bear's daughter-in-law

Kissing with a man for the first time, holding hands with a man in public for the first time, watching a movie with a man for the first time shopping, drinking coffee and dessert with a man in a coffee shop for the first time, giving to a man other than yourself for the first time When I buy a shirt and leather shoes, I will report to a man when I return home late for the first time. When I am in a good mood for the first time, I will surprise him and make a breakfast of love...

Too many firsts happened with Yu Zisheng.

Not long after school started, I found an opportunity to break up with Ran Meng. I didn't find an objective reason, but told her frankly that I was gay and couldn't be with her.

I thought the little girl would cry or scold me as a pervert and lie to her, but otherwise she said sadly that a good person like me can get the love of a man, which is also the best destination. She blesses me and doesn't blame me. , I was a little sad about this, and scolded me bitterly, saying that the first matchmaker in my life failed, and it also inspired my GAY essence.

After a good meal of persuasion and delicious food, she gradually calmed down, and said that she wanted to get to know the person who stole her business personally.

I put it aside.

In fact, I don’t think I’m a good person, but I’m definitely a person with dedicated feelings. I didn’t recognize my attributes when I was with Ran Meng and Ba Yin. I was relaxed during the time with them, but I didn’t feel it. The sweetness of love, and after being with Yu Zisheng, I really felt what love is like.

The sense of happiness from the inside out fills the surroundings every day, making you feel that everything is colorful and everything is so beautiful.

I am grateful for the tolerance and gradually open cognition of this society. There are too many people who can accept us and send blessings, which makes me very grateful.

Love is really beautiful.

He went to a bodyguard company as a coach, and every day he had a full schedule of classes and training, and sometimes he went to the field for emergency training, and when he came back, he was either covered in dirt or mud.

When the course was not tight, I also started to practice cooking according to the online teaching. Although it was simple, I was also very relieved to see him hug me into his arms and dawdle for a while as soon as he entered the door. It is always good to do something for him and for us.

There was no class that afternoon, and I suddenly wanted to eat hot pot. I was picking vegetables at the vegetable market, when my mother's phone came in.

"Mom." I found a relatively quiet place and picked it up.

"Son, is it convenient to talk?" This is the first time my mother spoke in such a tone, and she usually talks about things right away, which made me inexplicably nervous.

"What's the matter, Mom, tell me, I'm fine."

"Son, I cleaned up your broken cell phone a few days ago, and it happened that mine didn't work very well, so I found a shop to fix yours. I saw a memo written by you in it. You... ..." My mother stopped here, and I suddenly remembered that it was a passage I wrote when I was struggling in my heart, and the word "Yu Zisheng" was mentioned in it.

"Mom...I...I just wrote nonsense, it doesn't make any sense." I was so nervous that I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to hide it, but it happened suddenly, and I couldn't get my head around it.

After a pause, my mother continued, "Yangyang, tell mom the truth, do you have that kind of relationship with your child? Whenever he comes to our house, I don't think he treats you like an ordinary friend. Your fate is yours." Since, I gave you a massage and applied medicine, fruit for a while, water for a while, better than what I took care of. At that time, I had doubts, but I didn’t dare to think about it. I found this in your mobile phone by accident. , You said, if I can't see this, how long do you want to hide from us, and when will you two get on well."

"I didn't want to hide it from you," it's just that I'm not ready to tell you, "Mom, we are together now, and it only started after the next year, not long ago."

"You...don't you like girls? Didn't the dancer before have been together for a while, why did you suddenly...be changed?" Mom didn't scold loudly on the phone, but I could feel She must be sad too, her son is gay, and he will bring back a son-in-law to her in the future, and he will break up with him, how can she accept it.

But I just like him, and I can't change it anymore, "If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't realize that the one I like is a man, mom, I like him, I want to be with him, the kind that I want to spend my whole life with, no On a whim, seriously."

"Now I can also see that you are serious. A few days ago, I saw that you were out of your mind. At that time, you gave birth to a child and said that you wanted to celebrate the New Year at our house. Later, he left. I knew that there might be something between you, but nothing happened. Thinking about it." My mother let out a long sigh over there.

"I have always been very entangled and in pain. I don't know what kind of person I am, so I dare not tell you, and I can't tell you. I can't imagine what the consequences will be if you know, but Mom, even if I will not be with him in the future, and I will not find a woman again, I still like men in my heart, so please forgive me."

"You...well, let mom tell you what's good, your dad doesn't know about it yet, I'll talk to him about it when he comes back at night, Yangyang, mom and dad are not stereotyped people, we all I hope you are well, as I said before, your life is up to you, we are only responsible for raising you, now you are an adult, you are an adult, you have your own cognitive ability, how to choose your life is up to you , we don’t intervene too much, there is one thing you don’t need to think about, that is, no matter what you are, your parents love you, and you are our good son.” Listening to the sound, my mother seemed to be crying over there.

I couldn't help feeling sad, "Mom...Mom...thank you..."

"Stupid child, why are you crying? I like the child I gave birth to. Your father has a good impression of him. I believe he can agree. When we go home next time, we will bring him back and we will really eat together. Meal."

"Mom, thank you..."

I hung up the phone with tears streaming down my face. I didn't expect my mother to be so generous and open-minded. I didn't expect my mother to be so great. According to her usual carefree personality, I was afraid that she would kill me, eat me, or take me away. I drove out of the house, but in the end, my mother said these words that touched me, and I squatted in the corner unconsciously and let the tears flow.

This level, I passed.

Unexpectedly smooth, I never imagined that my mother would support me like this, respect me like this, and accept our feelings so easily. The big turnaround like acting made me worry and fear for so long.

With my mother's consent, my father will definitely raise a white flag to agree, because he listens to my mother. Of course, I am also his favorite son, and he can't bear to make me sad.

I'm proud to have such open-minded parents, I really love them.

After calming down for a long time, I decided to tell him the good news. I know he has been worrying about this, and he never brought up the affair with me, nor forced me to introduce it to my friends and classmates. Everything went according to my wishes, I thought, when I told him the news, he would be very happy and jump up excitedly.

Just as the call was about to be dialed out, his call came in first. It was a tacit understanding.

"Hey, Yangyang, where are you?" The joy in his tone couldn't be concealed, is it a salary increase?

I held back my mind and wanted to hear his good news, "I'm shopping for vegetables, and I'll have hot pot at night."

"Don't buy it. Let's go out to eat tonight. I have good news for you. Stand still and I'll pick you up right away." He seemed to be unable to wait any longer. What a good thing this is.

"You... aren't you at work? Why did you leave early?"

"It's okay, I asked the leader for a few hours off, no, I can't wait now, I want to see you right away."

"What's the matter, can't we talk about it now?" It really aroused my curiosity, what kind of great things can't be said on the phone, and I have to ask for leave to meet and talk about it.

"No, we must meet and say, okay, I'll go there right away, you just stay there, don't go."

After speaking, he hung up in a panic, and his rapid panting could be heard on the other end of the phone.

Is it really that important?Well, since he's here, let's wait for him to come and tell him. I have good news, and he has good news. This day is really a good day, double happiness.

"Yangyang, Yangyang..." Seeing him running over panting, without even taking off his coach uniform, how urgent it is.

"Yangyang, wait a minute."

I patted his dirty hands wiping sweat, and took out a tissue to help him wipe his face, "What are you running, it looks like you're on fire."

He pulled my hand and kissed the fingers, "Xiaobao, do you know that this is more urgent than a fire, I can't wait to fly to tell you right away."

"Oh, what's the matter, tell me quickly." It made me anxious in my heart.

"My mother agreed, haha~~~"

"What? What agreed?" I didn't understand.

"Fool, it's just that my mother agreed to our relationship. She just called me and said that she has figured it out. She doesn't care about me. I can marry whoever I want." He was so happy that his face bloomed. , never been so excited.

"This... Isn't this an angry word? I didn't hear it because I was very willing."

"I thought so too. Later, I called my dad again. My dad had no objection to our matter from the very beginning, because he had a lot of experience in handling cases all the year round. He once dealt with gay people who died in love, so maybe he was afraid that I would also Well, maybe he persuaded my mother, she agreed, you know my mother's temper, it is impossible to let her talk about it calmly, this is the maximum, no matter what, now they are accepting Isn't it a great thing to have you?"

"But..." I was puzzled and couldn't believe it.

"But what? Xiaobao, don't you believe me? Then I'll call my mother again now, and let's confirm it on the spot."

I stopped his hand from taking out the phone, "It's not that I don't believe it, it's just that the same good thing happened on the same day, I think it's incredible, how could this happen, how could it be such a coincidence." I can't think normally.

"What?" He held my shoulders with both hands, "What is the same good thing, could it be..."

"Yes," my eyes filled with excitement, "my mother just called me. She found out about our affairs, and she didn't object. She said, I'm in charge of my own affairs."

"That's right, what Auntie really said, she is really great, when did it happen, that's great." He happily kissed my forehead and the tip of my nose several times, "How did she find out? ?”

"What's more, it's all that broken mobile phone. Didn't you say that it can't be repaired? Didn't you mean that the motherboard is broken? Then why did my mother fix it as soon as she went to repair it, and... also saw the content written in my memo .” I lowered my head in shame.

"I... didn't I want to buy you a better mobile phone? Yours is too broken. Even if it is repaired, it will be broken within half a year. The main board is not broken, just replace the battery and it will be OK. By the way, Bao'er, tell brother, what did you write in the memo?" He still caught the point.

He lowered his head and approached my face. This is the rhythm of a deep kiss. I have gradually figured out his behavior. No matter where he is or who he is, he can kiss whenever he wants, but I can't.

"Don't be presumptuous on the street, just watch." I looked around, nervous for fear that he would come for real.

"Then according to Xiaobao, we can just go home, okay, then let's go home."

After speaking, he dragged me to call a taxi and stuffed me in.

"Didn't you say to have dinner first?" Seeing the car heading home, I already had a premonition of what was going to happen next, and my heart couldn't stop throbbing.

He held my hand all the time in the car, and the corners of his mouth never flattened, "Go home and watch your performance, and we'll go when we explain things clearly." Because there was a driver present, he didn't overdo it, just scratched my hand lightly. My palms and eyes are full of obscenity.

I didn't continue to explain anything, but looked at the flowers and plants flying by outside the window, they were so beautiful, so dazzling, so lovable.

"Well~~ Bao'er, I want it, okay?" From the moment I entered the door and kissed on the bed, I was drawn into another world without knowing it. I couldn't find the way out of the scorching heat all over my body, and my heart was about to burst.

The tenderness in his eyes, the warmth of his fingers, the sweet breath, and the same desire that is waiting to gather momentum.

In fact, I thought that there would be such a day sooner or later, but I was afraid of pain, and dared not take that step to accept him every time. This time, I planned to break that layer of distance and completely merge the two into one.

"...um..." After responding, I closed my eyes tightly and waited like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered. I was afraid, excited, and looking forward to it.

(I have seen it in the same-sex posting bar a long time ago. This is a wonderful process, and I am comforting myself.)

"Bao'er, if you're not ready, it's the same if we do it later, I don't want to..."

I know, he doesn't want to make me sad and hurt, "Come on, I'm ready." It's a bit ashamed for a big man to admit that he is the one who is the victim, the one who is oppressed, I cover my face and don't look at it, Don't think about it, welcome the first time in your life.

"Bao'er, don't cover your face, watch carefully, see how we started, I will be very gentle and won't hurt you."

Although the strange touch is not real, and it is much thinner in comparison, there is still some pain and unknown pleasure in places that have never been there, including discomfort and comfort.

"Can you bear it? If you can't, stop it." He was afraid that I might not get used to it, so he couldn't bear to refuse gently.

"It's okay..." I shook my head, feeling tears slipping from the corners of my eyes, but it didn't come from the pain, but...

Parallel up and down, some of the places where the lips slide past are painful, while others are itchy, I really want him to deepen the kiss, that wet feeling can always reach the end of the nerves, making people want to stop and expand It went much smoother, on the contrary, the strange feeling became stronger and stronger, and it became more and more uncontrollable, and I wanted to shout out.

"Zisheng... but... it's okay." For the first time, this kind of torture made me lose my mind, so I hoped that he would hurry up, hurry up, I want it, right now.

He smiled wickedly, as if begging or provocative, and kissed his lips, "Is it really possible? Then I... I'm about to start."

For the first time in my life, I realized what is the madness of sex-love, what is the real beauty, what is the enjoyment, what is the pleasure. It ushered in the second madness, I only felt that someone was moving, I wanted to push him out, and I wanted to hold him tightly, I wanted to go on like this forever, fainted inside, and never come out.

……

The first break-up in my life was with a man, with a man I love. I am willing to open my heart and open my legs to accept a man. It is the first time I say I love him, and the first time I call his name without a surname. The first time I called him "Honey" under his persecution, the first time I rolled on the bed for five hours, almost became disabled and dragged my sick body to have a candlelight dinner with him, the first time I bought a couple wristwatch Watch, vowed to lock each other forever.

Announced for the first time on the restaurant's center stage - we're in this together.

Say to each other affectionately for the first time: I love you! ! !