middle aged

After parting from Shen Xiangqian that day, Mo Pingfan began to avoid Yan Nan on various occasions. The experiment was arranged by the graduate students, and the meals were ordered to take away. He even paid for the installation of a new lock on the door of the next room.He never replied to Yan Nan's WeChat, and he never answered the phone calls. Except for taking a walk in his own laboratory every day when Yan Nan went out to work part-time, Mo Fanfan was almost at the gate. status.

Yan Nan came to the apartment to look for him, but even though it was only a door away, Mo Pingfan still let him wait outside knocking on the door, until the child sat until late at night and had no choice but to leave.

He has never been in the nature of being able to ruthlessly reject people, so this kind of slow rejection has become his trump card instead, making people die bit by bit after hitting a wall again and again.

This kind of life lasted for more than a month. Counting the days, it is not far from the start of the new semester. Except for visiting grandma and aunt a few times during the holiday, Mo Fanfan almost stayed in this small apartment for the rest of the time. Here, after mid-August, although the unbearable heat still makes people restless, at least the weather this morning and night has a little coolness, at least it can make people take a little breather.

At around eight o'clock in the evening, Mo Fanfan went out for a walk after spending the whole afternoon at home as usual, and stopped by to stock up on the rations for the next day.There was still some heat from the day on the asphalt road of the school, but fortunately there was a breeze, and people who were blowing head-on were cooler.Mo Fanfan walked out of the door of the apartment unit, and before taking a few steps, he saw a familiar figure walking towards him.

Yan Nan?No, at this point, he should be doing a project with his senior sister in the laboratory, right?Before he had time to think about it, Mo Fanfan immediately turned around, as if he hadn't seen him, and was about to walk to the opposite place.

"Stop!" Yan Nan's voice was deep and powerful, and she could not refuse.

Mo Fanfan hesitated for a moment, but did not stop.

"Wait!" The sound of footsteps striding forward from behind was getting closer and closer, and Mo Pingfan couldn't help speeding up his steps, but secretly hoped that Yan Nan would stop chasing him.

However, it was obvious that Yan Nan would not come according to what he thought in his heart. He was tall and striding, and he blocked Mo Fanfan in a short while.

"Where are you going?" Yan Nan in front of him blocked his way like a wall, and Mo Pingfan had nowhere to go.

“...to get something to eat”

"Why are you avoiding me?"

"No...it's just that I've been a little busy recently..." He lowered his head, guilty of not daring to look into the other person's eyes.

"Do you know how long I've been looking for you..."

"I……"

"It's been six years since you left, and there's been no news at all for six years. Are you trying to make me feel uncomfortable? Or are you blaming me? Blame me for not hiding you, blame me for not stopping her take you away?"

"Yan Nan, you..." Mo Fanfan finally realized that something was wrong with the student in front of him. His eyes were blurred, his figure was unstable, and he couldn't even stand on his feet.

"But I was only 14 years old at that time. I really had no choice...don't blame me, okay?"

Taking a closer look, the child's body smelled of alcohol, so Mo Fanfan slapped his nose.

"How much did you drink?"

"?...Are you finally willing to talk to me? Great, are you not angry? I won't let people bully you anymore, don't worry, don't worry..."

At this time, Yan Nan was completely unconscious. No matter what Mo Pingfan said, he would answer irrelevant questions, but from these confusing sentences, Mo Pingfan could understand that what Yan Nan was looking for should be the one he had in mind. The kid who bandaged his wounds when he was a teenager.

"Yan Nan? Yan Nan?" Mo Pingfan stretched out his right hand and shook it in front of his eyes, but his eyes didn't respond at all, he just looked at him with a smirk, looked at him, Yan Nan couldn't help almost his whole body When he fell down, Mo Fanfan hurriedly propped him up.Damn, the weight of more than 180 kilograms is really not covered.

Seeing that there was not even a single person who could help, Mo Pingfan had no choice but to half-carry Yan Nan and drag him all the way to the small apartment.

Putting Yan Nan on the bed in his apartment, Mo Pingfan wiped the hot sweat from his forehead, not knowing whether to laugh or cry, and promised to keep a distance, but who would have thought it would be like this.

Yan Nan didn't sleep well that night. He tossed and turned on the bed, and kept chanting someone's name. Mo Fanfan curled up on the sofa under a small blanket, and kept waking up and sleeping all night. At dawn the next day, Yan Nan, who had slept all night, finally sobered up, opened her eyes, but what she saw was not her upper bunk.

Before he had time to think, his bladder, which had been held back all night, sent the most primitive signal to his brain. The urge to urinate was too strong. Yan Nan swiped and sat up. After looking around the environment, he accurately positioned the destination in the toilet .

"Wow..." The nervous bladder gradually relaxed, and the relaxed brain began to recall the scene just seen, the familiar sofa, the familiar bookcase, and the familiar light green shoe cabinet at the entrance... here It's clearly Mr. Mo's apartment? !

how come……!He slept all night in Mr. Mo's apartment? !So presumptuously pouring water here so early in the morning? !Yan Nan, who has just finished solving the original needs, has no way of associating the whole story... Last night, I had dinner with a few buddies who worked together, and then everyone drank some. Everyone knew that he was from Inner Mongolia, and they all held back their drinks. He...he pushed at first, then...

Later, he seemed to drink too much, and then he saw someone, and then... his mind seemed to be stewed, and all the pictures were confused, but how did he sleep on Teacher Mo's bed? Know nothing.

"Bang bang bang..."

"Yan Nan? You've been inside for a long time, are you okay?"

Yan Nan held back her blushing face, and really didn't know how to face the teacher.

"Yan Nan? Are you okay?" Yan Nan, who was separated by a door, was a little anxious when he heard the teacher's voice. If he didn't answer, he was afraid that he would have to barge in, so he had to say: "Teacher... I'm fine..."

It is unrealistic to hide in the toilet all the time, Yan Nan turned on the faucet to wash his face, opened the door of the bathroom, and walked out.

"Come out, I just went to buy some breakfast, eat some"

"Oh……"

Neither of the two at the dinner table talked much, Yan Nan buried her head in her breakfast, and didn't even dare to chew too loudly.

"...Yan Nan?" Mo Fanfan put down his chopsticks and called the student's name hesitantly

"Huh...?" Yan Nan swallowed the last mouthful of buns, but still lowered her head in response.

"The teacher has something to talk to you about."

"Oh..." Yan Nan finally raised his head, but when he saw Mo Fanfan looking directly into his eyes, he unconsciously turned his gaze to another place.

"Do you remember what happened last night?"

"I...I...Teacher, did I do something out of the ordinary...?" Yan Nan's voice gradually lowered, becoming completely unconfident.

"You child, what are you thinking?" Mo Fanfan couldn't help laughing: "You drank unconsciously last night and seemed to recognize me as someone else. I really have no choice but to drag you to my side."

"Huh..." Yan Nan took a deep breath: "So, I just slept here for one night yesterday?"

"What else? It's just that you've been calling someone's name"

"Name?" Yan Nan's mind was blank and she couldn't remember it at all.

"Looks like it's called Lu..."

Yan Nan took a deep breath in an instant. The teacher's reminder seemed to turn on the switch to seal the memory in his mind. The boy's youthful and shy smile, teary eyes, and places on his body that ordinary people couldn't see, were beaten one after another. At this time, the red marks on his face surged in front of him like a flood.After getting drunk last night, he always felt as if he saw him again somewhere.

"Is your childhood playmate and I very similar?" The frozen expression on Yan Nan's face made Mo Pingfan's original guess more accurate. "You seemed to recognize me as him yesterday."

Fragmentary images emerged one by one in his mind, Yan Nan saw him staggering blocking Teacher Mo's way last night, almost crying and asked him if he was still blaming himself.

The shameful conversation reached his ears, and Yan Nan's head was completely blinded, the blood in his body seemed to be boiling, and he felt uncomfortable all over his body, as if he didn't dare to look at Mo Pingfan again, Yan Nan drooped his head , without saying a word.

"In front of me, you don't have to feel embarrassed." Mo Fanfan pushed his glasses and smiled helplessly.

"Teacher...I'm sorry for causing you so much trouble last night." The usually deep and deep voice now sounded like a mosquito.

"Okay, raise your head up and tell the teacher, does that kid look a bit like me?"

"Hmm..." Yan Nan was finally willing to straighten his head. He looked at Mo Fanfan's smiling face, and there seemed to be something overlapping in his memory: "Teacher, you and him actually look at the facial features alone. They don't look alike, but as long as you smile a little, the feeling between the eyebrows looks very similar."

"Teacher... Look..." Yan Nan lowered his head and took out his mobile phone, and found a photo from the photo album at once. He enlarged the person in the photo and placed the mobile phone in front of Mo Fanfan.

This should be a film photo that has only been digitally reproduced recently. The original photo looks a bit old, and the frame of the photo has some wrinkles from pressure and wear, but fortunately, the faces of the two children are still clearly visible in the photo. The one with flat hair, frowning, and serious looking at the camera is Yan Nan when he was a child, and the one next to him with half-long hair, round face, and a dimple on one side of his smile should be Yan Nan's childhood playmate. with.Mo Fanfan carefully looked between the child's brows, and the soft and delicate smile was indeed three points similar to his own.

"His name is Lu Yi, and this was taken together on my 12th birthday." Yan Nan said: "We grew up together, and there is only this photo taken together. After he left, every time I was wronged , I dug out this photo to take a look, and then I was afraid that the photo would be damaged by me, so I asked someone to retake it and kept it in my phone.”

"You have always... missed him very much"

"Hmm..." Yan Nan looked at the photo on the phone, a warm smile flashed on the corner of his mouth, and Mo Fanfan looked at it clearly. In the past few months of knowing him, although he often smiled at Yan Nan, but facing him His is respect, and Shen Qiang's is a joke. Only when he is facing this static photo, will the child's eyes reveal tenderness and doting.

"The thing I regret most when I grow up is that I didn't have the courage to hide him that year." The tenderness in his eyes was fleeting, and Yan Nan locked the phone screen, as if to seal up the memory of that person again.

Mo Pingfan didn't continue to ask more questions. He packed up the breakfast on the table and went to the kitchen. Yan Nan sat alone on the sofa in the living room, pressed his temples that were sore from the hangover, and let out a long sigh.