lotus carp

I am a girl.

A girl who likes another girl.

Zhuo Lian sat next to me, carrying a small basket to feed the koi in the pond.She often runs to Guangyang Temple recently, sometimes bringing her close maid, Cui Xiu, and sometimes leaving her alone.If it happens to be my ten-day vacation, the two of us can stay in my small yard for a day.

"How did you tell Master Liu and Mrs. Liu when you came to Guangyang Temple?"

"Let's just come to the temple to pray for blessings. Anyway, it's much better than I used to disguise myself as a man and sneak out." She stuck out her tongue nonchalantly, and the steps on her hair trembled slightly with her movements. "But...it's annoying recently..." She looked at me with a look of hesitation.

I was about to ask her, but Cui Xiu came running from a distance.

Cui Xiu stopped, gave me a little blessing, then turned to Zhuo Lian and said: "The auspicious time ordered by Madam is coming, please move to the Red Line Pavilion, Miss."

Zhuo Lian sighed inaudibly, and said to me, "That's what I'm talking about."

She didn't make it clear, but I understood.

Under the marriage tree.

She deliberately ignored Cui Xiu's disapproving gaze and the specially moved ladder, tied the red thread at a place within reach, tied a fancy knot, and winked at me again.

I know that she wants me to take off the red thread after she is gone. If I can't give her marriage, she will never seek marriage.

After sending her to the gate of the temple, it suddenly started to drizzle, and she sent Cuixiu to the temple to borrow an umbrella, and we finally had a little time alone again.

I asked her: "Master Liu, Mrs. Liu, do you know that I am a woman?"

She shook her head.

I asked again: "If a poor boy with nothing but four walls and nothing goes to Liu's mansion to seek marriage, what will it be like?"

She said quietly: "If I force you to die, maybe I might agree to marry you. As for other things..."

And as a daughter, I cannot hide my marriage.

I suddenly had an epiphany.

"What if that poor boy, riding a tall horse, with a black gauze hat and red silk flowers, came to propose to you with a marriage decree?"

"You mean..." Zhuo Lian was a little overwhelmed.

"Zhuo Lian, starting from tomorrow, you will stay at home and wait for me for four months. If I can come back, I will marry you, if I can't come back..."

"If you can't come back, I'll marry someone else immediately, and see if you dare not come back." Zhuo Lian was a little angry, "You must come back!"

"I will definitely come back. During the days when I'm not around, you have to be obedient." I looked up and saw that there was no one around. I finally stopped holding back and hugged Zhuo Lian gently.

"You are not allowed to hug other girls for the past four months!" She pretended to be fierce, but her tone was tainted with a layer of obvious crying, "You are not allowed to look!"

"Okay, okay, I only look at the little lotus flower on the sachet, nothing is as beautiful as that little lotus flower, okay?" I wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes and let her go slowly.I am familiar with the structure of Guangyang Temple, and I took the umbrella with the green sleeves. This meeting should be on the way back.

She also realized it, and straightened her expression so that Cui Xiu wouldn't notice anything strange.

After waiting for a while, Cui Xiu came back holding an umbrella, and I fixedly watched Zhuo Lian's moon-white figure drifting away in the rain, as if I wanted to carve this picture into my bones.

I often think of or dream of this scene afterwards.At that time, I didn't expect that this was the last time I saw her in my life.