No.70 days

On the way to Chongqing, Yang Shuyi was depressed all the time, and seemed to have something bothering him, but he didn't say anything, and Shao Wu couldn't ask.At noon, Yang Shuyi fell asleep sitting up, with his head leaning against the car window just like when he came here.Shao Wu thought to himself, why does this person lean against the glass every time?Can't you just lean on his shoulder?

The sun was shining brightly outside the window, causing Yang Shuyi to frown slightly in his sleep, looking very restless.Shao Wu stretched out his hand, and the palm of his hand was directly above Yang Shuyi's eyes.He thought that if he was more frank, he would be able to put Yang Shuyi's head on his shoulders, and he wouldn't have to raise his hands so sorely and tiredly.

The sunlight coated Yang Shuyi's wheat-colored skin with a layer of bright gold, while the shadow of Shao Wu's palm enveloped Yang Shuyi's eyes, and at the junction of light and dark were his clean and straight eyebrows.His arm was sore, Shao Wu retracted it, rested for a few minutes, and then raised it again.

When the bus drove into Shapingba Bus Station, the other passengers got up to get their luggage, or shouted loudly "here we are" and "here we are", Yang Shuyi's eyelids trembled, and Shao Wu quickly withdrew his hand.

Yang Shuyi opened his eyes: "Are you here?"

"Here we are," Shao Wu said, "Let's go."

The two got up and got out of the car.

Shao Wu was glad that he was wearing a pair of loose sports shorts, and also thanked that the bus station was right next to the bus station.He went from Yang Shuyi falling asleep to Yang Shuyi waking up, and from Yang Shuyi waking up until they got on the bus separately.He walked the hundreds of meters from the bus station to the bus station with his body bent.

Fortunately, Yang Shuyi didn't notice it.

Shao Wu felt that he was a bit exaggerated, and couldn't figure out how he could be so hard for so long, and Yang Shuyi didn't do anything - he couldn't help but look at his face, and for a few minutes he almost bowed his head and kissed it, it was too close, it was too close As he got closer, even the fine lines on Yang Shuyi's lips could be clearly seen.

Fortunately, I still endured it.When it comes to estrus, it stops - Yang Shuyi likes girls.

After May Day, it's almost the end of the term.In the second semester of his sophomore year, there were six major courses, and there was also an exam for the minor geography, so Shao Wu was very busy.On May [-]th, Shao Wu found time to go to Southwest University to look for specimens and also Yang Shuyi.It's a pity that Yang Shuyi was busier than him during this time, the final of the urban planning competition was about to be held, he and his classmates spent every day in the study room, and occasionally went out to get cards for people to exchange packages.

Shao Wu didn't see Yang Shuyi, and only had a meal with Zhu Jingjing.Two days later, it will be May NO.12, Shao Wu's 20th birthday.This morning, Zhu Jingjing sent a text message to wish him a happy birthday, and her mother called and said, Shaowu is 20 years old.But Dad didn't say anything, and directly transferred 800 yuan to his bank card.

After class at noon, Shao Wu went to the school supermarket to buy a big bag of snacks, and went back to the dormitory to share with his roommates. Ning Xiao tore open the bag of potato chips, and said with a smile, "Do you like Copic so much?"

Shao Wu was chewing potato chips, and he clicked and wiped the floor with a "hmm".

"Hey, I think potatoes are better than this," another roommate said, "I'll buy you a pack this afternoon and try it."

Ning Xiao leaned over, gently hugged Shao Wu's shoulders, and asked in a low voice, "Shall we go out to play tonight? Birthday?"

"I have a class on Friday—"

"It's your 20th birthday," Ning Xiao interrupted Shao Wu, "You don't want to go to self-study, do you? Shao Wu, think about it, at 20 years old, the next 30th birthday will be [-] years old. Everyone is too old to catch a winner, so what else is there to play?"

Shao Wu: "..."

"Let's go now, it just so happens that Du Si and the others are going today."

Shao Wu was silent for a moment, then said in a low voice, "That's fine."

"Right," Ning Xiao scratched Shao Wu's chin with his index finger, "dress up."

There was only one class in the afternoon. After class, Shao Wu went back to the dormitory, took a shower, and changed into a large white T-shirt, sky blue overalls jeans, and Adidas sneakers.When Ning Xiao walked into the dormitory, Shao Wu had just blow-dried his hair. His hair was very rich black, and he had just cut it not long ago. It looked very refreshing.

"Okay——" Ning Xiao whistled, and walked around Shaowu, "So you took this route."

Shao Wu was a little embarrassed by what he said: "I wear it casually."

"Come on, I think you're just going to fish for a kid." Ning Xiao squeezed the eyebrow pencil, and leaned in front of the mirror to outline his eyebrows carefully, "To be honest, you should be careful when you get there, especially when others The wine given, don’t drink casually, some are drugged.”

Shao Wu clicked his tongue: "So—dangerous?"

"It's okay, they're all men, so they play more openly."

This is Shao Wu's first time going to a gay bar, and hearing Ning Xiao say this, he backs down a bit.But since he has already agreed to Ning Xiao, it is not easy to run away.

After casually eating a few soup dumplings for dinner, Ning Xiao led Shao Wu to meet the people from the Academy of Fine Arts at the gate of the school.Shao Wu had known for a long time that there were many comrades in the Academy of Fine Arts, but he did not expect there to be so many—seven or eight boys walked towards them from a distance, each of them was well-dressed, the leader was Du Si, petite, Wearing a pair of bright yellow overalls, her lips are abnormally red, probably wearing lipstick.

"Wow, do you want to be so exaggerated?" Ning Xiao tugged at Du Si's overalls, "It's too coquettish."

Du Si rolled his eyes: "Aren't you coquettish? You put on such heavy makeup."

"Let's go, let's go," Ning Xiao reached out to stop a taxi, "We have to take two."

Shao Wu, Ning Xiao, Du Si and two other boys took the same taxi with the air conditioner turned on and the windows closed. Only then did Shao Wu smell the perfume on their bodies, which smelled like roses and It smells like sandalwood, I don't know who it is.Shao Wu sat in the passenger seat and listened to them chatting in the back seat.

Ning Xiao asked, "Why is he here?"

"I don't know where the strings are wrong, but he suddenly said that he would come with us," Du Si said with a smile, "Maybe the godfather is on a business trip."

The boy in a tight low-necked T-shirt said: "He's been acting weird these past two days, living in a dormitory."

"It's over," Du Si laughed, "I won't be really kicked by my godfather."

"No way?" Another boy wearing a skull necklace shook his head and said, "It's been so many years since I've been healed, so let's just leave..."

"Those old things, who knows, the last time we went back, one of them chased me and texted me every day, and said he bought me clothes and asked me out for dinner... but I hung it up for a few days and disappeared. gone."

"I. Fuck, what else? Why didn't you tell us..."

The four boys chatted on twitter, and Shao Wu quickly glanced at the driver.

The driver was a middle-aged man, looking ahead with his usual expression.

Shao Wu secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

This situation made him a little embarrassed - why did they talk about these things so unscrupulously in front of strangers?Or is it just because you are a stranger that you are unscrupulous?Shao Wu didn't know if he was being too hypocritical.

When he finally arrived at Guanyin Bridge, Shao Wu took the initiative to pay the bill, and he didn't want two yuan in change. He hurriedly opened the car door, stepped out, and almost fled.

Another taxi also arrived, and four boys got out. Du Si asked, "Where are the others?"

"I didn't want to squeeze with us, so I took a taxi alone." One of the boys put his hands in his pockets and replied lazily.

As soon as he finished speaking, another taxi drove up, stopped, and the door was opened.

The one who came out was a very tall boy, dressed in black and white trousers, with long wine red hair tied into a ponytail, his expression was as cold as expressionless.

Shao Wu realized that the "he" they were discussing in the car just now must be the one in front of him.Shao Wu had heard of this person a long time ago, but he had only met him once from a distance. He majored in animation production and was raised by an old man since high school...

"Everyone is here," Du Silang said, "Let's go."

"Slow Voice" opened on a bar street, which is not a spacious street, and the bars on the street are not big, on the second floor, with narrow gates, and there are colorful beams of light flashing back and forth at the door. Dancing spots of light were cast on the ground.

From the outside, the decoration of "Slow Voice" is very ordinary, with a brick structure, a bit of the feeling of the Republic of China, not even the colorful lights, just a screen-like board at the door, with italics on it The word "slow voice".

But it's different when you walk in the door.

The first floor of the bar is a large dance floor, and there are some scattered seats beside the dance floor, while the second floor is all booths, including doubles and fours.It was around eight o'clock in the evening, and the dance floor was already full of people—the first time Shao Wu saw so many men huddled together shaking their bodies, the light beams sprinkled on them like water, accompanied by the rhythm of electronic music, One after another.

A group of people scattered, some went upstairs to drink, Du Si and Ning Xiao rushed into the dance floor with a few boys, at first Shao Wu could see them, but after a while, they couldn't find them no matter how hard they looked.

Shao Wu didn't want to drink or dance, so he had to sit on a high stool next to the dance floor.Most of the men around were in pairs, and one or two singles winked at him frequently, but he turned his head away.

After sitting for a while, Shao Wu heard the sound of "tsk tsk" from behind, mixed with eager gasps. Shao Wu knew that someone was kissing, and the two men kissed in public, but here, no one cared.The whole bar was roaring like a pot of boiling water, and they were hot, tiny bubbles.

Is this the 20th birthday?Shao Wu felt like a snail that lost its shell, being thrown into this strange world with fear.

A cold hand rested on Shao Wu's shoulder, and he almost fell off the stool in a jerk, but was supported by that person again.

It was him.

"Aren't you dancing?" His voice was not as indifferent as his appearance, it was low and gentle, "I see you have been sitting here for a long time."

"I... don't want to jump."

"I don't want to either," he nodded, "Is your name Shao Wu?"

"Ah."

"My name is Chen Yimang."

"Oh, you... hello."

Chen Yimang finally raised the corners of his mouth and smiled: "One by one, one at a time."

"Dreamless?" Shao Wu thought, this word is quite rare in names.

"As long as a reed is like, Ling Wanqing is at a loss."

"Ah?" Shao Wu was stunned for a moment, and realized that Chen Yimang was explaining the origin of his name, "Oh...it sounds good."

Chen Yimang sat down beside Shao Wu: "Don't you usually come out to play?"

"Yes, this is... my first time here."

Chen Yimang turned his face and looked at Shao Wu, "Why did you come?" When he got closer, Shao Wu found that he had black and white eyes with a thin single eyelid.

Shao Wu replied honestly: "Because today is my birthday."

"Today?" Chen Yimang paused, "Today is the third anniversary of May 5."

"Ah."

"Your birthday is not very good."

"Well," Shao Wu looked down at his hands, "I know."

"But who cares, it's birthday." Chen Yimang suddenly put his arms around Shao Wu's shoulders, "Do you want to go out to get some air? It's very stuffy here."

"……it is good."

So the two walked out of the bar, hot and humid air rushed in, Shao Wu sneezed, feeling his nose itchy.

"Why are you acting like a child?" Chen Yimang took out a pack of napkins from his trouser pocket, "Here."

"Hey...thank you."

Opposite "Slow Voice" is a hot pot restaurant, and there are hot pot restaurants on Bar Street, which is very normal in Chongqing.Shao Wu blew his nose, threw the paper into the trash can, and Chen Yimang laughed again: "How old are you?"

"Twenty today."

"You kind of look like my brother, I mean...a real brother."

Shao Wu: "..."

After a few seconds, both of them laughed at the same time.Under the cover of the night, Chen Yimang's wine-red long hair is not very conspicuous anymore, he smiled so much that he bent his eyes, and put his arm on Shao Wu's shoulder: "I was just thinking when I saw you, what about Du Si, the dog day?" Bring junior high school students here, something."

Shao Wu also laughed: "Do I look stupid?"

"It's not stupid, it's just too honest. At first glance, it's not like us."

Shao Wu tugged at his baggy overalls: "I thought it would stand out like this, but it turns out..."

Chen Yimang: "What happened?"

Shao Wu suddenly stopped talking, and stared straight at the hot pot restaurant opposite.

Chen Yimang followed Shao Wu to look over, and saw a few young people standing at the door of the hotpot restaurant. Looking carefully, they were two men and two women. One of them was a boy with a schoolbag on his back, probably also a student.At this time, a tall, thin girl with short hair held the hand of the boy carrying a schoolbag, and another man and a woman were also lovers, and the girl affectionately held the boy's arm.

The two couples walked down the steps of the hot pot restaurant, walking leisurely and gradually walking away.The bar street was too noisy, Chen Yimang and Shao Wu couldn't hear their voices clearly, but they could see the smiles on the faces of the two girls and the gentle eyes of the boys.

Until their backs disappeared completely, Chen Yimang crossed his arms and said clearly, "You know him?"

Shao Wu barely noticed and nodded.

"I've seen this kind of thing a lot," he sighed softly, "Why do you say you like straight men? It's purely looking for death. People like us can only find the same kind, do you understand?"

Shao Wu still stared at the direction they left, his eyes seemed to freeze.

"Really, Shao Wu," Chen Yimang raised his hand, and gently wiped away the tears on Shao Wu's cheeks, "It's meaningless to like straight men... Do you want to try it with me?"