Moon and people are still

I feel like I'm getting more and more daring.

I would never do this kind of forced molestation of a woman from a good family. Not only would I not do it, but I also felt shameful. This is forcing others, and it is rape.

When I went back at night, my head was in a daze, as if my life had made me go through a journey. When I returned to the room, I didn't have time to go to bed, and my whole body collapsed on the ground.

His heart was still pounding, his hands were cold, and even trembling.

The phone suddenly vibrated in my pocket, I took it out to have a look, and Zhang Manhua, who added me to WeChat during dinner, sent me a message.

I exhaled, stood up and turned on the light in the room, and sat down at the desk.

After he sent two words of "Ke Ke", he asked me if I could get in touch with Shaohui. Shaohui just broke up with him, and he was blocked before he had time to persuade him to stay.

Zhang Manhua: I'm sorry to disturb you, but you are the only one I can find, Ke Ke, for the sake of our classmates, please help me.

It's the most shameful thing to help me for the sake of something. I don't know what cards I'm playing. People don't want to be soft-hearted, but they are embarrassed to be soft-hearted.

Although it is your own business to say that people live, but how many pairs of eyes are watching around, it is impossible for you to ignore these and those people around you, and you don't like those ugly derogatory words linked to yourself.

I haven't figured out what kind of excuses I should use to reject her, but Zhang Manhua sent me another message.

Zhang Manhua: Find Jing Yi for me, and ask her to tell Shaohui that there is no need to do anything else, just say that I still have something to say.

I licked my lips and saw that he sent another long paragraph.

Zhang Manhua: Let me just say one thing, she still wants to break up with her, or tell her that I am downstairs at her house.

Zhang Manhua: No, don't say that you still want to break up with her, tell her that I will change what she said in the future, let me give me a chance, by the way, I am downstairs at her house, waiting for her to come down.

I was disturbed by him, and the nervousness just now disappeared, but now I dare not look for Jing Yi, so I gave Chen Yun a screenshot of what he said.

After the picture was sent, I sent a sentence: Sister Chen Yun, what should I do?

Chen Yun didn't reply me here, and it's not good for me to say anything in front of Zhang Manhua. After all, this matter has nothing to do with me. I don't need to do things to please or offend both sides.

A few minutes later, Chen Yun intercepted a chat record of Shaohui and gave it to me, only two lines.

Shaohui: Let Keke tell him to go.

Shaohui: I'm not at home, so it's useless to wait.

I gave this picture to Zhang Manhua, and then do not disturb his news.

After exiting from Zhang Manhua's interface, I found that Chen Yun had sent me a sighing emoji. I clicked on it and was about to ask what was wrong, but Chen Yun suddenly said: A child is a child.

I paused in my heart, maybe I had the conversation with Jing Yi just now, and now I always feel that the word child is very dazzling, as if she satirized me by the way.

Me: Hahaha.

I couldn't hold back my curiosity and asked: What happened to them?

Chen Yun quickly replied to me: Zhang Manhua is too childish, Shaohui complained not only once, she is in her 20s, and she still needs to be coaxed, loves to act like a baby, and loses her temper.

Chen Yun: He is a man.

I swallow.

Hands on the phone, but don't know what to type.

When I was sensitive, I always felt that all the words of everyone around me were for me.

After 1 minute, before I could reply, Chen Yun sent another message.

Chen Yun: Don't think too much, Keke.

Chen Yun: You are so cute.

I twitched the corner of my mouth: hee hee, thank you sister Chen Yun.

After chatting with Chen Yun, the flustered feeling from just now came back again, so I found He Yuan's WeChat account and called her directly regardless of whether she was asleep or not.

First, I asked a few words about how she and her girlfriend met for the first time, and then I was envious when she told me about the itinerary and all their interactions.

"And you, how are you today?" she asked.

I sighed, and felt that it was not enough, so I sighed again.

After plucking up the courage to crash into Jing Yi's arms just now, she refused to let go as if she had been drugged, her face was burning hot.

Later, Jing Yi pressed on my shoulder and pushed me hard before pushing me away.

I lowered my head, and even thought about hugging her. Now that I think about it, I'm really shameless.

I leaned on the chair and turned off the light in the room, leaving only a small desk lamp on the desk. With my eyes closed, I tried to replay the part on the side of the road in my mind.

"Cheng Keke." When Jing Yi pulled me away, he called me by first and last name.

Her words were not harsh, but it sounded like I was being criticized, and I was very wronged.

So I looked up at her, maybe she was used to it, maybe my hair was really messy, her hand moved away from my shoulder, and fiddled with my head twice.

The street lamp cast a beautiful light and shadow behind her, which was different from daylight and was not dazzling at all. I used this light to look at her like this, from her fingertips to her face, carefully watching.

Suddenly everything slowed down, and after she let go of me with both hands, I stared into her eyes and said, "You said at the beginning of school that you owe me a reward, and promise me whatever it is, can I ask for it now?"

Jing Yi stared into my eyes expressionlessly, then said slowly, "No."

I closed my eyes and lowered my head.

If I was in the past, I would definitely point to her head and say in the most aggrieved tone, Mr. Jing, how could you do this, you don't keep your promise.

But at that time, I couldn't say anything.

But the little flame in my heart seemed to have not been extinguished. In just a few seconds, I raised my head again, took a step forward with my right leg, tiptoed slightly, and looked at her for a few seconds before locking her eyes. Lips moved together.

Jing Yi didn't hide, her eyelashes gradually became bigger and clearer in my eyes.

But in the end, just when I was about to succeed, she suddenly stretched out her hand, blocking me by combing the bangs in front of her, and my kiss landed on the back of her hand.

Ball finally, discouraged.

I took two steps back, not daring to look at her, and only heard her say: "Ke Ke, I am your teacher, we are the same gender, and I am 6 years older than you."

The rest of the road is a bit embarrassing. In fact, if I can live up to it, I will refuse her to continue to send me off. I think I should tell her that I am almost home. I can do the rest of the road by myself. Teacher, please go back.

but I do not have.

Liking someone is just so spineless, you should refuse what you should do, but you can't do it at all, and you don't understand the truth that you should understand.

After I told He Yuan what happened just now, He Yuan smiled several times, and I laughed too when she said that.

I said, "Just laugh." After I finished speaking, I sighed, then laughed at myself, and said, "Later, she sent me downstairs to my house, do you know what I told her?"

After saying this, I covered my face with my hands.

While He Yuan was waiting, I said, "I asked her if you like me too."

"Wow, yes, Keke, it's amazing." She praised me for more than ten seconds in shock, and then asked me, "How did Jing Yi answer?"

I took my hands away from my face and sighed: "She didn't say anything, let me go up."

"Ah." He Yuan chuckled foolishly: "I love you."

After living for so long, this is the first time in my life that I have this kind of emotional struggle with others. It is exciting and heartbreaking. Although I have already looked down on other people's love and hatred, but this kind of thing happened to me, but it made me feel very abused. .

So at night, I have insomnia.

When I close my eyes, it is full of scenes of Jing Yi blocking my hand and my kiss.

Unable to fall asleep, I got up, looked at my phone, it was already past 1 o'clock in the night, turned on the light, put on a coat and sat at the desk, and took out a notebook from the bookshelf.

When Jingyi was teaching me chemistry in the first year of high school, a half-withered leaf floated in from the window. I happened to get a big problem right at that time. She picked it up from the window sill and handed it to me, saying it was a reward for me.

I put this leaf in an empty notebook and attached the date.

At that time, I just did it casually, but now I open the notebook, and there are many memories of me and Jing Yi's fart things in it.

I started to turn from the first page, and ended after turning to the [-]th page. I couldn’t help but sigh in my heart, girlish feelings are always shit, what kind of stuff is written here, it’s so disgusting.

But even if it’s shit, it still makes people feel very sad after reading it, so I opened the No.20 page and wrote four characters on it eloquently: “Rejected!” and attached the date.

Although Jing Yi refused very tactfully, I still understand.Maybe I would laugh and laugh to myself, because she was afraid that I would be sad, so she rejected me as much as possible in a disguised form.

After closing the notebook, I opened the tablet again, and opened the photo album inside, most of which were Jing Yi’s photos, as well as screenshots I found interesting.

After scanning it, I became more and more melancholy, this inadvertent melancholy, more than an hour passed inadvertently, and it was already past two o'clock, I threw the tablet aside, turned off the lights and rolled on the bed.

After lying down for a few minutes, the phone suddenly turned on, which broke the drowsiness I had finally brewed.

I picked it up and saw that it was a message from Chen Yun. She asked me if I had any arrangements for tomorrow.

I squinted my eyes for a while, adapted to the light of the phone, turned on the phone, and asked: What's wrong?

Chen Yun: Are you still asleep?

Me: I'm watching a TV show, I'll sleep in a while

Chen Yun: Let's go to barbecue tomorrow, do you want to go together?

I looked at the news above and hesitated for a while.

Me: Does Teacher Jing know that you are coming to see me?

Chen Yun: Of course she knows

Chen Yun: I count you in

Chen Yun: At ten o'clock tomorrow morning, your teacher Jing will pick you up, don't go to bed late

me: ok

After putting away the mobile phone, I immediately got up from the bed and jumped to the desk. Because I didn't turn on the light, my calf was knocked by the table foot, which hurt so much.

I turned on the desk lamp, pulled out the notebook just now, took a pen and scratched out the four big characters on the last page, and then wrote the bigger four characters "Hahahaha!"

See how I fight for the touch of the sun

Only for Autumn, in front of your window

Showing a little red, secretly shy

Dormant, my blessing

Starting with spring, sticking to a lonely fire

Girlish feelings are poetry, poetry!

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