his mermaid

***

Both the gastric tube and urinary catheter were removed, because starting today, I can try to stand up and defecate, and the nurse brought both crutches.

You can still eat--

The chicken soup in the iron pot on the table was half drunk.

Yueguo hasn't had chicken soup for a long time, and the family usually doesn't make this kind of soup.

Yaochen told him, "That aunt won't come again in the future, and a male nurse will come over in two days." He also said, "The doctor recommends eating more fish, and he will buy whatever else he wants."

Yue Guo said that he wanted to eat some sugar, because the medicine he drank was too bitter, he hadn't eaten for the past few days, and he felt very weak.

And the mood is also bitter.

Yaochen discussed with him the funeral of his father and sister, and told about their death and funeral.

Then they chose a cemetery to be buried together, and these were almost arranged by Yaochen.

Although he was very calm in front of Yaochen, it was just because he accepted his fate.

In fact, I really want to end the present day as soon as possible.

But in this hospital, there are doctors to take care of him at all times, and his legs and feet are not convenient.Even thinking of committing suicide by jumping from the top of the building, I am afraid it will be difficult.

Before, the idea of ​​"suicide" never appeared in my mind.

Even if the days are not good, and I am frustrated at work, I never think about it.

Now these two words often pop out from his heart, reminding him to be ready to die at any time.

If he couldn't die, Yue Guo's thoughts would always be occupied by the question of "what to do in the future", forcing him to be out of breath.

Yaochen came to the hospital again, and he was wearing formal clothes and a tie. It looked like he came directly from the company after get off work.

He is so busy with work and has to juggle so many things, Yueguo always feels guilty when he sees him.

He didn't know why Yaochen was in charge of his family's affairs and treated him so well.I can't think of a reason, so I feel even more guilty.

Yaochen put down a white apple box on the bedside table. After checking that there was no problem, he put it in front of Yueguo.As long as there is a table and a place to put things in the room, it is full of nutritional supplements, supplements, and various medicines that he entrusted someone to buy.

"This is your phone."

Yaochen said.

Yueguo opened the box. The box had already been opened once, but it was obviously a new mobile phone inside, and even the label had not been torn off.

"Is this new?"

"Your old phone broke in a car accident, so I bought you a new one."

"Sorry to make you spend money again..." Yue Guo reflexively said, "Actually, I don't need to call now, and there is no one to contact."

He didn't have many friends in the first place, and he didn't want his former classmates and friends to know his current situation.

"Have you broken up with your ex-boyfriend?"

"Yes..." Yue Guo said awkwardly, "We broke up."

"You don't need to contact anyone, as long as you can contact me." Yaochen said softly, "You can download games to play, and you can also watch videos and news."

Yaochen walked to the bedside and took it out for him to turn it on.

"I knew I should buy a tablet. I will bring one from the company tomorrow."

"no need."

I don't want to see it, I can't see it.I'm in a bad mood.But he had to pretend nothing happened, as soon as Yueguo lowered his head, a tear fell on the quilt, fortunately Yaochen didn't see it.

Why did Yaochen take such good care of him?Does Yaochen like him?

Or is it just the sympathy of ordinary friends for him?

These favors, these gifts kept adding to his stress because there was no way to reciprocate.

After turning it on, Yaochen entered his number and downloaded several entertainment software.

Yue Guo lowered his head, and the phone was handed to him again.

Indeed, the only name in the contact was "Jiang Yaochen".

"Do you still have a job?" Yue Guo asked in a low voice.

"Yes."

"Then do you want to go back to the company?"

"No, stay for a little longer today."

"That's great, actually I'm having a hard time being alone in the hospital."

Yue Guo muttered.But I dare not say that I want to "suicide", because if I say that, the suicide may fail.

"Understood, I will come every day from now on. This place is freer than the ICU's visiting time, even if you stay overnight, it's fine."

"Don't..." Yue Guo looked at the small sofa, sleeping there would cause stiff neck.

"Then call me, video calls are also fine."

good.Yue Guo answered in his heart.

He could feel that their conversation was not at all like the atmosphere between ordinary friends.

Maybe Yaochen didn't want to break that boundary yet.

Anyway, he shouldn't live long, so it's better to keep the status quo like this.

"Or text."

"Understood." Yue Guo said, "The doctor said that he will come to change the medicine later, do you want to stay..."

"what happened?"

"I'm afraid you'll feel uncomfortable if you see it."

"Why do you think I'm uncomfortable?"

"Because it's kind of scary." Yue Guo himself had never seen the appearance of the wound, "Besides, it hurts..."

He kept lowering his head to describe, as if he was afraid, Yaochen thought it was very cute.

"Be patient, the wound will heal soon."

"Soon?" Yue Guo looked at him sideways, "But the doctor said that it will take at least three months for the wound to heal..."

"In the blink of an eye, three months have passed. Do you still remember what happened in college? Unexpectedly, eight years have passed so quickly."

"yes……"

Yue Guo finally showed a smile, although it was forced, but the metaphor just now really made him feel a lot better, Yaochen's voice was also very gentle, and he didn't feel that his consolation was perfunctory at all.

After more than ten minutes, the doctors and nurses came in to change the dressing and to remove the gauze.

Before changing the dressing, the doctor asked Yaochen to help turn Yueguo's body over.

Now Yueguo is at least 20 catties lighter. Yaochen can lift him up alone, and the doctor will assist him to turn him over from the right side so that he cannot touch the wound.

Try to make Yueguo sleep on his stomach today, it will help the wound recover, and turn it over tomorrow.

Then Yaochen stood on the left side of the hospital bed, crossed his arms and observed the process of changing the dressing.

Although Yaochen looked at him ashamed, he felt at ease.

Yaochen didn't stare at his wound, but looked at his face, and looked into his eyes from time to time, Yueguo was enduring severe pain, Yaochen was watching seriously as if waiting for his tears Looking at Yue Guo's expression, it made people laugh and cry, so they had no choice but to bury their heads in the pillow.Turning his head away when he couldn't breathe, Yaochen was still looking at him.

Because the mood is relaxed, the dressing change today is not as painful as the previous two days, and there is no feeling of fear, only a few tears.

The nurse comforted him and said, "It's normal to cry in pain." Some patients even reacted so violently that they needed to be sedated.

In order to prevent adhesive scars on the residual limb, today the wound is not covered with gauze, but is covered with a nursing pad, and the body is lightly covered with a quilt.

"If you feel pain, gently rub the heel of the leg to promote blood circulation." The doctor said.

Yue Guo slept on his stomach on the hospital bed.

The nurse washed his hair and it became very soft.

After doing this, they left time for the patients and their families.

Yaochen didn't leave for a moment, just stood by the bed like that.After the doctor left, he asked, "Does it still hurt?"

"Well. But today is a little better than yesterday."

In fact, the pain has become a habit, as long as it doesn't get worse, Yueguo can bear it.

"Then rub the heels of your legs."

"it is good…"

I don't know why I agree, this kind of thing should be done by medical staff or nurses, and it is inappropriate for Yaochen.

Yaochen's hand was on the position of the rear hip, which was still some distance away from the heel of the leg, so he slowly groped, and Yue Guo suddenly let out an uncomfortable "ah", the voice was as soft as coquetry.

"Does it hurt?"

"No, it's better not to knead."

While lying prone, Yue Guo made a muffled sound.

"why?"

"It feels like my left leg is empty, and it doesn't hurt so much without rubbing it."

Moreover, Yaochen touched his buttocks several times, and he always felt that it was too strange.

They all understand what that means.

"Then go to bed early, it's getting late."

"what time is it now?"

"It's almost ten o'clock."

Yaochen glanced at his watch, and Yueguo felt that it was indeed getting late.

It turned out that Yaochen had been here for more than four hours, and had never been out of the room.

The past few days have been tormented like days and years, but today's time has passed so fast.

"Good night." Yue Guo murmured.

"Good night, I'll be back tomorrow."

"OK, good night……"

Yue Guo repeated it again and closed his eyes.

Yaochen walked to the door, breathing heavily.He could feel Yueguo's dependence on him. After rubbing his leg just now, Yueguo's reaction was shy, and he felt uncontrollable, so he stopped in time.

Maybe this relationship is not one-way.

***

After looking around for a long time, he confirmed that Jiang Yaochen was not there.

Pushing the door open tiptoely, Lin Yalei was stopped by the nurse behind her.

"What are you doing? Are you a family member of 1304?"

Oops, scared to death--

Lin Yalei patted her heart and turned her head, replying falteringly as if lying:

"I, I am the... I am the patient's mother."

Looking at this woman, the little nurse showed an exaggerated expression.

"Ah? I'm the nurse who makes rounds on this floor. His only family member is his boyfriend, and he said that the patient has no parents."

She wrote down everything Jiang Yaochen said, and Yaochen also reminded that people she didn't know should not be allowed in, as it could give them some benefits.

"Boy friend?"

Lin Yalei whispered, "Isn't my sister's fiance?"

After being puzzled for a while, the little nurse realized that "boyfriend" was just her own subjective judgment.

Because the man who came to see the patient was really like his boyfriend, otherwise what else could it be.

She explained with a stiff expression: "Well, maybe I made a mistake. Anyway, I haven't seen you, and we can't say that we just let people in to see it casually. What are you carrying?"

Lin Yalei picked it up to let her see clearly.

"Oh. Here are some treats I made for him."

There are sugar cakes and quicksand bags in the plastic box, and some loose candies are sprinkled on the side, "And these are the candies I bought. I know that his medicine is very bitter, so I want to eat some candy, take it easy."

Lin Yalei handed the bag to the nurse, "Sister, give it to him for me, I'm leaving."

"...Thank you, Auntie. Why don't you go in and have a look?"

"No, my son and I have a bad relationship."

"No wonder I haven't seen you."

"Don't tell him I'm here, just say it was sent by a kind person."

"Ok."

Lin Yalei was about to turn around and leave, but she was not at ease. She asked, "Well, his family, when will that Mr. Jiang come?"

"Maybe six or seven in the afternoon."

"Oh, all right."

It's only three o'clock now, and Lin Yalei can observe Yueguo for a while longer. She came here quietly just to take a look at Yueguo, and she was afraid of being caught by Jiang Yaochen. If he saw it, she would be driven away.After seeing Yueguo injured last time, she could never forget how Yueguo said she was like her mother, Yueguo was so pitiful, she didn't know if Yueguo would survive in the future.She couldn't let go of this child at all, and it's fine if she doesn't want an inheritance now, she just thought of one of her own thoughts, even if she only did a little thing for Yue Kingdom, she didn't need Yue Kingdom to know.

After hesitating at the door for a while, she saw Yue Guo woke up in the ward.

And the nurse told him something, so he picked up the snack box on the bedside table, and after opening, Yueguo took a small bun and ate it in front of the nurse.

Judging from his expression, he should be saying, "It's delicious."

Yueguo ate the snacks she brought and laughed, Lin Yalei felt the urge to cry.

But she couldn't go in to say hello, so it was the best choice to just hide behind the door silently.

Lin Yalei covered her face and cried for a while, and the nurse also walked out of the room.

"Auntie, you haven't left yet."

She quickly wiped away her tears: "I'll leave right away, I'll see if he ate what I brought."

"He ate buns and candy."

"How is he? Are the wounds all right?"

"Amputations usually take a long time to recover, but he's doing okay."

"Then his life is not in danger?"

"No."

"Oh, good... that's good." Lin Yalei quickly wiped away her tears, but still had a sad face, "I'm relieved."

If Yue Guo died, she would be in great pain and torture, and would feel sad for the rest of her life.

Even if he didn't die, but was just hurt and tortured like this, she still felt pain.

It hurts anyone to do something wrong and not have a chance to make it up.

The candies Lin Yalei bought were in bulk in the wholesale market, Yaochen would not buy this kind of candies.

He saw that the box and candy on the bedside were not brought by himself, and his tone was a little displeased:

"What is this?"

"Today the nurse said that a kind person gave me candies..."

"Where did the kind people come from?"

"I don't know, I didn't ask."

"Why do you eat food brought by others indiscriminately? If it is expired, what if it is a carcinogen? Didn't the doctor say that you should avoid it?"

Yaochen raised his voice and accused him very seriously.

"Why, this is ordinary candy..."

Yue Guo's relaxed expression turned serious, not because he was afraid that the candy would be harmful, but because he saw that Yaochen was actually angry about such a trivial matter.

"I'm sorry." Yue Guo couldn't help apologizing.

Yaochen really cared about him, and came over every day after work without a single complaint.

It turned out that he would also be angry, or out of worry, Yueguo blamed himself, and the conversation between the two was interrupted.

Wanting to turn this page, Yaochen turned around to find something in his briefcase, and looked at the pocket he brought over.

Soon, he took out two tin boxes, one with baroque patterns, the other with small animals, and a glass bottle, which was also filled with diamond-like colorful small candies. That was Jinpingtang, and Yue Kingdom only recognized this .He also couldn't understand the foreign characters on the other two boxes.

"This is……"

"Didn't you say you wanted to eat candy? Take it apart and have a look."

In fact, they were selected together with the secretary, but there is no need to say this sentence.

"It's so beautiful." Yue Guo slowly opened the seal of the package, holding the exquisite box, "I don't want to eat it..."

He knew Yueguo's reaction was like this, seeing him smiling, Yaochen sat down on the sofa contentedly.

"Yaochen... Thank you. But don't buy it next time."

"Why?" Yaochen raised his head, "Don't you like this kind of thing?"

"No, I always ask you to spend money."

Yueguo folded the boxes sideways and put them together on the bedside without opening them to taste.

"You don't need to be burdened, just take it all." Yaochen said, "I don't have to return the things I bought for you in the future."

why is it like this?

Is it to make up for Xiaohui who passed away, or something else.

Yue Guo was confused by his words for a moment, and Yao Chen probably didn't know that he was under a lot of pressure to accept more and more gifts from him.

"Yaochen, do you have someone you like?"

Yaochen didn't answer, he continued.

"Xiaohui told me that you don't like her."

"Yeah." Yaochen also said straightforwardly, "I don't like her."

Yue Guo was silent for a moment, unable to answer the conversation...

Moreover, he also forgot why he asked this question.

When he reacted, the door was pushed open.

"It's time to change the medicine, and the family members are here to help."

The medical staff entered the house again, pushing the medical cart in.The rest of the conversation stopped.

Hiding his thoughts, Yueguo went through a long and painful dressing change process, and changed to a new gauze today.

He was getting used to the itchy, empty feeling of his legs.

At around ten o'clock, Yaochen was leaving.

"Yaochen, if you have someone you like, please tell me."

The current care and gifts should be reserved for the person he likes, not himself.Yueguo once doubted whether Yaochen liked him, but this was absurd, he was already like this, who else would like him, who would want to develop a relationship with a disabled person, that sounds abnormal, and he himself unacceptable.So he attributed Yaochen's behavior to his friend's concern, but he always felt that it was inappropriate and he felt that he was a burden.

"Don't ask such silly questions. Good night."

"Good night……"

Yaochen stroked Yue Guo's forehead and rubbed his hair.

Gao Yueguo... why did you ask me such a question.

The person I like, shouldn't you see it?

☆、Chapter 06