bear's daughter-in-law

Chapter 15

There is a tiger by my side, so it is not easy to sleep peacefully. When I wished to turn myself into a piece of paper and paste it on the wall, he hugged me and put a belt in his arms.

Although I was reluctant to struggle a few times, but the bed is so big, there is no way, I can only follow the bend like a zombie.

Sometimes you are too nervous and make him go crazy, thinking that you are afraid of him, or you are trying to get him, and always want to bully you further, so I turned over and corrected from back to right. The advantage of this is that I can stop him in time. Some of his little moves, and... that hard thing keeps pushing against me, and it's getting on my nerves.

"Yangyang..." He softly called my name with a slightly hoarse voice.

I knew he was trying to hold back his emotions, I closed my eyes and lowered my head slightly, "Sleep..."

"I miss you so much."

"sleep…"

"I came out to my family."

"Sleep, what... what?" He hurriedly covered my mouth with his hand, I couldn't believe what he just said with my eyes wide open, and he finally let go of his hand after a long time.

"You... what did you just say?" I checked once again if it was Lei.

"I said, I had a showdown with my parents and told them I like men and I'm gay."

Although the room was pitch black, the light coming through the cracks in the curtains could still clearly see his serious and solemn face, as well as his clear and bright eyes.

He wasn't lying, he was telling the truth.

Where's the guts.

Could it be that this period of time has been quiet because such a big thing has been done.

"What did you say?" I asked him, feeling uneasy, my palms even sweating nervously.

"Just say it directly." He replied, firmly and freely, as if stating what I had for breakfast was so natural.

He still didn't understand what I meant, "You... mentioned me?"

Only then did he suddenly realize, he smiled and touched my face, "Silly guy, how could I mention you, and you didn't promise me, do you want to promise me?" Then he kissed me on the forehead unexpectedly .

hateful.

Who wants to promise you.

"What are you thinking about." I pushed him away, "It's better like this."

"Yangyang," he hugged me again, "what I said is true, and I can also be responsible. People have lived for so many decades, and they must live for themselves, not for others. If you like you, you must live for yourself." I like you, why should I suppress it, why should I pretend that this is not the case, maybe I live a selfish life and don’t consider my parents and family, but I will never go against myself and find a woman to start a family. If I can start a family in the future, that is With you, otherwise, I won't get married."

Is homosexuality really that good? Is it necessary to turn into a double when dying?Unexpectedly, Yu Zisheng was still an infatuated person.

Have you ever thought about the pressure on me for you to do this?

You make it, can I make it?

"What's your parents' reaction? Agree?" This question may be difficult for ordinary parents to accept, let alone he is an only child.

He changed his posture and let me rest on his arm, with a long voice, "Not now, but in the future... I don't know yet."

"I was kicked out by..." He added after a silence.

No wonder, only a few days later, he came again.

It would be strange if they didn't come out. It's normal for my parents to react like this. If it was my parents, I would hardly imagine it, and I'm afraid to think about it.

"Then where do you live? Are you renting a house?"

"Didn't I come here to defect to you? I transferred my job to S City."

"What?" I sat up 'teng' and almost took him under the bed, "I said, you are really awesome, the organization and unit are like yours, if you walk on flat ground, you can be there wherever you want ?”

I'm really a little excited. Although I'm a graduate student now, I'm still at a loss for the future direction. I don't know where I will end up. But look at people, places like the Tobacco Bureau, say in City C In City C, say that being in City S is in City S, backed by a mountain is really incomparable.

Man, destiny really matters.

Who is to say that life is good, there is such a hard door behind it.

Needless to say, another reason for my excitement - he, this is determined to rely on me.

"I want to be closer to you and be with you. You are in City S and I am in City C. No matter how convenient the transportation is, it will take hours to get there. Besides, I want to see you every day. I don't want to rely on thinking about it." To pass the day, do you know how painful it is to miss someone? It used to be the past, and the degree of missing you would not be too deep, but now I can’t do it. Every day, my place is on fire. How do you tell me to feel at ease in C stay in the city."

Yu Zisheng grabbed my hand and pressed it on his heart, where it beat like a snare drum, his chest muscles were strong, and his hand felt special. Looking at his eyes, there was endless sincerity besides the moisture , My thoughts were caught, and I was moved for a moment.

It is a blessing to have someone who loves you like this.

Unfortunately, he is male.

"Yu Zisheng, I have a girlfriend, it's impossible between us." I pulled out my hand and turned slightly sideways, not wanting any strange expression to be caught by him.

Time stopped, the air froze, and even the sound of breathing could not be heard.

For a long time, I thought he was asleep, and slowly turned around, watching him staring at the ceiling with his face still, not knowing what he was thinking.

"Hey." I pushed him, "Are you okay?"

His sudden appearance made me feel sour, as if I hurt him so deeply.

Maybe I'm kind and don't want to hurt, even though he's someone with a history like that, even though he's a man, even though I don't like him.

There was a time when Chu Ran was having trouble with his uncle, and I had seen such an expression before, as if he was desperate and disinterested in everything.

If he can do this, does it prove that he is true love, but I...

Didn't it mean that it doesn't matter even if I have a girlfriend? Didn't it mean that I'm looking for mine and you're chasing yours? So, what's the current situation, discouraged?sad?frustrated?Or fall into the bottom of the valley and feel ashamed?

You shouldn't put on a smiley face in front of me as usual, and then say: "It's okay, none of this troubles me, and I, Yu Zisheng, can do whatever I want to do."

Shouldn't that be the case?

Still, there must be a process for everything. It is one thing for me to refuse verbally, but it is another thing for a fact that is difficult for him to accept.

When Ba Yin broke up with me, he immediately found someone else, and I was once disheartened and depressed. Everything in front of me was dark and dull, and I was not interested in anything. It took me a lot of effort to adjust myself. Come here, besides, there is no smooth sailing in life, there must be some twists and turns to be complete.

Now he is probably the same as me at that time, and he will always get better.

So, I didn't speak anymore, I closed my eyes and wanted to keep all of this tonight, tomorrow, another brand new day.

When he woke up in the morning, he found that the place next to him was empty. He couldn't see him as far as he could see. He got up and went to the kitchen and bathroom, but couldn't find him. He knocked lightly on Chen Ling's door.

"Brother Yang, it's still early, let me sleep a little longer." Chen Ling replied lazily.

"Chen Ling, is Yu Zisheng in your room?" I controlled my anxious breath.

"Isn't he in your house, not mine."

gone?leave without saying goodbye?I was still really hurt, idiot, trash, even talking about persistence, it's all nonsense, a big liar.

"Brother Yang, what's the matter?" Chen Ling opened the door, but his eyes were not fully opened yet.

I panicked and pretended to be calm, "Uh, it's okay, I just didn't see him, I guess he was on an errand, don't worry about him, what do you have for breakfast, I'll go down and buy it."

Chen Ling scratched his head, and became vague again, "I don't want to eat, I just want to sleep, go and eat." After speaking, he threw himself back on the bed.

Walking back to the bedroom, I became uneasy, not because I was afraid that something would happen to him, but because I felt that I was hurt too much. It was winter, and I hadn't found a house yet, and I had to adapt to the new working environment. What would he do if he left like this? Arranging his life, how to find a house, whether he has the time, can he be busy?

Suddenly remembered that he seemed to be carrying a suitcase yesterday, I hurried to the door and found that he was gone, and he really left.

It doesn't matter if you leave, you won't bother me anymore, you can work with peace of mind after you leave, you can continue our sweet future with Ran Meng, you can go back to the days without him, quiet and down-to-earth.

But why am I so restless now.

Yu Zisheng, you big bastard, what kind of man you are when you come and go.