Trainee

Daniel was hospitalized.

Mr. Chang explained to Li Qi and the others that he just injured his leg, so he needed to stay for treatment.He didn't say a word about his hearing, and Li Qi didn't dare to ask him if he didn't say anything. Maybe there is no news, which is the best news.

Li Qi went to see Daniel.

Daniel may be pale because of his illness, but he still said with a smile on his face: "I'm fine. I'll be fine after two days of rest. Don't be afraid, go back quickly."

Li Qi stared at him without speaking, Daniel looked at him naturally, and after a while Li Qi silently nodded.

After they left, Daniel, who remained calm, could no longer maintain his calmness and indifference. For the first time, panic and fear appeared in his eyes.

He sat on the hospital bed and tried to bury his head in his knees, but the darkness didn’t give him any sense of security, he couldn’t hear anything, just like how many times he imagined fear, the silent world shrouded——

It wasn't until someone touched his shoulder that Daniel trembled a bit, raised his head and looked at that person, completely unaware that there were tears on his face.

Mr. Chang stood in front of him, bent over to look at him, trying to say something to him, but Daniel couldn't hear a word when he opened and closed his mouth.

He couldn't hear, he couldn't even hear his own voice, so he could only cry and try to shout: "You, save me, give me a little more time, I will take medicine, I can do anything, I still want to die again It takes a little time... a little is enough."

Mr. Chang's pupils constricted, "What's going on? Where's the doctor?!" He turned to leave, but Daniel grabbed his sleeve in horror.

Daniel's eyes looked at Mr. Chang, and he saw Mr. Chang's lips were moving all the time, his face was also very anxious, and the other party even opened his mouth and yelled.

But Daniel can't hear, he can't hear anything, it's like his ears and his world have become very quiet tonight, and he can only hear a very faint soft sound, but now, he can't hear this at all what people are saying.

Daniel's reputation was well known in his ears, and he could bear it at first when Mr. Chang's lips opened and closed quietly, but soon he couldn't hold it anymore.

He's going deaf.

Just like his father.

From then on, no matter the music or his dream, even the agreement between him and Li Qi could no longer be fulfilled. Daniel held his head, the rationality in his mind and the silent reality were intertwined, turning into boundless despair. Rolling around with throbbing temples, crying.

Mr. Chang tried his best to hug the collapsed Daniel, and broke the bedside bell.

……

The doctor tried his best to stabilize Daniel's emotions. Although he had made preparations before, when the day really began to fall, Daniel still couldn't hold on.

After he panicked, he began to reject all approaching people. When his mood improved slightly, he would try his best to express it with his voice and tell the people around him: "Give me a little time, I want to adapt myself."

But the way he adapted was to stay in the ward all day long without communicating with anyone, and even began to reject drug treatment.

The feeling of the cold medicine dripping into his body along the needle made him feel panic all the time. He knew better than anyone that this disease could not be cured.Just like his father back then, or him now.

People who are "deaf" can't speak clearly.

Because they can't hear, can't hear the sound of the outside world, and can't hear their own voice, they will gradually lose control of the volume, and then they can't speak clearly, and finally become a deaf and dumb person.

Daniel bit his finger, curled himself up in the quilt and shivered, he couldn't hear it, so he desperately wanted to use another perception to let himself know that he was still alive.At this time, nothing could bring him this recognition more than the sensation of pain.

The fingers of his hands were soon drenched with blood from the biting, but he continued to bite as if he didn't feel it, the lips were soaked with the rusty smell of blood.

He tasted this taste in the dark, tasted the "pain".

But it didn't take long before the thin quilt on his body was roughly lifted off. Daniel subconsciously covered his eyes with his hands to block the glare, but soon his hands were lifted up again by his wrists, and he was forced to He opened his eyes and saw the man in front of him.

Mr. Chang yelled something at him angrily, and even shook his wrist. Daniel couldn't hear him, so he could only look at him blankly, watching the man in front of him shout until he calmed down, and then stretched out his hand to give He wiped away his tears - he didn't even know when he cried unconsciously.

Daniel wanted to avoid it, but Mr. Chang insisted on pinching his chin, forcing him to raise his head to look at him, let him watch his mouth shape, and said something slowly.

Daniel's eyes seemed out of focus, but the other party insisted stubbornly, and slowly he understood.

Mr. Chang said to him: "You have to learn to adapt."

Daniel's nose was sour, and he nodded.

Mr. Chang said to him again: "I brought a person to see you, you must be obedient."

He stood up and motioned to a person behind him to come closer. Daniel looked up, but it was his father Li Jiahe.

Daniel was trembling a little, but Mr. Chang held down his wrist and forcefully handed him over to Li Jiahe. Daniel hurriedly looked up at him, only to see Mr. Chang said something to his father. He said very Come on, lip-reading can't "hear" what they're saying.

Then Mr. Chang went out, leaving only their father and son in the ward.

Li Jiahe was wearing a hearing aid and sitting next to Daniel.

He reached out to touch him, and spoke his name very slowly, "Li Fang."

No one has called him by this name for many years. Daniel froze for a moment, looked up at him, and slowly "listened" to what he said to himself through his lips.

Li Jiahe looked at him and said: "Dad is late, I'm sorry, Dad doesn't know..." He spoke slowly, word by word, but the boy opposite started to have red eyes.

"I know it's hard, but you're much braver and younger than Dad."

"Father has been confused for so many years, but after the treatment, he can still hear a little sound. Don't be afraid, you are young, and the result must be better than mine..."

Even the best treatment result is nothing more than wearing a hearing aid like his father, trying to hear a little weak voice while relying on lip recognition, and living like this for a lifetime.If you want to sit back on the piano bench, or go back to the stage, it is impossible.

I know this clearly in my heart, but I am not as anxious as before.

The gray-haired old man in his fifties in front of him was sitting on the edge of his hospital bed trying to comfort him, very serious.It reminded Daniel of the father he met when he was a child. At that time, every time his father performed on stage, he was so engrossed. He stroked the hand of the violin as if he was holding some treasure.

And these hands are now on his head.

Li Jiahe said hard: "Dad will be with you, don't be afraid, even if you can't hear it, or you can only hear a little... you can do many other things, you can compose music, you can play the piano in your heart , like Beethoven..."

Daniel looked at him and suddenly grinned: "It's Beethoven again."

Li Jiahe didn't know what he said wrong, but he was very pleasantly surprised to see his eldest son react.He carefully looked at the boy in front of him, and said to him: "Yes, when you and Li Qi were young, didn't you like playing Beethoven's music very much? He can't hear it anymore, but he can still compose music. There are so many good works! "

Daniel slowly tried to speak: "But I can't do what he did."

Li Jiahe listened carefully.

Daniel said: "I can't be such a great person. I will be sad, feel unfair, and sometimes I can't control my emotions. Why did such a thing happen to me?"

Li Jiahe's eyes were red, and he murmured: "Yes, I'm sorry..."

Daniel shook his head and said, "It's not Dad's fault, nor is it mine."

Li Jiahe suddenly raised his head and saw that his shoulders were trembling. After waiting for so many years, he finally waited for this "Dad". Thinking of the stupid things he did when he was young, he felt more and more ashamed, his lips quivered and wanted to call him name, but a line of tears rolled down first.

Daniel touched his face, mouthed seriously, and said, "...It's just that I still need a little time to adapt, so give me some more time. I can't guarantee that I can do anything, but at least it's better than now."

Also better than you were back then.

Because I have reasons to be brave.

Daniel smiled at him, Li Jiahe gave him a hug, and patted him on the shoulder vigorously, the faint vibration of the voice came, even if he couldn't hear or see it, Daniel knew that it was his father calling his name.

He raised his hand and hugged his father carefully.

In the next moment, he buried his head on his father's shoulder and began to cry, like a child, grabbing his clothes with his fingers so hard that it wrinkled, and called "Dad" in a high and low voice...

He was afraid for a long time, until this moment, he allowed himself to show weakness.

After crying today, he won't cry anymore.

Daniel told himself this in his heart.

"There is a doctor, and he will hire the best doctor for you. I will also go to see your mother and discuss with her. As long as I can help, I will definitely come forward..." Li Jiahe told him intermittently.

Daniel nodded. By the time he walked out of the ward, Daniel's mood had stabilized a lot.

Li Jiahe carefully closed the door for him and walked out by himself.

He didn't go far when he met Qin Su who was coming from the other side of the corridor.

Qin Su came to deliver things to her son. Since Daniel's illness, she stopped all activities in her hands and only calmed down to take care of him. Although she didn't see him much, she still persisted every day. come over.

Qin Su obviously did not expect to meet Li Jiahe in such a sudden situation. She stood opposite and stopped, and Li Jiahe's pace also slowed down a lot. He walked over. Compared with Qin Su's brilliance, he obviously Some hunchbacks, people are much older, and the facial features can vaguely see the shadow of elegance in those days.

Li Jiahe stopped in front of her and said to her: "Do you have time? I think we need to talk."

Qin Su looked at him for a while, then realized that what he said was the same, nodded and said, "Okay."