my little deskmate

Chapter 37 Communication

He felt that with Bei Juncheng's departure, there would be something that he couldn't predict and also the last thing he wanted to see.

Bei Juncheng looked at his tender fingers, and said calmly, "Let go."

Not only did Xu Yixing not let go, but he even clenched his hand even tighter.

He looked panic-stricken, his big round eyes were full of regret, he stammered, "I really didn't mean it just now, Bei Juncheng, don't leave, I really didn't mean it...I didn't..."

Why is his mouth so stupid!

It would be great if he could speak well, and he wouldn't make Bei Juncheng so angry!

Bei Juncheng said, "I know you didn't do it on purpose, you didn't do it on purpose, okay, I get it, can you let go?"

Xu Yixing just didn't let go, his fingers turned white with tension.

Bei Juncheng chuckled softly, and said, "I don't care what else you want."

Xu Yixing looked at the unfamiliar Bei Juncheng, and felt more and more uncomfortable, as if something quickly dissipated from his heart, making him feel cold all over his body, and murmured, "Then don't leave, okay?"

Bei Juncheng just looked at Xu Yixing like this, Xu Yixing held his breath with those cold eyes.

It’s so cold!

it's too cold!He shivered from the cold.

Xu Yixing bit his lower lip, water vapor involuntarily filled his eye sockets, his heart twitched, he whispered aggrieved in a nasal voice, "What do you want me to do, so you don't get angry, once you get angry, I won't be angry." I know what to do, I am a stupid person, I am stupid, I can't say anything, and I can't figure out what you think, I only know that after you leave here, you probably won't talk to me in the future, I don't want to let you go, and I don't want you to go. I will listen to you, okay? I will listen to you. I will do whatever you ask me to do, as long as you don't get angry with me..."

As he spoke, his tears flowed down his cheeks to his chin, and then to the ground. He looked at Bei Juncheng helplessly.

Bei Juncheng stood there quietly, indifferent.

Bei Juncheng who doesn't care about Xu Yixing will become very indifferent, like the stars in the sky, out of reach.

But Xu Yixing couldn't live without Bei Juncheng, he cared about him very much!

Xu Yixing blamed himself in his heart, wishing he could slap himself, if he hadn't said those words, Bei Juncheng wouldn't be what it is now.

He hoped that time could turn back time and return to that moment just now. He would do whatever he was asked to do, as long as he could return to the previous Bei Juncheng.

The hole in Xu Yixing's heart was constantly leaking air, and he pulled his arms around his waist, buried his face on his shoulder, and cried, "I've said so, why don't you What do you want me to do, I really didn't mean it, I know you treat me well, so I listen to you, I'm just too stupid to speak, don't do this, I'd rather you scold me, you scold me I, what's wrong, you teach me, or you beat me up, don't treat me so coldly, I am willing, I really am willing, I am not wronged, brother... Brother Cheng... I am willing to call you of."

Probably because he was too terrified and uncomfortable, he began to sob.

There was a person reading a book in the bookcase next to him, and when he heard the movement, he turned to look at them.

Bei Juncheng said, "Don't cry."

Xu Yixing's body trembled slightly, and the crying disappeared, but the person leaning on his body was still trembling, apparently crying silently.

"You said that as long as I don't hide or lie to you, you won't ignore me. I didn't lie to you, and I didn't hide from you. Really..."

Bei Juncheng's clothes were soaked, warm tears irritated his skin, he touched down with his hand, and touched Xu Yixing's soft hair behind him.

Xu Yixing hugged him even tighter.

Bei Juncheng said, "Get up, pick up the book."

The person on the back didn't move.

"Didn't you just say to listen to me?" Bei Juncheng said.

Only then did the person on the back slowly stand up, with messy tears on his beautiful face, he squatted down slowly, picked up the book and hugged it in his arms, and then squatted there without moving.

His heart hurts so much...

Bei Juncheng looked at the little soft lump at his feet, his thin back trembling slightly, pitifully.

Bei Juncheng also bent his knees and squatted down, raised his head, took out a tissue and wiped it gently.

But this person seems to be made of water. After wiping the old one, a new one came out.

A steady stream of crystal clear teardrops emerged from the sockets of the eyes.

"Told you not to cry."

The other party sobbed, his red eyes were filled with resentment, and he said, "It's not all because of you."

The tears flowed down without money, Bei Juncheng frowned, feeling uncomfortable in his heart, took out another piece of paper to wipe, and said stiffly, "Don't cry."

Xu Yixing was even more aggrieved, choked up, and said, "I'm already like this, and you still beat me, what do you want from me?"

Bei Juncheng's furrowed brows could pinch a fly to death, as if complaining but also as pity, he said, "Why are you crying so much, you can't finish it."

Xu Yixing raised his eyes and sniffed fiercely, probably because he knew that the previous Bei Juncheng had returned, so he became extremely courageous, and said, "Isn't it possible? There are more, you haven't seen them yet." !"

Bei Juncheng sighed secretly, pulled him to sit on the small bench, squatted down in front of him, and said slowly, "Do you know why I'm angry?"

Mentioning this, Xu Yixing flinched slightly, shook his head a little scared and said, "Isn't it because I didn't call you brother?"

"Not exactly," Bei Juncheng said quietly, "As soon as you heard that I asked you to call me brother, you were unwilling in every possible way, evading left and right, even looking for reasons on me, digging my painful feet, now it's me I am short, if I am not short, will the next one be my poor grades, and the next one will be my bad personality, is it necessary to find so many reasons for one title?"

"But I just want to think of you asking me to call you brother, if other people are the same..."

"Am I someone else? Am I just like everyone else in your heart?"

Xu Yixing twisted his hands into twists and shook his head quickly.

Bei Juncheng is of course different from others, and still very different.

"Then why do you compare me with others? Is it interesting?" Bei Juncheng was also very sad. He had seen Xu Yixing's kindness to everyone, but he had become "others" too!

Bei Juncheng is not the only one in Xu Yixing's heart!

Bei Juncheng couldn't stand it!

Xu Yixing's chest heaved up and down, like a confused and trapped animal.

That's right, why did he compare Bei Juncheng with others?

"How do I treat you, you don't know? But you compare others with me, what do you think I will think? I will also feel uncomfortable, and I will also wonder whether what I did to you before is not worth it; if there is One day, another person appeared beside me, I treated him better, and I compared you with him, would you like it? Or suddenly I didn’t treat you like this, and treated you like everyone else, would you like it?”

Xu Yixing quickly shook his head and said, "I don't want to! I really don't want to!"

As long as he thought that Bei Juncheng might treat another person better than him, he would feel very uncomfortable.

Bei Juncheng said, "So I'm the same, can't you feel the care I take for you? Even my own brother is not an exaggeration, right? You don't even want to call me brother, and you have to find out all kinds of ridiculous things. why don’t I feel bad? Why do I still treat you so well?”

Xu Yixing looked at Bei Juncheng anxiously, and said anxiously, "I really didn't do it on purpose."

"It's okay if it was intentional," Bei Juncheng said indifferently, "it's often the unintentional actions and words that can truly reflect your intentions."

Xu Yixing couldn't speak at all, he thought why Bei Juncheng could speak so well, he couldn't even refute a word, his speech was completely clumsy.

If Song Anping was present, he would definitely shake his head secretly and sigh, "Xu Yixing, you are completely trapped by Bei Juncheng."

Xu Yixing looked at him and asked cautiously, "Then are you still angry?"

"Angry with you? Is it because I am angry with myself? I am angry with myself beyond my control."

Xu Yixing said pitifully, "But I am willing, really!"

Bei Juncheng shook his head and said, "No, I don't want you to force me."

Xu Yixing raised his eyes and was about to say something when Bei Juncheng stopped him.

Bei Juncheng narrowed his eyes slightly, and said meaningfully, "One day, I will make you call that name willingly."

For some reason, seeing Bei Juncheng like this, Xu Yixing shuddered fiercely in his heart.

Bei Juncheng patted his head and helped him tidy up his thick black hair. When he was about to stand up, Xu Yixing held his hand tightly, leaned his head on his knee, and gently Said softly, "Bei Juncheng."

That voice was as fragile as fragile glass.

"Ok?"

"You...can you stop being like just now, as if you were about to leave me and leave me behind? I'm really scared," Xu Yixing was still very uneasy, as long as he thought of Bei Juncheng leaving alone, his fingertips would twitch Started to tremble slightly, and said, "I'm afraid you'll leave like this. If I'm doing something wrong, you can teach me slowly, and you can scold me, just don't turn around and leave... okay... I'm really scared ..."

Bei Juncheng turned his head and held his hand, and said, "I was out of breath just now, I want to leave and have a quiet time."

Xu Yixing and Bei Juncheng looked at each other, Xu Yixing's fragile appearance was very distressing, he murmured, "You are the first friend I met in high school, and you are also the best person to me. Sometimes, I even feel that there is no one who treats me like you. When I was studying, they all disliked me for being coquettish and not playing with them. Once you ignore me, I will be very scared... ...It's scary...so Bei Juncheng...Don't ignore me in the future? You can scold me whatever you want, really! I won't care! "

Bei Juncheng felt sore and hurt, and said, "You don't care if you scold you, why should I scold you?"

Xu Yixing's eyes widened, and he stammered, "Then you... just... just... beat me up..."

Bei Juncheng looked at his small body and said amusedly, "I'm afraid you'll go to the hospital, and if I beat you, my hand hurts."

Xu Yixing was extremely depressed, he didn't know what to say.

Bei Juncheng said again, "And I just wanted to calm down just now, if I really don't want to talk to you, you won't be able to see me now."

Xu Yixing looked at Bei Juncheng in disbelief, does this count as ignoring him?So what should we do?

"I'm really afraid of you like this." Xu Yixing said aggrievedly, "I always feel that you will leave me like this."

Bei Juncheng sighed warmly, "It won't happen in the future...I will have a good talk with you..."

This little squeamish... don't scare him, she really thinks she is HELLOKITTY.

But it's not good to be scared too much, it's just horizontal or vertical, but he is indeed angry, he is not the only one in Xu Yixing's heart!hateful!

Xu Yixing's eyelids were still slightly red. He took out a tissue from Bei Juncheng's pocket, wiped his nose, and his nose was also red. His eyes were soft, looking at him with anticipation, and said, "Then It's settled, no matter how angry you are in the future, you can't ignore me, you can tell me well, I'm easy to be talked about."

Bei Juncheng looked up at the sky, and said helplessly, "Got it."

How could he feel that the one who was determined was himself!

Xu Yixing is like this, he just forgets to eat but not to fight. One moment he was crying like hell, and the next moment he was alive and kicking again.

It is simply helpless.

So when Bei Juncheng was choosing books, there was always a person chattering in a low voice behind him.

"I won't mention age anymore. Four months old...the difference is huge. How old are Song Anping and Miao Xiuran? Will they be older than us..."

"You just said that I would call you willingly, what are you going to do?"

"Bei Juncheng, do you take care of me like a younger brother? But you are only four months older than me...and how can you be so mature? It's strange..."

"Bei Juncheng, I'm the only child in my family. Is there one in your family? How did your parents raise you? What does your family do?"

"Why don't you talk? Bei Juncheng, don't you want to talk to me?"

Bei Juncheng turned his head and said, "Shut up."

Xu Yixing closed his mouth and hummed, sitting on the stool boredly staring at Bei Juncheng's back.

After 5 minutes, he was unwilling to be lonely and said, "Have you finished the selection?"

"No."

Xu Yixing fell on his back and exclaimed, "I haven't finished the selection yet? You have already selected almost 7 books, how long will you have to choose?"

"not enough."

Xu Yixing rested his chin on the book on his knees, as if chanting, "How long... how long... how long..."

Several veins appeared on Bei Juncheng's forehead.

Xu Yixing suddenly let out a long sigh, and said, "Why do I feel that you are the man who has made great achievements outside, but I myself have become a boudoir and resentful woman?"

The book in Bei Juncheng's hand almost fell to the ground.

What a messy description!

After waiting for another hour, Bei Juncheng picked up the book and paid for it.

The boss asked in surprise, "Buying so many books?"

Bei Juncheng nodded calmly, and took out his wallet and mobile phone from his pocket.

Xu Yixing asked in surprise, "You also have a mobile phone?"

Bei Juncheng handed him the phone and said, "I always have it."

Xu Yixing played with the phone fondly and said, "Then why haven't I seen it?"

"It's been in the drawer all the time, there's no need to take it out." Bei Juncheng took out four hundred-yuan bills and handed them to the auntie.

Xu Yixing suddenly said, "Hey, I'll pay!"

He fumbled in his pocket for a long time, and when he took it out, his aunt had already given Bei Juncheng the change.

The aunt enthusiastically took out the bag to help them pack the books, and said, "You bought a lot, and I will give you a 8% discount. Remember to bring your classmates over to have a look."

Xu Yixing nodded, but vowed in his heart that he would never come to this bookstore that made him feel ashamed again!

Bei Juncheng asked suddenly, "Boss, do you know where there is a cassette recorder nearby?"

Only then did Xu Yixing realize that he needed to buy a tape recorder!

The chubby aunt pointed to the right and said, "Go ahead, there is a store in front that sells tape recorders and tapes, you can go and have a look."

It was already dark outside, the dim street lights were on, the bright shops were full of people coming and going, and the night wind was blowing on people, making them comfortable and cool.

Xu Yixing looked at the thick bundle of books and asked, "Are you tired?"

"Otherwise will you carry it for me?"

Xu Yixing couldn't hold it with both hands before, this big pile is too heavy, okay...

He suggested, "Shall we be half alone?"

Bei Juncheng smiled, looked at his small body, and said, "I'll be fine by myself. I'll take your own tape recorder later, and take it by yourself."

Tape recorders are easy to find.

The two walked in, and a middle-aged man was sitting at the counter playing with the computer. Inside the counter were various tape recorders, and outside the counter were audio tapes and DVDs.

The middle-aged man looked at them and asked, "What do you want to buy?"

Bei Juncheng put the book on the stool next to him, and said straight to the point, "The tape recorder, the one that can play tapes, master, the sound should be louder."

The middle-aged man thought for a while and asked, "What's the model? Big or small?"

"Smaller." Xu Yixing said.

The middle-aged man took out a silver book-sized tape recorder from the counter, which was very beautiful. He introduced, "How about this? It can play and record, and read while playing, and it doesn't get stuck. The effect is very good. , some students like to use it.”

He took a tape and put it in, fiddled with it, and there were clear English words in it.

Bei Juncheng listened carefully and asked, "Can the voice be louder?"

The man pressed it again and said, "This is the biggest."

Bei Juncheng shook his head and said, "It's not appropriate, the voice is still low."

Xu Yixing looked left, right, up and down curiously, which was completely different from Bei Juncheng's serious look.

The man asked curiously, "The sound is still low? Where are you going to put it?"

Bei Juncheng said, "Training room."

Xu Yixing watched a series of pop music with glowing eyes.

Wow! 1 reasons, wolves fall in love with sheep, don't want to grow up, Cao Cao...and dancers, hair like snow...what to do, everyone wants it!

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