Sailor suit and white sneakers

Gu Qingmeng handed over the paper and said with concern: "Slow down."

"Can you do it?" Lin Shuyao looked helplessly at her younger brother.

"Sister, that... don't..." Lin Xinghe, who was caught off guard and dragged out of the cabinet by his sister, took the paper mechanically, and rubbed his legs under the table to touch his sister desperately, implying frantically that Dalian sat across the table Gu Qingmeng felt the shock.

Gu Qingmeng remained silent, turned his head to look out of the window with a half-smile, as if he was distracted, which was a great way to save face.

"Ah, ok, ok, I didn't say anything." Lin Shuyao raised her hands in surrender.

Lin Xinghe was sitting on pins and needles, not daring to raise his head or speak. He picked up the cup in front of him and drank water at an average rate of once every five seconds to cover up his embarrassment.

Lin Xinghe also likes men.

However, contrary to the frank and calm Gu Qingmeng, why did Lin Xing dare not admit this matter to others.

He was born with a beautiful face rather than handsome and handsome, and he was always shy and quiet by nature, and he spoke softly. go together.

Because of these "feminine" traits, Lin Xinghe was severely excluded by boys in junior high school. The boys thought he was like a girl, and they took pleasure in humiliating, ridiculing, and isolating him. When pushing into the women's toilet, Lin Xinghe, who had a livid face and clenched his teeth against the door frame, was rescued by his new tablemate Wang Xiaoxi.

As soon as Lin Xinghe broke free from the restraints, he immediately jumped to a place far away from the women's toilet like a rabbit.

The bad guys who were threatened by Wang Xiaoxi to call the teaching director ran away happily, and some people turned their heads and gave them the middle finger with a naughty smile.

As slender as Lin Xinghe, Wang Xiaoxi waved his fist and roared, "Wait until I find someone to beat you! Don't be cowardly when you have the guts!"

The laughter of the bad embryos suddenly boiled.

Lin Xinghe thanked Wang Xiaoxi with a red face, and the great friendship between the two young boys sprouted.

As for the campus where "one night after school, a man as burly as an iron tower blocked the bully and his subordinates at the south gate of the school, and asked them to form a line, beat from east to west, and then from west to east" Although there is no real hammer to prove the legend, but the school bully and his younger brothers suddenly collectively took several days of sick leave, and they all restrained a lot after returning, but it is a fact in everyone's eyes.

Although this bad breath came out, the psychological shadow was hard to get rid of, because of those bad embryos, Lin Xinghe felt a little inferior to his "lack of masculinity" appearance and personality, if he was found out that he was gay again, then It is tantamount to making matters worse, so Lin Xinghe has lived for 19 years without confessing his sexual orientation to anyone, including his best friend Wang Xiaoxi.

Lin Xinghe thought she was hiding it well, but she couldn't hide it from her sharp sister. Lin Shuyao saw her brother's orientation by herself and chose an auspicious day to have a showdown and ask directly.Lin Xinghe couldn't refute, so he had to admit it with a feeling of death, but Lin Shuyao, who has always been hot-tempered and unambiguous, gave Lin Xinghe rare tenderness and understanding.

"Homosexuality, it's normal, it's not fundamentally different from heterosexuality." Lin Shuyao pinched her younger brother's small shoulders and shook them.

Lin Xinghe, who was ready to be scolded head and face, raised her eyes cautiously, thinking about Lin Shuyao's expression, for fear that her sister was talking ironically and mocking herself.

Lin Shuyao glanced at him, and smiled: "There is no need to have a psychological burden, but if you fancy a man, you must first lead it over and let your sister check it out for you, do you hear me? You are so stupid, don't let anyone fool you anymore." .”

Lin Xinghe pursed his lips, and asked timidly: "Sister...do you really think I'm doing this right? I was...not a boy, but I still like boys..."

"Of course you are right." Lin Shuyao snorted lightly, "Who stipulates what a man must look like, and what a woman must look like? What annoys me the most since I was a child is that people always say that I don't look like a girl." Son', then you don't have to 'look like a boy', and you haven't broken the law, of course you can do whatever you feel comfortable with, and it's not for them to watch."

After knowing his younger brother's orientation, Lin Shuyao kept encouraging him to be brave and try to come out to a trusted friend, but Lin Xinghe never dared.

The most terrible thing is that not only did Lin Xinghe dare not come out, he even dared not take the initiative to meet people in the circle.

——One night after entering college, I went out to sing and have fun with my roommates, and Lin Xiaobaitu, who was forced to drink a glass of beer, picked out a bit of beastliness from the corners of my inner world that was not enough to fit between my teeth. The cat downloaded a gay friend app under the quilt, and boldly posted a picture of himself lying on the desk with only the upper half of his face exposed as his profile picture.

Because the avatar is so good-looking, Lin Xinghe's friend application was instantly exploded.

Among them, there are actually quite a few people who say hello politely, but there are also many people who open their mouths and shut their mouths just to have sex and drive. Under the covers, his face was flushed by the old driver who went straight to the topic one after another, and he was frightened awake by the little alcohol in an instant. He felt that he had done something bad, so he uninstalled the software in shame, and the redness on his face did not subside for half an hour. go down.

...the circle is really scary.

What did Lin Xing think.

So Lin Xinghe has lived for 19 years and has never met anyone of the same kind who can talk to him. Now that he knows that Gu Qingmeng is the same, he can't help being a little excited.

There was an embarrassing silence at the dining table for a few seconds. Lin Shuyao shook the mobile phone that she had been playing with for a while, and the corners of her lips curled up helplessly, and said, "My company has an urgent matter, so I have to go to work overtime immediately. I'm so sorry for missing me."

Gu Qingmeng is very reasonable: "It's okay, work is important, you go and do it first."

Lin Xinghe panicked like a little white rabbit thrown into a wolf's den by its owner, grabbed Lin Shuyao's sleeve and said, "Sister, can, can we go after dinner?"

"I'm really in a hurry, there's an emergency." Lin Shuyao withdrew her hand, "I'll get it in half an hour, and there's still a traffic jam right now."

Lin Xinghe was so anxious that his ears were red: "Then you have to work overtime hungry..."

Lin Shuyao: "It's okay, I ordered takeaway."

"Then I too..." Lin Xinghe raised his buttocks and wanted to run away.

Gu Qingmeng interrupted softly: "The dishes are all ordered, don't waste them." Then he turned to Lin Shuyao, "I'll send Xinghe back after dinner, don't worry."

"Thank you, I will invite you another day." Lin Shuyao said, and drifted away like a gust of wind.

Lin Xinghe and Gu Qingmeng's eyes widened.

After staring for a moment, Lin Xinghe said with a guilty conscience: "My sister's words don't mean anything else..."

It's the sentence "Are you the same? Then you just happen to be able to chat with Xinghe".

Gu Qingmeng raised his eyebrows, his eyes were dark and moist, and he asked in confusion, "Which sentence?"

"No!" Seeing that Gu Qingmeng didn't take it to heart at all, Lin Xinghe was overjoyed, and waved his hand to make an afterimage, "Nothing, I remembered it wrong."

At this time, the waiter began to serve dishes one after another. Every time a new dish came up, Gu Qingmeng would help the waiter adjust the arrangement of the dishes on the table. Lin Xinghe found that the sweeter dishes were placed farther away from him. Recently, the only dish with chili was placed in front of Gu Qingmeng.

"Try the sweet-scented osmanthus cold cake," Gu Qingmeng greeted Lin Xinghe with his chopsticks, "I remember you like sweets."

"Ah... yes!" Lin Xinghe was flattered and even touched when Gu Qingmeng remembered his eating habits after so many years of absence.

Unexpectedly, Gu Qingmeng slowly recollected Lin Xinghe's dark history: "I lived in your house for more than half a month, and you should be four years old at that time. I remember that you hid candy and chocolate pie in the bed every night before going to bed. , get up in the middle of the night and secretly eat..."

Lin Xinghe's cat-like big eyes slowly opened, "Uh..."

——At that time, Lin Xinghe was four years old, and he had already started sleeping in a separate room with his sister, and there were only three bedrooms in the house, so Gu Qingmeng shared the bed with Lin Xinghe when he stayed at Lin's house for more than half a month.A four-year-old child has already remembered things, and now Lin Xinghe can still vaguely recall the scene of Gu Qingmeng fanning himself patiently instead of an electric fan on a night when the power went out.

Gu Qingmeng joked: "At that time, I thought some little mouse got into the bed."

Lin Xinghe, who thought that only God knew the black history of eating chocolate pie under the covers in the middle of the night, was so ashamed that he wanted to get under the table, and stammered: "You, you know..."

Gu Qingmeng was funny: "Every night at twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, when the alarm clock in the living room rang, the quilt next to me bulged into a small bag."

Lin Xinghe slapped his face, embarrassed to look at people.

"Then there was a smell of chocolate on the bed," Gu Qingmeng pretended to complain, "I was so greedy... Then you were taken to see a dentist."

Gu Qingmeng still remembers that he and Lin Shuyao were playing poker in the living room. Xiao Lin Xinghe, who refused to see a dentist, was grabbed by Lin's father, Lin, and was dragged out of the house as if he was going to the execution ground. It floated all the way to the first floor, and it was still faintly audible until it was stuffed into the car.

Little Gu Qingmeng had no choice but to put down a good hand of cards: "This is your win."

"Why do you think I won? I could have won too!" Xiao Lin Shuyao yelled loudly holding a handful of bad cards.

Gu Qingmeng: "...the two kings and four two are with me."

Lin Shuyao, who was deeply poisoned by Hong Kong movies: "I am a gambler, you know that a gambler will change his cards?"

Gu Qingmeng ran to the window and shouted downstairs: "Uncle, grandpa—wait for me—I'll go too—"

Lin Shuyao: "Why are you going?"

Gu Qingmeng: "Your brother is crying like that, you still have the heart to play."

"I can't stop him from crying." Lin Shuyao retorted rationally, and turned on the TV to watch "The Saint of Gamblers".

Gu Qing and Meng Fei ran downstairs and got into the car, while Xiao Lin Xinghe was flailing his teeth and claws in the back seat, his hands and feet almost left afterimages.

"Come on, brother hug." Gu Qingmeng pulled Xiaotuanzi into his arms, wiped his nose and tears, and whispered softly, "Don't be afraid, the dentist uncle will give you anesthesia later, and you won't be hurt after the anesthetic is applied. See if I pinch your elbow and you don't feel much pain? That's how it feels after the anesthetic is administered."

Perhaps it was because Gu Qingmeng was born with a reassuring and gentle temperament, Xiaolin Xinghe stopped shouting after howling a few more times, just nestled in Gu Qingmeng's arms and shed tears, as if he had suffered a great grievance.

"Hey, you, you don't want to talk about it..." Lin Xinghe hung his head red-faced, repeatedly fiddled with a piece of sweet-scented osmanthus cold cake on the plate.

"Okay, let's not talk about it," Gu Qingmeng's evil taste has been fully satisfied, and he said with a smile, "Eat vegetables, eat vegetables."

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