my little deskmate

Chapter 47 Summation

At 6 o'clock in the morning, there was a thick layer of fog, and there was a vast expanse of whiteness three meters away.

Xu Yixing had never gone out so early before, and he had never encountered such a ghostly weather in No. [-] Middle School.

Bei Juncheng had to run every morning, he didn't know where Bei Juncheng ran in the morning, but it didn't hinder him from looking for it.

Only then did he realize that there were quite a few people getting up so early. The first group of people in the cafeteria were eating, and there were many people reciting English in front of the library and by the grove. There were also some people jogging in the morning, full of vitality. exuberant.

Xu Yixing searched along the playground. On the other side of the large circular playground, he vaguely saw a few people jogging in the morning through the white mist. He was not sure if there was Bei Juncheng in it.

So he stood under a tree and quietly waited for these people to come back.

The first one is not...

Neither is the second...

The third one was wearing a close-fitting black sweatshirt and earphones with a stern face. It was Bei Juncheng!

Xu Yixing originally wanted to call him, but when he saw his face, he became frightened. The word Bei Juncheng was stuck in his throat, and he couldn't even vomit it out. He could only watch Bei Juncheng run past him. .

Xu Yixing was very disappointed and depressed, it was obviously not his fault, why was he still so afraid of Bei Juncheng?He didn't even dare to go up and call him.

Squatting under a tree, picking the bark.

Suffering from oneself.

"What are you doing here?" A cold voice sounded behind him.

When Xu Yixing heard the voice, his whole body froze.

Bei Juncheng had indeed missed it at the time, but after glancing at it from the corner of his eyes, the more he thought about it, the more he felt that the figure beside the tree was very familiar, so he turned back.

At first glance, it was indeed Xu Yixing.

Obviously, Xu Yixing came to look for him, otherwise he wouldn't have gotten up so early and sneaked over to the playground.

There was an inexplicable feeling in Bei Juncheng's heart.

With a small body, the person who used to stay in bed and couldn't wake up, would run over to him early in the morning...

Xu Yixing stood up slowly, looked at the sweat on his temples and eyebrows, and remained silent.

Bei Juncheng was a little impatient, and said simply, "If you don't speak, I will leave."

Xu Yixing hurriedly said, "Don't leave, okay, let's have a good talk."

"Didn't you say you didn't want to talk to me yesterday?" Bei Juncheng's brows were as sharp as a knife, and he asked with a smile, "Why did you change your mind today? You change your mind so quickly, it will change every now and then , which one is your real thought?"

Compared with Bei Juncheng, ten Xu Yixing were no match for him.

Xu Yixing showed a distressed expression, his deer eyes blinked, and he drooped slightly, the hair on his head was small, and his soft hair was raised in a sluggish way, his eyes looked at Bei Juncheng's white shoes, and he looked down. Low said, "Do we two have to talk in such a way of hurting each other?"

If you stab me, I will answer you...

He didn't want to quarrel with Bei Juncheng, and he didn't want the two of them to be so cold.

Seeing him suffering, how could Bei Juncheng feel better in his heart? He is very hard on other people's hearts, but he is neither soft nor hard to this person. In the end, what he got in return was a helpless sigh. The line of defense was removed, and he said, "Let's change the place."

He lifted his feet and walked to another road. Along that road, there was a grove in front of him. In the middle of the grove was a volleyball court with a concrete floor. Table and stone bench.

The tall and straight cedar trees go straight to the sky, and the dense fog mixed with the scent of pine diffuses in the quiet grove.The green grass on the ground is quite vigorous, even being stepped on every day, it still grows from the corner of the stone crevice.

Bei Juncheng's buttocks were leaning on the stone table, his two long legs stretched forward, forming a straight line, which looked particularly slender, the muscles on the sides of his thighs were slightly swollen, the lines were smooth, and he looked very vigorous. Facing Xu Yixing, he wiped the sweat off his face.

Xu Yixing looked at him and asked curiously, "How did you become so dark?"

Bei Juncheng, "..." He really admired Xu Yixing. At such a critical moment, he actually asked himself how he became so dark.

Suddenly took a deep breath.

But it's really a star.

Seeing that Bei Juncheng didn't answer, Xu Yixing slowly sat down on the stone bench next to him, raised his head and asked, "Do you think I'm still losing my temper with you?"

One tall and one short, one bright and one dark looked at each other with completely different eyes, Bei Juncheng looked down at each other, pursed his lips and asked, "Isn't it?"

Xu Yixing murmured, "I don't know if I'm losing my temper, but I really don't want the two of us to continue to quarrel and fight. If you think I'm losing my temper, then I won't. Is it okay to make up?"

He couldn't bear it, he couldn't bear the coldness of the two of them, every time Bei Juncheng was one centimeter away from him, his heart felt a little uncomfortable, as long as the two of them could reconcile as before, he could take a step back and act as if nothing had happened.

No matter how uncomfortable it was, it couldn't overcome Bei Juncheng's cold response and his hurtful words.

Bei Juncheng asked, "Do you want to reconcile?"

Xu Yixing nodded.

Bei Juncheng asked flatly, "Did you find that you can't take care of yourself well?"

Make up when you need him, throw people aside when you don't need him, and play with girls.

Xu Yixing's heart seemed to be pinched severely by someone, the pain was dull, and the blood on his face faded away. He took a deep breath, and his fingers kept trembling.

It was so cold, he had never noticed that Bei Juncheng spoke so coldly.

I don't know who said it, outsiders can never hurt themselves, because they don't care, only those closest to them have the opportunity to hurt themselves, because they care.

He stepped forward and took the initiative to hold Bei Juncheng's hand, his cold fingers felt the fiery warmth, as if this could bring him enough courage.

Bei Juncheng didn't tear it apart.

He silently looked at Xu Yixing.

Xu Yixing pursed his lips, and said, "Bei Juncheng, you can say that I am not good, that I am delicate, cry-loving, cowardly, and useless... But can you stop saying that the relationship between me and you is like this... getting along with each other... After so long, don't you understand what kind of person I am?"

Bei Juncheng gritted his teeth and said, "Then how did you repay me? Chatting with girls? Drinking tea together? It's you who said you don't want to talk to me, and you who said you don't want me to care about you. The good person is still you, why are you so changeable?"

Xu Yixing's heart aches, doesn't he?Every time he thinks about it, he wishes to overthrow everything, and even more wishes to lock Xu Yixing in a place where no one can find him, leaving him alone, he can only choose to stay with himself, and he can't go anywhere!

Why did the topic come back here again?

Xu Yixing said helplessly, "I was very angry at the time. I met Yu Qianrui, and she dragged me in..."

He didn't understand why Bei Juncheng cared so much about Yu Qianrui, and it didn't concern her at all, okay?

"She pulled you in and you went in?" Bei Juncheng asked.

Xu Yixing said aggrievedly, "She is in the same class as me, so I can't just ignore her? Or just ignore her with a cold face? I can't do things that are impolite or demeanor, but I really didn't talk to her. Be happy, all I was thinking about at the time was you, I only cared about getting angry with you, and I didn't care about other people."

Thinking of this, Xu Yixing blinked, clenched his hand, and begged, "Let's stop talking about this, okay, it hurts my head."

As long as he thinks of Bei Juncheng's attitude towards him, his head is as painful as being pricked by a needle.

He is so unprincipled, can you turn it over?Stop mentioning it!

Bei Juncheng said, "No, I don't like ambiguity." If it's someone else, it's fine to be ambiguous, but Xu Yixing, how serious he was before, now he cares so much. There is no tolerance for sand, and you must sort out everything before you let it go.

Xu Yixing bent down, leaned his forehead on the palm of the hand he was holding, and rubbed it lightly. Like this, he felt better, and said with a trembling voice, "I just want to be reconciled with you. If the two of you are good, just treat it as This thing didn't happen, it's as good as before, okay, Bei Juncheng, I beg you, really, I beg you."

No one has ever been so important to him. Once separated, it's like cutting a bone, and everything feels wrong.

He could bear all the grievances and accusations, and didn't care about them anymore. He couldn't imagine what he would do if Bei Juncheng continued to ignore him like this.

Bei Juncheng's heart was tightened in an instant. He touched the fluffy hair with his other hand, and suddenly felt the back of the person in the palm of his hand tremble and tremble.

Xu Yixing was afraid, afraid.

This is what Bei Juncheng sensed from him, how could there be such a bad physical reaction?

Bei Juncheng involuntarily moved his hand from his head to his back, stroking and comforting him gently.

The opponent's body gradually calmed down, like a cub opening its belly to him.

Bei Juncheng's voice softened involuntarily, and asked with concern, "Is it better?"

The head rubbed against each other and did not speak.

Bei Juncheng raised his head with both hands, revealing that pale and handsome face, and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Xu Yixing's eyes looked at Bei Juncheng warmly, his eyes were full of dependence, he shook his head and said softly, "Fortunately..."

Bei Juncheng heaved a sigh of relief, the hostility in his chest dissipated a lot, he said slowly, "Xu Yixing, I don't like to escape, things will always become a thorn in my heart if I don't talk about it, and I will go to bed from time to time." Please, let alone between me and you." What he wanted was pure things, and if it was mixed with other things, he would rather break it cruelly.

Bei Juncheng's inquisitive nature made Xu Yixing extremely nervous, his lips turned white, afraid that he would start to blame himself again as he spoke.

One of the consequences of this incident is that Xu Yixing will never dare to get angry with Bei Juncheng again, even if he is angry, he will not dare to say something that cannot be taken back if he spills it out.

Bei Juncheng asked from the source, "Why are you angry and unwilling to talk to me in the dormitory? Are you angry with me?" At that time, he felt so baffled.

Xu Yixing twisted his fingers, turning his ten fingers back and forth, as if they were going to be entangled together, he carefully replied, "Yes..."

"why are you mad?"

Xu Yixing glanced up at him, and mumbled, "National Day is off for seven days..."

Bei Juncheng nodded.

Thinking of the cause of the incident, Xu Yixing's eyes dimmed, and he opened his lips and said, "It's a holiday, and I think you have to spend the holiday with your family, so I didn't call you in the first three days, and I called you on the fourth day." Here it is, you didn't answer it...you didn't pick it up for the next few days..."

Bei Juncheng was extremely astonished, and wanted to take out his phone, but suddenly remembered that the phone was on the table and hadn't been taken out, he said blankly, "I didn't receive your call."

Xu Yixing blinked and looked at him suspiciously.

Bei Juncheng said quickly, "You didn't call in the past two days. I thought you were having a good time with your family and wouldn't call, so I didn't call either. On the 2rd, I went abroad with my family."

He never received it at all!

Xu Yixing, "..."

Bei Juncheng, "..."

Bei Juncheng asked, "How many did you hit?"

Xu Yixing was completely stunned by the truth of the facts, shook his head and said, "I can't remember."

After a while, he was very puzzled again, "Then why can I still get through on my side? The phone was turned off after the call."

Bei Juncheng didn't understand either.

The two looked at each other.

Xu Yixing felt that he had done something embarrassing, he covered his face, and moaned in shame.

After making a fuss until now, I realized that what happened back then was only caused by a small misunderstanding, and the other party didn't know anything about it!

Bei Juncheng suddenly realized, and immediately thought of the cause of the matter, and said, "Because the phone is not connected and I cannot be reached, so you have been worried about me for four days?"

Xu Yixing covered his face and nodded.

Bei Juncheng put himself in his shoes and thought about it. If he called Xu Yixing, but Xu Yixing didn't answer, then he would definitely be so anxious that he would come to the door himself. If he didn't know where the other party's address was, he would be even more worried. Countless guesses, when the school starts, rushing to the school and finding that the person is fine and happy, the worry will definitely turn into deep anger and burn the other party to ashes.

No wonder Xu Yixing ignored him.

No wonder he was so angry.

All this has the root of explanation.

Bei Juncheng frowned and asked, "Why didn't you tell me when I asked you yesterday?"

Xu Yixing put down his hand, showing a flushed face, and said aggrievedly, "At that time, I thought you didn't take me to heart at all and ignored me. I was so angry that I didn't want to talk about other things."

Bei Juncheng raised his forehead, and said frankly, "This is my reason, my problem, I don't know, and I haven't fixed it, I'm sorry."

As soon as he said sorry, Xu Yixing quickly shook his head and comforted, "Who knew there would be such a big oolong..."

The worried person comforted him in turn...

Bei Juncheng looked at Xu Yixing helplessly, seeing Xu Yixing nervously, and said, "You...why are you looking at me like this?"

Bei Juncheng felt uncomfortable for his innocence, and sighed, "But you said later that you wouldn't let me take care of it, it was really too hurtful."

Mentioning this, Xu Yixing shrank his neck and murmured, "Because I haven't packed anything yet and waited for your explanation, but you packed up your things and ignored me, so you became very angry at that time, and said everything, I'm sorry, I'm not Deliberately, how could I really not let you manage..."

"I've been looking for you for a long time since you ran out," Bei Juncheng said, "The school is so big, I can't find anyone with you anywhere, so I thought you ran out of the school, in a hurry."

Unexpectedly, there would be such a paragraph, Xu Yixing shrunk himself into a small ball, and said aggrievedly, "After I ran out, I didn't go anywhere, I just squatted under the tree next to me, but Yu Qianrui came out to see When she saw me, she found that I was unhappy, so she called me to the milk tea shop, and she said she would treat me to milk tea."

Then he hurriedly said, "But I didn't enjoy chatting with her! And I don't like drinking milk tea, I like drinking your sour plum soup. I don't want to say anything to her, but she talks a lot and is eloquent. , you also know me, I don't know how to reject her, I can only accompany her, and then I want to calm down, and when the anger subsides, I will talk to you properly."

Bei Juncheng lowered his eyes, and said, "I've been looking for you for so long, and my mouth is dry, but I found you and a girl sitting at the milk tea point, talking and laughing..." He was very angry, never before After being angry, he wanted to smash that milk tea shop, but he endured it and waited for Xu Yixing to come out, wanting to hear what he wanted to do!

"I couldn't understand a lot of what you said at the time," Xu Yixing said, even more aggrieved, "And you said it so badly, I was already angry, and you still said that about me, that I lost my temper, I was worried for so long , I can't even sleep well at night, I'm afraid that in case you have a bad temper, you hit me with the word "temper", and I was stunned."

Bei Juncheng opened his mouth to say something, but found that from Xu Yixing's point of view, he was indeed doing something wrong. The most important thing was that he did not expect this to happen, which caused Xu Yixing to be frightened.

After understanding the whole thing, he sighed and said, "I'm sorry, I was also very angry at the time, and what I said was really unpleasant. When I asked you later, you said that you didn't want to talk to me. I thought you had someone else Just comfort..."

Xu Yixing widened his eyes and retorted, "How is that possible! You are different from them! You are different!"

The two looked at each other, stunned at the same time.

Thinking of the difficult day yesterday, both of them felt sour.

"I am uncomfortable."

"Me too."

"I didn't sleep well yesterday."

"I know you touched me."

Xu Yixing blinked, and suddenly said, "So you haven't fallen asleep... Then you let me touch..."

"Your paws are so cold, it woke me up."

"That's a hand," Xu Yixing pursed his lips and muttered, "I took a cold shower yesterday, it was so cold."

Bei Juncheng frowned and asked, "Are you taking a cold shower?"

Xu Yixing hummed, and said aggrievedly, "Yesterday I only cared about you and forgot to bring hot water."

The wind was quiet, and the fog gradually dissipated a little.

Bei Juncheng took his hands and rubbed them for him, hoping that his hands would be warmer, and warned, "Your body is relatively cold, so don't take a cold bath again."

Xu Yixing was very well-behaved and obedient, and said softly, "Okay."

Bei Juncheng looked at him, closed his black eyes, and said solemnly again, "I'm sorry."

Xu Yixing looked at him suspiciously.

"I'm sorry." Bei Juncheng said it again, "I didn't think it through."

Xu Yixing shook his head, smiled nonchalantly, "It's all right."

How could it be all right.

Can yesterday be regarded as non-existent?

Bei Juncheng touched the slippery and cold touch in his hands, and blamed himself in a low voice, "It's my fault." If it wasn't because he didn't do a good job, how could there be misunderstandings later, and the root cause was him.

"It's okay." Xu Yixing didn't care, and smiled, "As long as we get back together, it's okay."

The little fool!How could he think so simply!If he hadn't taken the initiative to find out, how could the two of them communicate and understand the truth of the matter as well as they do now? If he hadn't found it, and he didn't know the truth of the matter, he would definitely not take the initiative to attack. He could only wait until time passed. The two slowly get along in harmony, but there will always be a gap in the middle anyway, reminding them of what they have posted from time to time.

If that was the case, he couldn't forgive himself.

He is not good enough, at least he is not good enough now, Bei Juncheng is deeply aware of this fact.

The mist dissipated, and the faint rays of the sun shone.

Bei Juncheng stood up and said, "It's cold here, let's go out."

Xu Yixing hummed, and walked out of the small forest beside him, touching his stomach while walking, and said, "I'm hungry, Bei Juncheng."

"go to eat?"

"I didn't eat yesterday, I didn't feel hungry before, but now I'm very hungry." Xu Yixing muttered puzzled.

"Didn't you eat yesterday?"

"I can't eat it."

Bei Juncheng took a deep breath and said, "No matter what, I have to eat."

Thinking of something, he added another sentence, saying, "You can't take a cold shower either."

Xu Yixing smiled, swept away the haze before, sunny and cheerful, and said lively, "Okay, I'll listen to you."

Bei Juncheng was taken aback by hearing this sentence from you, and then a little bit of bitterness appeared on the corner of his mouth.

There is a person who trusts him so much, he has to become stronger and more mature...

We must first grow to prevent the other party from being hurt because of him, and then prevent the other party from being hurt by others.

Bei Juncheng thought to himself.

Going to the cafeteria, Bei Juncheng ordered porridge, buns, eggs and soy milk, and the two of them sat down facing each other to eat.

Xu Yixing was really hungry, drinking the hot porridge, his tongue hurt from the heat.

"Hiss...so hot..."

Bei Juncheng hurriedly said, "Slow down, drink the soy milk first, and wait for the porridge to cool down before drinking it."

Xu Yixing let out an oh, and while eating the steamed stuffed bun, sucking soy milk, swinging his legs happily, he was very happy to see Bei Juncheng.

Bei Juncheng peeled the eggs for him, crushed the yolks with chopsticks, then poured them into the porridge, stirred them, and put them aside to cool. This is Xu Yixing's habit of drinking porridge.

He himself ate the egg whites and picked up a white and fat bun to eat.

He himself didn't eat yesterday. It should be said that he didn't eat all day yesterday. He flew all day and rushed to school as soon as he got off the plane. He didn't care about other things at all.

The two of them ate deliciously, especially Xu Yixing, who from time to time pursed his lips secretly enjoying himself, not knowing what he was enjoying.

After breakfast, the two walked back to the dormitory together.

On the way, Xu Yixing pulled up his sleeves, exposed his arms, pretended to be pitiful, and said, "Look, the one who moved the books was in great pain, and no one helped me."

Bei Juncheng touched the red mark, after a night's rest, the red mark has faded away, one can imagine how difficult it is for this little squeamish to move the book, take one step and rest three steps, he slowly explained, "I was staying in the dormitory It's not easy here, so I entered the classroom early."

"There is also a table. Your table and chairs are all ready, but I haven't found it after searching for a long time. I went to the small room to look for it, but I was squeezed out. Fortunately, the monitor helped me, and you were never there."

Obviously knowing his real purpose, I did deliberately put him aside at the time, who told him to say what he didn't want to care about, but now looking back, Bei Juncheng couldn't help but condemn himself deeply in his heart, why did he want to Complaining with the simple and pure Xu Yixing, I felt distressed immediately, and thankfully said, "Fortunately, there is a squad leader to help."

He told Bei Juncheng one thing at a time, trying to let Bei Juncheng know what he had experienced yesterday, but he said that he was depressed and said, "During class, you deliberately Move your chair away from me."

Bei Juncheng was embarrassed, and felt that his previous behavior was very childish, as if he was bullying a child, Xu Xu said, "I was also very uncomfortable at the time, when I thought of what happened before, I was angry, and I was afraid I couldn't help it, so I just I want to stay away, calm down..."

"Okay." Xu Yixing actually doesn't care much now, he just wants Bei Juncheng to share his feelings, as long as the goal is achieved.

"Not in the future." Bei Juncheng stood still and said into Xu Yixing's eyes.

"That's a deal!"

"Well, it's settled."

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