think about love

Chapter 29

This case has been followed by the Internet all the time, and what’s more, it’s not too big of a deal to join in the fun and praise me for being a disaster. That blogger has hacked many celebrities before, like third-tier stars who were vilified by him, and even committed suicide due to depression. Two, many people actually hate him to the bone.When I posted on Weibo, I saw a large number of insulting words. I looked at it in self-deprecating manner, and pressed down the corners of my mouth just raised.

Dear Master Miao Huang, thank you.I will always try to protect you.I won't let anyone hurt you, you wait for me, I will be able to protect you.

Seeing this sentence reminded me of Song Si, but soon I shook my head, how could it be possible, he has always been an obedient and law-abiding child.A very sunny person, besides, if I am gay, do I think the person next to me is?Besides, I don't think I have this charm. The man's murder probably has nothing to do with me. It's very likely that the man offended someone when he said something unscrupulously. The murderer said it might not be because he wanted people to doubt me.

I have been decadent for almost a century, but no matter how decadent I am, I still have my life to live.I got my notice at the post office and went to pick it up on a sunny day as always.I wrote the post office of City A as my address, and I couldn't think of going there at the time.

Picking up the notice in the corner, I saw that it was the University of City A.The days passed by day by day, and the start of school is approaching. I should be happy. Although my mother and grandpa didn’t want to see me, they didn’t stop my card. I am very grateful to them for their mercy and not being a child with me. Care about.When school started, I looked at what I could take away in this little house.It’s just that there is nothing necessary to take away the poor things. I decided to renew the rent. I gave the uncle a rent of [-] yuan for four years, which is not expensive.

This uncle is a mediocre gambler. I found that when he loses money all the time, he will drink alcohol and beat his wife and daughter when he is drunk. If he wins, he will buy some good things and come back. He is in a good mood and praises his daughter and wife. .

When I went to renew the rent, he was in a good mood and felt like he had won a lot of money. She kept praising his daughter to me.When I left, he took out 200 of the cash I gave him and gave it to his daughter, but his daughter dared not take it.He kept saying that Dad is rich, it's okay, this little money is nothing compared to my precious daughter...

I didn't listen to it later, I went to school two days in advance to buy the things I needed, and I reported that I majored in mathematics.When I arrived at the dormitory, there was no one there. I stayed alone for two days. The dormitory was full of people from the city. Now that the Internet is so developed, many people know me by myself.The people in the dormitory were very afraid of me, and I thought I was actually the murderer in their hearts.In a sense I am indeed a murderer.

My daily life is the library, where it is very quiet, no one will give me pointers. I like it there, except for the classroom, I often stay in the library.I didn't care what they thought of me or misunderstood me. It was just that one day in my junior year I found that the knife protruding from my roommate's bed hurt my eyes.I used to be a threat to them.

I have very few classes in my third year, and this year I met a senior from the Internet who was many years older than me. He happened to teach mathematics at the school I attended before. He was an old-fashioned person. He said he didn’t believe what was said on the Internet. .

This is a man who believes in me, and he talks to me often.I didn't use the previous number. I bought a computer for playing games. It was a senior I met in a game.Very good alone.On the day I was planning to move out of the dorm, I ran into an old acquaintance.

I was wearing stupid glasses, and when I thought I was dazzled, an acquaintance walked over, and I calmly greeted him, "Long time no see." The person took off his sunglasses, "Long time no see."

Seeing his more and more charming appearance, I couldn't help but sigh, "Time is like a butcher's knife." This man is becoming more and more attractive, and his smiling face makes me addicted to it as always.I am getting worse and worse, sickly white, I feel like I can reflect the light.These years of irregular life have made me much shorter than him, and he is also terribly thin. In the words of that senior, "If you don't know, you think you are taking drugs." '

The visitor opened his arms generously and wanted to hug me, but I took a few steps back, and he was not embarrassed, "Long time no see, I miss you very much."

I nodded, lifted my glasses, "Is there something wrong?" I carried the bag, which contained some luggage, which was simply a piece of clothing.When I transferred from high school to Lu Zhen’s shirt, I took my luggage to the hut. Indeed, the hut is not far from here, just over an hour away.

I grabbed the bag tightly, because Lu Chen acted like he wanted to help me carry the bag, "It's okay, I just missed you, I finally came back." I nodded and walked around him, and he followed me "Where are you going?" ?” I didn’t answer him.He told me a lot, and I wasn't particularly interested in what he said, so he just kept on, oh, perfunctory.I finally calmed down and didn't want to get impetuous about him anymore.He talked all the way, I wanted to hold back, but I knew I couldn't bear the dry mouth, so I took out the cigarette from my clothes, "Do you want it?" When he handed it over, he stopped following my steps, "You said you don't like it. Smoking, I quit." I ignored him, but I was a little irritable, and started to puff and smoke skillfully.

I thought he didn't keep up, so I let go of myself and smoked 5 cigarettes one by one. When I was almost home, when I opened the door to light my 6th cigarette, the hand behind me tore me off. With the smoke in my mouth, I was a little scared.When he hurriedly moved away and put on his guard, he saw the person in front of him clearly.

I put down my hands and said, "Do you have something to do?" This guy just followed me all the way?There was an emotion in his deep eyes that I didn't understand, "Do you live here?" I nodded my head and gave an acknowledgment, and started to open the door.At the door, I was a little tangled in emotion and reason. I couldn't put him outside and take him back to sit and drink a glass of water. It's just...

Before I could think too much, he said, "Don't invite me in and sit down, I'm a little thirsty." I couldn't refuse and had to take him in, it was too much for two people in such a small place.

He didn't know how he grew, but he grew a lot.I took off my shoes at the door, and went straight to the small table with bare feet. In fact, it is quite big for one person to live here, with pillows and quilts in the corners.I saw him standing blankly at the door, "Take off your shoes and sit down as you please." The feeling of irritability in my heart deepened. I looked in the room for a long time but couldn't find any water. I seemed to drink beer when I rarely drank water.

I took out the beer from the side of the table, bit the cap off the bottle with my teeth, and handed it over, "There is no water, only beer, just put it down?" He said in pain, "No, you don't know how to drink." I chuckled lightly, Beer can't be wasted.I turned the corner and took a few sips of the beer I handed him, "Well, it's actually pretty good." Lu Chan slowly squatted down against the wall and asked me in a muffled voice, "Have you lived like this all these years?" Strange "What's wrong? It's good."

Not long after drinking, I became addicted to cigarettes.Unable to resist the feeling of scratching his heart and lungs, he lit a cigarette and took a deep breath.In fact, I tried it once, and it felt better, but not much, and I remembered a lot of things and never touched it again. Although it was very good, I didn’t want to hold back when I was addicted for the first time. , the amount I tried was not much, and I thought of the kitten, so I gave up. I bought a lot of ice that day and poured it in the toilet. When I couldn't help it, Lu Chen appeared in my mind, and that day was the most painful day for me.

I almost suspected that I couldn't hold on anymore. Fortunately, I made it through, but I was lying in the hospital for a week.

So painful, so lonely.He is like my only light illuminating this dark world.

The author has something to say: Don’t learn from Miao Huang, everyone (?-ω-`)