don't talk about the past

Walking out of the drug rehabilitation center, there were few people around, and no one picked him up. Mi Huaile looked up at the sky, the blue was exceptionally pure, and there were scattered small yellow and white flowers blooming in the field outside the white wall, swaying in the wind. It was the only greeting to him on this warm sunny morning in early winter.He took a deep breath, went to the main road and waved for a taxi.

After staying in the police station's detention room for a few days, Mi Huaile was transferred to a drug rehabilitation center.I 'lived' there for half a month, but it seemed like a century, and the days really felt like years.The doctor in the drug rehabilitation center gave him a physical examination and confirmed that there were no drugs in his body, but instead of releasing him, he was locked in a single room.He couldn't communicate with the outside world, and all his belongings were confiscated by the administrator.I get up regularly every morning to run and do exercises, eat and clean up. My day job is to process toy parts for the toy factory. After watching the news at night, I turn off the lights and go to bed at nine o'clock. My life is regular and tidy.Mi Huaile didn't know when he would be able to walk out of here, he even doubted whether he could see the blue sky outside again.This is not a prison, but a drug rehabilitation center, he always comforted himself over and over again.There is no drug in his body, let alone drug addiction, and there is no reason to be locked up here to restrict his personal freedom.Since Shen Guang saw him at the police station that time, he never visited him again.Perhaps he didn't know that he was sent here.He wasn't tried with the drug dealer, and he wasn't put in jail.Even his interrogation was just a simple investigation that night as a routine.It should be that Shen Guang helped him find a relationship outside, or maybe it was because he insisted on not knowing that person all the time, in short, they treated him fairly politely.

He picked up the phone and wanted to call Shen Guang, but suddenly realized that he hadn't charged the phone for half a month, how could he turn it on?He shook his head and smiled self-deprecatingly, and sure enough, he stayed in the drug rehabilitation center, repeating the same job every day, and his head was not working well.

The elevator carried Mi Huaile straight to the 23rd floor. The closer he was to his home, the more uncontrollable his emotions became.God knows how much he misses the little nest he and his lover built with their own hands, the place full of their affection.Mi Huaile couldn't wait to go back home immediately, let the warm breath give him vitality, give him courage, and sweep away his fear, fear and exhaustion from the past few days.

Finally, he stood in front of the door and took out the key, but he couldn't align it with the tiny hole.The trembling hands made him a little discouraged and secretly unhappy, so he simply rang the doorbell.Today is Sunday, Shen Guang should be at home.Through the anti-theft door, he heard the sound inside. It was a variety show being broadcast on TV, and there was a woman's silver bell-like laughter.The hoarse doorbell made him a little impatient, and he kept pressing the red button, rushing over and over again.There is obviously someone in the room, why don't you come to open the door?Mi Huaile was really angry, and slammed on the iron gate with all his strength.What's the meaning!Even if you are angry with him, you have to listen to his explanation!How could he be left outside without giving people a chance to tell the truth? !Is it always like this to keep him out of the door?There must be a limit to playing with a child's temper, it's too much!

"Shen Guang! Open the door! It's me!"

Someone put on slippers and ran over quickly, the door opened to feel the warmth, but it was not Shen Guang.

"Xiao Xi?" Mi Huaile stared at the ruddy woman in home clothes in surprise, "Why are you?" His mind seemed to be filled with something in an instant, he couldn't think at all, he just stood there blankly. He looked carefully at the woman inside the door.This woman... was wearing house clothes, a loose ponytail was clipped behind her head casually, and she was holding a half bowl of steaming soup in her hand.Mi Huaile stared at the clothes on Xiao Xi's body. It wasn't the clothes he wore when he went out, but home clothes!

"Ah! It's Brother Mi! Guang, come on, come on, it's Brother Mi!" The woman was about to open the anti-theft door outside, and Shen Guang hurriedly said in the room, "Wait!"

Coming out of the kitchen, Shen Guang wiped his hands on the apron, took it off and threw it aside, Mi Huaile saw that the pattern of his clothes was the same as that of Xiao Xi, except that his was blue and Xiao Xi's was pink ,ha!What a harmonious match.Mi Huaile felt that the clothes hurt his eyes, it was couple clothes, right?Shen Guang and Xiao Xi are wearing couple outfits, what does this mean?Any idiot can see it!But how could he treat himself like this?The relationship of more than ten years ended as soon as it was said, and he even found such a ridiculous person as a shield.Mi Huaile suddenly wanted to laugh, Shen Guang, Shen Guang, did you get hard when you were with her? !You bastard!Embarrassed and sad, Mi Huaile wanted to escape from this place, staying here for one second would be a great insult to him!But the body didn't listen to his command, and it was as heavy as if it had been poured with lead water.

Shen Guang frowned, and said with a cold face: "I may not have said clearly enough that day, let's break up! I will not be with a person who can only deceive me with sweet words and is unfaithful to me." He stretched out his arms around him The woman said, "Xiao Xi and I will get married next month, and she is already pregnant with my child. I packed all your things and sent them back to your old house in the city center. The door keys are on the flower stand in the corridor." In the potted plant in the house," he continued after a pause, "Whether Fu Wei should continue or not is up to you, I don't think we need to say goodbye!"

Mi Huaile's brain was about to burst when he heard it, and when he realized it, the door in front of him had already been closed.All of this is like a nightmare, he closed his eyes, tears flowed down uncontrollably, it turns out that the feelings of so many years, the ups and downs experienced with that person, the years and memories they have gone through together, they Such an infatuated love that vowed to never change, wrongly paid, all wrongly paid!

Having not stepped into that house for a long time, Mi Huaile always refuses to recall every detail of being in that house.Too much sadness, too much grievance, too much struggle, too much helplessness.But he had nowhere to go, and was rejected by Shen Guang coldly. No wonder he didn't go to see him. It turned out that during the time he was struggling, he had already found someone to replace him, another warmth to replace him Tenderness, he didn't even bother to listen to his explanation, he didn't want to see his face again.Why is the human heart so elusive?When you are in love, treat them like babies and take good care of them. Once the love is no longer, you will become a bunch of superfluous weeds in your eyes, and you will get rid of the disgust and boredom.

Heartbroken, Mi Huaile sat on the floor of the dark room with his knees hugged, and the bone-piercing chill hit him, and his already thin clothes couldn't resist the cold even more.After an unknown period of time, he was sleepy and physically and mentally exhausted.Lie down, curled up into a ball, trembling and closing his eyes, sinking into the darkness.

The body temperature drained away little by little, Mi Huaile opened his eyes with difficulty, the burning and severe pain in his stomach made him unable to move at all.Why is it still dark?His throat was filled with foul-smelling and bitter mucus, mixed with his gastric juice and bile, and rushed straight into his nasal cavity, making him want to vomit again.The hands tied behind him and the lower part of the body no longer have any feeling, and the only places that can control the whole body are the brain and eyes.Who will save him?He didn't want to die here, so dirty and dirty.Hearing his heartbeat slow down, Mi Huaile screamed in his heart even more anxiously: "Help me... who will... save me..."

Waking up suddenly, unable to focus for a while, Mi Huaile stared at the ceiling in a daze. After recovering, he stood up stiffly and moved his limbs, feeling extremely heavy.

The sun shines in through the gauze curtain, softly laying a layer of golden yellow on the floor, so light and gentle.But the beauty is always short-lived, no matter how gorgeous the flowers bloom, there will be a day when they wither and wither.The staunch people hope that they would 'rather die with the fragrance on the branches', the people who know the current affairs like 'the flowers bloom and the beards are broken', and the moderate people would rather say 'Luohong is a ruthless thing'.

Mi Huaile felt his mouth dry, and tried to swallow in vain. As a result, his throat became hot and his nose was blocked.He stood up with difficulty and went to the kitchen to find something to boil some water to drink, but he couldn't find the kettle. After finally finding it, he turned on the faucet, and yellow rusty water gushed out, splashing all over his body.Filled up with water and put it on the stove, only to find that the gas supply had been cut off by the property owner long ago.Forget it, first go to the community to turn on the water, electricity and gas, and then go to the company to report. I guess I will definitely be punished. I hope I don't get fired.Mi Huaile took a deep breath, and when he breathed it out again, he felt much more relaxed.I will come back here to live in the future, and live alone.Finding the briefcase from the storage box in the living room, he unexpectedly found that there was still half a jug of water in his travel thermos, no matter how many days had passed, Mi Huaile picked up the jug and drank the cold buffalo in a few gulps Belly.He burped contentedly, recovered a little, and decided to visit the company first.

After not coming to work for more than half a month, Mi Huaile went straight to the manager's office as soon as he arrived, but the manager was not there. He turned around and returned to his seat, and Ben Lai hurried over: "It's been so long, where did you go on vacation?" ?”

"Ah? On vacation? Oh...I just feel that I've been out of shape recently, so I went to Hainan for a visit." Mi Huaile was in a trance, and described it as haggard. It didn't look like he was returning to work in a happy mood after the trip. look.

"Wow! Did you bring us any presents?" Xiao Gao said.

"Yes, yes, take it out and have a look." A female colleague looked forward with wide eyes.

"sorry, we do not have that."

Seeing Mi Huaile's sad face, Ben Lai for the first time showed his group leader's posture with discernment: "Stop chatting, hurry up and do something!"

The two immediately acted like birds and beasts.The man cast a grateful glance at the team leader: "Is the manager there? I have something to ask him."

"I was in the meeting room early in the morning. I heard that Chenqi's boss is here, and he's waiting for him!" Mi Huaile heard this and stood up, "Have you been in the meeting all this time?"

"Ah."

Walking into the tea room, the thin figure stood beside the water dispenser, dazed in a daze. As long as the mind was empty, thoughts would float back to yesterday like willows in the wind: the man's hand around the woman's waist, the man's tone, the man's disgusting expression. His eyes were like poisonous needles, piercing towards Mi Huaile, making him so painful that he felt like his breathing would be cut off.

He didn't respond to the indicator light changing from red to green, just staring at the white wall with a glass in his hand.

"Do you want water?"

He suddenly raised his head and saw a smiling face, but his mind still hadn't come back to his senses: "It's already burnt."

Chen Yan babbled and repeated the content without nutrition again and again. Zhou Pujiang's callused ears became more and more annoying. He asked the secretary to take the minutes of the meeting. He used an excuse to hide and smoke. He didn't expect to see this figure in the tea room exuding a strong sense of loneliness. little man.At that moment, he understood that Shen Guang kept his promise.

"Ah!" The overflowing boiling water instantly burned the pearl-colored skin red, and Mi Huaile instinctively threw the teacup and grabbed the earlobe.

"Where is it burning? Show me!" The man took his hand, frowning nervously to examine it, and gently blowing air on the red and swollen skin that had already had fine blisters, Mi Huaile looked Staring at him scatteredly: his hair is so black, the roots are as distinct as Shen Guang's.Shen Guang's hair feels a little prickly to the touch, but it's not hard, and it's very comfortable... He doesn't wear a tie in a suit, and Shen Guang doesn't wear one either. Stain the collar and brush vigorously.There is a faint bluegrass smell on his body, and Shen Guang also likes to use bluegrass-flavored shower gel. Every time after washing with this shower gel, he will dangle in front of him like a child, and he has to wait until he He is willing to give up only after complimenting him on his fragrance.But... Such Shen Guang put his arms around others, told him coldly that they would never see each other again, and he returned him and his things to him, and he didn't even want to keep a single memory.So what did he ask him to do?He just hung him out of the door, throwing him out like garbage with disgust!Why don't you listen to what he has to say?Why hit him when he was most vulnerable?Why should he be held accountable for a mistake he didn't commit?Mi Huaile couldn't figure it out.

He looked at the person in front of him, looked at him suspiciously, saw his lips and teeth moved, but couldn't hear what he was saying, his vision gradually blurred, and he fell into darkness again amidst the interlacing of light and shadow.

He had a splitting headache, and he was still dazed when he opened his eyes, only the faint scent of bluegrass reassured him.He closed his eyes and snuggled into the familiar smell, the rough texture of the shirt, the warm and thick chest, and was about to lie in bed for a while, but he heard a male voice that did not belong to Shen Guang: "Are you awake? Are you hungry?" ?”

Mi Huaile tried hard to focus on the person in front of him, Zhou Pujiang? !He quickly propped up his body, and a burst of dizziness overwhelmed him, causing him to fall back on the bed again.Zhou Pujiang held his shoulders and let him lean on his chest, gentle but irresistible: "Don't be afraid, I won't hurt you."

Mi Huaile hadn't eaten for almost two days, and his severe hypoglycemia made him weak. Although he was reluctant, he could only stay in Zhou Pujiang's arms honestly.

The thick eyelashes cast a touch of dove gray under the eyelids, but there is a firm and tenacious meaning in the eyes covered by this fragile expression.Zhou Pujiang looked straight into those watery eyes, the pain in his heart made him unable to say a decent word, he suddenly felt that he was too selfish in doing so?Can he start over with Mi Huaile, or even doubt that he has had a past with Mi Huaile?It seems that he is not sure now.

"I... this is your home?" The hoarse voice was nasal.

"Well. You fainted in the tea room in the morning. When I looked for your mobile phone communication records, the name Shen Guang was the most. I thought it might be your friend. I called, but no one answered. So I had to bring you here " Mi Huaile felt a pain in his heart, that's right, even if he is dead now, that person probably won't take a second look.We don't have to say goodbye, do we?Anyway, we will never see each other again...

"How long have I been asleep?" Mi Huaile moved his numb and stiff neck slightly, looking for the clock indoors.

"It's only half a day. Now it's time for dinner. I ordered dinner at the restaurant. Let me bring you a bowl of soup to warm your stomach first. You have a fever, and the antipyretic medicine is hurting your stomach. You need to eat something before eating." Zhou Pujiang Carefully moving Mi Huaile's head away, he drew back his arms as if to get out of bed.

"No... no need, I'm not hungry, I want to go home." The limbs were limp and weak, and the comfortable Simmons had relieved half of his strength, but Mi Huaile couldn't get up when he thought about it.

"You don't even have the strength to get up, so you can't let me carry you home?" Zhou Pujiang's eyes full of smiles can't help but walk around the curve of Mi Huaile's quilt, "If you agree, I am willing to be a flower protector." I couldn't help but bully him again, and wrapped the quilt tightly around the twitching little man, deliberately pressed the weight of the lower body on him, narrowed my eyes and said, "Do you agree? Is it Xiaomi?"

"I... I'm hungry." Realizing that he was playing with fire, Mi Huaile's body froze instantly, not daring to make any more movements.

"It's almost there."

The man went out and came back soon, with a bowl of hot yam and beef marrow soup in his hand, a plate of delicate buttered buns, fried yellow croaker belly, and assorted steamed pumpkins.

Putting two pillows behind Mi Huaile, Zhou Pujiang put the dinner plate on the man's lap, scooped up a spoonful of soup, blew on it, and put it to his mouth to test the temperature. After making sure it wasn't hot, he sent it to Mi Huaile. Huai Le's mouth.

"I can drink it by myself." Being bombarded with such tenderness made him feel even more sad, no matter what Zhou Pujiang did, it would remind him of Shen Guang.He didn't want to think about everything about him again.

"Hey, open your mouth." It was so firm and irresistible again.

After a meal, Mi Huaile's stomach was full, but he had no idea what was inside.This body is still cold and lonely.