cold flame

The programs on the TV have been playing all afternoon, either clichéd spy movies or boring idol dramas. According to the habit of the past few days, Lin Mo will not take the initiative to turn on the TV at all. He spends the afternoon practicing playing the keys with his left hand , and sitting on the sofa enjoying the music.

Today was different, he didn't even look in the direction of the piano, his eyes always swept quickly when he was about to glue the dark object standing in the corner, deliberately ignoring its seeming silence.The loud noise from the TV was just enough to distract him from having to control his attention.

Although he was not used to it, after the definite answer was judged last night, he had convinced himself that he was struggling with residual hope, and suddenly he was blown to an unknown corner of the sky like a kite string that was cut by someone.Lin Mo lost the courage to regain it, and could only face the cruel real predicament.

For some reason, today when he admits to being futile and decides to give up, he feels an inexplicable sense of relief, mixed with a touch of relief. Maybe it's because the assumption that he still deceived himself when he knew the result was too depressing, and even more so. Maybe it was because all the emotions poured out yesterday were finally vented, leaving him with nothing but loneliness in his heart after releasing his extreme sadness.

Thinking of this, I can't help but think of the natural hug last night. Under such a situation, this comforting method is not at all awkward, but when recalling it again, the other party's body temperature and words are still clear, which inevitably makes Lin Mo lose his mind slightly. .

When he was crying on Gao Wenxuan's shoulder last night, the other person's hand was gently stroking his head, while he said in a low voice but with certainty: "There will be, trust me."

When the mood gradually stabilized, the shoulders were wet.Gao Wenxuan helped Lin Mo wipe away the tears with his fingers, and asked him to lie on the bed and apply a cold towel to his eyes, and then he fell asleep under the moderately cold touch.

This sleep was peaceful and comfortable, and it was actually the only night I didn't suffer from insomnia when I came here.

Looking at the dark night outside the balcony from the floor-to-ceiling windows, Lin Mo couldn't help but glance at the clock in the living room, holding the remote control in his left hand and changing channels one after another. When he was looking for a slightly interesting program, the door sounded open.

"It's rare to watch TV today." Gao Wenxuan's hearty voice came from there.

Lin Mo didn't reply, because he turned his head and saw the things the other party was holding in his hand.

"I brought a cute little guy back." Seeing Lin Mo's bright eyes instantly, Gao Wenxuan couldn't help laughing, and sat down beside him: "New member, Mo Mo, welcome?"

This is a light yellow golden retriever puppy, with small and round eyes, black and bright, exuding a docile and soft light, two ears drooping like two hanging small fans, and its head trembles with curiosity With a shudder, the small and naive appearance is extremely cute.

"Yeah." Lin Mo responded, and the moment Gao Wenxuan put it on the sofa, he stretched out his hand to caress it. At this time, the little guy was trying to get familiar with his smell, nodding his wet nose and then tapping his palm, defenseless Get close to people.

"It doesn't have a name yet, think of one." Gao Wenxuan also teased the puppy with him.

Lin Mo thought for a while and said, "Let's call him Xiaobai."

"Call a golden-haired puppy Xiaobai?" Gao Wenxuan asked amusedly, not expecting such a simple and casual name.

"What's wrong, the dog we had in the past was named Xiaobai."

"Okay, let's call it Xiaobai." Gao Wenxuan got up and said, "Then you play with Xiaobai first, and I'll prepare dinner with you two."

These words always felt weird, Lin Mo saw that the other party took off his coat and walked into the kitchen, so he continued to focus on Xiao Bai.

Not long after, the aroma of delicious food came. Gao Wenxuan set up the food and said to the living room, "Momo, wash your hands and eat."

Lin Mo obediently went to the kitchen to wash his hands. He saw Gao Wenxuan was pouring finely crushed dog food into a flat round bowl with a packaging bag. When he had filled enough, he said, "I'll feed it."

As soon as he put down the bowl, Xiaobai moved up with his fluffy tail, stuck out his tongue and rolled his delicious food into his mouth. After eating, he still licked the bottom of the bowl until it was shiny. Lin Mo stroked his head with a smile .

"Okay, it's time for you to eat." Gao Wenxuan rubbed Lin Mo's hair, pulled him up who was squatting on the ground, and smiled helplessly: "From now on, you will be responsible for Xiaobai's food."

There is a fish-based dish on the dinner table every day, and today is no exception. Lin Mo stretched out his empty spoon to the side of the whole sweet and sour fish. Gao Wenxuan immediately smiled and put a piece of fish on his spoon.

"taste good or not?"

"It's okay." The sweet and sour sauce spread in his mouth, Lin Mo asked, "How can you know how to cook these fish?"

"If you like to eat, I will learn how to cook."

Lin Mo continued to eat after hearing this, poured a little sweet and sour sauce on the rice, and glanced at Xiao Bai who was having fun on the carpet under the sofa in the living room, Xiao Bai seemed to feel concern Looking at Lin Mo, he immediately ran towards Lin Mo in response.

Seeing this, Gao Wenxuan asked, "By the way, where is Xiaobai's sleeping nest?"

"Leave me in the room."

"That's not okay, this is the dog we raised together, how can we only be close to you." Gao Wenxuan retorted half-jokingly.

"Then put it in the living room."

After dinner, Gao Wenxuan was washing dishes in the kitchen. Lin Mo put the cotton dog mat he bought with Xiao Bai under the single sofa, so that even if he was sitting on the middle sofa watching TV, he could always observe the little guy's What did you do.

"What did you watch this afternoon?" After taking a shower and changing his medicine, Gao Wenxuan was sitting on the sofa casually looking for evening TV programs.

"It's a mess of TV shows, and there's nothing to watch." Lin Mo replied holding Xiaobai.

Gao Wenxuan suggested: "Then watch a movie, and you can also play with Xiaobai for a while."

"Ah."

In the past, he would change his medicine early and go to his room to stay, but today he agreed to this suggestion.With an imperceptible smile on the corner of Gao Wenxuan's mouth, he chose a foreign comedy.

It is indeed a classic movie with a good reputation at the box office. Even Lin, who was pretending to be serious at first, changed his expression and laughed happily from time to time. Mo said, "This is very sweet, here it is."

Lin Mo put the half of the fruit into his mouth, and only realized when he ate it in his stomach. He looked at the people around him strangely, "Why did you give me what you ate?"

"I just gave it to you after tasting it and thought it was sweet." Gao Wenxuan answered naturally.

It was past ten o'clock after watching the movie, and Xiao Bai lay on Lin Mo's lap with his ears hanging down, looking drowsy. Gao Wenxuan turned off the TV series, and the living room was suddenly silent.

"Seeing that you talk more today, I know you're in a better mood."

Lin Mo patted Xiaobai's head and said, "Is this why you bought Xiaobai? I know you don't like dogs."

"It's fine if you like it or not, and it can be with you when I'm not at home."

Lin Mo suddenly thought of something and asked, "Will you give it away when I go home?"

Gao Wenxuan smiled gently: "Of course not, I will continue to raise it. When you want to see Xiaobai, you can come here anytime. Aren't you also its owner?"

"Thank you."

"That's the last thing I like to hear you say to me."

Lin Mo felt strange and asked, "Why?"

"Because I'm wondering when you'll be able to replace those two words with actions and do something practical to express your gratitude."

Regardless of whether Gao Wenxuan's good intentions are sincere or not, Lin Mo thought that he rarely responded to these kindnesses and proper care except for an understatement of "thank you".

He couldn't think of anything for a while, so he tried to reply: "Then let me wash the dishes for you?"

Gao Wenxuan seemed to be amused, and held Lin Mo's left hand in front of the two of them, saying: "If you look like this, I will let you do coolies, isn't it too harsh."

Seeing that Lin Mo was silent, he continued: "I'll rest the day after tomorrow, why don't you go out with me for a day and just relax, okay?"

There was a trace of doubt in Lin Mo's clear eyes. He could clearly feel the warmth from the other party holding his hand while he was hesitating. He subconsciously responded, "Okay."

"That's it." Gao Wenxuan let go of his hand, reported Xiaobai to the heating pad, and then turned off the light in the living room and sent Lin Mo back to his room.

"How did you sleep last night?" Gao Wenxuan waited for Lin Mo to lie down, and sat on the edge of the bed to cover him with the quilt.

"No insomnia." Lin Mo said truthfully.

"I fell asleep when I rubbed your eyes. I must have not slept well the past few days."

There is only a small warm yellow lamp on the bedside in the room. Under the silence, there is only a little light in the darkness. In the silent and silent gaze of the two, they gently describe the changes in each other's expressions every second, every moment. For a moment, her eyes flowed faintly.

Gao Wenxuan reached out and covered Lin Mo's face with his fingertips, and gently slid it to the scab to stop, he said, "I know the piano means a lot to you, and I don't want you to give up hope, but you have the right to It's up to you to take it or not, but either way, it's not going to be a dead end, you just know that."

Lin Mo looked sideways at the other party's focused and serious expression under the light, and his heart moved slightly.

"So what we have to do now is to make them recover well. After that, I will practice with you. Although there are some regrets, there will always be other things to make up for that regret."

"For example, Xiaobai?"

Gao Wenxuan smiled slightly and said, "Yes, he can accompany you for at least ten years."

Lin Mo continued to ask, "What about ten years later?"

"That depends on what do you want to have ten years from now?"

Lin Mo fell silent, and Gao Wenxuan said in a deep voice, "Maybe there will be someone who loves you, or maybe... that person has already appeared now."

After Gao Wenxuan finished speaking, he got up, "It's very late, go to sleep, good night, Momo."

"Good night." Lin Mo's voice sounded the moment the other party turned off the light.

After the door was closed, he closed his eyes in the dark. The heating had filled the originally cold space. Lin Mo thought that since he came here, every day was like being in a spring afternoon. This warm temperature made him fall asleep deeply. .