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When Shinobu opened his eyes, the sky was gray.

Only myself in bed.

I suspected it was just a dream, but as long as I moved a little, the burning pain behind me would jump out to remind me that what happened yesterday was real.Shinobu took some strength to prop up his body, tilted his head, and caught a glimpse of a curled up figure under the bed.

Yong was asleep in his clothes, with nothing covering his body.The breathing was heavy and there was no sound.

His hair was black and shiny, showing no signs of age.It's just the lines on the face, even in deep sleep, without any expression, but they are secretly deep in the blue-gray morning light.

Just me, no.

Laughing dumbly, the dry eye sockets were once again hot and wet, and sighed softly and blinked.

This is a rare time to be alone with him, even the sunlight does not bother.I reached out and wanted to touch, but I was afraid of being awakened. In the end, it was an unpleasant conversation.Ren silently withdrew his disappointment, but instead cast a look of attachment, and embraced the man he loved deeply.

The moment when he suddenly kissed himself, he actually had the illusion of time and space disorder - at that moment, his expression was more sad than the day when he sent himself away; his chest was still feeling his tears vaguely , drop by drop, hit the skin so hot that it hurts.

He never cried, in his own memory.Speaking of his teacher, that was the woman he loved deeply, he smiled, and there was some soft light in his eyes, but it was not obvious.Compared with himself, he was always like a child, and when encountering things, especially about him, he cried so much that he couldn't help laughing.

The coffee table not far from the bed, the ashtray full of cigarette butts.When he fell asleep, he must have been leaning against the bed and smoking a cigarette, perhaps even looking at him.Just thinking of this scene, even though I didn't see it, suddenly filled my heart with warmth.

"You, you really are hiding something from me." He muttered softly, and leaned back to the side of the bed, looking at Yong's slightly frowning brows with distress.

Although I also laughed at my mentality of being a little girl, I was still so happy that my heart ached, this feeling of watching him quietly.The warmth he brought on his body and the joyful pain between his legs are all short-lived happiness that he can hold now.

【"Only you, no."】

This is the answer, he is a special existence - he must have unspeakable secrets.

"It doesn't matter," Shinobu's eyes fondled Yong's back, "Leave it to me, Miyagi, this time—leave it to me."

Although my mind is messed up, I don't know where to start, and I don't know what to do, but I still haven't grown up.Shinobu picked up the clothes and put them on carefully.Yong who was lying on the ground suddenly moved, turned over, and was still asleep.

The purple hickey left deep in the collarbone was purple and black in the morning mist.After getting dressed, Shinobu squatted down, pulled off the quilt and covered Yong's body, covering the mark.

"Miyagi, don't fall in love with others." He tiptoed out of the room, smiled back, and gently closed the door.

His body suddenly became very hot and sweated, and Yong was woken up by the glare of the sun.

"Forbearance..." There were spots left in the folds of the sheets, and besides myself, there was only the quietness under the sun in the room.

Everything about him seemed to disappear with the appearance of the sun.

Are you hurt?Unexpectedly, the last part with him was to bid farewell in this way.

"Ah Choo!" Sure enough, sleeping on the ground would catch cold, Yong rubbed his nose.

With his character, he will hide it after this time.Don't answer the phone, don't show up again, leave enough space for yourself to think, to regret, and then find him beyond the limit.

In the past, I would really do this.

He picked up a cigarette, but couldn't use his hand to press the lighter.

What a shame, people in their 40s.

"..."

Lying on his knees, the sun shone very warm on his shoulders, and Yong's shoulders trembled slightly.

"Finally...don't want me anymore, right..."

It turns out that the feeling of leaving a person is really different from the feeling of being abandoned by a person.

His stomach growled, and Yongcai realized that it was past two o'clock in the afternoon.

Going out to buy food, the store's busy tallying reminds Yong that he should have cleaned up the warehouse with Ryosuke yesterday.Stuffing food into his mouth indiscriminately, drank the tea in the cup in one gulp, sweating a little, and suddenly made a decision.

"Yesterday...I'm sorry." Ryosuke turned his head, and Yong was standing at the door of the store.I walked too fast, and my body was already damp, but the symptoms of the cold in the morning disappeared a lot.

"...Oh, it's nothing, senior, please don't take it to heart." Ryosuke smiled and handed Yong a pair of gloves.

Looking at each other felt awkward, the two didn't talk anymore, they just concentrated on their work.

It took several hours to count and record all the goods, and the two were sweating in the warehouse.Yong proposed to eat noodles together, Ryosuke nodded, but he was not as happy as usual.

When they came to the noodle shop, the two chose a table by the window in the inner room.Before the noodles were served, Ryosuke was already drinking, which surprised Yong.

"That... I have something to tell you..." Now that it's decided, it's better to let it go without hiding anything, and Yong pinches his legs unnaturally.

"It means the person yesterday, he is the lover of the senior."

"..." Ryosuke filled another glass of wine, and Yong couldn't believe his ears.

"I know," Ryosuke finished another glass, putting down the glass slowly, "Only a lover can make senior show that expression..."

Yong was a little flustered, he didn't say a word yet, he

"From the first time I saw Senior, I knew that Senior had something to cover up, or something to protect." After all, Ryosuke wiped his nose and his face was flushed red because he was overwhelmed with alcohol.

"To be honest, before he appeared, I always felt that maybe one day, senior and I would be possible." Holding the cup in his hands, Ryosuke dared not look at Yong's expression.

"But the way the senior looked at him made me suddenly understand the feeling of being able to open my heart and laugh because of the dependence I had on the senior before."

"Ryosuke..."

"It turns out that my feeling for senior is much deeper than I thought." Ryosuke's smile was faint and fleeting.

"I had a girlfriend before, but because she went to work in Nagoya, I separated. I don't think I have to find a girlfriend. On the contrary, I feel more comfortable after breaking up with her. And when I met my senior, I suddenly felt that my life It's all changed." Ryosuke refilled himself another cup.

"It turns out that someone is so knowledgeable, like a dictionary, so many complicated things can be solved with a simple sentence, it's amazing."

"At that time, I suddenly had an idea. To be honest, when this idea came out, I was taken aback." Ryosuke covered his mouth, "I wanted to tell my senior how I felt, but I was afraid that you would feel disgusted. Maybe it will never be the same again.”

"When I learned that my senior liked a man, it was also the time when I lost my love. I didn't recover from it all day yesterday." Ryosuke raised his neck and finished drinking, covering his eyes, "That feeling of joy suddenly cooling down."

"It's so strange, when Mingming and his girlfriend separated, they didn't act like this..."

Relationships between people are really delicate things.

"Ryosuke, I've been sorry all this time."

I thought it was the most difficult to explain to him.Yong sighed and rubbed Ryosuke's head with his hands.