love Shigatse

Chapter 66 Memories

"I'm waiting for someone." Zhang Wei finally said.

Sun Lang's face was a little embarrassed, and he felt that his inexplicable anger might really hurt someone who shouldn't be hurt.

"Actually, I knew my sexual orientation a long time ago, and this is where my heart was first moved. His name is Yang Xuan, and he is brother Li Zheng." After Zhang Wei finished speaking, he glanced at Sun Lang. As expected, Sun Lang was surprised, and then He continued to explain, "Yang Si... well, Yang Xuan was born to Yang Xuan's elders with a local girl when the educated youth went to the countryside. After returning to the city to take the college entrance examination in 1980, he lost contact with Yang Xuan until Yang Xuan went to junior high school. At that time, I found it myself. It is said that because my mother had already formed a family, I asked him to join my father. At that time, Li Zheng’s mother and Yang’s parents had not yet divorced, so Yang Xuan was always allowed to live in school, and he could only go home during winter and summer vacations. I also came to play during the winter and summer vacations, so I had the opportunity to meet him. He is 7 years older than me, so he takes care of me like a brother, helps me with my homework, takes me to play around, and even has good friends. I also shared the food with me at the first time. At that time, I only thought he was good, and I especially liked to follow him, like a follower. He would carry me when he was tired, and rub my head when he made a mistake. Help me wash my feet by the river. It wasn’t until I received the first love letter from a girl when I was in junior high school that I realized that what I liked was a boy like him, and that I didn’t realize that it was not just a dependence on him. It’s more love. But before I could confess to him, he left. Because Li Zheng’s mother was worried that his stay would be a disaster, she sent him to a boarding high school in a city far away early, and stayed there for a long time. After I grew up, I also understood why he was always so thin, why he always looked at Li Zheng with such fear, why he stayed with me all day, coaxed me to sleep and didn't go home in a hurry. From then until my grandfather passed away, I never saw him again. So when I graduated from high school, I disregarded my family’s opposition and came here to serve as a soldier. I just wanted to wait for him at the place where we met, and I just wanted to be close to him. Inquired into more news. But until now, nothing has been found out, he just disappeared like someone who never belonged to the Yang family." After Zhang Wei finished speaking this long paragraph, the whole person was shocked. Collapsed, lazily leaning on the back of the chair with a gloomy expression.

Sun Lang didn't know how to comfort him, or how to apologize for his impulsiveness just now.Regarding Li Zheng's family, he only heard that after his parents divorced, his father married a new man and gave birth to a pair of twins who were ten years younger than him, but he did not mention this half-brother.The younger generation has no right to comment on the love history of the elders, but the children have to recite the faults of their parents. I can't accept such a result.Li Zheng's ruthless distrust, Yang Xuan's forbearance and cowardice, who should bear these mistakes.

"So, don't think too much, I just really treat you...as a brother. I also feel that the relationship between you and Li Zheng is not worth it, that's all." Zhang Wei was silent for a while before opening his mouth to break the situation. quiet.

Sun Lang smiled helplessly, and then said "I'm sorry" softly, "But the matter between me and him is our own matter, and I will handle it well, so you don't need to worry about it."

"Are you sure he loves you?" Zhang Wei suddenly asked.

Sun Lang was at a loss for words and couldn't answer.Of course his love for himself must be.He hides his age, it's just for fun; he hides his identity, it's just for work; he hides his family, he just doesn't want others to disturb him; he never hides his relationship with him, even in front of his mother or comrades-in-arms, What it brings to me is definitely not trouble, but a kind of possessive desire.Yes, possessiveness, isn't it because of love that you want to possess?Sun Lang kept hinting to himself, and kept trying to convince himself that the relationship between him and Li Zheng was because of love, not because of why love endured so many embarrassments, and why he missed him so much.

"He had a very good friend in high school, but in the end the fight was very stiff. The boy was said to be disabled, and the whole family moved out of Chengdu." Zhang Wei paused, then looked at Sun Lang again, "On the surface, it was because the boy bullied Li Zheng, blackmailed money, and then Li Zheng protected himself. But the boy's family moved under the oppression of the Yang family. It is an indisputable fact. We have no way of knowing the specific reasons, but With Li Zheng's character, that boy is with you again..." Zhang Wei paused again, trying to put it another way, but didn't know how to organize it.

"With me? Huh..." Sun Lang smiled, he knew what Zhang Wei wanted to say, "They are the same type as me, so they are not just ordinary friends, right, that means this matter is definitely not on the bright side As said above."

Zhang Wei didn't speak, and turned the key silently, and the two of them continued their journey back in silence.

It was already midnight when we returned to the institute. Zhang Wei put the car away and went to see the condition of the boiler. Sun Lang also went directly back to the dormitory to rest.After tossing around for a few days, so tired, but lying on the bed, tossing and turning without any intention of sleeping, I took out my mobile phone and looked at the blue screen with no signal and fell into thought.

"Does he love me?"

"He'll come back again, won't he?"