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"I was born in Hong Kong. Before I was seven years old, I was a second-class citizen of the UK. After I was seven years old, I changed my nationality and lived in London with my adoptive father. But I know that I am different from the people around me."

"I don't have blond hair, blue or green eyes, my contours aren't as deep as theirs, and I don't speak with a British accent. I don't think the looks and blood my parents gave me are things that can be demeaned by racists , but living in that environment, I still feel extremely lonely: the people around me, they may also like me and love me, but I know they are not my compatriots, not my kind.”

"When I was older, I went to the United States to study. According to the dormitory allocation principles of the American Academy of Drama, I had an Asian roommate, the director of "Disappear". Asians, more compatriots, I like them, and I like the ease of getting along with them. In 1996, for the first time, I chose to return to my native land regardless of the arrangement of my family.”

"My childhood memories in Hong Kong have been blurred. When I came to China, I didn't know anything about it. But when I saw the terminal building in Beijing and saw people with faces similar to mine in the airport, I was finally convinced: this is My hometown, my homeland. I love it here, I love it here, living in this city, this country, and I'm the fish that goes back into the water."

"But vaguely, there is a voice reminding me that my friends and I are still different. I was born in Hong Kong, and my nationality is in the UK. My name should be marked as a foreigner in the title of the movie. In a sense, I won the award overseas, not to add glory to China. Even my hometown, Hong Kong, is still under the rule of the colonists and has not returned to the embrace of the motherland. I eagerly hope that, like my elders and friends, I can be a real Chinese who is impeccable in every sense."

"Fortunately, my wish has finally come true recently, and my birthplace, Hong Kong, will return to China in July. The transfer of power and the change of leaders. I think the biggest regret is that Mr. Deng, who passed away a few days ago, could not realize his wish, 'to take a walk on the land of China---Hong Kong' , But this wish, he can't, thousands of Chinese, Chinese born in the mainland or Hong Kong can fulfill it for him."

"I was born in Hong Kong, and I am Chinese. The trophy I won is the honor of China, and it will be the same from now on. And I also hope that the Chinese descendants all over the world can be proud of their motherland. Because Today's China is capable enough to recover the territories lost due to poverty and weakness, what an honor it is to be born Chinese."

This kind of international film festivals often use English as the default for their testimonials. In Berlin, speaking German is acceptable, so that when Shen Qiao just uttered the first Chinese character, no matter whether he can speak Chinese or not, the people in the audience were dumbfounded for a long time.

Gradually, I heard his content clearly. After being shocked, some people even cursed directly in the audience.But more reporters and filmmakers who just listened to this speech as spectators still felt a kind of shock: he just won the best actor in Berlin, and he is the youngest double actor in history. His future in the international film industry can definitely be described as promising There is no limit, and it is absolutely reckless to deliver such a speech here.

The only explanation is that he doesn't care: he doesn't care about the impact of this speech on his future, he only cares about whether he can speak out for his country here.

Gradually, in addition to the Chinese who were almost clapping with all their strength, more audiences from countries and regions with a colonial history and even developed countries stood up one by one: no matter what the calculations of each country, "anti-colonial" After all, it is an internationally recognized moral high ground. When it has little to do with their own personal interests, most people still don't mind praising this young man's courage.

As the winner of the Best Actor, he made such a big move just now. The interview with Shen Qiao after the game was bound to be bombarded with long guns and short cannons. Zhao Wenyan went to the lounge early, and returned to the reporter together after Shen Qiao solved the problem. hotel.

After tonight, he himself could not predict what would happen to Shen Qiao.For real superstars, apart from works and awards, "starlight" is also a very important element. They must have sufficient influence, whether it is political or cultural.

As a filmmaker, participating in politics is undoubtedly a path with mixed reputations. If he were in Shen Qiao's situation, he would never make such a choice.But he knew that Shen Qiao's choice was definitely not because of the possible honor, but in his eyes, no matter how heavy the sacrifice was, it was worth it.

He poured a glass of water in the lounge, sat on a chair and drank slowly.After a while, a person sat next to him and greeted him in English: "Hello."

He turned his head subconsciously, and the blond-haired, blue-eyed French man handed him a business card: "I'm Jacques d'Estaing, nice to meet you."

After Shen Qiao dealt with the reporter, he was still in good spirits. According to the agreement, he went to find Zhao Wenyan in the lounge.Zhao Wenyan was waiting for him at the door early, and he didn't say much when he saw him, he just smiled and said to go back to the hotel first.

Shen Qiao didn't doubt that he was there, and she only talked about what the reporters said enthusiastically all the way.As Zhao Wenyan listened, his thoughts became more and more determined.

When they arrived at the hotel, the two of them packed up their things. Shen Qiao was about to go to bed after taking a shower, when Zhao Wenyan suddenly said, "Do you know Jacques d'Estaing, Shen Qiao?"

"The one who made "Iris"?" Shen Qiao was taken aback.

"Iris" is the famous work of Jacques d'Estaing. Zhao Wenyan lowered his eyes: "Yes. He is the judge of this film festival. He found me in the lounge."

"What is he doing with you?"

"Invited me to join his company."

"Why did you reject him?" Shen Qiao asked enthusiastically.

Zhao Wenyan didn't speak.Shen Qiao waited for a long time but didn't hear an answer, she couldn't help feeling a little weird, and her smile gradually froze.

"I didn't refuse him." Zhao Wenyan said slowly, "Shen Qiao, I want to promise him."

When she arrived at the entrance of the bar, Shen Qiao was still depressed.

Five days ago, he had a big fight with Zhao Wenyan because he wanted to go to France. When he arrived in Beijing, his brother-in-law was not at home. After meeting with his sister, he ran to Hong Kong again.

He originally wanted to go to Macau, but now he will be in great trouble if he is photographed involved in gambling.After thinking about it, I still came to Hong Kong.

Went to the corner of the bar to order a few drinks.It didn't take long for the wine to be served, but Shen Qiao drank a few sips but felt her mouth was full of bitterness, so she took a piece of toilet paper and vomited.

He really didn't understand why Zhao Wenyan went to France, and why he lost control of his emotions when he tried to persuade him.It wasn't that they didn't quarrel before, and they finally reconciled as before, but the terrible thing is, this time he didn't know what he did wrong.

He took out his phone, but Zhao Wenyan still didn't send him any message.The more Shen Qiao thought about it, the angrier she became, and she directly ordered a glass of vodka.

He rarely drank vodka, a strong drink, and didn't know how much he could drink when he did, but now he didn't want to care too much.

This time the quarrel was different from before.In the past, he knew that Zhao Wenyan would always find him to reconcile, and Zhao Wenyan would definitely forgive him if he took the initiative to apologize, but this time he didn't even know how he got angry, so naturally he couldn't be sure whether his initiative would end in reconciliation or worse.

What if he really wanted to leave and really didn't want him?

Shen Qiao has heard of many couples who broke up because they got together less and separated more, and some even broke up early because of this reason.Does Zhao Wenyan think so too?He was so determined to go to France that he wanted to piss him off in this way?

Luce is that good?Is Jacques d'Estaing that good?If love can be sacrificed for career, why didn't he stay in Hollywood back then?

The more Shen Qiao thought about it, the angrier she became, the remaining rationality told him that he couldn't drink any more, so she resentfully put down the wine glass and went out to have a shower.

The bar is built by the sea.Shen Qiao stood for a while, but still felt unable to swallow the breath.He took out his mobile phone and found that Zhao Wenyan hadn't sent him a text message, so he became even more angry:

His head was a little dizzy, and his eyelids could not be opened. It took him a long time to dial a number.As soon as the call was connected, before anyone could speak, he yelled, "Come pick me up from the SD Bar in Wan Chai! I won't be here in an hour...I'll jump into the sea and kill myself!"

He hung up the phone without waiting for an answer.He didn't realize at all how unreasonable it would be to ask someone to travel from Beijing to Hong Kong in an hour if he really called Zhao Wenyan.

After the wind blew for about 10 minutes, Shen Qiao felt that she should go indoors and wait.After all, people only arrive in an hour, and I will suffer if I wind here for a long time.He was drunk, his footsteps were a little unsteady, and it took him a long time to reach the bar.

Let's take a break.he thinks.It's okay to take a break when you're tired from walking.

In order not to disturb the business of the bar, he wandered off to the side not long after he sat down.The more people walked, the fewer people there, Shen Qiao felt as if someone was following her, subconsciously turned around and shouted: "Who?"

The man noticed that his whereabouts were exposed, but he didn't care.He took a big step forward and grabbed Shen Qiao violently. Before he could react, a pungent smell quickly filled his mouth and nose, and he passed out in the man's arms after struggling a few times.

The man carried Shen Qiao on his shoulders, took out his mobile phone and dialed a number: "We've caught someone, Boss Yuan."