Pretending to be cute

After delivering the presents, Li Mi asked Lin Ge to book a flight ticket for her to return home as soon as possible, took the flight that night, and returned to City C the next afternoon.

Before landing, you can overlook the city from above.Li Mi put away his blindfold, watched the familiar city quietly through the glass, and finally found the reason why he refused to see Xiao Ling at Christmas.

Perhaps, the most important meeting, she wants to leave it to the most important mother city to witness.Despite this meeting, it is possible to bring the worst results.

Sleeping on the plane is always difficult. Li Mi went home, but did not go back to catch up on sleep. Instead, he took a shower, cleaned himself up, dried his hair and put on makeup to cover his deep eyes. Cyan and dark circles under the eyes, change clothes and go out.

As soon as he went downstairs, Ling Sheng, who had been waiting for a long time, turned the car key, looked Li Mi up and down, and said strangely: "You are dressed so formally, and you have put on such exquisite makeup, is it possible that you want to go on a blind date? "

Li Mi said lightly: "With you?"

Ling Sheng made an X with gestures, and said with a smile: "First of all, I have someone I like. Even if you realize now that your childhood sweetheart is your true love, it's too late, so don't think about it."

Li Mi ignored Ling Sheng's nonsense, and asked in surprise, "Who?"

Ling Sheng shrugged: "I say I like it, but to be precise, it's just that I have a lot of good feelings. I'm not sure if there will be a show, so I won't introduce it to you first, we'll talk about it when it's done."

"You don't need my assistance?"

Ling Sheng's face was full of horror: "No, no, no, no, no, no, you don't come to do me a disservice, I will be thankful."

Li Mi: "..."

Considering that Ling Sheng's EQ is indeed the highest among the three, Li Mi has to accept this cruel fact.

After getting in the car, Ling Sheng started to talk about business: "I heard from Lin Ge that you went to country X yesterday, so you should have just got off the plane not long ago, are you sure you don't want to take a rest?"

Li Mi shook his head: "No, I don't feel at ease if I don't solve this matter first. The reason I asked you to help me is because I'm afraid that I might have an accident while driving while fatigued, and I don't want to bother other people."

"Okay, you sleep for a while, and tell me about you later when you are free."

"Ah."

"Where are you going now?"

"Go to Pingkang first."

Ling Sheng turned to look at Li Mi, very surprised: "Ping Kang? Now? Haven't you been there this year? Even if you go early next year, it shouldn't be today, it's too early..."

Li Mi squeezed the throbbing temples caused by lack of sleep, and said firmly: "Ling Sheng, I want to chase Ah Ling and be with Ah Ling. Therefore, I must talk to my parents and ask Ah Ling's parents to help me. , Brother's consent."

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Pingkang, the largest cemetery in C City.It is located far away from the city center, almost leaving City C, and it is not on the way of the subway and high-speed rail, so it is a very remote place.

But no matter how far the road is, how busy the work and life are, there are always people who come here every year, including Li Mi and Ling Sheng.

Ling Sheng was fine, her parents were still alive, and she came here to visit her grandpa and grandma, who had almost no memory of them, and the offering of incense was more of a formality.But Li Mi is different, she came here either to visit her parents, or to accompany Xiao Ling to visit Xiao Ling's parents, it was not just a formality.

The road closer to Pingkang is getting worse. In addition, it rained in City C yesterday, and the uneven road was mixed with gravel and mud, which woke up Li Mi.

Fortunately, although the bad road is tough, it is only a 10-minute drive away.After passing that section of the road, we quickly got on the main road and drove into the entrance of Pingkang Cemetery in less than half an hour.

When passing the cemetery's welcome banner for visitors, Li Mi took a sip of the mineral water prepared in the car, and said, "It's still the old place."

Ling Sheng nodded: "I know."

A few minutes later, the car stopped at the gate.Li Mi got out of the car, stretched his shoulders and neck, which were sore from sleeping, and went to the incense shop with Ling Sheng to buy a lot of yellow paper for incense candles, as well as a lot of good quality paper villas, ingots and cars.

Seeing a little girl selling very fresh chrysanthemums and white lilies at the top of her voice, the two also bought several bunches.

After buying the necessities, the two walked into the cemetery.Since it was not the time around Qingming Festival, not many people came to visit the tomb, the sound of firecrackers and the sound of footsteps were infrequent, and the cemetery was even quieter. For a while, there was only the rustle of the wind blowing through the grass.

Li Mi said, "Ling Sheng, let's go our separate ways, let's meet up later."

Ling Sheng understood that Li Mi wanted to have an independent space and didn't want to be disturbed by others, so he gave her a few bags in his hand, without asking any further questions: "Okay, call me if you need anything."

"Ah."

After Ling Sheng returned to the car, Li Mi carried a heavy plastic bag and a bouquet in his hand, and slowly walked towards the direction of his parents' tombstone.

The cemetery is huge, and there are so many people sleeping peacefully. Even if it is an expensive luxury area, the stone monuments lined up one by one can only guarantee a large area and good materials. Like mass-produced replicas, except for the inscription different, other differences are minor.

Therefore, Li Mi also met people who couldn't find the tombstones of their relatives.

But Li Mi will not.

The time when Li Yuanzi and Ren Xuefei passed away was after she became the governor. As the only immediate family member, she took care of the affairs of the two of them with her own hands, and sent her parents' urns here one after another.

She remembers the way better than anyone else.

After going around the path several times and passing through several districts, Li Mi stopped in front of his parents' grave.She stared at the photo of Li Yuanzi and Ren Xuefei, while carefully wiping the dust off with paper, she said, "Mom and Dad, I'm here."

"Perhaps you will wonder why I came so early this time? Because I have something to tell you. Do you still remember the child I adopted ten years ago? It is the child I bring every year. The thin and short one, but the cute one."

After wiping it clean, Li Mi put a large bouquet of flowers in the middle and lit a joss stick.It was a bit windy today, and the lighter was blown out several times, but Li Mi was very patient, and finally lit it once.

"Dad, you used to tell me that when I grow up and have someone I like, I must be the first to tell you. Although you are not the first person I really say, but you are the first to know about it Elder, don't be angry with me, okay?"

Maybe what Li Mi said worked, and there was no strong wind after that, she lit the incense smoothly, clasped her hands together, bowed a few times, then shook out the incense and put it in the incense box, and after a while, light smoke rose up.

"When you hear this, you must understand what I mean. I know that I am 29 years old, the same gender as her, and I am her sister and her elder. I should not knowingly commit a crime, let alone do such a thing. Drag her into that unknown vortex."

Li Mi sighed quietly.

"However, Mom and Dad, you have also seen that she has loved me for many years. I really feel sorry for her and don't want to hurt her anymore. After she went abroad to go back to school last time, I thought, I should be happy that our relationship is back to the original bit, but the reality is, I toss and turn, and I don’t get a good night’s sleep.”

"You may say that it's just that I'm used to loving her and pampering her. I can't see her being sad, so I feel guilty. Yes, I am guilty, but what I feel guilty is not only that I hurt her, but that I refused At the same time, I am actually moved by her excessive intimacy."

Li Mi shook out the yellow paper, took one and lit it with a candle, put it in the bucket, and repeated this action.After a while, an obvious flame jumped up in the bucket, and she continued to place the yellow paper to keep the flame alive.

"Actually, I am very envious of Qing Xin and Xu Mengyao, I envy Qing Xin for having such courage, and I also envy their happiness. On Christmas Day, I didn't have the courage to go to A Ling several times, and I had the thought of thinking for a moment, I want to run away halfway. Presumably no one knows that I will be so inferior, but I am really afraid. I am afraid that you will tell me that I am wrong in your dreams. I'm also afraid that Ah Ling's parents and elder brother will say that I've guarded against myself, that I've betrayed their trust."

Li Mi lowered his eyes, staring blankly at the flames devouring layers of yellow paper, as if he was about to jump out of the barrel and devour her, and gave another wry smile.

"Sometimes I think, as long as your parents are still here, as long as Ah Ling's parents are still here... Even if you stop me, even if you scold me for nothing, even if you give me a few slaps, at least it's real. It is better than such illusory imaginations and endless self-torture."

After the yellow paper was burned out, Li Mi opened up the banknote-shaped paper money and threw them in one by one.

"I repeatedly hypnotized myself, saying that I had the wrong relationship, and told Ling Sheng, don't match me with Ah Ling again. But when I saw the photo of Song Lin and Ah Ling, I admitted that I was not happy. Jealous, I'm jealous, I even... want to question Ah Ling, doesn't she like me, how can she do this?"

"But what qualifications do I have? I pushed her away with my own hands, and I hurt her time and time again. I deserve it. Everyone should stand on Ling's side to condemn me and scold me. I have no complaints. It's just with Ling Sheng When we talked about this, I still felt a little unwilling, so I asked her, aren't you my friend, why can't you think about it for me?"

"Am I very capricious, Mom and Dad? But, I really just hope that she will stop talking, and don't make me regret it more. I'm afraid that my already unsteady heart will be shaken."

Li Mi closed his eyes, blinked away his tears, then picked up gold ingots, paper carts, clothes, pants and shoes and put them into the bucket.

"I went to see Ah Ling that day because I couldn't bear it after hearing that poem. I wanted to see her, even if she didn't have a better life than me, even if she was happy with Song Lin, Well, even if I am jealous, I can bear it. But unfortunately, I have a fever."

Li Mi raised his hand, stroked the bright smiling face on the photo of his parents, and smiled, but the smile didn't reach his eyes.

"I didn't mean to be sick. I bought medicine and took medicine. I took a bath. I was just... too tired and wanted to sleep. I didn't expect to have a fever. The fever was really hard. I almost thought I'm going to die, thinking about dying in a foreign country, and sending the body back to China."

While waiting for the burning interval, Li Mi hugged his knees and murmured in a low voice.

"I'm sorry, I know that your greatest wish is for me to live well, but I was really tired at the time, and I had already thought about my funeral. I was sent back to China, so I could be reunited with you, it's no big deal, my property is also gone. The name has been written long ago, and the beneficiaries will only be A Ling and Ling Sheng. I am alone, and I will not bring it with me when I live or die. How good it is."

"But just when I was in a daze, I heard Ah Ling's voice. She came to look for me, she came to take care of me. Thinking of this, I became worried again. How sad she would be if I really died Ah. In the first half of Ah Ling’s life, the three people she loves left her early. Am I going to be the fourth person? I clearly understand how desperate it is to be abandoned by important people, but I still have to let her Will she suffer again?"

Li Mi buried his head, finally couldn't take it anymore, and let out a low sob.

"I got a lot of courage from Qing Xin. She told me that there is nothing wrong with liking, cherish the present, and cherish the people in front of you. Maybe it was a walk before life and death, and I also looked away from many things. I think what she said is That's right. Then, I made up my mind that as long as Ah Ling still likes me, then I won't let her go again. "

She bent her knees, knelt in front of her parents' stele, and knocked her head several times, leaving spots of water marks on the ground.

"If I go to hell because of this, I have no complaints or regrets. If possible, Mom and Dad, please forgive me, and please bless me with a long life and walk behind Ah Ling."