Trainee

Li Qi looked at the piano expressionlessly, and waited for a while before speaking: "Xia Le, go out first."

Xia Le stood at the door, still looking at him, as if confirming.

Li Qi said, "You wait for me outside first."

Xia Le just nodded, but still looked at him: "I'm right outside the door, call me if you have something to do." After he finished speaking, he turned around and walked out, and when he was leaving, his eyes on Li Fang disappeared. The politeness in the past, and even the original goodwill have disappeared, and the indifference is not as good as that of a stranger who meets for the first time.

Li Fang has always thought highly of himself. He didn't look at Xia Le very seriously at first, but now he felt uncomfortable when someone looked at him with such eyes. He straightened up and slapped his palms on the piano. Not very good: "What's going on with you today, what state is this?! It's not as good as yesterday!"

He didn't lower his voice, and soon saw a figure passing by the closed door of the piano room, reflected on the square glass.Xia Le is tall, and standing outside the door is very conspicuous. As soon as he looks up, he can see half of the back of his head on the window outside the door, standing straight. did not leave.

Li Fang took off his glasses, and pinched the bridge of his nose with some headaches. He looked at Li Qi, and said something reproachful: "You are always like this? Do things so casually, and make friends so casually? Just like your friend just now." It seems that when you come in and interrupt others, how do you usually..."

"It's not like you are educated." Li Qi rebuked him.

"What did you say?" The man frowned and looked at him, as if he didn't expect Li Qi to refute, his expression was ugly.

"I've lived like this for years. Unlike you, I don't have so many rules, and I don't have much education. Let me think about it, brother, how have you lived for so many years? Get up every morning, eat three meals a day, and work hard Playing the piano, you repeat it over and over again under the supervision of your mother, you want to win prizes, you want to succeed..." Li Qi sat up straight on the piano bench, looked up at his elder brother, and smiled , but the smile didn't reach his eyes. "But since I was ten years old, what I think about when I open my eyes is how to fill my stomach."

Li Fang didn't say a word, and looked away a little stiffly.

"You have been away with Mom for so many years, have you ever thought of me in a day, an hour, or a short break? Thinking about how I survived with Dad."

"Li Qi..."

Li Qi didn't care about him, and continued talking on his own, with an indifferent tone: "Dad can't hear, he started drinking, and he doesn't care about anything when he's drunk. The first thing I learned was that crying is useless. I was hungry, so I learned to cook rice to fill my stomach. Later, my family had nothing, and my dad lost a lot of money. I started to learn Erhu when I was 12, and then I learned guitar by myself, and many more Things, the school has to participate in various competitions, and if you win the competition, you will get 300 yuan, so I worked hard to learn at that time... Oh, of course I can’t afford those musical instruments, they are all loaned to me by Xia Le, It's the person you drove out just now, maybe you don't even remember who he is?"

Li Qi snorted and laughed at himself. Li Fang opened his mouth but didn't say a word. He was a little embarrassed, but he clenched his hands but didn't know what to say.

"As for me, during the eight years of separation, I have changed a lot, and I have become a lot materialistic. I can't get rid of my dad, get rid of that family, and talk about my dreams casually. To be honest, I live very tired. "

Li Fang said stiffly: "At the beginning, you should have listened to your mother and went abroad for treatment. You won't end up participating in this kind of program now..."

Li Qi closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, his eyes were deep and dark, and he had put away the softness, "Then when family members are sick, is it right to abandon them and leave?"

The man glared at him displeased immediately: "What do you mean by that! She didn't do anything wrong, so why should Mom stay and ruin her life!"

"My life is ruined... now it's me who is ruining my life! It's my father! It's us!!" Li Qi landed his fist on the keys, and there was a piercing hum. He stood up and stared at him, his chest heaving violently .

"Stay a few more months, stay a year longer, what's the difference!" The man also became excited, and defended Ms. Qin Su word by word. "Do you know how much she worked hard for that quota? Do you know how much she has paid for today?! Since you don't want to fight, why can't she pursue her own life! You can't use your eyes to see Limit others, and you can't ask others to sacrifice for you and change for you..."

"Did I ask anyone! What I want is you, my mother! It's my relatives, my family, can't I!" Li Qi tugged at his collar, looking at him with red eyes. They are fraternal twins, they have not looked alike since childhood, but he has never felt so far away from each other's heart.

The man's Adam's apple rolled a few times, but his eyes were still cold and showed no signs of relaxation. He was obviously sticking to the idea in his heart and refused to give in half a step.

Li Qi and him just stared at each other without fighting, but they were hurt more than ever, he suddenly felt a little tired, let go of the big brother in front of him, and said in a hoarse voice: "I'm really glad to see you , I don't want to quarrel with you, but there are some things, I think we all have our own opinions, since we have different opinions, don't meet again in the future. You continue to play your piano, I sing my songs, I admit that I came here initially, I did it for the money, but not anymore."

The man straightened his collar, still glaring at Li Qi.

Li Qi said: "I have this opportunity today, I cherish it very much, even if you look down on it, I like it."

The man snorted, put his hand on the bow tie and sneered: "Then you can sing here for the rest of your life!"

"I just want to sing for the rest of my life, just like you like to play the piano. I like to sing. I don't think it's a shame to sing to anyone, and I don't think I've done anything wrong here." Li Qi looked at him , suddenly smiled, put his hands in his trouser pockets and said: "Brother, you may have forgotten what we said before, I will realize my dream, and I wish you to realize yours." The other party half-eyed, turned and left without hesitation.

The sound of the door being opened and then closed resounded in my ears. The man who was still in the piano room was wearing a suit, but he couldn't stand as confidently as when he first came. The music score fell to the ground fiercely and growled a few times angrily.

As soon as Li Qi came out, Xia Le saw it immediately. He walked over in a few steps, looked him over carefully and said, "How is it, are you okay? Did the elder brother make a move? Did it hurt you?"

"No, just chat for a while." Li Qi shook his head and led him away.

Xia Le didn't dare to say anything, is this still called chatting?He could smell the smell of gunpowder outside, and wished he could demolish the house.But he didn't dare to ask, Li Qi obviously looked in a bad mood, and he didn't rush to find excitement anymore.

He sent Li Qi all the way back to the dormitory, Li Qi didn't eat at night, Xia Le ran to open a small stove to get some food, and when he trotted to bring it to him while it was hot, he happened to see Li Qi soaking his hands in the sink Soak in cold water.

"What's the matter, this is..." Xia Le put down the food, hurried over to support him, and when he reached out to touch Li Qi's back, he realized that the clothes on his back were soaked with sweat.

Xia Le's eyes were red: "No, I have to find him! Brother is too much, he knows your hand..."

Li Qi said: "Stop talking."

"But your hand..."

"It can't be done," Li Qi trembled and stretched his hand into the pool again. The cold water made his fingers feel more comfortable. He lowered his eyes and said, "It's already like this, and it can't be any worse. .”

"Brother seems to be a different person now. He loved you so much when he was a child, why doesn't he love you now? At that time, he was not as good at playing as you, and you didn't bother him so much. Why should he!" Xia Xia Le is still complaining for him.

Li Qi smiled, turned to look at him, raised his eyes a little: "Now he is not as good as you."

Xia Le didn't understand, looked at him and said, "Huh?"

Li Qi leaned over, put his forehead on his shoulder and whispered: "Big brother was very powerful at the beginning, but now, he is in my heart, even half of Xia Le can't compare to him."

Xia Le reached out to wrap his arms around his shoulders, hugged him tightly, and grinned, but it was not much better than crying. He loved Li Qi so much, and Li Xiaoqi could say a soft word, which would make him happy For several months, this is the second time in a week that he has shown weakness. Since the day he carried him back to the dormitory, Li Qi has been unable to hold on, right?That person, after all, is the eldest brother.

"When I saw my eldest brother this time, I always felt a little strange. Maybe I haven't seen him for too many years, and it seems that I'm not that close." Xia Le hugged him for a while, and said dryly.

Li Qi smiled and said, "When did he get close to you?"

Xia Le also laughed: "Yes, I have been afraid of him since I was a child."

Xia Le wanted to stay and take care of Li Qi, but was driven back by Li Qi. The fourth week of evaluation was about to start. This evaluation is very important. If you don't rest well at night, it will affect your performance the next day.

After Xia Le left, Li Qi also lay down to rest.

It's just that he didn't sleep well and had a nightmare all night.

The dreams were all about the piano, and about his parents, like his memory, but also like another person's.

It was a person who was closely connected with him by blood. Their young figures overlapped, and they were all sitting on the piano bench, practicing desperately, not daring to run or cry.

He felt pain in his fingers and wrist, his entire right hand was about to be broken and he couldn't lift it up again, but he still tried his best to support it, not daring to let go.

His parents were still arguing, and no one looked at him, but when he stopped, they turned around and looked at him quietly together, as if the root of all the mistakes came from his stopped hands and silent keys...

He played the piano all night, unable to make a sound due to pain and exhaustion.

That feeling was like swimming in the ocean, endless, never seeing a way out, and finally exhausted to the point where he couldn't breathe smoothly, he grabbed a piece of driftwood desperately, and squeezed it tightly with all his strength...

The dream woke up quickly, and Li Qi opened his eyes, panting heavily, and it took him a while to recover.Someone beside him was patting him on the back, he blinked his eyes, looked up, but it was Daniel, and he was holding Daniel's arm.

Daniel looked at him worriedly and said, "Are you okay?"

Li Qi felt that his face was wet and realized that he was crying. He let go of Daniel, covered his eyes with his hand in embarrassment, and said in a hoarse voice, "It's okay."

Daniel got up to leave, and then Li Qi heard voices from the small kitchen, making noises.Soon Daniel came back again, this time he brought a glass of water and helped Li Qi sit up, and said, "You seem to have a fever, get up and take some medicine."

Li Qi took the medicine and thanked him.

Daniel smiled and said, "Why are you being polite to me?"

The effect of the medicine came on very quickly, and Li Qi was indeed tired for too long, and soon fell into a drowsy sleep again.

Sitting beside his bed, Daniel reached out to hold his hand, touched the scar on Li Qi's right knuckle, and whispered, "I'm sorry."

Daniel sat by the bed and never left, taking care of Li Qi carefully, not knowing if someone was there to take care of him, Li Qi's dreams in the second half of the night gradually became less cold, and his frowning brows gradually relaxed a little.

The dream is still that childhood, but it is not completely without happy things.

He dreamed of himself before he was ten years old.

The little boy stood on the crude "stage" built with a few building blocks, showing his small broken teeth that were changing teeth without any scruples, and singing loudly.

Next to him, a boy wearing the same clothes as him was playing the piano, his upturned feet couldn’t even reach the ground, he was watching him while playing the piano, and he couldn’t wait to applaud him for the first time after he finished singing. He was taller and smaller than the curly-haired guy next to him Boys are much faster.The boy looked at him with pride and complacency in his eyes and said: "Xiao Qi sings so well, he will definitely be a singer in the future!"

The young him shrugged his nose and said loudly: "I want to be a star, the kind that everyone can see, don't just wear a tuxedo, but wear a lot of beautiful clothes!"

The little boy on the opposite side jumped down from the piano bench, ran over a few steps, took his hand, and said with a smile: "Okay, then I'll be with you, let's just form a group, wear the same clothes, use the same Microphone~ Stand there and let others guess who we are, haha!"

The curly-haired little boy who was a little taller and beautiful beside him protested in a low voice: "But my mother said that you don't look alike, I can recognize you right away..." Before he finished speaking, he was caught by the domineering little boy. Beat it up, even though they wear the same little clothes as Li Qi and have the same hair, their appearance and personality are completely different, they shouted "Xia Le, shut up" while beating...

The little curly-haired Xia Le ran around covering his head, begging for mercy loudly, his brother laughed, and Li Qi also laughed out loud.

……

Daniel touched Li Qi's forehead, knowing that he no longer had a fever, he was a little relieved.Li Qi took the medicine and fell into a deep sleep. Daniel stared at him for a while, then smiled suddenly, and stretched out his hand to tuck his feet in. "Sleep a little longer, I'll go out, and I'll be back soon."

He didn't care whether Li Qi could hear him or not, he bid him farewell in a low voice, and then got up to leave.

At the same time, Xia Le also quietly got up from the dormitory and walked out slowly. He put on a hat, deliberately lowered the brim of the hat, bowed his body and quickly left the dormitory building. When he reached the outer courtyard, he stretched out his hand to hail a taxi. He climbed up and gave an address in a low voice.

It was the address that Li Qi mentioned when he was called out by Li Fang for the first time. Xia Le followed him once, and he remembered that address clearly.Li Qi was bullied like this, Li Qi could bear it, but he couldn't swallow it!