I miss you so much

-9.5

February 2013, 6, Seoul, sunny.

Yesterday was his comeback stage, and I was in the audience.

The scar on his hand was all but a scab, but...it was ugly.

As his studies in Korea are drawing to a close, he seems very busy.

There are very few phone calls, but text messages will never be forgotten.

-10.0

Mr. Jiang said that this is a cup of tea made from dewdrops collected from the mountains in the early morning.But this is just what Jiang Lao said, Xuyi tasted it in his own mouth, but there was only one kind of taste - bland, which only belonged to a kind of flat pace of Jiang Lao.

It has been more than ten days since I came back from South Korea, and the weather has gradually changed from warm to muggy hot. Before getting up at five o'clock, it was still dark, but now it is bright.Mr. Jiang doesn't like to make troubles, so he gets up at [-] o'clock every day to play Tai Chi with his granddaughter Jiang Rui.

Mr. Jiang is a well-known old Chinese doctor, and Xuyi also stayed here before.Ever since he fainted last time, Jiang Shi arranged for Xu Yi to trouble Mr. Jiang again and again.Mr. Jiang, whom I haven't seen for a few years, is still so energetic. When I see Xuyi, I still have a sense of reluctance to cure her disease.

That day seemed to be past eleven o'clock in the evening, Xuyi's cell phone beside the bed rang suddenly, waking up Xuyi who had just fallen asleep.She groped to pick up the phone, and there was a voice on the other end of the phone that drove Xu Yi suddenly sleepy. She even said that Lu Han was full of surprises, but he on the other end hesitated a little, as if he was holding back something Feelings that could explode at any time, but in the end his voice trembled a little.

When he said that I will be with you, he inexplicably had a suppressed cry.Xu Yi heard it but didn't dare to ask, so he could only comfort the other end of the phone, okay, go to sleep and don't think too much.

But Xu Yi, who really hung up the phone, couldn't fall asleep. Thinking about it, his mood has gradually calmed down since he got here. Although he didn't have much mood swings before, it's just that when he remembered that complete memory, he was no longer as sad as before. , heart-piercing and full of resentment.I just kept thinking about going with Luhan when I recovered from my illness.

Even if we really separate like strangers in the future, at least we must be together now.

Speaking of the day when Xu Yi left Korea, it was when Lu Han was on standby that he felt slightly relieved when he saw a text message from her.For him, Xuyi's departure this time is at least a purposeful return instead of the vague place before.

After finishing all the announcements, it was past twelve o'clock in the evening, but when he should be sleepy, he was unusually awake.Lu Han took out the guitar leaning against the bed, just holding the guitar on the bed in a daze.Luhan doesn't know how to play the guitar very much, but every time he changes the strings diligently and takes good care of it.It was like Xu Yi's other sex, the only consolation he gave himself during that long time without a goal.

When he came back to his senses, Huang Zitao and Zhang Yixing were already sitting in front of him, wanting to discuss his showdown with his manager in the morning.

"At the end of the day, he is a pure man in Beijing, I admire him." Huang Zitao gestured to him with his hands clasped together.Lu Han slapped the paw in front of his eyes and killed Huang Zitao with a single sentence. "I can't be envious."

At this moment, Lu Han said that it would be cloudy and breezy as long as it was cloudy and breezy, as if the faint fear in the morning was fake.Lu Han was just betting with his manager, but it seems that he won the bet. As for what to bet on, it must be a matter between Jiang Xuyi and Lu Han.An agent who had heard about it for a long time came to talk to him, but he resisted the agent for the first time.

He said that as long as Xu Yi is not exposed or hyped up by anyone and will not be placed in a place she doesn't like, Luhan is willing to hide this relationship, but he will never break up.

At that time, Lu Han didn't know how loud his voice was, how strong his tone was, at least the people in the dormitory were obviously taken aback when they heard it.Those sentences in Korean were pronounced so clearly that people's first reaction was to be surprised by the tone rather than the content.

The manager in front of him slightly raised his head and looked directly into Lu Han's eyes, but he didn't forcefully ask for a breakup. He just said that if Lu Han guaranteed that this relationship would not be noticed by anyone, it would affect his career and EXO's career.

After a while of silence, the manager heard him say in a firm and unquestionable tone——I can assure you.

In fact, to be honest, exo and others only met Xu Yi a few times, that Xu Yi is very gentle and warm when he smiles, and he is kind to everyone.The nervousness that Luhan felt when he was scratched by the fragments of the light is definitely not fake, it is rare to see such a nervous look.They already understood how important Jiang Xuyi was to Lu Han.

A person who is so important that she will never let her get hurt even if she gets hurt.

Ten days after Xu Yi left, Lu Han also flew from South Korea to Beijing due to work.As soon as he got into the car, he found an unfamiliar text message on his phone, but the content surprised Lu Han for a while.

Can we meet, I'm Xuichi's father.

Lu Han dubiously called back the phone, only beeped three times on the phone over there before being picked up with a thick voice.

"Hi Uncle, I'm Luhan."

"Lu Han, I just wanted to ask if I could meet up, I happen to be in Beijing too." Jiang Shi on the phone was a little more cautious than Lu Han, and added another sentence after speaking. "I won't waste your time."

Lu Han suddenly believed him for no reason, and reported his hotel address.Jiang Shi over there memorized the address and said something that Lu Han was eager to know. "There are some things about Xu Yi, I should tell you after thinking about it."

Lu Han really wanted to know about Xu Yi's incident that he didn't know about.He wanted to know what Jiang Xuyi had experienced during that time that made her so sensitive now.

At ten o'clock in the evening, he came to a coffee shop not far from the hotel, and there were not many people in it.Lu Han didn't know what Jiang Shi looked like, he looked around and stopped in a corner, where a man in his early fifties was sitting, beckoning to Lu Han kindly.Lu Han knew it right away, because those eyes and high nose bridge were exactly the same as Jiang Xuyi's.

Lu Han walked quickly to that seat and sat down, first of all he said hello to him.Jiang Shi looked at Lu Han and smiled, took a sip of his coffee and said, "I ordered a cup of coffee for you, your child really looks like what Xu Yi said, and he is really many times prettier than her child. "

Lu Han raised his hat in embarrassment, he is no longer the impetuous child he used to be, and he will not get angry when he hears this compliment. "Uncle praised me too much."

"How come, this child Xu Yi is spoiled by you so much, I really have to thank you." He smiled and took another sip of coffee, then turned his face down, and his tone became a little cautious. "I didn't care if you fell in love. But will she affect your career? After all..." After speaking, he sighed and his eyes darkened a little.

"Uncle won't, I will protect her well."

Seeing the firmness in Lu Han's eyes, Jiang Shi nodded in relief, as if he suddenly thought of something. "Xuyi is currently being treated by an old Chinese doctor. Last time she fainted, you were frightened."

Lu Han nodded with a forced smile, took a deep breath and asked the question he always wanted to know. "Uncle, I want to know why she is like this."

Jiang Shi laughed inexplicably, shook his head and let out a long sigh.

"In the final analysis, it was my fault." He lowered his head and smiled softly, as if caught in some memory, and then slowly told all the facts of that year.Lu Han was even more shocked when he heard those painful facts.

"I always love to run around. I brought the two of them to Beijing. I planned to enjoy the blessings. However, my partner took away the money in the company, and I suddenly had nothing. I have no money. What can I do? Then Just go home. Go back to my hometown in despair, and let her transfer to the high school in the county seat the next day. The high school is not the best high school, but it is not bad. Speaking of which, this child's eccentricity is from childhood. , the relatives at home don’t like her very much, and the neighbors often complain to me about Xu Yi’s impoliteness. I know Xu Yi’s temper. When we asked her to go to Beijing that year, she almost got into a fight with us before going. When she came back, she was very calm.

For some reason, this child was dragged into an alley by a group of girls for no reason and beat her up. I don’t know what the group of children did. She was beaten so badly that she was covered in bruises, not to mention a big gash on her forehead. The blood just flowed down and covered her right eye.When Vince came and told me about it, I was scared to death.I ran to look for her in the alley, but she sat on the ground without making a sound, with blood on her face not to mention her clothes on her hands. "Jiang Shi's eyes were already a little wet when he said this, and even his voice was trembling.

"We sent her to the hospital to be bandaged, checked her body and brought her home. She didn't go to school for several days, and she ran there early every morning. It turned out that she was sitting there on the bridge in a daze for a whole day, and then returned home. Didn't say a word. It went on like this for several days, until she wrote a sentence in the notebook and showed it to me and her mother. We were stupid. She said she couldn't speak, couldn't make a sound. That day I took her to the hospital for an examination. The doctor said it was hysterical aphasia caused by fright. When she knew the result, she was calmer than anyone else, and just sat there laughing. Much stronger. Just like this time passed little by little, she communicated with us only by notebooks and gestures."

So why did she change her mobile phone number that year? She was avoiding it.

"Mr. Jiang is a good doctor, and Xu Yi gradually got better under his care. After the follow-up visit, Xu Yi couldn't die, and insisted on finishing the college entrance examination. She wanted to be admitted to a university in Beijing, but her grades were not as good as expected. "

Coming out of the coffee shop, Lu Han felt a little panicked, and wanted to vent his discomfort.It turned out that she had experienced these, but she never told me the slightest.Lu Han still remembers Jiang Shi's last words, he said that if he can't remember, it's an asshole, and she never recalled the past in all these years, so she always held back her heart.The fainting that day was a cause that would eventually be eradicated.

When he got back to the hotel, he called Xuyi immediately. She seemed to have just woken up on the phone, and immediately became lively when she heard him speak.She kept it a secret until the end.

Never lose her again.

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