love letter from the down and out

"Okay," hanging up the phone, he gritted his teeth for a long time before he suddenly came back to his senses, and started dialing Nie Ziyu's mobile phone number, calling on WeChat, texting...he tried all the methods he could think of, but Nie Ziyu was like It was as if the world had evaporated, and there was no news. He no longer knew how he got into the car in a daze. Maybe his face was so ugly. His friends frowned and couldn't help but ask him what was wrong, but they were all dismissed by Shen Fang Shaking his head lightly, he stopped him back. He was flustered like he was at the end of a jigsaw game. He was on the verge of falling, and no one knew which piece of wood he would draw next would cause the building to fall. He returned to his seat spiritually, and put Ji Ning What he said just now was spliced ​​together, and finally figured out the fact that Nie Ziyu was helping a female classmate who had suffered school violence, and then took his things and left overnight. He heard very clearly that Aunt Bai was crying heartbreakingly next to him, vaguely The words "homosexuality" and "sin" appeared, but Ji Ning quickly stood where he couldn't hear clearly. Nie Ziyu was not a person who ran away. The only thing that made her break down and leave was her secret exposure. , but the family couldn’t accept it. Where did sister Xiaoyu go? When he felt the happiest, fate took a sharp turn in a parabola. He had never experienced such a feeling of the sky falling. The top of his head was touched tentatively and cautiously, and he was extremely pitiful. Tears rushed out of his eyes But even so, he doesn't want to give up on this person beside him, isn't he too bad." Doudou, don't panic. "Shen Fang held his wrist, and gently rubbed Ji Wanxuan's protruding joints with his thumb like this man comforted himself a long time ago. That's right, don't panic. Brother Fang listens to everything you hear When the time comes, what will Brother Fang do if he collapses first? Ji Wanxuan sat up with red eyes, and interlocked fingers with Shen Fang without saying a word. He said in a hoarse voice: "Brother Fang, don't be afraid. "I won't go, don't be afraid. The fingers held by him trembled unexpectedly, and Ji Wanxuan clenched it tighter again. Picking up the phone again, after a long hesitation, he swipe the list and found the "Miss Xiaoqiu" who never spoke after adding it.

Saury and saury

The taxi stopped directly at the entrance of the alley. Ji Wanxuan dragged out his luggage from the trunk and wanted to run into the yard, but he quickly reacted and turned around to stop Shen Fang from following him to get the box. "Brother Fang, go back first, okay?" He didn't know what scene he would face when he went back, and he was afraid that Shen Fang would be hurt.The boy's actions were gentle and forceful, and he didn't give him any room to refuse.Shen Fang didn't make it difficult for him, nodded, and said, "Go first, I'll leave after I watch you go in." He was so obedient, and wanted to hug him and coax him, but he couldn't now.Ji Wanxuan gritted her molars, turned around quickly and dragged her suitcase to the gate of the yard without looking back.But the moment he opened the door and walked in, he was afraid again.He couldn't help turning his head back, but today he didn't wear glasses, and he could only see the yellow-green taxi at the entrance of the alley standing still, and the person he missed raised his hand, as if waving at him.Ji Wanxuan took a deep breath and pushed open the gate of the yard.Only Nie Mengmeng greeted him.The room was very quiet, Ji Wanxuan let go of the trolley of the suitcase, step by step, as if stepping on cotton, and walked to the front of the main house step by step.Behind the door with the old grilles, he saw Qiu Ran who had met once.She arrived earlier than herself, and perhaps she had already finished telling the whole story. The girl bowed deeply to the Nie family's parents behind the door, and suddenly knelt down.The one who came up first was Ji Ning behind her. The woman helped her up. When she looked up, she saw the people standing stupidly in the yard. She was slightly taken aback, with gentle and melancholy eyes. "Doudou, you're back." There was a subdued sobbing sound in the room again, and the slightest desolation made people panic and bewildered. "My Xiaoyu, what will she do in the future... Ah—" Director Bai of the garment factory is the most volatile and lively person. There has never been a problem in the world that she can't solve, but when she is forced to face her daughter and This mundane out-of-fashion, instantly became a helpless idiot paralyzed on the ground.Ji Wanxuan wanted to move forward, but it was like stepping into a swamp, and she couldn't take this step no matter what.What can he say.It's okay, Aunt Bai, it's normal for Sister Xiaoyu to like girls, and I like boys too.Who is he stabbing in the heart?Qiu Ran was held in Ji Ning's arms, covering her eyes and crying, saying "I'm sorry" over and over again.Ji Ning stroked her hair, led her out without saying a word, and stood in front of Ji Wanxuan. "Doudo, take my sister to sit in our room for a while, hot water is boiled at home, are you thirsty too?" Ji Wanxuan nodded while holding back his trembling, and pulled Qiu Ran back to the small house to the west .He has to hold on.He didn't call Qiu Ran on the high-speed rail, but he had a vague premonition at that time, and he saw her coming by herself as soon as he came back.To plead guilty?Ji Wanxuan looked back at the girl sitting on the sofa blankly, and sighed deeply in her heart.The water was placed on the coffee table in front of Qiu Ran, and Ji Wanxuan sat next to her, clearing her hoarse throat with difficulty. "Sister, my sister likes you very much. It has always been." These dozen words were like a spell, and as soon as he uttered them, the dry tears on Qiu Ran's face were immediately covered with bitter salt water again.Ji Wanxuan couldn't bear to look at it, and turned her face blankly: "Sister, don't cry, or sister Xiaoyu will scold me when she comes back." Will she come back?Qiu Ran covered her face and silently wiped away her tears, then opened her mouth hoarsely. "I like girls, and only Ziyu has known about it." Ji Wanxuan turned around slowly.The girl had no family, and was sent to the gate of the orphanage after birth. She was forced to be precocious and cautious in everything. She just wanted to live an ordinary life, marry an ordinary person, and be an ordinary person. Her mother failed to do so. I am a good mother, but things don't always go my way.The day she realized that she was abnormal, she collapsed so much that she almost wanted to commit suicide.She managed to hold on, but she felt very painful.She fell in love with the girl in the studio who always smiled lazily and seemed to be good friends with everyone, but kept a strict sense of distance.Nie Ziyu took good care of her. If it wasn't for this unique protection, she might not be aware of her feelings.The other party is different from herself, she has a very beautiful family, Qiu Ran didn't want to destroy it, so she had to distance herself from her.But Nie Ziyu is too gentle, she is always there when he needs it. "There was a boy in the studio who pursued me for a long time, and I couldn't get rid of it after exhausting all the reasons. In the end, I had to tell him my true sexual orientation. After that, he really didn't look for me again, but soon, rumors spread among classmates. It spread in the circle." It was more extreme than her liking for girls, and far beyond the viciousness that a child of this age can have.Qiu Ran lowered her eyelids, and painfully let go of her white lips that were bitten: "Ziyu applied to a foreign school a long time ago. She just got the admission notice and hasn't had time to tell anyone. If there is nothing about me, She should have left with the envy of everyone, instead of being forced to flee alone like this." "Sister," Ji Wanxuan squatted in front of the girl, trying to look at her tenderly, "I know you listen Don't talk about 'none of your business', if this is the case, then you should seriously feel that you are a sinner." "Nie Ziyu is not such an irresponsible person, here is her family, you, she Will come back. It’s just that she needs a little space of her own right now, you wait for her, she will come back to ask you.” The boy’s face was pale, and the corners of his eyes were red, but he bent his eyes When the smile is very gentle.Qiu Ran was out of focus for a while, and stroked his hair hesitantly. "Ziyu often mentions you." "Really." Ji Wanxuan stood up with a smile on the arm of the sofa: "What did she say?" Qiu Ran said slowly: "She said you always..." "Teasing Tease!" There were urgent calls from the yard, and Uncle Nie endured the panic for two full days, and at this moment he rose to the highest peak of entropy.The fingers that had been trembling since entering the door trembled uncontrollably again, and the nails dug deep into the palm of his hand. When Ji Wanxuan turned and ran out, he almost fell on the hard masonry floor under the steps.Ji Ning, who suddenly fainted, was lying in Aunt Bai's arms. The woman's face was calm, but the nosebleed on her lips was so bright and dazzling that it pierced the heart. "Ambulance! Call an ambulance!" Qiu Ran dialed 120 immediately.The boy in front of him seemed to have suddenly turned back to the five or six years old in the summer, and he couldn't even walk steadily.Ji Wanxuan walked up to her mother at a loss, put her sleeves directly under the woman's nose, and carefully helped her wipe away the bright red blood that would never stop flowing.His sleeves were soaked with blood, how could a person bleed so much.Ji Wanxuan couldn't hold back her broken crying anymore. "Mom, wake up." He will never come home late again, Mom, wake up.Amidst the desperate cries, Qiu Ran walked out holding the door frame, her heart and lungs trembling uncontrollably.Nie Ziyu said that he has always been strong, as long as his mother is still there.

the moon on the day we were born

When Ji Wanxuan was young, she liked to be in a daze.Because there are always too many things you don't want to hear in your ears, but if you let yourself go, you won't hear anything. "Anemia" "Fever" "Bleeding" "This can't be..." Teenager