I should help?"

"Stay there and watch. If the problem with your small body is not serious, hide away first. I'll be there in 2 minutes!" Yan Nan hung up the phone and climbed on the mountain bike that was just bought from the second-hand market. He couldn't care less about this car because he couldn't care less about it now. He stepped on the pedals with all his strength, and the bicycle rushed forward. Fortunately, there were not many students during the holidays. The original three-four-minute drive, he It's there in less than 4 minutes.

Shen Xiangqian hid aside, seeing that their teacher was at a disadvantage, and just about to jump out to help, he saw Brother Nan throwing his bicycle and rushing over, pushing the person who was arguing with Teacher Mo away, and then completely killing Teacher Mo. behind him.

The angry expression on Yan Nan's face was scary. At least Shen Xiangqian had known him for so long and had never seen him show such an expression to anyone. Shen Xiangqian had seen that expression on his father's face when he was young. When the peddler and the urban management had conflicts before, his father also used his small body similar to his to protect the **** so tightly.Shen Xiangqian never thought that this scene would be repeated today, let alone Yan Nan and Teacher Mo.

Shen Xiangqian is not a person who will devote his mind to school and study, but his ability to read people's faces and guess people's minds is first-rate. Based on his understanding of Yan Nan, even though he is a loyal and loyal person Man, it is impossible for a male teacher to respect his teacher to the point of protecting his calf, even Yan Nan.There is only one possibility for a man to have that expression of don't enter when he is protecting the people behind him. A strange idea emerges from Shen Xiangqian's mind. This idea is so terrifying that He killed this idea as soon as it came to his head, but Shen Xiangqian remembered the days before the final exam, when Yan Nan ran to Teacher Mo's apartment every three days, and when he came here in a hurry, he threw it in the classroom. The mountain bike at the entrance of the building, although that bike was found in a second-hand market, Yan Nan cherishes it very much, and is usually reluctant to pedal hard, but today he dropped it directly to the ground...

Everything seems to be unexplainable, and it seems to be explainable. Under the afterglow of the setting sun, Shen Xiangqian stood at the north entrance of the teaching building where the farce ended, and for the first time, he did not rush to the Internet cafe...

Yan Nan pushed the bicycle and Mo Pingfan walked all the way to the teacher's apartment. The summer sun was much longer. It was almost seven o'clock, but the sun in the sky didn't look like it was going to set, but compared to the afternoon, The heat is not so spicy.

The two walked side by side, but they were speechless all the way. Mo Pingfan's mind was full of the scenes just now. The words Qi Yunze said were stabbed in his heart one by one, and when he left, That embarrassing appearance is more like the sun at noon in the scorching heat, his eyes hurt, his body is walking step by step, but his spirit can't come back, it seems that he is still being held by the remote north entrance of the teaching building Repeat the scene just now.

If he had expected such a conflict with him, Mo Fanfan would rather let him follow...

"Teacher? Teacher?" In a daze, Mo Fanfan heard someone calling him, and he stopped, only to find that Yan Nan had disappeared from his side.

"Huh?" Mo Pingfan looked around suspiciously, but heard a familiar voice coming from behind.

"teacher?"

He turned his head and saw Yan Nan standing at a fork in the road more than ten meters behind him. At that fork, he should have turned left and walked more than 200 meters to his small apartment, but he was so engrossed in thinking about things that he completely lost his mind. Forgot to turn the corner.

"Ah... I didn't notice..." Mo Fanfan smiled awkwardly and walked back.

"Teacher, would you like something to eat?" On the other side of the fork in the road is the cafeteria. Although there are not many windows during the holidays, it should be no problem to fill your stomach.

"Forget it, I don't have much appetite, you go, I can go back by myself at this point."

"Hmm..." Yan Nan pushed the bicycle in the opposite direction, and Mo Fanfan took out the keys in his pants, and walked slowly all the way back to his own side of the turtle shell.

When he opened the door, the scorching air hit him like a heat wave. Since July, the serious problem of sun exposure in this apartment has been fully exposed. Whenever he comes back in the evening, Mo Pingfan always turns on the air conditioner in the apartment. Turn on the cooling to the lowest, and the wind speed to the highest, but today, Mo Fanfan, who threw the keys aside, seemed to have lost his soul, and sat on the sofa blankly. The remote control of the air conditioner was at hand, but he didn’t even look at it. .

"Why is it so hard to forget you!"

"I can't sleep every night, and when I close my eyes, my mind is full of your shadow!"

"I hate you as much as I love you!"

These words were repeated in Mo Pingfan's mind over and over again. I don't know if it was these words or the sweltering air in the room. The sweat gathered on Mo Pingfan's forehead, and his entire back was almost soaked in sweat.

"Bang bang bang" sounds like someone knocking on the door

Mo Pingfan didn't pay attention to it, but the person who came was very persistent, and the sound of "bang bang bang, bang bang bang" knocking on the door never stopped.

Unable to resist the man outside the door, Mo Pingfan still got up, went to the door and opened it.

Yan Nan stood at the door, carrying a white plastic bag in his hand, through which he could see a transparent disposable packing box.Mo Pingfan could tell that this was the kind of box that their school cafeteria had always used.

"I saw fruit porridge in the cafeteria, so I brought some here." Yan Nan stood at the door, not intending to enter the apartment.He just handed the packed porridge to Mo Pingfan's eyes with one hand, not daring to look at Mo Pingfan with his eyes, just staring straight at the white bag.

When coming this way, Yan Nan could see from Mo Pingfan's distraught appearance that the relationship between the teacher and the middle-aged man pushed to the ground by him was much more complicated than he imagined. He could clearly see the unbearable distress and sense of loss.So even though it appeared that he helped the teacher out of danger, in fact, Yan Nan knew that he had crossed the line in some places.He wasn't sure whether Mo Fanfan was thanking him or blaming him at this time, so he didn't dare to step into Mo Fanfan's land without fear like before.

In fact, Yan Nan has never cared too much about the other party's thoughts. In his rough and careless life for the past twenty years, except for the person in his childhood, no one has made him worry so much. Now this kind of concern is accompanied by Mo Fanfan's Appearing and reappearing, even Yan Nan himself was a little confused whether this scruple was due to Mo Pingfan himself or because of the teacher's facial expression that resembled that person.

But obviously, Yan Nan seemed to be overthinking this time. Although Mo Pingfan was still in a trance, he would not have any opinion on Yan Nan because of what happened today. Without thinking too much, Pingfan signaled Yan Nan to come in.Then he turned and walked into the kitchen to divide the porridge from the disposable lunch boxes.

After all, Yan Nan walked into the small apartment. The room was extremely hot, so he picked up the remote control on the coffee table and turned on the air conditioner.

A cool breeze blew in, and Mo Pingfan, who had divided the porridge into two bowls in the kitchen, felt a refreshing coolness as soon as he walked out, and his chaotic brain felt a lot clearer.

Mo Fanfan handed the bowl in his hand to Yan Nan, and said, "One serving of porridge is too much. It's a waste if I can't finish it all by myself. You should eat some too."

Yan Nan took the porridge and did not refuse it. The room was very quiet for a while, except for the clear and pleasant sound of the spoon hitting the bowl wall, almost no sound of swallowing could be heard.

The fruit porridge in the school is quite conscientious. Watermelon, peaches, and apples are cut into thumb-sized cubes and mixed evenly in the refreshing white porridge. In this season, it is more acceptable than greasy and meaty dishes.Mo Fanfan has always had a normal appetite in summer, but he ate this porridge completely. The feeling of having something in his stomach is better than the feeling of happiness when it is empty. Mo Fanfan put down the bowl, and the groggy feeling in his head is better. , looking at Yan Nan who was sitting next to him and eating spoonful by spoonful seriously, for some reason he had the urge to talk...

Indeed, since the Chinese New Year, when he decided to separate from Qi Yunze amidst the condemnation in his heart, he has been using various methods to numb his nerves, trying to fill himself up with work, and trying his best not to think about them The possibility between them, yes, he did not suffer from the torment of insomnia every night like Qi Yunze, and it may even seem to others that his life in the past few months can be said to be colorful, but his heart is not less difficult than Qi Yunze, It's just that he experienced the departure of his close relatives when he was a teenager, and he knows how to force a smile when his heart is torn apart.The hardships that no one around him can talk to have been haunting him. Even in the company of Senior Brother Matsumoto some time ago, he dared not tell him the truest thoughts in his heart. Those are his relatives far away in a foreign land. Mo Fanfan has already learned to put himself Show them the strongest side of the disguise.

But the young man in front of him really gave Mo Pingfan the urge to talk. Maybe it was because of his tall and strong figure that people would forget that he was just a 20-year-old kid, or he tried his best to protect himself several times. Zhou Quan looked too much like the impulsive young man who used to be.

The entanglement with Qi Yunze today seemed to ignite the passion in his heart that he wanted to pour out, and the emotions that had been suppressed for too long broke through the shackles of reason and rushed out.

"The person you met today is actually my high school classmate." Mo Fanfan couldn't hear much emotion in his voice, as if he was telling someone else's story.

"..." Yan Nan was startled. He didn't expect that Mo Fanfan would take the initiative to mention that person to him this afternoon. He slowly put down the spoon, swallowed the unswallowed porridge in his mouth, and looked up at the teacher. She didn't look at him at all, but just watched the afterglow of the setting sun on the balcony. Under the gold-rimmed glasses, those beautiful eyes were full of entanglements and troubles.

"I knew him more than ten years ago. On the first day I transferred to Z City No. [-] Middle School, I knocked him down with a bicycle. Since then, the relationship between the two of us seems to have never been broken. Later, Something happened at home, I had no choice but to return to S city, before I left I promised him that I would continue to contact him, but I broke my promise and never contacted him again, the communication at that time was very backward, and the contact would be cut off as soon as possible, In addition, I went to Japan later, for so many years, I never knew how he was doing." Mo Pingfan paused, and there was a long look in his eyes, recalling the past, his heart always There is a dull aching sensation.

"Later, by chance, I got invitations from several domestic universities for academic cooperation. To be honest, Z University was not the best choice for me, but I still came. This city is in my memory. It occupies too much content, what's more, that person is here, separated for more than ten years, even though there is no contact, I always think wildly, will I meet him somewhere one day. In fact, it is strange to say that I didn't want to be with him back then It was me who continued to contact me, but after he reached middle age, I suddenly wanted to take another look at him, wondering how he was doing. I just came here impulsively, without thinking about meeting someone in such a city by chance How many possibilities are there." He helped his forehead, with a helpless smile on his face, as if thinking of the impulsive self back then.

"I don't know if it's Nie Yuan or what, but I actually met him in Z city. The most ironic thing is that the place where I met him again was the gate of our former high school, and it was the first time I hit him on a bicycle. In his place, he took two children, and the mother of the child, a family of four, envious of others... Later, we had an intersection again, and I gradually learned that he gave up being able to go to Tsinghua University in order to find me. I went to S City, where my grandma’s home is located, and went to S University. Although I studied the best major, it was still considered inferior to him. In the subsequent interactions, I watched him with my own eyes. The happiness and fetters brought to him by his children and his family are all what I dreamed of when I was young, a complete family, a pillar-like father, and a gentle and kind mother, but as long as he By my side, he will lose all these things, and his children will also be like me before, lacking some warmth, so I cut off contact with him again." Mo Pingfan smiled wryly, and after telling this story, even He himself felt that all the faults were on him.

"I am indeed a selfish person. For my own impulsiveness, I broke into his life without hesitation, and to make my conscience feel better. I will not care about other people's feelings at all. You saw his appearance today Are you haggard? Wretched? I gave it to him. He hated me. There is nothing wrong with him. In fact, now that I think about it, even if he wants to hit me, I have to bear it willingly." Mo Fanfan still sat There, with his hand on his forehead, the expression on his face did not change much, but his eyes no longer looked at the gradually dimming sunset, but turned to look at Yan Nan, as if waiting for his answer.