Pretending to be cute

In the dark, all senses are much more sensitive than usual.The breath deliberately blown on the earlobe made Li Mi shrink back from the itchiness, and his face felt a little hot.

She didn't understand why the taste changed again after going home well.

But this question, or that unexpected kiss, Li Mi didn't want Xiao Ling to think about it.Whether it's evasion or cowardice, she can foresee that as long as she admits that kiss, the relationship between them will undergo a huge change.

Li Mi couldn't accept such a change.

She forced herself to calm down, and began to struggle with her hands: "Ah Ling, stop making trouble, I know you are still angry with me, we have something to talk about, please let me go first."

Although he guessed Li Mi's performance, Xiao Ling was still very disappointed to see her avoiding and answering like this.

She laughed again, but the difference was that this laugh lacked the little joy, jump, and shyness that mentioned the kiss, but was depressing and mocking instead.

"I won't let you go, Sister Li. Knowing that I would be angry, knowing that I would be sad, didn't you still do what you wanted to do? Say what you have to say, and you want to lie to me, and then lead the way tomorrow Wen Qian, or someone else came before me?"

Li Mi's throat moved, and he didn't know where to explain better: "I... I'm sorry, but, I just..."

Xiao Ling asked: "I'm sorry for what?"

Li Mi is at a loss for words.

sorry for what?She didn't know what she was sorry for.There seem to be many things to be sorry for, such as deceiving people, such as breaking promises, but it seems that there is nothing to be sorry for. Sooner or later, she will have a partner, and it is impossible for her to stay with Xiao Ling for the rest of her life.

Although, it was she who said the whole life at the beginning.

Xiao Ling understood the meaning of silence better than anyone else.She was very bored, but she still had a smile on her face: "It's okay, I don't care about these. You tell me first, that kiss is real, right? You didn't refuse, did you?"

This time there was a longer silence.

"It doesn't matter if you don't talk, as long as I say it." Xiao Ling put her head on Li Mi's shoulder and murmured, "Sister Li, I have lived with you for seven years, and you took care of me during those three years, so I Change it from self-willed to ten years. It’s been ten years, and I know you better than anyone else, I know that you like to chew with your left tooth when you eat, I know that you like to sleep on your side on your left side, and I know that you have many unknown habits.”

She paused for a moment, and her voice was uncontrollably tired: "But I found that I don't seem to know you very well. I thought you might not like women, but you brought Wen Qian back without saying a word...Then I have Years of entanglement, what is it?"

The warm water droplets soaked the fabric of the shoulders, and Li Mi shivered slightly.

Xiao Ling said: "Society is not very tolerant of same-sex love. I knew I liked girls when I was a freshman in high school. I was terrified and fearful. I was afraid that others would treat me as a monster. I was very cautious even when I searched for information on the Internet."

"I just learned that this kind of liking belongs to the normal category, and when there are many companions who have the same situation as me, I was excited for a whole week. You thought I passed the monthly exam and rewarded me to go out with my friends. Playing in the playground that day After I was happy, I talked about it with my friend with an attitude of sharing, but she said—it’s so disgusting, why do I still have such abnormal feelings?”

"From then on, I realized that not everyone accepts this kind of relationship. I never talked about this kind of topic with a single person. After going abroad for three years, the foreign environment was open, and I met many same-sex couples. I looked at them like Ordinary couples are so happy, and I am sincerely happy for them. At the same time, I gave birth to infinite courage, thinking that if the person I like does not dislike this kind of relationship, will she have the slightest possibility to like me? "

"A Ling..."

Xiao Ling seemed to have never heard of it: "Given each other three years of buffer time, the person I like is not with others, and my liking didn't decrease with the departure, but increased day by day, so I thought, since I can't escape, then It's better to fight."

Three years.

Speaking of this, no matter how dull Li Mi is, he still understands who Xiao Ling is talking about.The worst situation, the situation she feared the most, actually happened.

If Li Mi was struck by lightning, he didn't care about crying for Xiao Ling anymore, his face was pale, without a trace of blood: "Stop talking..."

Xiao Ling changed the topic, and the tears flowed more fiercely: "But how long have I worked hard, I was afraid that I would overstep a little bit, and scare people away if I went too far, but what did the person I like do? She took a woman randomly Come back and show off your superb acting skills, just to tell me that my temptations and cautions all these years are all a joke."

Half of his shoulders were wet with tears.

Li Mi closed his eyes, his heart was in a mess: "You, you saw early in the morning that Wen Qian and I were pretending..."

Xiao Ling snorted lightly, with a strong nasal voice: "Sister Li, if I don't know you well, I wouldn't be fooled by such a trick."

She raised her head, squeezed her fingers one by one into the clasped palm, interlocked with Li Mi's fingers semi-forcedly.Even though it was so dark that he couldn't see anything clearly, Xiao Ling still laughed, with tears on his cheeks.

"When I saw you taking the initiative to touch Wen Qian earlier, I thought, why, Wen Qian didn't do anything to get what I dreamed of so easily? Besides, she doesn't cherish it at all. If it was me, if it was me, it's me……"

The following words were drowned in choked sobs.Perhaps Xiao Ling is also very clear, that is just a hypothesis, and there will be no day when it will come true.

Even with an iron heart, hearing these words will melt a little bit, let alone Li Mi who loves Xiao Ling so much.She couldn't bear it anymore, her eye circles turned red, as if she was telling Xiao Ling, but also to herself: "I am your sister, your elder, I am almost ten years older than you, how can you... "

Xiao Ling laughed again, with broken sobs in his voice: "How can I like you, right? Then who stipulates that I can't like you?"

Like a bewildered animal, she grabbed Li Mi's hand so hard that it turned white, as if she was seeking warmth, but also as if she was just afraid that Li Mi would let her go.

Li Mi didn't have the strength to resist, and he didn't want to make Xiao Ling more uneasy, so he could only let Xiao Ling half hug her, heartbroken: "Ah Ling, you are trying to kill me by saying these things."

"Punishment?"

Being hurt by this word, Xiao Ling suddenly became angry, and his voice suddenly turned up: "Li Mi, do you know what it means to punish one's heart? You promised me over and over again that you won't be with others if you don't love each other. Pulling a person to act in front of me, and being able to say words like 'in the future', this is the heart!"

This is the first time Xiao Ling called Li Mi by his full name in front of Li Mi.In the past, Li Mi would have knocked her on the head long ago, annoyed that she was neither big nor small.But now Li Mi can only use silence to represent his position.

Xiao Ling suddenly rejoiced that it was good to turn off the lights, otherwise if Li Mi looked at her with a cold expression, how could she have the courage to say so much?However, after venting the emotions accumulated for a long time, she was not as relaxed as she imagined.

Silence delayed the two of them at the same time.

After a long time, Li Mi moved her fingers, Xiao Ling thought she was going to break free from him, and in desperation, he clenched even tighter.Li Mi sighed lightly, and his tone was soft and unreasonable: "Hey, let go of me and support the two of you, aren't you tired?"

Such tenderness is no different from before.Xiao Lingcai's dried-up tears burst again, and she let go of her struggling strength, and fell onto the blanket by the door together with Li Mi.

With his hands free, Li Mi pulled Xiao Ling into his arms, and said softly, "I've been holding it in for a long time, haven't I? Children cry at ease, it's so dark that everyone can't see it, including me."

This extremely familiar sentence turned on the memory switch.

——Children cry at ease, I block it, and no one else can see it.If anyone comes, I will be fierce, especially fierce.

A long time ago, when Li Mi picked Xiao Ling up from the mud, he said this.That embrace at that time was also so warm and had such a fresh lemon aroma.

Since then, it has lingered in my heart, and it is ten years in the blink of an eye.

Xiao Ling felt sore in his heart, but he didn't cry like he did when he was a child. Instead, he hugged Li Mi's soft and boneless waist, buried his head in her arms, and sobbed softly.One after another, like a baby in water, first the shoulders were flooded, and then the cloth on the chest was wet.

Li Mi didn't speak, but stroked Xiao Ling's hair and back again and again, silently comforting the restless girl in his arms.

When Xiao Ling felt calmed down, Li Mi leaned back a distance away, fumbled to wipe off the other's tears with the back of his hand, and asked, "Is it because of me that I have to go abroad?"

"Not at all."

As soon as the words came out, the hoarseness was beyond words.Xiao Ling cleared her throat, nestled in Li Mi's arms and replied: "I know you only think of me as a younger sister, I don't want you to know that my feelings hate me one day, so I thought at the time, maybe after I leave, I don't like you If you come back to China, you can be your good sister again."

Li Mi pursed her lips, and heard Xiao Ling say: "Also... one day before you plan to go abroad, you went to Hao's house to discuss cooperation, and Hao Nanren was matched up by the elders in various ways. I can see that he has no intentions for you. I asked You, but you said, don't hate it or like it, if you are in the right family, it would be good to find a partner who is pleasing to the eye."

Li Mi was stunned: "When did I say this?"

Xiao Ling laughed: "You probably said it casually, so forget it."

Li Mi raised her eyebrows.

No wonder the kid knew that going abroad would be a lot of hardships, but he still insisted on going, and he worked so hard in his studies, and he was still talking about design drafts when he had a fever.

She forgot that irrelevant sentence, but Xiao Ling kept it in her heart, and kept it for so long.

"The red and blue in that house..."

Xiao Ling was surprised: "I thought Sister Li wouldn't notice this." Instead, he said frankly: "Yes, red and blue cp, ever since I heard this statement, they have intentionally or unintentionally paired these two colors. Don't let it go. In my heart, this is just my unilateral imagination, just treat me as a stolen sweet, and it has nothing to do with Sister Li."

It doesn't matter?How can it be all right.Xiao Ling was so decisive, Li Mi felt uncomfortable.She no longer wanted to ask about the hydropower station. She guessed that the reason why Xiao Ling rushed to Mingping Hydropower Station for an internship as soon as he returned to China was also because of her.

Many things and many details that Li Mi couldn't figure out before are finally clear now.But she would rather not be clear, because she doesn't know how to deal with such difficult feelings, let alone how to do it, which is the best.

While thinking wildly, Xiao Ling let go of Li Mi, and voluntarily slipped out of her embrace.

"I think, Sister Li, you must be very entangled now. You don't want to hurt me, but you can't agree with my feelings. It's a dilemma. I'm lost in the end today. Since I have endured it for so many years, I will endure it for decades. What's the matter? I'm sorry to embarrass you like this."

The empty embrace made Li Mi at a loss.She wanted to say something, squirmed her lips, but had nothing to say.

This is a fact.

Xiao Ling let out a long sigh of relief, and seemed to have made a decision.

"...One month later, I will go back to school for graduate studies. Sister Li, stay with me for a month, just to satisfy my willfulness and make me give up. One month is fine."

Knowing that Li Mi is a person who prefers softness to toughness, she spoke more earnestly: "From now on, I won't pester you anymore, I will abide by my duty and only be your sister, just for one month, or three weeks if I can't... Or two weeks, okay?"

Silent.

Gradually, Xiao Ling couldn't even hear each other's breathing, only the slower and slower heartbeat reminded her that time was still passing.

Not two weeks?Or, this idea itself is too absurd, not within the scope of Li Mi's consent?

Xiao Ling lowered his head, sucked his nose, and finally refused to be more humble.

"I'm just kidding, haha, did I scare you, Sister Li? That... I'll move out for a while, so as not to embarrass you and me, you should forget about it, I..."

"Okay, within a month."

Xiao Ling got stuck in the middle of speaking: "What?"

The surprise came so suddenly that she even felt unreal, so she repeated: "Sister Li, what did you say? Did you speak just now?"

Li Mi suddenly regretted his impulsive words, and bit his lower lip angrily: "It's nothing, I didn't say anything."

However, her little girl rushed straight over like a fired shell, smashed into her arms, and knocked against the door with a bang.Li Mi hissed in pain, and before he had time to look at his injured back, two soft petals wrapped her lips around her.

"I heard you, you can't play tricks."