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The new year has begun one after another. Stores with enough rest have begun to open for business. Satisfied office workers and students are also preparing to continue their hard work.

Jiang's mother wanted to knit a sweater for Jiang Xue, so she asked him to leave a few days later. Jiang Xue was very confident in the retest, so she agreed.

There are many people in the family, and the stored vegetables are almost finished, and there are still some condiments that need to be replenished, so Jiang Xue volunteered to go to the market to buy them.

Although he has lived in this city for more than ten years, he actually stayed there for a very short time. In many places, he was greeted with a sense of newness that was both familiar and strange. Breath, he has nothing to do, so he walks to the market while shopping with relish.

The market is very large, noisy and bustling. The smell of fresh fruits and vegetables, the smell of fish and shrimp, and the smell of raw meat are intertwined to make the world smokey.

It took him a long time to complete half of the tasks. He was looking down at the list when suddenly there was a surprised voice behind him.

"Xiaojiang!"

Jiang Xue turned her head subconsciously, and saw Fangran running towards her excitedly, stopped a meter away from him, and said uneasily.

"You came home this year..."

Jiang Xue's state of mind has become much calmer than before, and many brooding things have become insignificant. He nodded, with a smile in his tone.

"Well, I haven't been home for a long time, come back this year and have a look."

Fangran didn't expect him to answer him in such a pleasant manner, and he was stunned for a while before stammering.

"I, you, are you shopping for groceries?"

Jiang Xue remembered that she had blamed Fangran so narrowly before, and couldn't help feeling a little guilty.They were fellow villagers, and Fangran took extra care of him in college, and generously helped him a lot, but after Li Zheng found out, he broke up with Fangran in resentment, and now thinking about it, he was really impulsive and reckless.

"Well, but I haven't finished shopping yet, senior, do you know where the seasonings are sold?"

Holding the list, Jiang Xue asked him blankly and seriously, with the same natural attitude as before.

Fangran's throat choked up when he heard "senior", and his eye sockets were instantly moist. He lowered his head and coughed a few times to cover up, restraining the flooding tide in his heart, snatched the bag from his hand, and patted it attentively and happily his shoulders.

"I'm more familiar with you here, follow me and I'll be sure to buy it in a while!"

Jiang Xue nodded with a smile.

Two people are indeed more efficient than one person. Besides, Fangran often goes home and knows the way here. He bought the rest of the list in less than an hour. He looked at Jiang Xue hesitantly, and spoke softly uncertainly. .

"There are so many things, let me help you take them home."

Jiang Xue's home is actually not far from here, but he looked at Fangran's earnest and nervous expression, smiled and said "OK".

The conversation along the way was quite satisfactory, chatting with each other about their current situation.Fangran was still working in Li Duan's company. He was afraid that it would bring back bad memories for Jiang Xue, so he avoided the company's affairs. He only said that he had been dating his current girlfriend for three years and planned to meet his parents sometime to get engaged. .

Jiang Xue listened quietly, occasionally saying a few words, but neither too indifferent nor trying to please.

They were from the same hometown and the same school, and they had a good relationship with each other. They had visited their respective homes many times. Jiang's mother was very surprised to see Fang after a long absence, and warmly asked him to have lunch. Fangran did not refuse.

After lunch, Fangran, who was about to leave, accidentally caught a glimpse of the review materials Jiang Xue was reading on the coffee table, and he asked unexpectedly.

"You want to take the postgraduate entrance examination?"

Jiang Xue nodded.

"The initial test has passed, and I am still preparing for the retest."

He said the name of the school he applied for, and Fangran showed some praise on his face.

"It's a good school, and you'll be fine."

After thinking about it, he said again.

"I have a classmate who took the exam in that province before, and some materials are left with me, which may be helpful to you. Do you want to go to my place to get them?"

Jiang Xue was a little surprised, but since he had nothing to do anyway, it would not hurt to read more materials to prepare, so he took his coat and left home with Fangran.

Fangran's house is three streets away, and a bridge needs to be crossed in the middle. There are no guardrails on both sides of the bridge.Jiang Xue felt that this was really dangerous, so she couldn't help asking.

"Is this bridge like this before? It's so dangerous, it's easy to fall."

Fangran answered helplessly.

"This bridge was supposed to be repaired, but the leader of the construction team ran away with the money, and the bridge was shelved. In fact, this bridge is quite wide, and people usually know that it is dangerous and rarely walk. Generally, nothing will happen. .”

Jiang Xue looked down the bridge. The river covered with a thin layer of ice was calm and waveless, as if it had been frozen, reflecting a silvery cold light.

After going to Fangran's house to get the materials, Jiang Xue planned to return home. Before leaving, Fangran glanced at the sky worriedly and handed him the umbrella.

"The weather has been bad in the past few days, you should bring an umbrella just in case."

Jiang Xue also glanced at the sky, shook her head and smiled.

"Today's forecast is cloudy, so it shouldn't rain, and I walked back in less than 15 minutes, so I don't need an umbrella."

Fangran saw that his attitude was firm, so he had to give a few more instructions worriedly.

Jiang Xue went downstairs with a bag of materials, and when she walked out of the gate of the community, she saw an old man selling sweet potatoes by the side of the road.

He was too focused on eating, and only after eating did he realize that the sky had completely overcast, dark clouds covered the entire sky, and the howling wind also wrapped sporadic cold raindrops.

No, it's really going to rain.

He regretted that he didn't take the umbrella that Fangran gave him because he was lazy, but it might be too late to go back now, so he might as well hurry home, he hugged the bag to his chest, and his pace became fast and anxious.

It was only three o'clock in the afternoon, but the sudden change of the sky was as gloomy as late at night. Every household closed their doors and windows to block the coming rainstorm outside. There were few people on the road, as if Jiang Xue was the only one left.

The rain is getting heavier and heavier, and the downpour will seep through the unsheltered river and snow. He is annoyed and thinks that his mother will blame him for nagging for a long time when he goes back now, and the mobile phone in his pocket rang faintly amidst the lightning and thunder. Get up, but Jiang Xue didn't plan to pick it up.

Maybe it was Fangran, or maybe it was Mom who asked him if he had arrived home. It was very difficult for him to carry the documents now, so he might as well save time and get home earlier.

The dim sky made his vision blurred. He tried his best to identify the road ahead, and when he walked up the uneven steps, he realized that he had reached the bridge without guardrails.

At this time, the heavy rain was pouring, and it was impossible to tell where the two ends of the bridge were in the darkness. An unknown sense of panic welled up in her heart. Jiang Xue gritted her teeth and walked straight forward cautiously from the middle of the steps, keeping in her heart Comfort yourself.

The bridge is only more than ten meters away, and it will go down after a few steps. It's okay.

The icy cold rain hit his head and face, and the ringing of the mobile phone in his pocket seemed to convey enough courage to him. He wanted to go home quickly, and someone was waiting for him at home.

The pace under her feet became more and more rapid. At the same time, a speeding car was approaching. The sound of the horn and the dazzling lights made Jiang Xue subconsciously block her eyes and took a step back to the side.

The driver of the car didn't seem to notice that there were still pedestrians on the bridge, and flew across the middle of the bridge confidently. The wheels splashed huge water splashes in the sunken puddles, and Jiang Xue staggered back a few steps unexpectedly. But the feet are empty.

His heart tightened violently, and he didn't have time to react consciously. He subconsciously grabbed both sides, but it was empty. In a whirl, he had already rolled off the side of the bridge.

The mud on the slope under the bridge was criss-crossed, and it was wetted by the rain and turned into a muddy water. Jiang Xue was scratched by several sharp gravels while rolling down, and the pain was like a flash of bright lightning.

It was dark before his eyes, and he was dizzy for a long time before he recovered.

I don’t know where the documents I was holding just now went to. The mobile phone that was in my pocket disappeared. The cut clothes exposed the wounds on my arms and calves. The burning pain was washed away by the rain. It was like being watered by sulfuric acid, and the pain was unbearable.

He raised his head, the rushing rain confused all the outlines of the world, and it was extremely difficult to even open his eyes completely.

He forced his wet and heavy body to stand up a little bit, tentatively stepped around lightly, closed his eyes and recalled the height of the bridge and the river he saw when passing by Fangran's house.

Four meters... or five meters?

He stretched out his hand to press the slope of the slope, feeling a little heavier again.

If you climb up from the slope, it is estimated to be seven or eight meters.

Without thinking about other things, he bent over and struggled to climb up the muddy slope, but the heavy rain washed the soil soft and loose, and the feet he stepped on sank deeply, and then were wrapped in soft mud and slowed down. Slowly slid down.

After trying more than ten times unwillingly, he still stayed in the same place and leaned against the slope panting, dazed and desperate.

No, the slope was too slippery, and the soft soil couldn't bear the weight of a grown man.

What to do, how can he climb up?

The instinct to survive made him start to cry for help, but not only knowing that few people would pass by in such bad weather, but his shouting with all his strength was suppressed by the sound of the rain, like a faint cry for help trapped in a pillow, almost not smellable.

With a chill in his heart, he racked his brains to find another way to save himself.

You can't sit still, maybe there are other ways to climb the bridge.

He plucked up his courage and stood up tiredly, and cautiously walked forward in the dark field of vision. Just as his feet stepped on a flat layer, he was stunned for a while, and the small sound of ice cracking penetrated into his ears. He stepped back and fell down.

Immediately there was a cracking pain in the ankle.

It’s really a house leak coincident with continuous night rain, in front of the overwhelmed river surface, behind is a muddy and soft landslide, a sprained person is under the abandoned bridge, screaming every day should not be called the ground is not working, could it be that he is really going to die Is this the end?

Jiang Xue lay down on her own, her painful wounds were already numb from the rain, her whole body was cold as if she was losing vitality little by little, and the muddy and wet clothes wrapped her body like a heavy shackle, pulling him down Pulling, pulling, leading him into the boundless hell.

Jiang Xue woke up suddenly, and the sense of near-death crisis was like a sharp sword hanging above his head, forcing him to use up his last bit of strength to grab the straw to survive.

I can't die, I don't want to die.

The huge burst of strength prompted him to climb up the slide with difficulty, and he refused to give up even though he was washed down by the rain again and again. All the strength in his body was exhausted. He repeated this numb and desperate movement like a robot, and his mind It also became chaotic, with countless vague scenes pouring out like rewinding memories of people before they died.

He was born in a small county town. Because his mother couldn't bear his gambling-addicted father, he took him away from home and settled in this small town. Then he met Ke's father, and they had Ke Shuo after they got married.

Sensitive and reticent, he chose to grow up alone because of the resentment and stubbornness in his heart, and rarely went home.In these years of studying, chatting, eating and gathering, studying and taking exams, he spent every lonely and repeated year in the smile in front of others and the tired sleep.

Li Zheng appeared a year ago, tearing apart his quiet world like a wild beast, and then broke in domineeringly and irresistibly, smashing his original stable life into ruins beyond recognition.

During this unspeakable year, Li Zheng violated him, occupied him, interfered with him, and forcibly became his closest and most embarrassing existence regardless of his resistance.Reckless, powerful, and violent, this kind of Li Zheng brought him only the fear of absolute oppression and the humiliation and powerlessness of being at the mercy of others.

He should hate Li Zheng, just like the victim hated the perpetrator.If Li Zheng continued to force him like this, he thought he could hate Li Zheng more thoroughly, but Li Zheng didn't.

I don't know when Li Zheng changed, became accommodating to his feelings, became cautious and considerate, learned to work hard to restrain his violence, and became like a true gentle lover.

Why, why would he do this, he doesn't like and can't handle these changes that exist just for him.

He was used to living alone for a long time, long enough to think that his life would be mediocre and quiet, but Li Zheng stripped him from the black and white TV with a gesture that could not be ignored.

That which comes from the outside, which makes the fear of the soul alive, which is scarred and full of possessiveness, which gradually adapts regardless of reluctance, is the body temperature of another person.

After falling down again, Jiang Xue was exhausted and did not stand up again.The edge of the cracked ice was sharp, and his powerless fingertips touched the water on the river surface. It was chilly and piercing, and penetrated into the bone marrow along an inch of skin on the fingertips, and gradually spread to all limbs and internal organs.

Perhaps, he will die here alone, in this dark, dirty and desolate place.

And his slightly improved relationship, his blossoming future, all the things he got, and all the lingering emotions will disappear from this world forever.

Will anyone cry.

His kind and kind mother, the relatives he just decided to take the initiative to get close to, his few friends, the people he may hate or don't know how to face.

Will anyone cry for him.

The rain seemed to be getting lighter, the dark sky gradually turned dark gray, and the outline of the bridge could finally be seen in the misty vision, as if it was within reach.

After the extreme fear and despair crushed, everything that could be perceived became light and ethereal.

It's so cold.

He thought in a daze.

It was so cold.