say you like me

"Where... are you going to college now?" Yu Yang endured the smell of takeaways in the room for who knows how many days... and picked up the dirty clothes on the sofa.

"Big K." Wen Jin flicked the cigarette ash to the ground.

Yu Yang froze for a moment, "Oh, then you should have done well in the college entrance examination." He looked around with a pile of dirty clothes in his arms, "Where is the bathroom?"

Wen Jin pressed the cigarette butt into the Coke bottle at hand, glanced at him, and pointed to the room behind Yu Yang.

Yu Yang pushed open the door of the bathroom and was relieved to see that there was a washing machine inside. Then he stuffed all the dirty clothes in and poured a lot of laundry detergent.

After a while, Wen Jin heard the rumbling sound of the washing machine in the bathroom, and then Yu Yang came out, picked up a huge supermarket shopping bag on the ground, and started to clean up the garbage on the table and on the ground.

Wen Jin peeled off a piece of chewing gum and threw it into his mouth, then leaned on the sofa calmly and watched him go about his business.

Yu Yang has obsessive-compulsive disorder. He was nagged by his grandmother since he was a child, and he is used to being tidy. Now he can't bear to see Wen Jin's room.

"You are too rough..." Yu Yang frowned and swept the floor, "I said you were not like this before..."

He stopped halfway.

Wen Jin also froze for a moment, then continued to chew gum, picked up the remote control and turned on the TV.The sound of the TV broke the awkward atmosphere, Yu Yang took a deep breath and stopped talking.

After a long time, Wen Jin suddenly said calmly, "I used to be rough too, you don't remember."

Yu Yang straightened up and took a look at him, "Yes, I used to do the laundry and cook, and you lay down and be an uncle."

Wen Jin smiled, and raised her hands to show him her scary palms, "That's because my hand was injured."

Anyone who sees those hideous wounds will feel their scalp go numb and get goose bumps all over their body.Yu Yang froze in place for an instant, his hand holding the broom shook violently, and the broom fell to the ground with a "slap".

And Wen Jin didn't seem to see his confusion, put his hands back into his trouser pockets, and smiled brightly at him.

Yu Yang was stunned seeing his smile, and the next second, he lowered his head in panic, pretending to bend over to pick up a broom.

If it wasn't for Wen Jin's pretty smile, he would have almost thought that he was showing his scars on purpose.

After a while, he said in a low voice, "The injury on your hand...has it hurt again?"

He didn't know why he asked such a mentally retarded question.

Sure enough, Wen Jin looked at him amusedly, "What are you thinking? It will be fine if this kind of skin trauma is scarred."

"Ah... Really." Yu Yang curled the corner of his mouth unnaturally, and went out to throw out the trash.

When I walked to the door, I heard the man say softly, "But it still hurts."

It took Yu Yang a long time to throw away this garbage before he came back, Wen Jin kept changing the channel with an indifferent expression, feeling bored.

After Yu Yang came in, he sat on the sofa next to him for a while, and said: "You rest, I will come to you tomorrow."

What are you doing tomorrow?Wen Jin didn't bother to ask, and said a calm "hmm".

Yu Yang stood up holding his coat, and when he turned his head, he caught a glimpse of a painting in the corner—this painting was in gray tones, and the boy was leaning against the dilapidated courtyard wall, his eyes were blurred by the too bright sunlight. expression.In the lower right corner of the painting, it is probably the painter's pen name, "Whale".

Sensing that the man hadn't left yet, Wen Jin looked back and noticed his gaze.

"Like that painting?" Wen Jin asked.

"It's okay." Yu Yang looked away lightly, "Did someone give it to you?" He asked.

"No," Wen Jin said, "I bought it when I saw the art exhibition."

Yu Yang nodded, said nothing, opened the door and left.

When I got home, the dining room on the first floor was still dimly lit.It was rare for Yu Shishan to be here. He opened a bottle of Moutai and slowly drank it by himself. He set out two cups, obviously waiting for him.

"Come, have a drink with Dad." Seeing Yu Yang coming in, he waved.

Yu Yang changed his shoes quietly and sat opposite him.Yu Shishan poured him a cup, picked up his own cup and touched the rim of his cup lightly, then continued to drink his own.

Yu Yang didn't speak, just swallowed the spicy liquid with small mouthfuls.Although it is a national wine, it is sold at more than 8 bottles in the market, but this wine is still the most difficult to swallow.

It is said that President Zhou used this wine when he received the President of Country M.When the assistant brought up a muddy broken jar, the president of Country M smiled disdainfully.As a result, the assistant shook his hand, and the wine jar fell to the ground. In an instant, the whole room was filled with a strange fragrance, which lasted for three days, which opened the eyes of the gringos.

After a long time, Yu Shishan suddenly asked in a low voice: "Want to go back and have a look?"

Yu Yang pursed his mouth, played with the cup and said nothing, then shook his head slowly.

Yu Shishan glanced at him, raised his head and drank another glass of wine, exhaled, and then looked at his hand with a complicated expression.

After a long time, he slowly opened his mouth: "... Ma Jian was killed today."

Yu Yang's eyelashes trembled imperceptibly, then calmly picked up the wine bottle to help his father fill the glass, and then poured some for himself.

Yu Shishan held up his wine glass, his eyes frustrated like an old wolf.

"...It's a pity for this child." He raised his head and drank another cup, smacked his lips, and sighed, "It's also my fault."

"It wasn't you." Yu Yang, who had been silent all this time, suddenly said, with a firm tone, "Ma Xianming's death was caused by you, but Ma Jian was not."

Yu Shishan looked up at him, and after a while laughed twice, "Stinky boy, I am comforting your father."

Yu Yang didn't speak any more and put away the wine.He has never been used to seeing Yu Shishan suddenly kind and vulnerable after drinking a little wine.In his heart, Yu Shishan should always be invincible, never look back and never repent.All bad guys should be like that.

He turned and went upstairs, when Yu Shishan suddenly asked him behind him, "Do you want to go to college?"

Yu Yang paused and quickened his pace to go upstairs.He walked quickly through the empty bedroom and walked into the studio set up in the bedroom. After locking the door, he leaned against the door panel wearily.

Want to go to college?

He can't think about such meaningless questions and doesn't bother to answer them.He believes that Yu Shishan is absolutely capable of buying him a college student, and he also understands that he has always felt guilty and brooding about it.

But it's all fucking pointless.

Does he want to go to college, do he want to walk the path he should have walked like his peers, and then grow up to be a sloppy adult by the side of the person he should be with...

Whether you want to or not, these have all been missed.

"Senior Wen Jin!" Wang Yao chased out of the school with a thick stack of materials.

Wen Jin had just left school and was about to cross the road when she heard a voice and turned her head.

The girl ran up to him, panting slightly, and looked at him nervously, "Senior... senior, do you have time tomorrow? I... I want you to read my outline for me..."

Wen Jin was stunned for a moment, and then smiled gently: "I have time," he pondered for a while, "At nine o'clock tomorrow morning, is the Starbucks across from the school okay?"

This is four years ago, Yu Yang would never have imagined that Wen Jin could smile at everyone so naturally and generously.

"Okay." The girl nodded with a blushing face.

Wen Jin rubbed her head, "Remember to come back early after eating, I can't afford breakfast in the coffee shop."

From the library to the school gate, Yu Yang followed him not far away.Along the way, there were at least three girls who talked to Wen Jin.

It's normal, Wen Jin has grown taller, and when he stood up that day, he could at least reach the position of his chin by visual inspection.With red lips, white teeth, white skin and beautiful appearance, her personality has become much more cheerful, and she is no longer the cold and shy person she used to be.He doesn't blush anymore when talking to girls, and even makes "head-touching" to seduce others. He looks like a scumbag who has been in the field for all ages and central air-conditioning.Of course, this is Yu Yang's inner theater.

However, maybe growing up is like this. At first glance, it looks like a mirror image, hiding an unknown face beyond recognition.No one knows who's smile is true or not, and no one can see the story behind who.

The philandering scumbag in everyone's eyes has also given his heart and soul to someone, the girl in the library with a white dress was also a bastard with smoking and tattoos, and the handsome and tall school girl was once a lonely dick... Heh, who knew Woolen cloth?

Yu Yang only knew that there were two lonely children embracing each other to keep warm back then, and after many years, one was a college student in clean clothes from a prestigious school, and the other was a young master who was the most sought-after in a romantic place.

You and I have different paths, but you are still the light.

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