love letter from the down and out

I haven't eaten it before, but I took the first bite with Ji Wanxuan, and it felt quite novel.The third canteen has double height on the first floor, and the floor-to-ceiling windows are straight down, equipped with fluorescent lights, which make the whole building shine.Ji Wanxuan took a mouthful of bean sprouts and put them in his mouth, looking for something to say. "The small bungalow rented by Lu Kai also has good lighting. Next month will be a good time. For the exhibition, natural light is better than any artificial light source." "I met Qi Bao that day, and she was very kind to me. Take care, she is a girl worth cherishing. I asked Gu Chenxing to help me choose one, and send a gift to me another day." "Ning Zeyang's honeymoon is overdue, and the wedding leave that Xiaoxi asked for has long been gone, and wages are being deducted every day. But The two are still stranded at the airport in Southeast Asia, and the squad leader is about to go crazy." What he was talking about was all other people's business, and Shen Fang listened patiently until he had finished eating all the fish, but Ji Wanxuan returned a chopstick The fish didn't move, so he shook his palm and lightly tapped the table next to the young man's hand with his index finger.Ji Wanxuan woke up like a dream, smiled at him, lowered his head and began to pull the protein that he had been thinking about for a long time, but he didn't put a mouthful of fish meat into his mouth, and he dropped his wrist without any strength. "Do you like your life now?" He lowered his gaze, as if he was asking Shen Fang, but also himself.Ji Wanxuan felt something was wrong for nearly half an hour, and finally asked him why he came here today.Do you like your life now?A trace of surprise flashed in Shen Fang's eyes, he suddenly wanted to understand something, and his eyes gradually became deeper looking at Ji Wanxuan.He answered irrelevant questions: "I am 27 years old, and I have only done two things that I regret." Ji Wanxuan raised his head, dodged his eyes for a long time, and finally met Dr. Shen's eyes as if admitting defeat. "One is that I didn't go home early when I was 13 years old, to see my mother for the last time." Ji Wanxuan's finger holding the spoon trembled, and wanted to put it under the table, but Shen Fang stretched out his hand to hold it.He met the serious eyes of the other party in panic, and heard Shen Fang say word by word: "There is one more thing, it was the winter before, when I failed to run down immediately when there was a traffic jam on the viaduct, I rushed to the airport and told you not to Let's go." In the corner of the third canteen, a person stood up suddenly, and the movement was so loud that the chair behind him made a long and piercing sound on the ground.Ji Wanxuan stumbled towards the outside, almost bumping into several people along the way.Shen sat for a long time under the curious gazes around him, and then calmly walked towards the food recycling place with two pots of leftovers.It was getting dark, Ji Wanxuan randomly found a hidden corner in the small square outside the cafeteria, sat down and hugged his knees in a daze.Ji Ning left suddenly that year, leaving him not much money.Ji Wanxuan is embarrassed to spend lavishly on the living expenses that Ji Yuan gave him, and spends every day in Australia carefully. Whenever he has the opportunity, he goes out to find a part-time job for an internship, wishing to be self-reliant immediately.He kept himself so busy that he fell asleep as soon as he touched the pillow at night, and he didn't know what he was afraid of.Is it afraid to think of Ji Ning and grandpa, or do you feel that you are too cruel to Shen Fang?He didn't dare to think about it, so he never thought about how Shen Fang survived these years. ... No, maybe I thought about it too.When the plate falls to the ground, when a bird flies by outside the window, when walking on the road and suddenly distracted.In every moment of these long years.The corner where Ji Wanxuan lives is very close, and he didn't try to hide. Shen Fang can find him almost every time.Rubbed by the fluffy hand, Ji Wanxuan turned his head in a trance, and saw an orange cat with its belly turned over and acting like a baby.A few steps further away, Shen Fang was standing by the flower bed, looking at him quietly. "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." I don't know who opened his mouth first and said sorry.Ji Wanxuan exhaled softly, landed on her two long legs, summoned up her courage and walked towards Shen Fang. "I'm sorry, I left without saying goodbye back then." He tilted his head mockingly: "I've always been good at being a deserter." Shen Fang forgave happily: "It's okay." Ji Wanxuan tilted his head and waited for a while, then suddenly Laughed: "You haven't said why you're sorry." Shen Fang lowered his eyes: "Can't you wait a while, I haven't figured it out yet." Ji Wanxuan: "..." He turned his head sideways, rubbing his eyebrows to hide his smile meaning.Reunited for nearly two months, the two people used deliberate politeness to test each other every time they met, and carefully maintained the precarious friendship.But they obviously used to have such a close relationship.At this moment, a window suddenly opened in Ji Wanxuan's heart, and his favorite natural daylight entered the damp and dark little room. He opened the door—although his whole body was still limp—but he could finally lie on the grass, Basking in the sun freely.Why not express your thoughts and apologies frankly at the first sight of each other nine years later.But even though he arrived late, Shen Fang caught it well.He threw all the ham sausages for teasing cats to the greedy orange cat, and walked over to join Ji Wanxuan, feeling more relaxed than ever. "Want to go to the library?" Ji Wanxuan didn't react for a while, but Shen Fang had already walked to the front.He stood there with raised eyebrows. Dr. Shen didn't see him coming after him for a long time, and turned his head with one hand in his mouth: "Aren't you going? I thought you wanted to go to the library, so you came to the school to find me." Why are there so many? he thought.Ji Wanxuan strode towards him: "Don't underestimate the importance of yourself. I asked Qi Bao specially. She said that you are not in the hospital, but you must be in school." Suddenly several warm yellow street lamps came on.Shen Fang stood under the lamp post, and several long shadows of different shades were drawn out of his handsome appearance.He trembled his slender eyelashes, looked at Ji Wanxuan, and spoke awkwardly but sincerely. "You are also me, the most important person." Ji Wanxuan paused and settled down.The heart was beating like a serious illness, fast and slow, like playing the fragments of a certain piece of music.Ji Wanxuan is not a fool who doesn't realize it. He has long seen that Gu Chenxing's gossip is all lies deliberately to anger him.But he still turned his head in a panic, found a trash can at random, and looked at the little figure sprayed on it. "You don't have to work so hard to coax people. Don't you still have Qi Bao's recordings in your car?" As soon as he came back, Shen Fang bullied him.Shen Fang: "..." He was silent for a long time, and finally asked in the face of confusion: "I've been wanting to say it since just now, who is Qi Bao?" Ji Wanxuan: "...?"

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How are you two?

——Why did you choose your current career? "What are you doing?" Zheng Xi sat in the garden with a dazed expression.Ji Wanxuan was tinkering with the tripod. Hearing this, he raised his head and smiled, "Look for inspiration, let's chat casually." There are more than 20 kinds of flowers that people can't name, all of which are colorful, and Zheng Xi is not affected by the camera. He sneezed in a controlled manner. "When I was in junior high school, I was obsessed with "Tomb Raider Notes"...don't laugh!" Ji Wanxuan hid her smiling face behind the camera, and stretched out her hand to say "OK" to him.Zheng Xi scratched the receding hairline, his eyes narrowed and nostalgic: "Wu Xie studied architecture, and thought he was handsome at the time, but now that I think about it..." "Damn the third uncle of the Nanpai ruined my life!"—— Do you think you are rich now?Lu Zai raised his eyebrows, and the diamond watch on his hand was so bright that it reflected light.Ji Wanxuan: "..." He flipped through his notebook and coughed lightly: "Let's change the question."—Where did you get all your money?Lu Cai wanted to leave a little bit.Ji Wanxuan whimpered and said, "Some people slap their ass and leave after taking advantage of their friends. They don't even want to do trivial things..." "My dad is rich. Very rich." Lu Cai sat back on the chair with a headache Gently pressed his temple. "My parents divorced early, the old guy played too much, and suddenly killed himself. No will, nouveau riche." ——Do you have rich emotional experience?Gu Chenxing sank lazily in the grand teacher's chair, wearing a pair of exaggerated sunglasses like a rich man, and was sipping the noble tea in his milk. "It's rich, it's quite rich."——How many relationships have you talked about so far?He put the milk tea on the small table at hand, and after ten fingers cracked it for a long time, he couldn't figure it out, so he turned his face to face the camera, and shrugged helplessly: "I can't count, there must be seventeen or eight paragraphs." Without raising her head, Ji Wanxuan found the corresponding question in the notebook and wrote down the answer.Gu puppy.Emotional experience 0. "Why do I ask these questions when it's my turn? I also realized my dream, okay?" Gu Chenxing took off his sunglasses, a little dissatisfied.Ji Wanxuan was very cooperative: "Please wait a moment, I will look for something you wrote in high school." Gu Chenxing put on his sunglasses and smiled with a row of neat white teeth.Ji Wanxuan found it.Gu Chenxing's dream is - "to gnaw the old man." Ji Wanxuan: "..." I underestimated the puppy.Interviewing Gu Chenxing might be a wrong choice.Ji Wanxuan stopped the loss in time, closed the lens cover immediately, and was about to put the camera back into the bag, when the phone rang.It was Shen Fang's news, confirming to him the place for today's dinner.Ji Wanxuan sent him a cat emoticon package that was fine.Gu Chenxing was still lying on Ge You, looking at him through the sunglasses, and asked quietly for a long while: "Are you two okay?" Ji Wanxuan shook his hands, raised his head and glared at Gu Puppy: "In addition to waste in your mind, you can also decorate other things." Is it?" Gu Chenxing was very angry: "I mean, are you two reconciled?