love letter from the down and out

In his pocket, he walked calmly to the Internet cafe near the school.He loved playing games for a while, and his steam account has abundant resources. He had been lending them to his classmates casually in junior high school, but he hadn't logged in for a long time.As soon as it went online today, I found that Curry had many more games that I hadn't seen before.Shen Fang changed the password expressionlessly, swiped the scroll wheel around, and finally clicked the "X" in the upper right corner.Under the horrified eyes of the seat next to him, Shen Fang randomly found a high-number video and watched it.After watching it for a while, it was quite addictive. After watching one episode, I watched another episode. I only hated that when I decided to skip class, I didn’t have a schoolbag on my back, and I didn’t even have anything to take notes at hand.He picked up the mobile phone that had been kept on the table, and just about to open the memo to record some important points, he saw fourteen missed calls from Ji Wanxuan.Shen Fang: "..."...Did something happen?He was about to call back, but the phone vibrated No.15 times.Without even paying attention to the impatient scolding of the people around him, Shen Fang left his seat and walked quickly through the narrow aisle.Rows of mechanical keyboards were tapped rhythmically. He pushed open the low balcony door at the end, and finally managed to connect the incoming call inside the wall before it was automatically hung up. "Hello?" The boy's cold voice was wrapped in the night wind, sounding like snowflakes.What does snow smell like.Is it sweet?Ji Wanxuan immediately raised his head, which was powerlessly drooping, and suppressed his tension without confidence: "...Hello?" Didn't get through fourteen times, could it be that he fell asleep?It's impossible for something to happen... Ji Wanxuan felt that she was too nervous, and she thought about giving up fourteen times, in exchange for fourteen redials, but she never expected to wait for a reply this time.The conversation was so quiet that only the sound of each other's breathing remained. Shen Fang lay on the iron railing, trying to let the cold wind wake up his brain, which was swollen by the strange smell in the room, and didn't even notice how much his voice was being amplified. gentle. "What's wrong? I was studying in the Internet cafe just now, I didn't hear you, sorry."... What are you doing in the Internet cafe?It's so windy I can't hear you.Ji Wanxuan was stunned for a while, and felt that she couldn't express her worries, so she had to make an excuse: "I was studying on the balcony just now, and I didn't find that the phone has been dialing automatically, sorry." What a bad reason.However, Shen Fang immediately believed this bad reason: "Oh." Ji Wanxuan: "..." The two of them rubbed their hair in frustration, and the conversation lost its theme again.Downstairs of the Internet cafe is an old residential area. Two boys in unfamiliar school uniforms probably just skipped class. They are laughing and chatting in the deserted street, looking very close.Shen Fang naturally followed the sound source, and forced out a question: "Is it the balcony of the laboratory building?" Ji Wanxuan stood up from the corner holding the physics exercise book, and continued the call desperately: "Yes, here It’s really a good base, I only discovered it last semester, you’ve just come to know it, it’s amazing.” The Xinhua dictionary is still in place, just covered with a light layer of dust, two more than the last time. Three cigarette butt prints. "I didn't attend the opening ceremony the day I transferred to another school. I found it wandering around the school." Shen Fang took out a cigarette from his school uniform pocket and put it to his mouth. Just as he was about to light it, he glanced at the two people downstairs. Boys—they were standing on the street hugging quietly. "..." Ji Wanxuan didn't notice his sudden silence, and flipped through the dictionary to read two pages: "Have you seen the dictionary on the windowsill? It's a collection of love letters and trash talk." The wind blew over and extinguished the flames.Shen Xin flicked the lighter annoyed, his mind was in a mess.Girls can hug each other, and two boys who have a good relationship are of course also possible... He is different from that disgusting man, he is just... "Brother Fang? Are you listening?" Shen Fang put the lighter back into his pocket , "Hmm".Ji Wanxuan's favorite thing to tell is: "Guess what I saw just now?" Shen Fang bit his cigarette holder to get addicted, and he didn't dare to look back at those two people: "What?" Ji Wanxuan's tone was quite amazed He said: "I saw the captain's handwriting, he really has a trick, let me read it to you." The night is closed, but the moon tonight is hazy like a veil, illuminating the hidden and narrow alleys in the city.Several street lamps on both sides of this street have already broken down. Every night, people stumble and scold their mothers after falling down, but no one has come to fix the light bulbs until now.If the ground is full of sixpence at this time, where will people look. "You and I are a match made in heaven, like a fishhook flying towards me, but my eyes are wide open." The two boys were kissing under the dim moonlight and the extinguished lights.The weird roofs and ugly antennas of the old houses divide the night sky into irregular grids, some of which are just enough to enclose a few rare stars tonight.Shen Fang took the unburned cigarette from his mouth, and suddenly opened his palms forward. "It's snowing." Ji Wanxuan blinked, but didn't respond: "What?" The snowflakes on his fingertips melted at the touch of a finger, Shen Fang retracted his hand, and a little bit of relief and helplessness overflowed in the lead-colored sky-like eyes smile. "Didn't you remember to wake you up when the first snow fell?" "Ji Wanxuan, this year's first snow has arrived." Sign for it.

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Verse from The Handmaid's Tale

Motivated

The hour hand had already pointed to midnight, and Shen Fang was lying on the bed, resting with his eyes closed.He skipped class to go home tonight, still in a difficult mood. He went around the room twice and couldn't think of any good way, so he turned on the computer to find the high-level mathematics video he watched in the Internet cafe, picked up a pen and paper and reviewed it again at 1.6 times the speed.It's eleven o'clock in one breath, and after washing up, I finally lie back on the bed, but I still don't feel sleepy at all. "Ding dong." The WeChat notification sounded, Shen Fang closed his eyes, and touched the mobile phone with the screen turned on from his side.It's Zhang Lenin's message: "Brother Fang, someone asked me to help send you a love letter today... This time, it's the girl in our grade who has the ability to hit the school girl. Would you like to take a look? Of course, I will listen to you." The words will be confiscated! Brother Fang is Brother Fang, Niu Niu Niu, the love letters we reject can all be bound into a book." Shen Fang pressed his eye sockets, feeling sleepy because of the small glasses taking up half of the screen. After unplugging it, I would fall asleep at any time, so I sent a voice directly: "I don't want to read it, please help me deal with it, thank you." Century Chatterbox was inexplicably stuck for a while before replying: "Brother Fang, your voice is very nice. , no wonder those girls like you, and I like you too (Dude likes haha, don’t scold me.” Shen Fang: “.” Leningrad insisted: “But I always help you indirectly reject love letters, those girls I won’t give up at all. Brother Fang, why don’t you give me a reason, and I’ll tell them directly next time?” Shen Fang is very popular with girls, since he was in elementary school, but he doesn’t quite understand why. Even if his face is good-looking , but his temper is really bad, he has no friends, he can't speak well, and he doesn't understand why they have to approach each other with blushing faces. Except for the girl in the class who seems to be called Chen Silin——Zhang Lenin said before She followed Ji Wanxuan, and Shen Fang observed her for two days and wanted to ask her why, but the other party suddenly figured it out for some reason. Maybe he found that he really had nothing to like. Now as soon as Shen Fang gets close, the girl will Staring at him, he wished to stay away from him. Shen Fang was stunned by her reaction, but he couldn't help but relax in his heart. Since the other party is not interested in Ji Wanxuan, this matter will be left alone. However, other Girls haven't reached her level of vision yet, and now they are still as if they were blinded by lard, unwilling to see the reality clearly. Shen Fang thought for a while, and said: "You can tell them next time that I don't like girls, I suggest you directly Give up." Leningrad is holding on: "..." Leningrad is holding on: "...Brother Fang, there is no need to fight like this." Leningrad is holding on: "Brother Fang, that... Actually you rejected Chen Silin before I heard everything I said, and that’s the reason. I was also shocked when I heard it, but thinking about it, you took great pains to make her give up completely! [Bull] [Bull] But it’s really unnecessary, let’s think about other things What's the reason? Just say that you don't want to delay your studies in high school and you don't even want to have a girlfriend!" He typed too much, and Shen Fang replied after a rough look at the general meaning: "It's the truth, I like it Boys." Afraid that the other party could not hear clearly, he typed again with his own hands: "I really like boys." The other party is typing... Leningrad is holding on... The other party is typing... Leningrad is holding on... The shock and entanglement of the other party can be seen only from this couplet. Shen Fang moved his fingers and typed "If you don't feel well". So what. Don't be friends with him anymore? Shen Fang's eyes were a little confused. Are they friends now? He doesn't know for sure, but at least apart from Ji Wanxuan, he seems to have only had serious conversations with this person. Although most of the time it is Zhang Lenin who talks non-stop, he only needs to reply once in a while. Two periods or apostrophes will do.If this is considered a friend, then he may soon lose this friend he just regarded as a friend.Shen Fang looked at the "I do like boys" that he sent just now, his head tilted on the pillow, and his mood was unexpectedly peaceful.It might seem ridiculous to say that he only realized his true orientation today, but it was true.Shen Fang has never heard the kind of remarks that "I just happen to like someone, it has nothing to do with men and women", and he would not take it seriously if he heard it.I like boys, I like girls, I like boys and girls, I don't like them... The world divides love into so many categories, it seems to be to show their broad tolerance, but since they are already tolerant, why bother?