A psychopath has a crush on me

Yu Qing was sitting in the driver's seat, the window beside him was wide open, and the cool night wind was blowing in, making one's mind clear. His gaze from the rearview mirror was deep and dark, as if hiding countless unfinished words.

The two brothers actually look alike, although Yu Pei gradually gained weight in junior high school, but when he was young, he was almost a copy of Yu Qing, even though they were not twins but brothers separated by ten years, even though Yu Qing looks more like Yu's father's toughness, and Yu Pei likes Yu's mother's gentleness, but as long as they stand together, others can easily know that they are two brothers connected by blood.

So Yu Pei has never understood why he looks more like Yu's mother, but in Tranquility Lan's eyes, he is not her child.

Yu Qing has always been very busy with work, and Yu Pei hasn't seen him for a few days, this time when he suddenly saw his familiar face, Yu Pei was stunned for a moment, and then suddenly startled, his forehead felt cold all the way to his back, and even his palms grew cold. Slippery and sticky cold sweat.

The first reaction was to wonder if Yu Qing saw the intimate scene between him and Luo Changzhou.

He originally wanted to walk to the side of the road and call Zhang Geng to pick him up, but the person who picked him up turned out to be Yu Qing somehow.

He's not ready to come out, and he doesn't know how to explain to Yu Qing that he and Luo Changzhou are together, and he doesn't know what to do if Yu Qing doesn't approve of him being with Luo Changzhou .

Yu Pei clasped his palms uneasily, and in the end he put on a weak smile on his face, and said softly, "Brother...why is it you..."

"Why, aren't you happy to see your brother?" Yu Qing looked at him from the rearview mirror, was silent for a few seconds, smiled with her lips curled up, and started the car.

"No." Seeing that Yu Qing didn't ask anything, Yu Pei thought he didn't see anything, so he breathed a sigh of relief, relaxed his tense body and said, "It's just that brother is usually busy, isn't he?"

"No matter how busy you are, you have to spend the weekend." Yu Qing smiled lightly, "Brother is not an iron man, brother can rest at home tomorrow."

The doubts in his heart gradually dissipated. When Yu Pei heard that Yu Qing would be at home tomorrow, he could have lunch with him, and the joy of reuniting with his relatives had diluted the previous panic. He also laughed and asked Yu Qing: "Really?"

"Of course it's true." Yu Qing answered him with a smile, her voice was very gentle.

He raised his eyes and glanced at Yu Pei in the rearview mirror. In the mirror, the young man had a smile on his face, and his pale cheeks were slightly blush because of happiness, which made him finally have a little freshness.

It's completely different from him who stayed in the nursing home before.

Yu Pei didn't stay in the nursing home at the beginning, he just lived in the hospital to recuperate normally, because of a severe asthma attack, his limbs had severe convulsions, and he was already in shock when he was sent to the ambulance. After staying in the emergency room for two hours, he gradually recovered. When Yu Qing went to see him, he was still lying on the monitoring bed with his eyes closed, with a monitor on his fingers and an oxygen tube in his nose.

At that time, he hadn't lost weight yet, and his fat body was stuck in the bed. His facial features were crowded with fat, and his lips and nails were a little purple due to lack of oxygen. To be honest, his appearance really made life difficult. How much pity.

Yu Qing only had time to take a quick look at him, knowing that he was out of danger, and left the hospital, leaving Uncle Zhuang to take care of him, and he had to deal with Yu's father's death.He had to deal with the police, because his mother, Tranquility Lan, replaced Yu's father's asthma aerosol, and Yu's father took away an empty aerosol—the aerosol that Tranquility Lan cheated from Yu Pei. .

Tranquility Lan only wants Yu's father to die, completely disregarding whether Yu Pei, who has no aerosol, will die with him when he gets sick. Perhaps in her eyes, this young man who is not her "son" will be worse if he dies. good.

Yu Qing still dare not ask Yu Pei if he had an asthma attack that day because he knew that Tranquility Lan had taken his aerosol.

That incident became a scar on their bodies that was exposed and insolent, bleeding thickly forever silently, and could not be touched.

With his mother on one side and his younger brother on the other, Yu Qing couldn't make a choice between them. Only after he watched Yu's mother being taken away by the medical staff and the police could he get out of his daze and go to the hospital to see Yu Pei.

However, Uncle Zhuang, who had been by Yu Pei's side all the time, told him that something was wrong with Yu Pei's situation.

Yu Pei has been very silent since he woke up, neither talking nor eating, letting the doctors and nurses play with his body.Uncle Zhuang wanted to forcibly feed him some food, but Yu Pei didn't resist, but he would spit it out soon after eating.

He closed his eyes most of the time, breathing so slowly that it was impossible to tell whether he was awake or asleep, and only occasionally opened his eyes when nurses and doctors turned his body.

So when Yu Qing went to the hospital to see him again, Yu Pei had already lost a lot of weight. He couldn't eat anything and only relied on nutrient solution to maintain the necessary elements needed by his body. Yu Qing and Uncle Zhuang hurriedly contacted a psychiatrist for him .

And the doctor's diagnosis is not optimistic. Yu Pei suffers from Cotard's syndrome, which is a relatively rare mental illness. Patients will feel that they are dying or have already died, and they will strangely perceive themselves Their bodies rotted little by little, and even gave birth to maggots. Even if they could occasionally open their eyes and move, they would only think that they were walking corpses.

As for why Yu Pei got such a disease, the explanation given by the psychiatrist is that Yu Pei may have suffered from severe depression before, coupled with the schizophrenia inherited from the Ning family, Yu Pei will suffer from such a disease In fact, it's not surprising—he probably thought that he had died during the previous severe asthma attack.

People who have never experienced an asthma attack will never understand what it feels like. When it comes, it is as if your lungs are stuffed with cotton, and your mouth and nose are covered with a huge plastic bag. You breathe with your mouth wide open. The air that can enter the lungs is getting less and less, and the limbs are also paralyzed and convulsed. The most frightening thing is that your consciousness can remain awake before you go into complete shock, and you will gradually feel that you are in thin air Slowly suffocating, it is a feeling of infinitely approaching death, and you are perceiving your death.

How much Tranquility Lan hated Yu's father would she choose to let him die in such a feeling, and what kind of despair did Yu Pei, who she didn't care about, think that she had died in the pain of suffocation.

Yu Qing hired countless top psychologists, no matter how busy the company was, she insisted on going to the hospital to see Yu Pei every night, maybe it was God's favor, Yu Pei's treatment was going very smoothly, his emotions were in various expensive situations. Even though the smile on his face and the unreasonable joy in his heart most of the time are not from his heart, they are just chemical effects produced under the action of drugs.

Yu Qing didn't want to see the smile on Yu Pei's face lost again.

After Tranquility Lan called him last night, he asked his secretary to postpone all the schedules for the afternoon and tomorrow, and went to the mental hospital to see Tranquility Lan.

Even though Tranquility Lan is not kind to Yu Pei, it can't erase the fact that she is kind to Yu Qing. As cruel as she is to Yu Pei, she is gentle to Yu Qing.

Yu Qing couldn't deny this mother, he invested a lot of money in the hospital, let Yu's mother live in a house alone, and even moved all the furniture and clothes that belonged to her in Yu's house to the hospital, just to let her Live better, other than that, he can't do anything else.

He didn't meet Tranquility Lan face to face, he just looked at Tranquility Lan from a distance through a window, accompanied by a nurse, she didn't notice his arrival, she just sat on the bed alone, quietly reading The photo album in his hand has a faint smile on his face, and the photo album is full of photos of Yu Qing, ranging from childhood to adulthood.

On the day of Yu's father's burial, Yu Qing did not shed a single tear, but watching this scene, he couldn't help but choked up.

But at this moment, looking in the rearview mirror, Yu Pei's face was still very pale after being raised for so long, and finally became a little bloody, Yu Qing found that she also had the urge to cry.

After watching Tranquility Orchid today, he went back to Yu's house, gave Zhang Geng a break, drove to pick Yu Pei home by himself, and specially set aside time on Sunday to stay with Yu Pei at home.

He waited for a long time after parking on the side of the road, the window was wide open, so he could see two boys walking towards the side of the road holding hands from a distance, and one of them was Yu Pei.

The two of them were talking and laughing all the way, not like ordinary friends, but more like a pair of lovers, Yu Qing told herself, maybe he was wrong, or maybe it was okay for the two boys to get closer before.

But after getting in the car, Yu Pei's pale face when he saw him undoubtedly affirmed the answer, and Yu Qing could no longer find any excuses for him.

It's just that Yu Qing didn't break it in the end, she just pretended not to see anything and talked to Yu Pei, why was Yu Pei worried that he would find out about this, isn't it because he was afraid that he would object?

In fact, Yu Qing has no intention of objecting, he thinks it’s okay for Yu Pei to like a man, the difference between them is different from ordinary lovers in that they will never have children, even after going through so many things, Yu Qing thinks it’s good to have no children , If you have a child, but the child inherits the family's mental illness, that is the greatest tragedy.

It is actually a good thing that Yu Pei can have someone he likes. What Yu Qing is more worried about is that he has no worries and no motivation to live, because the greatest despair of patients with depression is not that they cannot escape from the pain, but that they lose Without the ability to perceive love and be loved - because you cannot perceive love, all you can perceive is pain.

"A Pei——" Yu Qing thought for a while, and decided to tell Yu Pei what he thought, expressing that he would not have any objection, so that Yu Pei would not have to worry about it all day long.

But just as Yu Qing opened his mouth, there was a sharp pain in his temple, as if someone had hit him on the head with a hammer, making him dizzy and staring at him.

When Yu Qing shook her head to expel the dizziness in her mind, there was a strong and dazzling light in front of her eyes, and Yu Pei's anxious voice shouted behind him: "Brother—be careful!"