three years old

As soon as the results of the college entrance examination were announced, the rush graduation season arrived, and the weather in Chengdu became hotter.

Xing Cheng hasn't had a holiday yet, but they have all reviewed at the end of the semester, and they have officially become senior high school students. They usually don't have many classes, so naturally they have a lot of free time to play with his brother.

Ning Xi couldn't see him like this, he didn't even read the book.

Staying at home every day, reading magazines and novels, and occasionally writing a few sentences, Ning Xi just pulled over and took a pen to trace those words, then tore off the paper and crumpled them into balls, letting them break into pieces.

For the whole three months, he still hasn't figured out how to live. He made an appointment with Xing Cheng to go to Aba Prefecture or Ganzi Prefecture at the end of July, and he also wants to go to the beach in August.

The school wants to give out scholarships, Ning Xi has the final say, the money plus some money from Xing Cheng's family is enough for the two of them to travel poorly.

He and Xing Cheng, he doesn't know how many days are left, emotionally, Ning Xi has never been an optimistic person.

In the past few days, he went to the school a few times to fill in the voluntary work. The teachers in the teaching office took turns doing ideological work for him. Even Ying and Chen were in Beijing, making several phone calls every day.

Over there, I’m having fun in Beijing, playing at home every day is not enough, calling friends and having fun, Ning Xi really can’t figure it out, why should Ying and Chen go to Sichuan University, after graduation, why not pay back Are you going back to Beijing?

"Don't be stupid, Xi, I know you've always wanted to be admitted to Peking University..."

Ning Xi coughed, "I'm still thinking about it."

Ying Yuchen was really angry: "What are you thinking about, have you filled out your volunteers?"

"Not yet, go to an Internet cafe tomorrow."

Taking another sip of grapefruit tea, Ning Xi liked the sweet and sour taste in his mouth. He licked the corner of his lips, "Don't worry."

That day Ning Xi read the admissions examination application for a long time, and seriously told his mother that he wanted to apply to Sichuan University.

With this score, he can study the best major in Sichuan University, and it should be easy to find a job when he comes out in the future. If he is in Chengdu...

Everything should be more convenient.

Before this, he never thought that one day, he would really be moved to choose a school because of his love.

When they were in their third year of high school, he couldn't understand why some girls and boys made decisions that would affect their lives because of another person.

Now he fully understands.

Although love is not the whole of life, traveling is his whole.

Going to Beijing means being separated for at least a year, maybe even four years.

At this moment, Ning Xi felt deeply powerless again.

Xing Cheng didn't know these things yet, so he was all thinking about how to bring his brother to relax.

You will inevitably be scolded by your parents, you see how many points you can get in the test, and then look at others, they will dump you eight blocks!

Xing Cheng was having fun while running, but it was rare for him to hear others talk about his brother, and he felt very proud.

There are two or three days before the completion of the volunteering. After school, I found a supermarket to buy ice cream, two cantaloupe flavored ones, and I asked the boss for ice packs. I hung them on the handlebars of the bicycle and walked through the alley. .

This year, Shizhong did well in the exam, with a particularly high repayment rate. The school leaders and teachers are in a good mood. During this time, the control over senior one and senior two has been relaxed a bit. Xing Cheng often looks out the window in class, looking forward to the summer vacation from the bottom of his heart.

Entering the room with two ice creams in his pocket, Ning Xi added a small electric fan next to him, whirring and whirling, blowing the corners of his admissions exam report.

He was lying on the table copying something on the draft paper, and the brightness of the small desk lamp was adjusted to the highest level, which could vaguely illuminate the white of his neck.

Xingcheng walked over and opened the ice cream and handed it to his mouth, "Hey, brother, why did you start watching schools in Hubei?"

"It's so sweet, from cantaloupe?"

Asked casually, licked a little taste, Ning Xi did not stop the pen in his hand, and answered him: "My mother's relative's child did not do well in the exam this year, let me help you look at the school."

Xing Cheng fed him ice cream and ate it himself, "Boys or girls?"

After marking the important points on the draft paper, he closed the pen and tapped his brother's forehead. Ning Xi feigned anger and said, "You are too strict."

Now I dare to eat any vinegar, I have nothing to do.

"Why do I take it easy, I'm so close to your age,"

Xing Cheng took a bite straight away, his teeth trembling from the ice, his sword eyebrows pressed down, and his aura was still a bit bluffing: "If you want me to say that this girl should work hard to take the Beijing exam again..."

Hearing what his brother said, besides wanting to scold him for being stupid, Ning Xi felt a little guilty in his heart. He didn't know how to tell Xing Cheng that he wanted to report to Sichuan University.

There are not so many high-sounding reasons, it's not that he can't leave his hometown, it's just because of traveling, it's just because he can't leave his brother.

After Xing Cheng finished eating the ice cream, seeing the sweet stains on the corner of Ning Xi's mouth, he leaned down and kissed him.

As if he suddenly thought of something, he asked Ning Xi while cleaning up the trash: "Your junior high school asked you to give a speech to the second year of high school, have you thought about what to say?"

Standing up and packing the plastic bag, Xing Cheng continued: "It seems to be Tuesday, I have few classes in the afternoon, so I should be able to skip a class to see you."

These days, he was also thinking about how to take a good look at his brother in this last time, how to fight a protracted battle, but he didn't expect that Ning Xi was also thinking about how to keep looking at him.

It's about life, it's about fate, it's about love.

But most of them are like this. When they meet the last word, they often get dizzy. The first two don’t need to think about it too much. They just say “let nature take its course”, but they don’t know that they have fallen into the quagmire. .

The boy who hadn't had time to take off his school uniform was carrying a plastic bag of ice cream sticks, wrapped tomato chips, and a small fan in his hand, smiling at him.

The veins on his wrists are clearly visible, and his tall figure vaguely casts a silhouette on the door frame, and even the hazy outline of his profile light outlines his temperament to the extreme.

Ning Xi never imagined that his little brother upstairs could grow up to be like this.

This appearance can make his heart beat countless times every day.

"Xingcheng, I have to tell you something."

Ning Xi thought about the beginning of countless confessions, but he didn't expect to be so cautious when he blurted out. He stood up slowly, put the bag of garbage gently at the door, and pushed Xing Cheng, who was stunned, into the room. close the door.

At such a moment, Cheng Cheng almost thought that his brother was going to say goodbye, his heart almost stopped for half a beat, he stood still and did not dare to move, the flames from the soles of his feet shot up to his head, his neck was red.

Grabbing a bottle of mineral water at hand, unscrewed the cap and took a sip. Ning Xi finally calmed down. His hand holding the bottle was trembling, "I want to report to Sichuan University."

When Xing Cheng heard it, he was stunned for half a second to react and confirm again: "Sichuan University?"

The body of the bottle was pinched and deformed, Ning Xi took a deep breath, nodded, "Yes."

It was as if he had been beaten to the head, and he was still a little unconscious. Xingcheng asked him, "Why? You can't get into Peking University?"

He knew that his brother had always wanted to study at Renmin University and Peking University. He also performed very well in the college entrance examination this time. It is logically impossible for him to pass this score. He also knows...

"As soon as I thought of it,"

Ning Xi said, "If I go to Beijing, it may be difficult for me to live alone."

These are all excuses, what Ning Xi wants to say is just one sentence, it's hard to see you.

It's a pity that he can't say such words, and he can't even imagine. One day in a foreign country, he can't see his brother's face, can't hug him, and even meet him is difficult. He has heard of long-distance love. Well, for a year or two, he really didn't have the confidence to keep Xing Cheng by his side.

This is a common problem of long-distance couples. It is too difficult to obtain a sense of security. If you can't persist in the end, the throbbing and love at the beginning will also disappear with the wind.

In fact, when Xing Cheng looked into his brother's eyes, he could guess a little bit.

Anger and uncomfortable feelings rushed into his heart, he didn't want to delay Ning Xi for half a minute, college is really enough to change his life for a child from a family like Ning Xi.

The fuse of the ride was about to be ignited at one point, but when he heard the phrase "life is difficult" his brother said, his heart softened all of a sudden.

"Ning Xi, listen to me."

He gently hugged his brother's shoulders into his arms, patted gently again and again, with a tone of persuasion and even coaxing.

"You go to Beijing to stay for a year. After I finish the college entrance examination, I will come to you immediately, or I can come to you when I have a vacation. The air ticket from Chengdu to Beijing is not expensive when it is discounted. I have seen it. It's only five or six hundred yuan..."

As soon as money was mentioned, Ning Xi fell silent. He had to think about the matter of making money to buy things for him by playing 'Black Ball' some time ago. This was simply a thorn in his heart, secret and painful.

Ning Xi was stiff all over.

He opened his mouth, unable to figure out his current mood, so he had to say slowly: "If I go to Sichuan University, it's very close, one or two kilometers away, and it doesn't cost money to ride a bicycle."

"elder brother,"

Xing Cheng said, "I know you because of me."

Subconsciously, Ning Xi let him go as if he was burning his hands.

Xingcheng didn't seem to feel it, as if he was talking to himself: "I said I would come to Beijing to find you, then I will definitely come and work hard to pass the exam!"

Ning Xi didn't say a word, but listened with frowns.

Cheng Cheng sighed, trying to calm down his emotions, raised his head and took a deep breath, clenched his fists: "Don't believe me."

It is easy to grab the hem of her clothes when she is nervous, and Ning Xi doesn't feel that her clothes are wrinkled at all. "One year, four years, it's too long."

He can't think so much, he can't think about what life will be like in the future, he only knows that he can't stand not seeing Xing Cheng for a long time, he can only see what is in front of him now, and he even wants to hold on tighter almost paranoidly, and hold on tighter.

Unable to explain anything else, unable to utter a thousand words, Ning Xi slowly let go of the hand holding the hem of his clothes, with the ice still on his face, gritted his teeth and said, "Going to university is my own choice. Peking University is not for me."

"But this is not what I want!"

Cheng Cheng said in a hoarse voice, "I want you, everything is good, everything is excellent, and I won't worry about anything..."

Including money, studies, family, and even relationships.

All his anger is now on his head, and his voice has become louder unconsciously, "If you want to affect your university studies because of this, then you don't have to accompany me!"

The thing he was most afraid of and most looking forward to finally appeared. He directly and forcefully affected Ning Xi's life, became his master, and even took over all of him, but this feeling was so painful.

Torture each other, influence each other, and grow each other, even if some steps are wrong from the beginning.

He took a sudden step back, watching the plastic bottle in Ning Xi's hand fall to the ground, bounce up, and roll to his feet.

"You can say that I'm not clear-headed, you can say that I'm too irrational now, but you can't,"

Ning Xi actually felt a lump in his throat, he gritted his teeth desperately to suppress the uncomfortable convulsion, and opened his eyes wide, "I can't say, you don't want me to accompany you."