The Scum Shou's Survival Guide

Those two words were like some kind of spell, draining all his strength, Ye Ming stood there without turning around.

But even so, he seemed to be able to feel the icy cold gaze behind him.

The thing he regrets the most in his life is that he took that child away. At first, it was just for revenge, and when he was desperate, he wanted Jiang Sheng to experience the pain he had endured.So he stole his child, vented his helpless despair and hatred for this world on an innocent child, hurt him and abused him, as if all this was revenge on Jiang Sheng...

After five years like this, one day he woke up suddenly, seeing the little skinny child looking at him timidly, as if he had suddenly woken up from a long nightmare.

He questioned his heart, what are you doing?

From the moment you studied medicine, you vowed to save lives and heal the wounded with conscience and dignity, and dedicate your life to the medical cause to help those in need.

But the cruel reality finally crushed him, and hatred turned him into a rat living in the gutter that even he hated.

Isolated from the world, imprisoned his soul in the depths of hell.

At that moment, he suddenly thought, he can't go on wrong, he hates Jiang Sheng, but all of this has nothing to do with this child.

Finally he took the child out of the door, wanting to let him go, they came to the station... He looked at the child's small face, the child instinctively grasped his hand tightly, his swarthy eyes were strangers to this The world is disturbed by fear.

He doesn't know anyone but himself.

Even if he hurt him like this, he still didn't want to leave him, because he was the only one in his world.

He looked at him blankly, thinking that if my son is still alive, he should be this old... If only my son was still alive...

He knew he should let go, but in the end, he couldn't let go of that little hand.

The two people, one big and one small, held hands tightly together and returned to their home again.

He made a selfish decision to raise this child as his own.

He named him Ci, meaning to say goodbye to the past and start again. His life is no longer barren, and he can raise a child of his own. To him, he is the only cure for terminally ill patients.

In this way, revenge became dependent on each other. In the most desperate and painful days, when he wanted to give up the relief countless times, it was this child who made him survive and persevere. He looked for the meaning of his existence in his eyes.

He selfishly keeps him by his side, deceiving himself and others to occupy things that don't belong to him, and indulging in the false illusion of happiness.

Because hatred and selfishness make mistakes again and again.

Until Jiang Ci was 16 years old, he bought him a birthday cake, saw the child call him daddy, and said with incomparably focused and sincere eyes that we would be together forever, he finally couldn't continue to deceive himself, almost To shed tears.

I am not your father.

I'm the one who stole from you, hurt you, and lied to you.You could have had a beautiful family, loving your biological parents, and a life full of sunshine, but I ruined all of this and dragged you into my dark abyss desperately.

I let you live as a substitute for my child, give you so-called tender care, and seek everything that should not belong to me.

When you know the truth one day, you will hate me.

But I can no longer regard you only as the son of the enemy. I love you like I love my own child. It has penetrated into my bones and blood. Some things have become so difficult to understand... You gave me a chance to be born again , and the only thing I can give you is to let go.

It's time for this 16-year revenge drama to come to an end, and it's time for you to return to your real loved ones.

Just because I don't want to hurt you again.

I will never forget my hatred for Jiang Sheng in my whole life, but that has nothing to do with you, you are one of the people I love the most.

Ye Ming gripped the patient's hand very hard, his fingertips turned white and trembled slightly.

Those painful memories that were sealed in the bottom of my heart burst out of the ground at this moment.

He came to this distant city, fled far away, and even put down his hatred to forget the past, probably because he didn't want to face the child's hateful eyes, so he escaped like a coward.

But I didn't expect to meet after all.

Jiang Ci held his left hand tightly with his right hand, pinching a few bloodstains on the back of his hand. The pain made him calm and sober.

Even after eight years, no matter what this person looks like, he can recognize him at a glance!

The darkness in Jiang Ci's eyes began to accumulate, and the pain and unwillingness came to his heart again. His thin lips parted slightly, and he let out a cool voice: "You seem to be unhappy to see me."

I am thinking of you like this, but what about you?

You just turn around and walk away.

Ruthless and ruthless as it was eight years ago, leaving no thought for others.

"Why don't you turn around, because you dare not face me?" Jiang Ci said looking at Ye Ming's back.

Ye Ming finally turned around slowly, he looked at the young man on the hospital bed, finally he was able to look at him carefully, it turns out that you have grown into this...

In fact, I am so eager to see you, but I can't see you, and I shouldn't see you.

Jiang Ci narrowed his eyes slightly, his pupils constricted, and he fixedly looked at the man in front of him.

The man's appearance is still handsome, and the time has made him appear more calm and introverted, like fermented wine, the precipitation of the years, the invisible gentleness is fascinating.

He was wearing a white coat, holding a medical record in his hand, and his identity was ready to be revealed.

Looks like it's been a good year.

That's great, you're still alive and well.

This was Jiang Ci's first thought. When he was abandoned, he didn't want to believe this fact. He thought that Ye Ming had some unavoidable difficulties, or that something happened, so he waited for him in their former home without giving up. Even though he knew he was the one who stole him, he still humbly wanted an explanation.

But he couldn't wait.

Then he thought eight years later, maybe this person is dead, otherwise why didn't he appear?If he really cared about him a little bit, why did he leave without saying goodbye? Could it be that the ten years of living together were all lies?

And now all doubts are gone.

You are still alive and well - so that I can no longer lie to myself that you were just an accident.

This was Jiang Ci's second thought.

If you really care about me, how can you just disappear like this?When you lived well in another far away place, did you ever think about all the pain I went through when I was left alone?

What a selfish and cruel person.

A liar, a criminal, after giving you your tenderness, ruthlessly took everything away, forcing me to accept the cruel truth.

[Ding, Jiang Ci blackening value +30, current blackening value 90]

The corners of Jiang Ci's lips raised slightly, but there was a cold look in his eyes, "I haven't seen you for a long time, do you have nothing to say to me?"

Speak, as long as you say, I am willing to listen.

Give you a chance to explain.

Ye Ming's lips moved slightly, what could he say?From the moment he left there, from the moment he left him, he had already expected the situation today, and all of this was distorted and wrong.

A look of reluctance and guilt flashed across his eyes, and finally he just said, "I'll let another doctor see you."

After that, turn around and leave here.

Suddenly, veins popped up on Jiang Ci's forehead, he clenched his fists, and uttered a cold shout: "Don't leave!"

The bodyguard at the door had realized something was wrong just now, and immediately blocked the door, looking at Ye Ming with cold eyes.

Ye Ming looked at the tall bodyguard in a black suit, took a deep breath, weighed the difference in strength between the two, and finally turned around and said, "What do you want to hear?"

Oh, you are so calm.

Why do you have no remorse for doing such a despicable thing, and still live a carefree life?

At this moment, the hatred in Jiang Ci's heart was like the hissing sound of a poisonous snake, circling around his internal organs. The hatred made his eyes black as an abyss, and he tried his best to restrain the violent impulse in his heart.

Jiang Ci looked at the nameplate on his chest, and said slowly: "Is this how Doctor Chen treats patients? It's really disappointing... But a person like you who has no conscience probably wouldn't be a qualified doctor. "

He stared at him with dark and cold eyes, "You say, if I report to the hospital that you were a kidnapper, do you think you can still have your current job and everything?"

Ye Ming's expression finally changed slightly, but he still didn't say anything.

No matter what the reasons are, the mistakes he made cannot be erased. If Jiang Ci insists on reporting him, it will be his retribution.

He didn't have any resentment about it. If you want to say that the only resentment in this life is that Jiang Sheng didn't get the retribution that belonged to him.

Jiang Ci looked at Ye Ming's slightly pale face, a smile finally appeared on his lips, and said meaningfully: "But this matter is not completely unnegotiable, after all, you also spared my life back then, and showed great mercy Let me go. So... as long as you come to see me once a day during my hospitalization, I will help you keep this secret, what do you think?"

Now Zi Ye Ming was a little surprised, he looked at Jiang Ci puzzled.

He treats him like this, doesn't he hate himself?You only need to visit him once a day so you don't report him?So easy to let him go?

Ye Ming faintly felt that things might not be so simple, Jiang Ci's eyes seemed to want to swallow him alive, but... how should he refuse this request?Doesn't he want to see him?

This didn't look like a threat to him, but rather like a bait that made him step into it willingly.

Ye Ming said, "That's all?"

Jiang Ci said, "That's all."

Ye Ming took a fixed look at him, lowered his eyes and said, "Okay, I promise you."

Jiang Ci smiled, his expression seemed to have regained his composure, and the hatred in his eyes disappeared, like a friend reunited after a long absence, he chuckled and said, "Don't forget, Doctor Chen."

After speaking, he winked at the bodyguard.

Bodyguard York got Jiang Ci's permission to open the door and let Ye Ming go out.

Seeing Ye Ming leave, Jiang Ci's eyes darkened, and the smile on his face disappeared without a trace. He clutched the quilt tightly with his hands, pursed his lips and said nothing.

Bodyguard York has been with Jiang Ci for several years. Although Jiang Sheng sent him to Jiang Ci at the beginning, he has already been accepted by Jiang Ci. Now he is his confidant and is absolutely loyal to him.

York cautiously closed the door, and said to Jiang Ci: "Young master, what's wrong with the person just now?"

Jiang Ci's eyes were complicated, pain and struggle flashed past, and he said: "You have someone investigate his experiences over the years, and keep an eye on him, don't let him escape, he may try to escape .”

York responded that he had always been serious about his affairs and didn't talk much, and when he was about to go out, he was stopped by Jiang Ci.

Jiang Ci looked at him seriously, and said, "This is my personal grievance, please help me with this matter, don't tell my father for now, understand?"

He knew how much Jiang Sheng hated Chen Zhao, if he found out about Chen Zhao's whereabouts, he would definitely destroy him by any means.

York nodded, and immediately went out to make arrangements.

Jiang Ci lay down exhausted. In fact, even he himself didn't understand what he was doing. The moment he saw Ye Ming, his excitement probably outweighed his hatred. It's a pity that this person still let him down up.

He shouldn't have any expectations of him anymore...

Even so, he didn't want to send him to jail and watch him die. He knew it might be right to leave it to his father, but he kept it a secret.

Before he figured out how to get revenge on this person, he just wanted to trap him by his side so that he couldn't get out of his control.

I won't give you another chance to abandon me.

………………

Ye Ming returned to his office, made a cup of tea, picked up the newspaper and began to read.

【888: He just let you go? ? ? 】

【Ye Ming: How about not doing this?Could it be that the bodyguards beat me up and sent me to the Public Security Bureau? 】

【888:...】

【Ye Ming: You don't really think so, do you? (⊙v⊙)]

【888: I just simulated the way of thinking of normal human beings. 】

【Ye Ming: ...】

【Ye Ming: My good son wouldn't treat me like this!He is not a cold-blooded and ruthless person! 】

【888: Hehehehehe】

Doctor Liu came back the next day, his date with his girlfriend was very successful, he happily expressed that he would treat Ye Ming to dinner, but Ye Ming was not in any mood, so he could only shirk and say that he was not feeling well.

Dr. Liu asked with concern if he was sick, and if he wanted to ask for leave, Ye Ming said it was fine.

Ye Ming promised to visit Jiang Ci every day, struggling and hesitating in his heart, knowing that this was wrong, Jiang Ci must hate him, but he couldn't help himself to agree to his request.

He really misses him.

I took him away from his biological parents for so long, how is he going back to Jiang's house now?Does Jiang Sheng treat him well?These are what he desperately wants to know, but it's a pity that from the moment he let go, he is no longer qualified to care about him.

Jiang Ci was not Ye Ming's patient, and Ye Ming couldn't go to see him every day, so he lied that Jiang Ci was the child of his former friend, so that even if he visited occasionally, others would not be suspicious.

Ye Ming hesitated for a long time at night, before stepping into Jiang Ci's ward.

Jiang Ci sat quietly on the hospital bed, with a laptop on the table in front of him, as if he was doing some business, his side face was stern, his expression was calm, and he looked so young, but he had an imposing manner that could not be underestimated.

Ye Ming couldn't help but think back to the past, this child has been overly mature since he was very young, but these eight years seem to have made him even more lonely and difficult to get close to, with a cold aura of repelling others thousands of miles away.

Jiang Ci turned his head when he heard the voice, tapped his fingers lightly on the table, and pressed the lid of the notebook.

One day is enough for him to find out about Ye Ming's recent situation. He came to this hospital three years ago, and he is serious about his work and has a good relationship with others. It is said that he is Li Xu'an's junior. Time to investigate.

After all, he hid himself after stealing him, and also wanted to avoid his father and the police. He would definitely hide his identity and eliminate his traces.

If I hadn't met him here, I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to find him for the rest of my life.

Jiang Ci looked at Ye Ming's hesitant appearance, and sneered in his heart, it seems that you are really afraid of seeing me?Is it possible that you still feel a little ashamed?

He said lightly: "Sit down, whatever you want."

Ye Ming sat down on the sofa next to him, he was silent for a long time, and said, "What do you need me to do?"

Jiang Ci seemed to think about it for a while, and said, "Peel me an apple."

Ye Ming was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect Jiang Ci to make such a request, does he still need someone to peel apples for him?But he didn't ask much, just picked up the apple and lowered his head to peel it.

Because he lowered his head, he couldn't see Jiang Ci's greedy gaze on him.

Jiang Ci looked at the man who was concentrating on peeling apples. When they were still together, he would take care of him when he was ill. Before the hospital bed, he smiled and asked him, does Xiao Ci eat apples?

Jiang Ci was in a trance for a while, but his heart hurt as if bleeding.

Those things that eventually become the flowers in the mirror and the moon in the water are things that he can no longer desire. From the moment the truth is revealed, he can no longer have that kind of tenderness, and now he wants him to peel an apple for himself. With orders and threats.

If you didn't intend to want me, why did you treat me later?Why not just be cruel to the end?

In the past eight years, reason and emotion have been struggling in Jiang Ci's heart.

His emotions made him unable to let go of this person, always wanting to make excuses for him, wanting to see him, longing for him to come back.But rationality kept laughing at him. This man was a liar, he abandoned him ruthlessly, and he was not his child.

He didn't want to accept this cruel fact-to admit that this person might not have loved him at all.

After Ye Ming peeled the apple, he raised his head and handed the apple to Jiang Ci silently.

Jiang Ci's expression had returned to indifference. When he took the apple, his fingertips touched Ye Ming's, and a terrifying throbbing instantly flowed through his whole body, making him almost tremble and drop the apple. .

Jiang Ci quickly took the apple back, but didn't eat it, just looked at Ye Ming deeply.

He hadn't touched him for eight years.

Ye Ming couldn't face Jiang Ci's gaze, as if he was questioning and blaming him, so he turned his head slightly and sat there with his hands twisted together.

Jiang Ci looked at Ye Ming's fidgeting, and suddenly laughed: "You can go, come back tomorrow."

Ye Ming raised his head in astonishment, what exactly is he doing?

Jiang Ci lowered his voice, looked at him meaningfully, and jokingly said, "Don't you want to leave?"

Ye Ming suddenly stood up, and went out without looking back.

Jiang Ci looked at Ye Ming's leaving back, then looked down at the apple in his hand in a daze, hesitantly picked it up and took a bite, then his expression changed suddenly, as if he had done something stupid, he slapped the apple heavily hit the ground!The apple rolled to the corner and was covered with dust, like a discarded garbage.

His eyes are full of pain, is he crazy?Still begging the man to peel an apple for him like a poor wretch.

No, this is not what he wants at all!

Apples are obviously sweet, but he only finds them bitter, disgusting, and disgusting.

He should take revenge on him!hurt him!Let him also try his own pain, let him pay for his actions and be punished!

That's right!

But his feet seemed to be stuck in a swamp, he couldn't move, he couldn't move away, he was bound in a cocoon, and gradually sank.

No matter how he could never forget, everything he had been attached to.

York walked over and silently picked up the apple and threw it into the trash can. Because he helped Jiang Ci investigate Ye Ming, he already knew Ye Ming's identity. It turned out that Ye Ming was the one who kidnapped the young master.

He looked at Jiang Ci's painful expression, obviously he should also hate that person, but he didn't do anything for a long time.

Although the young master is young, he has always done things neatly. This is the first time that York has seen such an indecisive side in Jiang Ci, and York can't understand.

What is there to hesitate about such a person?If someone dared to steal his son, he would definitely kill him directly.

"Master, do you need me to help you deal with him?" York volunteered, his bony hands clacking, his eyes showing a cold light: "Make sure your hands and feet are clean, so you won't get into trouble."

He has a lot of ways to kill and maim a person.

Jiang Ci closed his eyes: "I have my own considerations, just help me keep an eye on him."

York is very regretful, he is still ready to show his talents, it seems that the young master is a bit unable to let go of the kidnapper... Could it be the legendary Stockholm syndrome?Or did it develop a relationship?I heard that when the young master first came back, he ran away from home all the time, and then he managed to stop messing around, which gave Mr. Jiang a big headache.

York felt that if he really couldn't make a move, it would be fine to just ignore it. This kind of persistence and unwillingness to do anything.

Why bother.

After a while, Jiang Ci opened his eyes and said calmly: "Tell father that the business here has a little twists and turns, and I may have to postpone going back for a while."

York shrugged, "Okay."

………………

Ye Ming basically goes to Jiang Ci's ward to sit for a while every day, and Jiang Ci doesn't need him to do anything, just pour him a glass of water occasionally and peel an apple.But I never drink the poured water, and never eat the peeled apples.

The two of them maintained such a strange atmosphere of getting along with each other.

【888: No progress at all. 】

【Ye Ming: Hmm. 】

[888: Why don't you tell him the truth directly, the blackening value will disappear quickly. 】

【Ye Ming: Not suitable.First of all, my character design should not know what Jiang Sheng told him, so it is not easy to talk about it rashly, and even if I tell the truth, it will be difficult to verify. After all, there is no evidence that has been settled 20 years ago.Secondly, although this method is easy to drop in the early stage, Jiang Ci will alienate me because of this, resulting in a situation where the two do not owe each other. After all, this cannot erase the fact that I abandoned him. It can only show that I have difficulties. Difficult, now is not the best time to throw it out. 】

【Ye Ming: It's best to find a way to reduce the blackening value first, and then wait for him to discover it by himself. This way, it's difficult first and then easy... and it's actually not that difficult, after all, a good son won't really do anything to me, His father is the one who can be cruel. 】

【888: This method is easy for you, but not for him. It seems that you don't really like him much. 】

【Ye Ming: ... Who said I don't like him anymore! 】

[888: Really? 】

【Ye Ming: Aren't I seriously thinking about how to eliminate the blackening value?First of all, I have to figure out how to calm him down. Now he doesn't even think about it, and I can't move, so I can only continue to observe.Wronged jpg]

【888: Hehe. 】

After a few days like this, once Ye Ming worked overtime, Li Xu'an came to see him with a snack.

Ye Ming was very happy to see him eating, he thought to himself that this old man is not bad, he is a caring and good friend, he is very satisfied with him!

Li Xu'an is one year older than Ye Ming. He is a very mature and attractive man with a personable personality. Even if he is a single father with a son, he is also the diamond king in the eyes of all the women in the hospital, but this diamond king does not seem to be Indulging in female sex makes many people sigh.

In fact, they got the wrong direction. Li Xu'an didn't like women. Back then, his wife was forced by his family to marry him, so it's strange that he could be addicted to women.

Li Xu'an met Chen Zhao by chance three years ago, and it took him a while to recognize him. After all, Chen Zhao had changed a lot, and he seemed to be in a bit of a downturn.He vaguely heard that this junior seemed to disappear after some accident not long after graduation, but he didn't pay much attention to it because he didn't know him well. He just kindly arranged a temporary job for Chen Zhao.

Although Chen Zhao was taciturn, he worked very hard and had good abilities. Gradually, Li Xu'an felt relieved and let him officially work in his hospital, and occasionally invited him to his home for dinner.

Chen Zhao has nothing else, except that he likes children very much, and he is also very attractive to children. After meeting him a few times, Li Siyang likes him very much.

Gradually, the exchanges between the two sides increased.

I don't know when, Li Xu'an gradually saw this person in his eyes, thinking that if it was Chen Zhao, he would indeed be a very suitable person for life, and his son also liked him.

Gradually, he became a little bit tempted, and recently heard that Chen Zhao had been working overtime, so he brought a midnight snack to visit him.

Li Xu'an has always been a gentle and considerate person, he said with a smile: "You are not young anymore, you don't need to work so hard, let those young people do more about working overtime."

Ye Ming can't say that he doesn't like to work overtime either, he can't help it because he stayed to watch Jiang Ci, after all it's more suitable to watch at night, it won't be nice if there is trouble during the day.

He showed a shy smile and laughed, "It's nothing, I'm alone anyway, unlike them, I don't have family to accompany me."

Li Xu'an saw Ye Ming's easy-going words, but she felt a little sad when she heard them. At their age, being alone is not something to flaunt. After all, people want a companion.It's just that I haven't met a suitable person, and there are too few people who can calm down now. After the age of having fun, I just want to find someone who can live a life, and my son can accept it.

But what about Chen Zhao?Why have you been alone?Don't even have children?

It's not easy for Li Xu'an to ask more questions. Chen Zhao was very reluctant to mention the past because he had been on the sidelines before, probably because he was injured. He smiled and said, "It's up to you. Just don't get tired. Eat while it's hot."

Ye Ming immediately went to eat happily, but he still took care to keep reserved, and yawned after eating and drinking.

Li Xu'an noticed it, and smiled helplessly: "Everyone said not to be too tired, why don't you take a rest, I'll help you look after me here, and call you if I need anything."

Ye Ming said embarrassingly: "Is this not good? Brother Li, you should go home early, Siyang will be afraid if he is alone at home."

Li Xu'an smiled: "It's not a primary school student anymore, so there's nothing to be afraid of. Besides, if he knows that he's with you and isn't messing around outside, he won't say anything."

Ye Ming was still waiting to refuse, but Li Xu'an was very stubborn, so he had to rest on the recliner with his eyes closed.

Li Xu'an was sitting by the side playing with her mobile phone, looking very relaxed and at ease. This way of getting along is a bit like an old couple who have been in love for many years.

Ye Ming closed his eyes and pretended to sleep.

【Ye Ming: Oh no, I had so much fun eating just now, I forgot to see my good son, who knew that Lao Li wouldn't leave when he came. 】

【888: ...do you still remember the business? 】

【Ye Ming: QAQ】

Li Xu'an looked at the phone as if nothing had happened, and after a while Ye Ming seemed to have fallen asleep, so she turned her eyes to look at him, with a somewhat explicit look in her eyes.

In the past few years, he has been single, and he no longer likes to have fun like those young people. It seems that living alone is not bad, but once he has his mind on someone, he suddenly gets out of control.

Li Xu'an looked at Ye Ming's well-defined face, the neat and thick eyelashes cast light shadows under his eyes, his lips were light pink, they looked very soft, and they should smell good.

If you look closely, his skin is still very delicate. Although he doesn't have the intense beauty of those teenagers, his eyebrows and eyes are like trickling water, very attractive, and getting along with him is very comfortable. If his partner is this person, he may not be tired.

Now that this person was sleeping in front of him, Li Xu'an suddenly couldn't control his desire to get close to him. He had been worried that Chen Zhao would not accept his intentions, so he suppressed his feelings, but now the feelings began to stir again.

Li Xu'an bent down slightly, staring at Ye Ming's face from an extreme distance, seeing that he was fast asleep, she couldn't help but gently kissed his forehead, her eyes revealed a gentle look.

Do you know that I actually like you?

When Jiang Ci came to the duty room, what he saw was Li Xu'an gently kissing Ye Ming.

He was originally waiting for Ye Ming to come over in the ward. Although he hated this person in his heart, he couldn't help but look forward to his arrival. It seemed that the whole day had passed just to wait for that short moment.

But Ye Ming didn't come here on time today.

Jiang Ci thought that maybe he was busy, so he waited for a while, but Ye Ming still didn't come... He finally stood up and left the ward with a cane.

Who would have thought to see such a scene?

Ye Ming was sleeping peacefully on the chair, so warm and peaceful, while the other man looked at him with loving eyes and kissed him, as if they were a loving couple... This scene is so beautiful that the eyes are so enviable and jealous. Bleeding.

Heh... so that's why you didn't come to see me?Because you have someone else in your heart right now.

What am I to you? !

Jiang Ci tightly grasped the crutch in his hand, the jealousy and hatred in his eyes were almost real, he just wanted to rush in and separate them at all costs!