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"It's fine with anyone, but it can't be Qiqi!" Fengli hung up the phone angrily, and sat down on the sofa.

"Who are you making such a big fuss with?" I pushed open the door of the bathroom, just after taking a shower.

"It's nothing, my mother." After finishing speaking, Fengli closed her eyes and rubbed her temples with her hands.

"Oh." I paused, but still asked, "What's wrong with her?"

"What else can I do? Urge me to get married." Fengli opened her eyes and looked at me, "It's not that I won't tell you, but it's useless if I tell you. It will only make you more troublesome. It's fine for me to worry about these things alone .”

After hearing Fengli's words, I didn't know what to say for a while.Sighed lightly, not feeling well.

"This weekend, I'm going back to W City." Fengli said after being silent for a while.

"Didn't you just come back from W city last week, are you going again this week?" I was a little unhappy.

"This time, the result of my mother's re-examination is not good. I have to go and see for myself. But don't worry, if she takes the opportunity to ask me to go on a blind date again, no matter how many people my mother introduces to me, I will block them, just like above Just like Feifei last time." Fengli said while gesticulating, like a naughty child.

"Feifei from last time?" I raised my eyebrows and glanced at Fengli, and said disdainfully, "It seems that someone blocked you, right?"

"Ahem." Pineapple coughed in embarrassment, "It seems so."

I smiled at Pineapple and said nothing, but secretly worried that not everyone is Feifei.

The next day, everything was as usual, I got up early and went to work, and I was my file manager with peace of mind.

"I'll go back as soon as I go, An Xin will wait for me at home, I'm going out, okay.——Love your pineapple"

"Go ahead, get things done once and for all, save time and money, I don't need you to worry about it. ——Love your voyage"

After replying to Fengli's text message, he came out of the file room with a dozen documents to sort out, and returned to his work station.

"It's been two days, and there's no news from Fengli. I called him during the day, and his voice was very low, saying that he had something to deal with, so don't call, and call me when you have time. It's already ten o'clock at night. , haven’t given me any reply yet, could something be wrong?” I was sitting on the sofa in the living room by myself, looking at my phone anxiously, anxiously waiting for the news from Fengli.

Take a deep breath and turn on the radio to pass the time.I didn't choose the popular music channel I was used to, so I clicked on an emotional program and listened quietly.

"Heartbeat is just something that happens in a moment. However, it takes a long time to forget this moment. It may be a year, maybe ten years, or a lifetime." The radio host not only has a nice voice, And always so talkative.

Unknowingly, my thoughts flew along with the broadcast that night.In my mind, I think about the details of the two people from acquaintance to love to living together with Fengli. It seems that I can see the scenes of the past reappearing and then disappearing. My emotions follow them Up and down together.

"... growing up, there are some transformations that make us hurt and hurt. It hurts, it hurts, some bruises go away, some scars stay, whether you like it or not. These are The price of growth. That’s all for today, good night everyone.”

When I regained my senses again, the program had already played the ending track.

"Maybe holding hands

The future is not necessarily easy

也许 有 了 的 路

今生 还 要 更 忙碌

所以 牵 了 的 手

来生还 要 一起 走

所以 有 了 的 路

There is no time to turn back”

"So there is a road with companions, and there is no time to turn back." Just as I was still repeating the lyrics, the residual warmth of tears in the corners of my eyes had not dissipated, and I received a text message that made me stay up all night for the first time in my life .

"Let's break up, I'm getting married. - Pineapple"

I,... for a moment tears filled my eyes again.

"Why?" I calmed down and replied three words with great effort.

"You haven't slept yet? Wait a minute, I'll call you."

"it is good."

After a while, Fengli called, and I answered it without hesitation.

"Hey, are you sailing?" Fengli's tone was the lowest ever.

"Yeah." I agreed softly.

"Aren't you used to going to bed early and getting up early? Why didn't you go to bed tonight?" If the conversation was only heard here, I would feel that everything might still be the same.

"I couldn't sleep until you contacted me." My voice began to choke.

"Sailing," I could hear Fengli crying too, "I'm sorry, I failed to keep our vow. I'm getting married."

"Why?" I finally burst out of the suppressed emotions, crying and asking Fengli, "Didn't you say that you just went to deal with the housework, and you will go back right away?!"

"I,..." Fengli choked for a long time, "My mother's physical condition has not been good recently, and the reexamination results showed that the cancer has reached an advanced stage, and there are signs of metastasis, requiring immediate surgery. Because I do not agree to the marriage arranged by my mother , so she paid off with death, refusing surgery, refusing treatment.

After I came back, she first had a sudden hemorrhage from the lower body, and she was sent to the rescue in a coma.But even so, when she woke up, I gritted my teeth and did not agree to the marriage arrangement.Unexpectedly, later on, she swallowed all the sleeping pills that she secretly saved while no one was around.Fortunately, it was discovered in time, and the person just woke up today. "

"You don't need to say it, so your mother is more important than me?" I asked so naturally what I thought was the stupidest question in the world.

"It's different, you will always be the first in my heart." Fengli's words at this moment seemed so pale and weak.

"But in reality, you still didn't choose me." I know intellectually, I shouldn't say that, but I didn't have any rationality at that time.

I hung up the phone indifferently, threw the phone on the sofa, and let Fengli's phone call keep coming, and I didn't care about it.

Go straight to the bathroom, take off all your clothes, and turn on the shower head.

I hope that running water can wash away all my emotions, so that I won't be trapped by love and suffer from love.

I hope that running water can wash away all my memories, so that I won't be hurt and sad for love.

I let the clear water flow through my whole body from top to bottom, and just stood there blankly for an unknown amount of time...

Once again, I came out of the bathroom, grabbed the phone on the sofa, and saw more than a dozen missed calls from Pineapple, and dozens of text messages of apology.I read them one by one, only apologizing, but no decision to change.

Before dawn, I carefully looked at the inside and outside of this room countless times, and carefully tidied up and rearranged the large and small items in the room.

Finally, I packed my luggage and sent a text message to Fengli, "I'm gone and I won't be coming back. I left my house key under your pillow."

——Unfinished, to be continued——