love letter from the down and out

After falling back for a while, Zhang Lenin unbuttoned the can, raised his head and gulped down a big gulp of cold beer.It's just one sip, and he can't get drunk, but he suddenly became a little emotional when he was blowing the river wind. "Sometimes I really hate you." With the sound of another can of beer opening next to her ear, Ji Wanxuan took a sip of the foam and said lightly, "Me too." Sometimes, I hate myself too.It was really annoying that the glasses slipped down the bridge of the nose. Zhang Lenin propped his hands behind his back and raised his head slightly. "The first vacation you left, those months when you didn't hear from me, my brother... I've never seen him like that. I haven't seen him since." It seemed to be on the verge of complete madness, but There was also a faint trace of reason, which pulled him back from the curse and misfortune of the family generations. "You don't know how miserable he was during that time." Zhang Lening lowered his head and smiled self-deprecatingly.One person can have such a great influence on another person, but he claims to be Shen Fang's best friend, but he can't do anything at all.Ji Wanxuan's fingers trembled, and her eyelashes drooped. "And then?" he asked softly. "Later, he knew you had gone to Australia, and he planned to find you." "..." Ji Wanxuan raised his head.Zhang Lening looked at him, and the smile on his lips didn't know whether he was mocking him or fate: "Don't get excited, he didn't really go. He ran into someone who claimed to be his cousin he had never met." Ji Wanxuan Half of the beer in his hand was spilled, but he didn't care about his wet clothes, and said in disbelief: "What did you say?" Although he went abroad and changed the local number, the old mobile phone has been kept. On those nights when Ji Wanxuan felt that he was not good enough for Shen Fang, Shen Fang looked at the same moon as him and was thinking about the same problem.Can I really drag him to hell with him? "..." Ji Wanxuan lowered his head, as if he couldn't bear it, and bent his back.Back then, he really believed Ye Yuwen's nonsense, and he was the biggest lunatic.Shen Fang wouldn't talk about these past events, and Gu Chenxing wouldn't talk about them now, only Zhang Lening would tell him.And it was rare for this person to feel any pity. "Can you still listen to it?" Ji Wanxuan nodded with palpitations in his throat. "You say." Those sins caused by him should be heard by himself, and he should bear all the consequences.Zhang Lenin raised the can of beer and touched it with the one in his hand, and his heart suddenly became more peaceful, as if the tightly clenched paper ball had been re-flattened.Wrinkles will not disappear, but as long as it is pressed in the sun, it can be painted with other colors one day. "He didn't look for you after that, and he never mentioned you again, but occasionally when he was distracted, he would suddenly call out your nickname. I'm sorry, but I didn't want to overhear." There was a very faint tone in Zhang Lenin's words With a smile, Ji Wanxuan hooked the corners of her lips cooperatively, but her heart was filled with unspeakable confusion.The evening glow on the riverside catches up with the sky and the sun shines in the sky. The weather is beautiful today, and the long shot that I am most looking forward to is here. "I looked at my brother at that time, and I was very worried. I was always worried that he would collapse suddenly. But there seemed to be a tendon stretched in his body. No matter how hard he was, he could always find himself." Perhaps It was Shen Fang who kept holding on to hope.Maybe he can overcome all this and prove that he is good. At that time, he will go to find Ji Wanxuan and tell him: "We can be together, don't be afraid." That illusory goal is almost visible to the naked eye, and my brother has become more energetic." But after entering the third year of high school, his house caught fire first.Zhang Lenin frowned: "I don't know what my brother found in his house, but it should be related to the cause of his mother's death... He, he accepted his father's explanation calmly, but since then, He started to drop out of school intermittently." Brother Fang's mother.Ji Wanxuan suddenly felt her heart was crushed.Zhang Lening didn't know what that thing was, but maybe he knew it.Ye Yuwen said that the Shen family had an organ transplantation consent form, the beneficiary was Ye Zhining's best friend, and the organ donor after death was herself.Maybe Shen Jiazhen never intended to hand over the consent form to Ye Zhining for signature, maybe he just couldn't bear another person for a while, and finally chose his wife.But Ye Zhining saw it.Originally, if she received proper treatment, she could recover, but Ye Zhining chose to express her hatred to her husband in the most tragic way.She doesn't even want her son anymore.Knowing all this with hindsight, how did Shen Fang spend countless long nights alone panting, and finally gave Ji Wanxuan such a good brother Fang. "Why didn't you come back earlier." Zhang Lenin lowered his head, with a suppressed cry in his voice.If he comes back earlier, he can hug Shen Fang and tell him that it's okay if his mother doesn't want him anymore, and I want you.This world is too scary, but I will always love you.do not be afraid.Ji Wanxuan looked at the setting sun in the west, her voice was very soft, trembling in the wind. "I want to come back." So, so, so thought.It's just that when he replied to Bai Xiaoyu back then, he never thought that if he gave up this opportunity, he might never come back.But fortunately, he worked so, so, so hard, and finally returned to Yancheng, and returned to Fang Ge's side again.After going around for more than ten years, they finally saved each other.Zhang Lening took off his glasses, and suddenly burst into tears, as if he didn't care whether his embarrassing movement would be recorded in his video.Ji Wanxuan's melancholy was disturbed by him, and he instantly became a bit dumbfounded. "Don't cry, I didn't cry." "You don't care about me! It's going to rain, my mother is going to get married, I cry as much as I like!" "All right..." Ji Wanxuan handed him a pack of paper , stood up actively, and wanted to help check how the video was recorded. "Don't look!" Zhang Lenin kicked the stone next to him with his mouth pursed. "This project was done by someone surnamed Shen. It's too late for me to destroy it. Why do you shoot it so well!" One size counts for one size. If Xiao Glasses were really so ambiguous, he wouldn't take this job and ruin himself. Shop sign.It's just that people are so angry that they forget that his brother's surname is Shen, and he just had a mouth addiction, so there is no need to correct him.By the way, "his brother".Except for the time when he deliberately angered him in the western restaurant, Zhang Lening actually always remembered to give up the title of "Brother Fang" to himself.Ji Wanxuan walked to the camera with a smile, and looked at the afterglow of the sunset on the river through the lens. "My mother's surname Shen is also a bumpkin, an upstart! He named his project 'Shen Zhi'! Why, do you want everyone to feel like a king whenever they come here?" This long shot is destined to be silenced.Thinking about the time when the promotional video is played, there will be thunderous applause, but no one will know that there are all silenced scenes scolding the big boss behind this scene... It's quite interesting.Ji Wanxuan responded softly: "That's really not the case, Shen Zhi, it means Shen Hou and profound." He searched ancient dictionaries for a long time before finally choosing this name.Zhang Lening was dumbfounded, his eyes widened slightly: "...Hello, you?" The sun was about to set.The river view on the other side was lit up with thousands of lights, and the skyline of Yancheng was the most beautiful image of the city he had ever seen.Ji Wanxuan gently opened his lips, and the sentences that he had touched countless times with his fingertips once again fell into his mind verbatim. "Anyone who writes plain ancient poems must have deep words, simple reasoning, and the bones that are thought to be immortal." Zhang Lenin gave a "fuck" and stood up suddenly: "When did you change your French nationality!** Damn! Just to get married legally?" "..." Ji Wanxuan pressed his temple helplessly. "No, I'm still Chinese, and I will always be." It's a pity that his patriotic remarks didn't touch the little glasses, and Zhang Lenin rushed over to strangle him: "This land can earn tens of millions a year, and you can almost do it alone. After finishing all the designs, how much did you earn with the surname Shen! If it’s not enough, then go back and cheat him a bit more! I’ll fucking accompany you!” Ji Wanxuan laughed so hard that he couldn’t speak.Why didn't he realize that Little Glasses was such an innocent kid before? It was all because Xiao Zhang only wanted to hurt people every day. "I'm not making any money," he said.Thinking about it now, it's really a pity.This design fee is enough for him to pay off all the scholarships that Shen Jiazhen gave him at one time, and it is even more than enough.But he still used a fake identity and didn't ask for a penny.Although it was discovered by Shen Jiazhen in the end.Zhang Lenin's eyes almost popped out. "Are you... are you sick too?" Ji Wanxuan curled his lips helplessly at him. "Probably." He just wanted to return to Shen Fang in a dignified manner.Zhang Lenin: "Come on! Then why don't you come back immediately! You just like to enjoy individual heroism! Speechless!" Ji Wanxuan began to bother him: "Can you take off your colored glasses?" Of course he He wanted to come back immediately, but he almost couldn't.Zhang Lening: "You let it go..." Ji Wanxuan: "Shut up." That year was the second year Ji Wanxuan joined the firm.He is in Australia, but he has always cared about the actual situation in Yancheng, so he knew it almost easily